finally typed the words "the full text is finished" on the computer screen, and at this moment I really had mixed feelings in my heart.

Xiao Lou was originally just a work for self-entertainment, but at that time, seeing that Taixu had to end the article in a hurry for various reasons, he was extremely depressed and sad, so he wanted to steal the time to write another style of article and change his mood.

And the reason why the article is posted is only because of a bad taste that wants to fool the reader. Just imagine that the day before there were still many people sighing for Fang Qingchen's death and Chu Ruohong's madness, and the day after that, everyone watched the confrontation between Zhang Minxin and Fang Qingchen in the small building in amazement, and then shouted that I had been deceived in my feelings, and I would snicker wickedly in front of the computer.

At that time, I wrote Xiaolou just to make myself feel more relaxed and happy, and I wrote Xiaolou just to scare readers with bad intentions. So, at first, it was just quietly posted, quietly updated, no publicity, no advertising, no attempt to attract more people to come and see. The original plan was just to write casually, and when one day I couldn't write it anymore, or I didn't have time, I just put it down quietly.

However, how fortunate I am that Xiao Lou can have the opportunity to publish, Xiao Lou can sign a contract, Xiao Lou can occupy a place on the monthly pass list every month, and Xiao Lou can get a ranking among the most popular works at the end of the year. Xiaolou has a lot of interesting animal anthropomorphic photos,Xiaolou has a lot of beautiful songs,Xiaolou has very beautiful photos,Xiaolou even once had a small game,There was a "Blue Blood Hanqing" made with thunderbolt characters,The most important thing is that Xiaolou has countless comments and homo people,Open Xiaolou's directory,Often half a day can not display the page,Because there are too many comments and fandom in it,So much so that even if the text ends,It takes a long, long time to update the same people and comments.。

There have been many, many very high-quality discussions in Xiaolou. During the most eagerly time of the discussion. I have shown off to others more than once, of course, Xiaolou is not the best work of female frequency, but Xiaolou's discussion area is definitely one of the best discussion areas.

Along the way, I got a lot through the small building. At this time, I should be grateful for this platform given to me, and I should be grateful for affirming Xiaolou, helping me sign a contract, and always supporting my dragon. and later the editor-in-charge, and the readers who gave me the greatest support, however, no amount of thanks can be enough.

Xiaolou is finally over, and the years that have accompanied Xiaolou all the way will gradually fade away, however, there are many, many things. But it has always been remembered in my heart and will not be forgotten.

I remember that when Xiaolou was first unknown, it was readers who wrote comments one after another, ensuring that Xiaolou was always on the review list on the homepage. I still remember it. When the comments were the most, the entire list was brushed down, and half of them were comments from Xiaolou. I always believe. Xiaolou's popularity initially relied on so many readers, little by little for me to gather, because of their efforts, Xiaolou gradually became known to more people, and Xiaolou had the opportunity to publish.

I remember that I didn't rely on the positioning of the small building anywhere, the structure was too special, and there were many protagonists. And when you have no confidence in Xiaolou. It's the editor I've known for many years, tell me. I hope to be able to sign Xiaolou, which makes me happy, and I finally have confidence in myself and Xiaolou.

I remember, I once wrote Xiaolou to write passionate, mood like a tide, all kinds of plots in my heart can not be written, I have been unable to stop the years, the most exaggerated time I wrote more than 10,000 words in one night, until two or three o'clock in the middle of the night, can stop, and then wailed back pain and ten finger cramps, the next day slept until noon, and the whole body was soft, since then I believe that a familiar author in the past said in the afterword that rushed to the hospital to get a hanging injection, it turned out to be true.

I remember that when I wrote the death of Han, I wrote it in one breath, and then I was in a daze at the computer, and before I had time to post it to abuse readers, I was so sadized that I felt a lot of pain in my heart, and I had to rest for many days before I could gradually calm down and write again.

