On the weekend of mid-October 2009, we went to Martyr's Park to play, and when we were tired of playing, we went to the Lake Pavilion to rest. Gao Run sat on the railing and took a beautiful photo, and suddenly found that the high heels were hooked on the wood underneath, and she pulled it hard, and the whole person fell backwards into the lake. Yi Xu reacted quickly, took off his shoes and jumped into the lake. We ran to the shore to pick them up.

I said Zhang Hengli, you hurry up to the lake, Gao Run found out that her boyfriend didn't go into the water to save her, and she had to make noise. Zhang Hengli said, I can't swim, I don't dare. Zhang Yi said that he would come to this shore, not as deep as your knees. Zhang Hengli shook his head, I said I'll help you, and pushed him as he spoke.

Then I heard Zhang Yi shouting, "Damn, push away!" ”

Before I could react, a figure was smashed into the lake, causing a wave to stir up. Zhang Yi and I didn't expect the other party to push him at the same time, and we both used our strength to feed, but Zhang Hengli went to the draft.

Zhang Yi jumped into the lake and rescued Zhang Hengli. All four of them went ashore almost simultaneously. Gao Run was a little frightened after coming ashore, Zhang Hengli wrapped Zhang Yi's coat on him and hurriedly sent her home. Zhang Yi also took a taxi home, Yi Xu asked me to go with her, and she insisted on going back alone. I urged Yi Xu to hurry home as well, otherwise he would catch a cold.

Yi Xu looked at the back of the taxi and said, "Oh no." ”

Ten minutes ago, when Zhang Yi snatched the clothes that I wanted to put on Yi Xu's body from my hand, and the moment I draped them on Zhang Hengli's body, Yi Xu saw the look in my eyes when I looked at him from Zhang Yi's eyes. When Zhang Hengli changed hands and wrapped Gao Run with clothes, the momentary grief in Zhang Yi's eyes was also accidentally captured by Yi Xu, Zhang Hengli and they went from the lake to the taxi, and the tailgating, concern, and sadness in Zhang Yi's eyes were all in front of Yi Xu.

I sent Yi Xu home and laughed all the way. I think it's even more outrageous than a ghost story. How could Zhang Yi like Zhang Hengli? It sounds like breaking the law and marrying close relatives! Zhang Hengli almost drowned, Zhang Yi is nervous is human nature, friends who grew up together, what about the real friendship over the years, the two of them have a deep and close relationship, worried that he is a friendship and morality, as for love or something, it must be a misunderstanding.

Yi Xu didn't insist on it that day. He also hoped that he was wrong. Because he also paid attention to Zhang Hengli's performance, he didn't even look at Zhang Yi, and took care of Gao Yun wholeheartedly. Yi Xu was worried that if his judgment was correct, it would be a really bad thing - Zhang Yi was in unrequited love. Unrequited love is not terrible, Yi Xu himself has more or less had the experience of unrequited love, the terrible thing is that the person who is unrequited is called Zhang Yi, and the object of unrequited love is called Zhang Hengli.

After that, we both watched silently, and the more I observed, the more I felt broken. Zhang Yi always avoided the picture of Zhang Hengli and Gao Yun together, walked to the front, or sat in a row with them. She would deliberately talk to me or Yi Xu, but she couldn't help but look at Zhang Hengli. Those disgraceful eyes that are as cautious as thieves make me sad again and again.

I remember that once Gao Run heard Zhang Hengli say that Zhang Yi and I were not from Changsha, so he asked where we were from. I said redneck. Gao Run said let's go play together, the air in the countryside is good, the scenery is good, let's go camping. Yi Xu asked me gently, do you want to? I looked at him and didn't know how to answer, Zhang Yi reacted violently and said, no, she has only seen it on TV, and if she sees it with her own eyes, it will hurt even more! Gao Run asked, why is it hurt? Zhang Yi said it's your! Gao Run said, don't you go back to your country for the rest of your life? Are you going to forget your roots? Zhang Yi said, wait until Ye Xijia is particularly strong and strong!

