That afternoon, when I came home from work, I was just about to take the key to open the door, and suddenly found a shadow in the corner.

Zhang Yi ...... Why didn't Zhang Yi go to Ireland? How did she ...... Why did you die on 12/10/12? Didn't she say she was going to Ireland to live a good life? ”

In the past few years, Zhang Hengli has not looked for a job again, and he has not been idle when he stays at home to recuperate. He started a business with the money that Yi continued to transfer to him one after another. Tangyuan also had three good friends who played games together and became partners. This is what I have always known, and Yi Xu has always been in contact with him.

But I now know that the game they developed is called "Two Lives * Clothes", and the story was written by Zhang Hengli:

The Yangtze River basin is becoming more and more polluted, clean water is becoming scarcer, and all fish are fighting for territory, and the cochineal and Chinese sturgeon, the two most powerful groups, have also become bitter enemies. The most beautiful girl with the highest mana among the cochineal fish is called Yi, and the ugliest and lowest status boy among the Chinese sturgeon is called Li. Faced with the dilemma of internal and external troubles, Yi's grandfather gave Yi the most precious water pearl in the Yangtze River, and turned half of Yi's soul into a human being, so that she could take the mission of the whole fish to prevent human beings from continuing to pollute the Yangtze River. When Yi transformed, Li Yin was accidentally swept into the huge waves, and was affected by the mana of the water pearl, and half of his soul became human. The clothes that turned into a human became a girl with an ordinary appearance and a lack of intelligence, and became a classmate of Class 02 of the Environmental Protection Department of S University with a tall, handsome and intelligent gift. In this way, Yi and Li have two kinds of lives and two relationships: one is the opponent in the Yangtze River; One is classmates who study together on land. The two lives still affect each other, and the human body is injured, and the fish is also injured at the same time. If a fish dies, its life as a human will also disappear at the same time.

In my sophomore year, Yi Xu told me that if you repeat what you are interested in, you will become a specialty. Zhang Hengli will continue to do his specialties and continue to do it, and he will definitely be able to achieve his career.

If Zhang Yi is still alive now, she will finally be able to believe my words: Zhang Hengli is stronger than we know.

Due to trade secrets, in the manuscript that Zhang Hengli showed me, there was only an overview of the line of clothes and rites. Between clothes and etiquette, there is no love. Rite is just a supporting role.

Yes, how did he know that there could be love between clothes and etiquette? How did he know that Li Xiangyi had always been the only male protagonist?

Let Zhang Yi become the protagonist of his game, it is Zhang Hengli's gratitude to Zhang Yi for leaving him 200,000 yuan, his miss for Zhang Yi who is far away in Ireland, and his congratulations to Zhang Yi who finally achieved happiness......

He hoped that Zhang Yi, who was determined to go to another country and never look back, would one day see this game in a corner of Ireland and know his concern, and it would be best to start playing a game.

So before the completion of the game's open beta plan, he edited out the line of clothes and rites separately, and he wanted to fly to Ireland and give this surprise to Zhang Yi personally. I want to see Zhang Yi in such a hurry, and because he is getting more and more worried, worried about Zhang Yi's temper, if he and I disappear from this earth, the people who can tolerate her will be extinct, can her husband be good to her? He was afraid that she would suffer, but he had nowhere to say......

So he found someone and found out where she was. Yi Xu can find his father, who has disappeared for more than 20 years, and he is very confident that he can find Zhang Yi, who has only been away for four years.

The person he was looking for soon found out that Zhang Yi had died in December 12. December 10, 12 is the time when Zhang Yi's death is registered. Zhang Yi's adoptive father took the cremation certificate from my father, and he just wanted Zhang Yi to disappear from his family's household registration book as soon as possible, so naturally he would not be careful enough to explain that the time of death was not the time of cremation.

In this way, Zhang Hengli would never have thought that Zhang Yi died in order to donate a kidney to him, and his operation was done on December 8 of that year.

Zhang Hengli, the specialty is yours, and the career will be yours, but the wishes related to Zhang Yi have all been taken away on the roof of the building on December 8, 12.

Forever in vain.

There is also a truth,

Never tell.

"It was an accident, a car accident." I say. Four years have passed, and I can finally talk about Zhang Yi calmly.