I remember that when the female frequency began to implement the monthly ticket system, I had no sense of competing for the place because of my extreme lack of confidence in myself, and it was many, many readers who kept encouraging me, urging me, reminding me, and supporting me, so that I had the courage to try to fight for it. Then month after month, watching Xiaolou stay on the monthly ticket list, I know that there are really so many people who have always recognized me, even if Xiaolou has so many mistakes and so many shortcomings, however, there are still so many friends, while unceremoniously admitting my mistakes in the group, and vigorously smashing bricks at me in the discussion forum, but still voting for me in the monthly ticket. **.com starter**

I remember the female frequency's "Shining Female Lead" activity, just because there was a talent show rematch, so I was whipped and stiffened to compete, and then after passing the preliminary round, I was incomplete, and I recorded the "Stepmother's Song" prepared for me over and over again in front of the computer In order to eliminate the noise of the microphone, I, a computer idiot who can only type, actually recorded the song with my head covered and headphones covered, sweat, this miserable song, after the logistics of the reader's hard work, can really see people, There are really a lot of friends who say that it doesn't sound too bad.

I remember that when there was a dispute over the small building publishing, many friends were trying to find a way to think of it, and there was a seriously ill and hospitalized reader, who was still on the phone for me, looking for people to consult on law and publishing.

I remember that the elders in my family were hospitalized for surgery, and I was in the hospital every day, very tired, and I didn't have much energy to write Xiaolou. Many readers have told me not to rush to write, but to take a break. Sometimes I see that I am still insisting on updating, and I have to lose my temper in the group or in the discussion forum, saying that I don't listen to advice and don't pay attention to my body. At that time, a friend laughed and said that he should come here to see the wonders, and in other places, readers scolded the author for not updating, and here, there were readers who scolded the author for updating.

I remember, at that time, many, many readers worked hard to write articles and reviews, telling me that even if I didn't have time to write articles, the fans and comments of the public version of Xiaolou would not stop changing, and the popularity would not disperse.

I remember that I was not in good health and was very busy during that time. I want to stick to the days of writing again. The quality of my articles is far from what it used to be, however, it has given me the greatest and longest help since I wrote Xiaolou.

At that time, Brown told me that he was willing to help my school manuscript when I was in trouble, find errors and omissions, and make up for the shortcomings. Then, this temporary help. It has been going on, helping me to improve my writings, helping me sort out my thoughts, helping me find my shortcomings, and helping me make up for my mistakes and omissions. Although it is usually just a chapter a day, day after day, it is a long and huge work, day after day. Never stopped, never gave up. And in addition to the article, he has helped me in many other ways. Knowing that I'm confused, knowing I'm forgetful. Knowing that I had a lot of maddening shortcomings, I began to take over a lot of things that should have been done by me. Help me get a monthly pass. Help me keep an eye on the time it takes to calculate the perfect attendance award, help me manage the discussion board, and help me answer readers' questions. If there are any new policies for women, they will help me pay attention to them, and if they have any benefits, they will fight for me. He also instructed me on how to regulate my body during pregnancy and how to take care of my baby after I gave birth. I can't count the help I've ever been given. And I'm under such love. More and more comfortable being lazy and confused. Whether it's in a group or a discussion forum. Even in the female frequency author editing group, everyone gradually knows that it is more useful to find Lao Zhuang than to find Brown in Lao Zhuang's affairs. When I attended the annual meeting last year, even the editor and the author accused me of having such a universal secret, which was outrageously happy.

I remember a lot of things. The first time I signed a contract, the first time I got the manuscript fee, the first time I won the top three monthly passes, and the first time I saw Xiaolou become a entity. The first time I knew that someone sang a song for Xiaolou, I smirked and listened to it over and over again, and the first time I saw someone make up a game for Xiaolou, so I played clumsily, but I couldn't get through it all the time. I remember the appearance of Baidu's small building, I remember the collection of pictures drawn by readers for the characters of Xiaolou, I remember that the dragon told me that someone did it for Xiaolou, and I was anxious to see the pictures, and the clothes were really beautiful.