She said that if she saw it with her own eyes, it would hurt even more!

But she still masochistically went out with us again and again, one second to escape, the next second to peek.

I have always longed for her happiness, but I didn't expect this silly girl to pin her happiness on Zhang Hengli, who couldn't help her achieve it.

I told Yi Xu that I always thought that Zhang Yi would like the kind of boy who is better than you, with all your advantages, talents and handsomeness, and much better than your grades, like herself. But how could it be Zhang Hengli? Yi Xu said, I don't know about girls, but Zhang Hengli lent her books in the second year of junior high school, helped her find her uncle in the third year of junior high school, signed the will for her in the second year of high school, transferred the house to her name in the first year, and did not want any stocks and shipbuilding investment funds in the junior year, and there were so many years of package tolerance, if a girl did it for a boy, probably any moment could be converted into love!

But I think those moments are just a deepening of friendship! Those stories are told to outsiders, and Zhang Hengli has indeed done many great heroic deeds. But in fact, he didn't become a hero because he was arrogant and upright! He is kind by nature, but he lent Zhang Yi books in the second year of junior high school, and helped her find her uncle in the third year of junior high school, so that Zhang Yi could help him with his homework. The sophomore in high school signed the will, and appeared in the hospital to chase the girl, and Zhang Yi begged for the will. As for the house and the money, he regarded it as a hot potato, after any hospital felt that there was a terrible ghost that Uncle Zhang Yi had become, after he turned eighteen years old, Zhang Yi had no money to transfer the house away, he urged her in the morning, urged her at night, urged her to meet and urged her, and reminded her to save money from time to time when she did not meet. Zhang Yi is so depressed, half of it is his credit. He was timid, he was afraid of ghosts, and he himself said that he didn't regard money as dung, he was very, very afraid of death.

I think for girls, gratitude turns into friendship, and love needs to be worshipped. My relationship with Yi Xu is stable, Zhang Hengli has been dumped a few times in love, Zhang Yi is much smarter than me, and she is much more independent than Zhang Hengli's ex-girlfriends, how did this love come about?

She has done so many things for the "boyfriend" of "If I have a boyfriend in the future", and she doesn't do anything to match Zhang Hengli! What can match Zhang Hengli's level is actually my kind of goods, strictly speaking, he is not as good as me, so he does not refuse, he has two girlfriends, he doesn't know each other, the girl confessed, and he became a boyfriend. What did she go to such lengths to do?

Zhang Hengli and Gao Run have been together for more than half a year, why didn't she say it at the time? Just say "let's be together", isn't it done? Although Zhang Yi herself said that "if the love is not strong, people will disperse", as long as her own love is strong, the two of them will not be dispersed, Zhang Hengli has no brains, no personality and no opinions, he is only dumped by others, never dumped people!

So we suspect that Zhang Yi also found out that he liked Zhang Hengli after Gao Run's appearance. It is even very possible that at the same moment, we pushed Zhang Hengli into the lake in a daze, which not only opened the eyes of Yi Xu's clear insight, but also opened Zhang Yi's turbid unrequited love.

I made up my mind to talk to Zhang Yi, hoping to guide her to confide in me, and I wanted to help her share some of the pain, so that she would not be stuck in her heart and become ill. I gave myself a month to organize my language, how to talk to her, and what kind of words to use to enlighten her without hurting her. Zhang Yi's character, if I rashly expose her, her self-esteem is so strong, and if she exposes her secret friendship, she will die, and my friendship with her may be retained, but her friendship with Zhang Hengli will definitely die.

I need to organize the language and find the best way to take into account her feelings, and after that, whether she admits to liking Zhang Hengli or not, whether he decides to continue to like Zhang Hengli or not, I need to be a channel for catharsis and a trash can for her to distract from later. How hard it was for her to live to be the way she is, I can't let her go back negatively. I also thought about the worst result, that is, she felt embarrassed, embarrassed, and frustrated, and never saw Zhang Hengli again! If she can broaden her eyes and go farther, open her heart, and meet some new boys, her future life will definitely be better. Is Zhang Heng's courtesy important? Of course it's important! But for me, it's just not as important as easy continuity. Zhang Yi should give herself a lot of opportunities to find her easy continuation!