"She buried ...... Where is it buried? ”

I took Zhang Hengli to Yi Xu's house, and before Yi Xu went abroad that year, he persuaded me to put Zhang Yi's ashes in his guest room. He was trying his best to repair the pain of losing his mother, and I couldn't go home every day to sleep and see the urn and be deeply grieved by Zhang Yi's death.

As soon as he saw Zhang Yi's ashes, Zhang Hengli cried. He stood there, trembling and touching the altar, tears and snot dripping on the table.

"She died so suddenly, I don't know where she wants to be buried." I say.

In the past four years, my parents have urged me, saying that it is safe to go into the ground, and people must be buried when they die. But Zhang Yi told me on the bench that night that there was no place in the whole world that could make her fall asleep.

In her life, she has too many regrets, no parents to honor, no career to climb, no love to rely on, and she doesn't know where to be buried when she dies, so that her soul can be at peace.

I always knew that the place she wanted to go was the place Zhang Hengli wanted her to go.

"That'...... The Irishman, no, the Irish nationality...... of the Chinese, her boyfriend, doesn't he know either? He asked me with tears and sobs.

"That man doesn't qualify. He doesn't love Zhang Yi enough. Where Zhang Yi goes, who loves her decides. ”

"Then why don't you decide? It's been four years! ”

"Don't you have any suggestions?"

"My suggestion is for you to decide!" He said, "Who knows her better than you?" ”

I stared at his waist and nodded, Zhang Yi's kidneys were there, she left a little trace of life, a miracle that accompanies her in this life.

On December 17th, Yi Xu picked me up for dinner, and there was a long queue at the restaurant that Lin Musen introduced him, and we decided to settle it at the café next to it. After the set meal, the waiter asked if I wanted something to drink, and I ordered two cappuccinos.

"Have you figured out where Zhang Yi is going?" Yi Xu asked me suddenly.

I shook my head. After looking at several cemeteries, I either felt too noisy or too biased, either I felt too ordinary or I was afraid that Zhang Yi would feel too unfamiliar, and I didn't feel worthy of her anywhere.

"Is it that hard?"

"What about your mother?" I asked him.

"Am I having a hard time, too? So you deal with Zhang Yi first, what if I can get a little inspiration from you? ”

"Oops, hey!" I exclaimed, "What a day! You're going to rely on me to find an answer! ”

"Don't get too happy!" He smiled and said, "I helped you find the idea, but I don't know if you want to follow my train of thought to find the answer!" ”

"Tell me!"

He handed over a card and said, "Gift." ”

I was pleasantly surprised to open it, and there was an address written on it: Huarong County, Yueyang City

My hometown.

Zhang Yi's hometown.

Our hometown.

My mind was empty for at least ten seconds before I reacted and asked, "How do you know?" ”

"Guess!"

"I never told you! What did Zhang Yi say? More unlikely! Zhang Yi is more sensitive than me, Zhang Hengli doesn't even know! ”

He stroked the broken hair on my forehead and said, "The first time I saw Zhang Yi, she said that a flood in '98 flooded your hometown. The first time we kissed, the time of Hunan cuisine and Sichuan cuisine, you said that you were an authentic Hunanese. In other words, your hometown is likely to be in the northern part of Hunan in the Yangtze River basin. The day we agreed that I wouldn't ask you about your hometown and you wouldn't ask my father, you said that the worst thing in your life happened in your hometown. There are two kinds of tragedies caused by floods – the loss of lives and the destruction of homes. I asked you if you had any relatives who died in natural disasters during the Ya'an earthquake that year, and you said no. That is the loss of a home. You and Zhang Yi's temperament, if the damage is not permanent, will not play this kind of hypocrisy, so the home was destroyed and has not been rebuilt to this day. After the flood receded in '98, some of the post-disaster work done by the government included raising and reinforcing embankments, building sub-flood storage areas, building flood control reservoirs, strengthening soil and water conservation in the upper and middle reaches of the Yangtze River, and improving modern flood control technology. When I was reading about the Dongting Lake Pingyuan Flood, I saw a place called Chengyuan. I suddenly remembered that Zhang Yi, whose Mandarin is better than 90% of the people in Changsha, usually speaks in a straight and round manner, but once the company was preparing to develop a project, so she collected information on integrated circuit chips, and when she made a feasibility report at a meeting, the word "integration" was brought over with a very strange sound, and no one could understand it. I thought she was nervous, but later I found out that only this one word is not standard Mandarin, nor is it Changsha dialect, that is, it is your hometown dialect. ”

I said "integration" in my native dialect.