I remember so many and so much, but I can't remember clearly, when did Xiaolou start writing the ground, and I deliberately went to check the earliest Xiaolou sticker, and the publication date was June 06

I looked at the sun in a daze, it turned out that it was only less than three years, but I have gained so much, experienced so much, in a trance, I always feel that this should be a long, long time. xxxx first x hair x

Pull open the drawer under my dresser, more than half of the necklaces and jewelry are gifts from readers, when I was pregnant, the protective clothing I wore was also sent by readers from thousands of miles, when I attended the annual meeting, I happily brought a beautiful leather bag, wallet, parasol, necklace, Lele Hehe went to show the readers in Shanghai, so who gave it, and who gave it to whom.

So many friends, some people come and go, some people rarely appear, but they are always there, some people seem to be always online, anytime and anywhere, they will appear immediately, even if they no longer look at Xiaolou, they are still friends.

Xiangyingsleeve, who was the first to build a group for Xiaolou, owed me eighteen reviews of the jade, and when he was in Shanghai, he had been taking care of my Yi'an and Zi, and every time he saw me, he smashed bricks in his face for a while, but every day he gave all the recommendation votes to my shade. I like to change the vest the most.,As long as I don't report my home, I'll never recognize Uncle Dishui.,I've known since I wrote too little.,Very young and too positive.,But the article is so good that it makes me red.,The level of progress makes people gnash their teeth.,And the black panther who is always used by everyone to pair with him.。

When I was engaged in activities, I spent a hundred oceans to buy blessings for me, but M, who made me feel terrible pain, knew that many of the functions I had been depressed were inconvenient, and quietly paid to help me upgrade to a member's bud......

There are many, many authors who intersect because of the text. The literary accomplishment is so good that I admire, and the willow eyebrows that can be written out of the exit can be written, the initial relationship is because when Han died in the prequel, there was a voice of criticism of Di Fei, and her fair commentary, and then intersected so far, when I got married, the couplet on the door was blackmailed to the eyebrows.

Very enthusiastic and very kind, has always been very good to me Mengning, once in order to support me and in the article asked all the readers who voted for her to vote for her, save the vote and vote for me. In fact, before we met and intersected, I had been quietly following the Three Kingdoms she wrote for a long, long time.

The speed of writing is so fast that I am envious to death, and the quality has always been very good, and I finally saw the real person at the annual meeting in Shanghai, and I feel really happy.

And also......

And also......

Many, many people, readers and authors and editors who intersect because of the text. Everyone. Every kindness, every bit of happiness, has always been in my heart.

Because of Xiaolou, I have received so much love, so much love, so much happiness, even if it is blame and criticism, it is also because of the depth of love. Sometimes I don't even want to end the small building. Because I was afraid of such excitement and love, it finally gradually dispersed.

Because I am afraid of being lonely, I am afraid of being forgotten, I am afraid that those old friends will be gone, because I am not confident, and I am not sure. In my next article, I will have the opportunity to get the same recognition, gather the same popularity, and have the same support and love.

Eventually, he gradually lost his normal heart. Xiaolou's story gradually unfolded, but I lost the relaxed mood when I wrote a novella like "Laughter and Light Dust", and the more I deliberately wanted to write it well. The more I feel that it is always counterproductive. The more you pay special attention to the reader's opinion, the more susceptible it is to influence, many plots are constantly changing, and the characters are gradually becoming a little inconsistent. The story is written in a mess, but it's actually because of the heart.

Day after day, every day, gradually can no longer have a clear mind, into a bamboo in the chest. The days go on and on. The fatigue finally showed itself.

Xiaolou's shortcomings that were originally covered up by fresh bridges and strange characters. One by one, they were exposed. How to grasp the multi-protagonist storyline is beyond my ability now. With the unfolding of the Fengyun chapter, the ease with which I used to write a single article and the smooth operation can no longer be found, and the writing is gradually stagnant and monotonous, becoming more and more lengthy and procrastinating. I want to cheer up but I can't, I want to change but I can't.