Three weeks later, we went to Orange Island to play, and Gao Run suddenly asked Zhang Yi.

"Do you have a boyfriend?"

"Nope."

"Do you have someone you like?"

I shuddered when I asked this, but fortunately, Yi Xu gave me a shoulder and reminded me to calm down.

Zhang Yi didn't show the slightest panic: "No." ”

"Do you have any hobbies?" Gao Run continued to ask.

"Nope."

"Money?"

"Nope."

"Zhang Hengli said that you don't have parents either?"

Zhang Hengli and I said "wow" at the same time.

Gao Yun smiled a little embarrassedly, I thought she was going to rein in, but asked something even more immoral: "What do you have?" ”

The tone of these four words is particularly unbearable for me.

"You're sick, aren't you?" I yelled at her. That was the first time I had exploded in front of Yi Xu.

"Who are you scolding?" She stomped her foot and asked me.

"You're the one who scolds!"

What's wrong with Zhang Yi? You're going to scratch her heart word for word?!

"Why are you scolding me? What's wrong with me asking a question? What a common question? Are I sick or are you sick with such a glass heart? ”

"That's fine, it's your tone that's sick! Is this the contempt of the strong for the weak? Is this the question of the rich against the poor? Is this a look down on a person who has nothing to a person who has nothing? It's because you have more than her, and you have the right to speak, and you can ask her, 'What do you have?'" What's so remarkable about you to ask this question so arrogantly? She modestly said that she didn't have anything, so she really didn't have anything? She has good grades and gets scholarships every year; She is in good health, can play badminton and can climb mountains; She is good-looking, in good shape, most importantly, tall, and can cook good food, she has a house and investment in her name, and she may be richer than your family, you know? What else? Zhang Yi, what else do you have? ”

Zhang Yi answered calmly: "I just have nothing." She pointed at Gao Yun and then at Yi Xu, and then said to Gao Run: "I only have your boyfriend and his girlfriend." ”

As soon as these words came out, everyone was silent, and my eyes instantly wet.

After a long time, Gao Run smiled hesitantly: "This ...... This...... Did you get our consent? ”

Zhang Yi was very calm and said calmly: "You can't agree, when I met him, you didn't know where your nose was!" ”

I was secretly happy, thinking that this counterattack was so beautiful.

Then I heard her say: "Yi Xu is even better, when I met Ye Xijia, he was still wearing open crotch pants!" ”

Yi Xu originally put his arms on my shoulders in order to appease me, but when Zhang Yi said this, he trembled all over, embarrassed, and I hurriedly comforted him in turn: "I also wear open crotch pants!" and Zhang Hengli, his open crotch pants are still in his closet! like a baby! ”

"Hey!" Zhang Hengli yelled at me, he didn't want Gao Yun to know about this.

I didn't care, and shouted, "His open crotch pants are all pink and powder blue!" ”

Zhang Yi said that she just has nothing, she only has Zhang Hengli and me.

She asked me to revisit my plans to talk to her.

She is different from me, she has no family, no parents, and her world is only me and Zhang Hengli. If you lose Zhang Hengli, this is not the disappearance of a friendship, nor the collapse of a secret love, I think that throwing away Zhang Hengli, she can look at the outside world and contact other boys, the worst result is not even that after Zhang Hengli, who is one-half of her world, disappears, her world will shrink by half.

The worst-case scenario is that a knife is inserted in her left atrium, and the blood in her right atrium will also drain quickly.

This is the disappearance of the whole world, this is death.

The best thing to do is to not think of any way, I have to pretend that I don't know.