"Yes." He nodded and said, "When I saw the three words 'integrated wall', I immediately understood the reason why she only had this one word and couldn't say it well in Mandarin." ”

"At the beginning, for Zhang Hengli, Zhang Yi and I cultivated the habit of speaking Mandarin even if there were only two of us, people who grew up together since childhood, suddenly changed the language to communicate, it was very embarrassing, but we also overcame, in order not to make Zhang Hengli feel excluded. Only when there is talk of 'integration'...... Oh, you see, I have this problem too. ”

"This word is almost not used in Mandarin chats in ordinary life, so it is inertia for you to say it like this."

I held up the card: "This is ......"

He took my hand and asked, "Do you want to send Zhang Yi back?" ”

I was stunned for a while: "The fallen leaves are my own thoughts, and Zhang Yi is different from me." ”

"But your choice is Zhang Hengli's choice, and Zhang Hengli's choice is her choice. The two of you have the same idea, isn't Zhang Hengli the equivalent between you? He said.

I thought about it, and there was some truth in what Yi Xu said. But Zhang Yi said don't let me go back, she said that she would hurt more if she saw it with her own eyes, I saw her jump from the top of the building, saw her blood on the ground, saw her stiff body into the stove, and saw her turn into ashes when she came out...... These images will never, ever be erased from my mind!

I shook my head, timid.

I really, don't dare to go back.

The waiter brought me a cup of cappuccino, and I suddenly saw a white cloud in the gray sky, the same cloud that had appeared many times in my dreams!

In a dream, I found out that it was a cloud from my hometown! It's a cloud that "integrates the wall"! It's the cloud I wanted to take in that dream and send it to Yi Xu!

When I returned home, as soon as I entered the coffee shop, I ordered a cappuccino. It's not that it's 50% milk, sweet enough or not enough to keep me awake at night, and it's not that I somehow came back to Changsha from Hamburg and had a crush on it. What I love is the layer of foam on top of it!

That's what hell looks like, Grace said. For me, it's the appearance of missing!

It's because of the concern for Yi Xu that I didn't count it, so I had those dreams like serials!

This cloud of "integrated walls" keeps appearing in my dreams because of Yi Xu. The last time I linked Yi Xu to his hometown was in the spring of the second semester of my freshman year, in Zhong Pei's dormitory. That poem, that puzzle, that picture, Yi continued, it was a misunderstanding.

That's not a misunderstanding, that's a love connection!

It is my subconscious projection of the ease of love and the hometown of love onto each other!

Once upon a time, he and I were connected from my hometown. Now, his connection to his hometown has pulled me from my dream to reality.

I don't have the courage to go back, but I have to go back, for Zhang Yi!

What does it matter if you lack courage? Easy continuation is my greatest courage!

This time, my connection with my hometown is fulfilled by him!

"Come back with me!" I say.

Yes, even if it's not for Zhang Yi, I want you to accompany me back to have a look!

I called Zhang Hengli and told him that I was going to send Zhang Yi back to his hometown, and asked him if he wanted to send it together.

An hour later, he went to Yi Xu's house, hugged Zhang Yi's ashes altar tightly, and stood there for half an hour, he must have said a lot to Zhang Yi in his heart.

"I'm not going." He said, "I can't bear to look at it." ”

There are so many life and death in this world every day, we are like a few tiny specks of dust, and our life and death, joy and pain, are not worth mentioning to the big world.

But it happened to me, the cone pierced the heart and lungs, and the pain was flesh and blood.

I walked over and hugged him tightly, hugging the most cherished friend that the world had left me.

We've known each other for years, and we've never given each other such a serious hug.

"Zhang Hengli, that winter, you knocked on the door of my father's office tremblingly, it was the luckiest moment in my life - you brought yourself and Zhang Yi to me."