And I,I've never been able to find the real positioning of the small building.,Always swaying in a middle position.,At first, the small building was set to be pseudo**,But along the way,Because of the deliberate ambiguity of my own bad taste.,Also because of the common lively discussions in the group and discussion area,And because of the matching of the same people one after another,I myself was unconsciously affected.,More and more inclined to**,But I'm not willing to just write**。

Xiaolou originally wanted to borrow a story to flip over a lot of common and unreasonable passages, among which the previous chapter was the most obvious, but he wrote it all the way, and the unreasonable content gradually increased. I want to write my own article in some aspects, more realistic, but I can't help but want to give my loved character a fairytale-like fulfillment, trying to create some fairytale-like beauty, but I can't help but be realistic again. So repeatedly, Xiaolou gradually became a four-way disappointment, and it became more and more disappointing and sad.

I have to admit that the second half of Xiaolou is actually a failure, but because of my cumbersome nature, I don't want to end the essay immediately, nor do I like to end everything with an outline that explains the ending of the characters, and finally ends step by step according to my own temperament, one character at a time. Because there are many characters, my writing style is relatively procrastinated, and finally explaining the ending to each person is such a long process......

However, now, it is finally possible to type the words "the full text is finished".

Knowing that Xiaolou has written so far, in fact, the sooner it ends, the better, and when it really ends, he is still reluctant or stunned after all.

Xiaolou exposed many of my shortcomings and deficiencies, and because of Xiaolou's later failures, I was under tremendous pressure and trouble.

However, the happiness and joy before this are also warm in my heart when I recall them to this day.

This postscript, speaking of which, is just some chaotic miscellaneous feelings, I am a person with a very poor sense of logic, after writing Xiaolou, my mind is so complex and confused, so the so-called postscript, it is also written into a mess, however, I still want to say that it is good to be able to write Xiaolou for nearly three years, even if it is not a successful work, it is good to get so many friends and so many recognitions because of Xiaolou, even if there may be a time when there will be separation and separation in the future, and gradually drift away.

The last thing I want to say is that the failure of Xiaolou's Fengyun chapter made me know very well that my mastery of multi-protagonist writing skills is far from enough, so I shouldn't be able to write multi-protagonist for the time being, therefore, Xiaolou Er...... Khan, it may be a long time...... Even if I start writing, I guess I will try to deal with it as a single story for one person, and I won't try to put multiple protagonists together and progress the plot at the same time.

I remember a friend once said that my writing has no skills at all, and most of the time I write with a passion and a love. If this passion can be contagious. If someone can feel this love, it will be considered a success. It's actually a silly way of writing, which is why I used to write better than romance.

Because there is too much love in the same people.,And most of the readers who watch the same people can feel and understand this love better.。 Xiaolou's success in the early stage is because I have both love and passion, and in the later stage, although the love for the characters is still the same, the passion will eventually disappear in the long three years.

So. Khan, next post, I should try an article that I am very passionate, loving, nymphomaniac and must be a single protagonist.

(Finally, at the end, there are a few explanations about Xiao Lou.) Sweat.

First, the collective controllable crossing originally set by Xiaolou, as well as the power and restrictions it has after crossing. Mainly because I read too many travel texts at that time, although the form of crossing the land is strange, but the essence is mostly similar, so I racked my brains to make an alternative one. Basically, it was originally an alternative for the sake of being alternative, and three years ago, it was relatively new. Only now. There have been all kinds of alternative crossings, and Xiaolou is not too peculiar.

Second, what is the name of the base of a group of teachers and students who travel through time and space in this life, I didn't think about it at first, I don't know why, I suddenly missed "Xiaolou" very much, which is the first pure female writer gathering place on the Internet, and it is also the first website on the Internet with the theme of ruthlessness, basically I am the earliest group of people on that website. Seeing that it went from only five or six girls with the same hobbies. Slowly growing and growing, and seeing a little strife. A little bothered. I miss a group of people version of the chat, swipe the screen to the altar to reach the maximum limit of new posts, and no longer be able to post to the point where I can post, I miss that time, I don't go to the "small building" three or five times a day, I can't be at ease, I miss that year, a group of girls from all over the world gathered in Shanghai to shoot our own ruthless short drama. At that time, everyone went to pick up the stationmaster of "Xiaolou", and everyone lined up together, waiting for her to come out, and shouted "Hongchen Hongchen I love you, like a mouse loves rice". The old days are hard to find, so I use the word "small building" to remember the character I still love until now, and remember this website that once made me deeply fond.