But I have begun to involuntarily isolate Zhang Yi and Gao Run. Gao Run asked five more people, and I shirked it and said that there was something to do on the weekend. If Yi Xu and I don't go, Gao Run won't call Zhang Yi. In order not to let Zhang Hengli find out about my escape, Gao Run agreed to go for dinner and movies at school every time I went for a walk. Gao Run's appointments are very frequent, and Yi Xu said that when he saw her from afar, he had the urge to turn around and run away when he saw her from afar. I suspect that Gao Yun asked us to let Yi Xu be her free videographer, Yi Xu doesn't like to be in the camera by himself, but he has a good camera, and has high photography skills, and usually shoots some landscapes. Gao Yun is good-looking and likes to take pictures, Zhang Hengli used to help her take pictures, but they were all ugly, and since she found out that Yi Xu has this talent, she can't stop.

On the evening of the first weekend of December that year, at the intersection of Huangxing Road Pedestrian Street, in the cold wind, Zhang Yi suddenly looked at the street lamp and said to me: "I had a dream yesterday, I dreamed that you were taken away by Gao Run, I pulled you hard, but I couldn't pull you back, I cried, and then woke up crying." ”

The wind blew our hair in a mess, and I asked her, "How did you have this dream?" ”

"I read her blog and saw a lot of photos of you together."

At that time, Weibo had not yet emerged in China, and blogging was still the epitome of social media online fashion. I know that Gao Yun has a blog, and she once or twice encouraged the four of us to open it, saying that it was very fun, and only Zhang Hengli listened to her. I don't know what her Weibo name is, Zhang Yi actually knows.

"I'm sorry, I'm ...... You and Gao Yun always quarrel, I'm afraid that you won't be happy to see her, so I'll see you separately. ”

"Oh."

"Do you think it's happier for five people to play together, or are you happier if you don't see Gao Yun and don't have to quarrel with her?"

Actually, what I want to ask is, are you sad to see Zhang Hengli with others or sad not to see Zhang Hengli.

She was silent for a while, and said, "If you're here, you can't win against me if you're there, and it's okay if you quarrel with me." ”

I joked, "If you two quarrel and quarrel and have feelings, will one day I drag you but can't drag it back?" ”

She shook her head and said, "I'm not you, and I don't want to see her without you." ”

We were 21 years old. 21-year-old Zhang Yi told me after we knew each other for 21 years about the weight I had in her heart. yes, I'm here! If she wants to see Zhang Hengli, I will take her to see her; She didn't want to see their intimacy, so I stood in the middle, or stood in front of her, and helped her cover up; I talk to her and distract her; Gao Yun quarreled with her, so I stood up and didn't let Gao Yun win! I am her most important friend, the only one I can rely on, and I want to support her, support her thoughts, and support her sorrows.

I still had a very naïve idea at the time, I thought that Gao Run, like Zhang Hengli's ex-girlfriends, would get rid of him soon. I even have an antipathy for Gao Run, and I am not used to seeing her everywhere. One day Gao Yun came wearing an orange dress, and I laughed at her, did you put all the ugliest paint in the world on your body? Gao Run's eyes widened, you are wearing the same color as me!

I even had the idea of breaking up Zhang Hengli and Gao Run, but I was killed by the rational Yi Xu.

Yi Xu said, Zhang Yi is your friend, Gao Yun is not someone else's relative? How innocent she is when you do this! You can't only see the trees, not the forest, you have to see what kind of person Gao Run is, she is really a pretty good little girl, although a little temper and selfishness, but they are all innocuous little flaws. She has a very atmospheric side, for example, she can accept that Zhang Hengli has such a good relationship with friends of the opposite sex. For another example, she quarreled with Zhang Yi, but never told Zhang Hengli that you are not allowed to see her in the future. Among the reasons why Zhang Hengli has been dumped many times, the existence of you and Zhang Yi and Zhang Yi's unlikability account for one-third of the proportion, and the vast majority of girls can't accept or tolerate their boyfriends having friends of the opposite sex like you by their side. The most rare thing is that most of the five of us get together, she took the initiative to make appointments. This girl, for our attitude as a group, is very commendable. She is very tolerant, and she knows how to be good to Zhang Hengli better than others. The love between her and Zhang Hengli cannot be evaluated by outsiders, but this girl is definitely a blessing to your friendship. Besides, if Zhang Hengli doesn't feel for Zhang Yi, even if you get Gao Run away, there will still be Zhang Run, Li Run, and Wang Run, and you will take each one away? Can you get it? Don't fail to fulfill Zhang Yi, hurt Zhang Hengli first, Zhang Yi is your good friend, and so is Zhang Hengli! Your friendship is important, and Zhang Hengli's love is equally important! No matter how deep the friendship is, you can only stand in the position of a friend, don't meddle in other people's love affairs, and don't cross the line.