Third, Xiaolou's earliest idea actually came from a chat with a friend. At that time, the friend jokingly said that in order to be popular and attractive in these years, several factors are absolutely indispensable: crossing, the palace, ,,,the rivers and lakes, etc., so I smiled and said, Okay, I will write an article according to the requirements, and all the above requirements must be met. In fact, at that time, I already had a clever mind, and what my friend said was nothing more than a common way to travel to the court, experience a number of events, and then go for a walk, which was mixed with some and content, but I distributed this factor to different protagonists. Only the crossing is common to all the protagonists.,It's just that it's been written for a long, long time to point out the truth of the crossing.,I still remember the earliest post.,Some readers were attracted by the word crossing in the introduction.,After reading chapter after chapter.,I just can't see the slightest sign of wearing.,What it looks like when you jump your feet.。 When I first laughed and talked with my friends, the thoughts in my heart were just to connect some vaguely scattered plots in my heart with a story that could meet those requirements. At that time, all kinds of plots were very scattered, and a few days later, Fang Qingchen's story was officially formed, and Rong Qian, Ah Han, Feng Jinjie, they didn't even have names, they were just people with vague faces hidden in the shadows, each with a few plots I liked, but there were no stories suitable for these plots. I was in the process of writing, slowly designing the story for those plots, slowly painting the vague figure in the darkness little by little. At that time, while writing, communicating with readers, and thinking happily, naturally, those characters and stories came out of my fingers like flowing water. In fact, it was in the process of writing and discussing with readers that I slowly fell in love with them. Because I wrote about them, many readers loved them, because I felt the love of many readers, and was affected by this powerful aura, so I also loved them deeply, because I loved them, so I desperately wanted to write well, so many readers also loved them more, and I was more infected, so I loved them more. In this way, it is also unclear what is the cause and what is the effect.

Fourth, the last thing is about the ending. Some readers once commented on my opinion that it is best for an article to be stopped in the right place. Don't be too attached to the characters, don't be too unbearable, no matter who it is, when you die, you die, when you go, you go, even if all the people in the small building leave in the end, there has been such a beautiful encounter and acquaintance, and there has been the consummation of this life, it is already very good. This is very reasonable, and I fully agree with it, but when it comes to me, I lose my normal heart. Therefore, I don't dare to write directly about their eternal companionship and eternal companionship, but I also don't want to clearly and unequivocally write about the fact that they will never be together again after this life, and write about death, so that there is no room for change. That's why I designed this immortal plot that seems to be a snake to add to it, but even immortality has many restrictions and many troubles, and it is by no means a nod and a finger that can be done. Therefore, in the end, I just borrowed Yan Ling to tell everyone that there are infinite possibilities in the future. Maybe you can live forever, maybe you can't, maybe you have the opportunity to be together, maybe it's just the fate of this life, maybe one day after longevity, you will eventually be separated, but maybe you will never be separated. There are all kinds of possibilities, and everyone can imagine the ending according to their favorite. And every good wish in Yan Ling's heart, the future that Yan Ling deeply believes, is also what I believe, no matter what kind of life each of them faces, they can face it with a relieved and peaceful attitude, because they have been happy and content. Even if it may not be perfect, they will definitely cherish and care more about the happiness they have had.

As an author, I love them in my own writing, even if my portrayal is not very successful, even later, maybe to a certain extent, it affects their initial brilliance, but I still love them, so, purely emotionally, aside from the technique, structure, depth, rationality of the story, etc., I just out of love, so I hope that their future life must be happy. ）