For the first time, I felt a little negative about his calmness, rationality, and maturity. I hope that he will share the same hatred with me and curse Gao Run's love together, even if it is irrational, I also hope that my boyfriend can stand on the united front with me and accompany me to vent for a while. But he didn't, he was used to playing the role of taking care of me, preventing me from making mistakes.

It wasn't until I got on a plane to Germany nine months later that I had to admit that Yi Xu was right. Gao Run's previous girlfriends cherished their relationship more than Zhang Hengli, she insisted on calling everyone to play together, and she did not abandon Zhang Hengli.

I asked Yi Xu, what should I do with that dress, just do this sad unrequited love a flower? What can I do? Zhang Yi has such a strong self-esteem, and he doesn't like to make new friends, so he can only hand it over to time, and when he graduates, works, sees more, and the world becomes bigger, maybe he will naturally understand. You're still so young, what's the hurry?

Today in 2012, Zhang Yi used the contract to prove to me that as soon as she graduated, she liked Yixu. Gao Run also split his legs and abandoned Zhang Hengli. We were all wrong.

I locked myself in their finance room. At around 4 p.m., lawyer Ma called and said, "The prosecution has been examined." ”

I calmed down for two hours, called lawyer Ma back, and told him that I was going to Shenzhen, about three weeks, and if necessary, tell me as soon as possible, and I will rush back as soon as possible.

Easy to Continue:

Have all the letters been lost?

The review and prosecution have been prosecuted, and I am really so anxious that my lungs are about to explode.

October 2nd, 2010 at 17:54

Today I went to a winery with my classmates, it would be nice if I was there, you know how to taste wine;

November 19th, 2010 at 13:19

Tomorrow ten students, from ten different countries, we are going to have a dinner, each of them make a piece of food from their own country to bring over, what do you say I should bring?

December 23rd, 2010 at 23:26

The PARTY of the Europeans is not interesting at all, it is just drinking and chatting, in fact, there is no chat, it is so noisy, I can't hear what I say. I don't drink, it's boring.

April 7th, 2011 at 17:12

I'm on the roof now, and I'll show you the sunset!

June 20, 2011 at 12:09

I'm in the suburbs now, you see, endless green!

September 15th, 2011 at 10:01

I'm passing by the stadium in Hamburg right now, and if this were Milan, I'd go to see a Milan game for you!

December 24th, 2011 at 15:16

I'm listening to a charity flute recital in a church right now, and it's so noisy that I almost fell asleep, and I don't understand it at all! I dozed off and was caught by Funny, she said for the twenty-ninth time that she was going to sue me, I came to accompany her today to donate things to her church, to do charity! Do charity in the church she wants to sue me!

How many international students are very excited when they first arrive in Hamburg, the air is good and the greenery is good, and everywhere is a park! I can't stand it in less than a year, it's so quiet, it's like a grave! But I always smiled with affection and rain, and never felt lonely and bored. Even if you see a wildflower on the street that you haven't seen before, you can be excited and want to take a picture of you. Good and bad things, tell you, as if I have your eyes on me, to help you see the world on the other side of the earth. Because of that sense of responsibility, I was very attentive to observe the corners and corners of Hamburg, and the advantages and disadvantages of that city became something of documentary value between us.

I just copied a few text messages and WeChat messages that I used to send you, and there are thousands more on my phone.

Is it because these letters have not reached you, or do you not recognize me, who gave you messages before and now writes to you?

I'm sorry!

Whatever it is, even if it's just a word, can you give me a reply!?

It's a pity