“…… I guess Rhein should have told you about her past, right? Pola's eyes narrowed slightly, then returned to normal, "We entered Rossos later, but she and Siruya were raised there since childhood. So the erosion of the 'instructor' on her soul is much worse than ours, and this mission, we saw the 'instructor' in that base again. ”

"Wait." Apaya frowned, "Isn't that person supposed to be dead?" ”

"It should have been, and we didn't know what it was, but he showed up, and it wasn't someone else, it was him."

Bora carefully observed Apaya's expression, and pursed her lips in reluctantly satisfaction after seeing the other party's worried expression.

"Then Rhine, she-"

"I guess it will exacerbate the previous situation." "The erosion was never cured, and there was nothing we could do about it." ”

Appaia looked in the direction Rhines had left, he wanted to go straight to Rhine's side, whether he could help or not, he wanted to be with her.

"I'm not done yet, don't worry." Bora stopped him again, "Rhine and Siruja, we have a different view of feelings. ”

The blond man expressed confusion at his words.

"The difference you're talking about is ......"

"Siruja may have gotten closer to our perception after all these years of walking around outside, but the Rhine has always been with us." Bora frowned slightly, as if thinking about how to explain, "Because of the malicious guidance of the 'instructor', Rhine has always believed that the love between two people is simple, exclusive, unique and important to each other, and no one else should affect this." ”

Bora half-clenched her hand into a fist and pressed it to her lips.

"The 'instructor' had always told her that, and he had told her that she would never get that affection." Bora put her hand down and shook her head, "No one will give up their relatives and friends for her, never." But this sentence itself is misleading, and reasonable love should not be about asking one of the parties to abandon their other fetters. ”

Appaya didn't quite understand what he was trying to say, and before he could ask, Bora continued.

"Because that's how the relationship between Shuka and Imi compares...... Intense, intolerant of impurities, the two of them are like this to each other, so even if Rhine later knew that there was a different kind of interaction, she never saw it. Bora looked directly at Apaya's face flatly, "If it were Fili's habit, we wouldn't want to correct it, but it would be a big deal to help her find a partner who would treat her like this." ”

Apaya's heart felt an awkward sense of discomfort, and at the same time, some feelings similar to apologies were subtly generated.

"But Rhine likes you."

The blonde engineer looked at the man who had his head bowed.

"She likes you, so she's willing to make some changes for you, and there's no reason for us to stop you." Paula's expression was a little dazed, "But she's still studying hard, and she hasn't fully understood what to do." ”

He refocused his gaze on Apaya.

"It feels like a waste of time to say all that." He muttered under his breath, "I just wanted to tell you...... If you like her and are willing to spend it with her for the rest of your life...... Give her time to make a change. Otherwise, please leave her now. ”

Apaya's heart ached as if it had been clenched for a moment.

"Of course I'm going to be with her all the time......"

However, he never thought that his mercenaries were working hard to change themselves for him.

Even though he noticed that the mercenaries had changed a little compared to before, he only thought that it was due to the change in their relationship.

He had never been more acutely aware of how hurtful his words had been.

Apaya subconsciously reached into the pocket of her chest, where the silver rose badge representing her still rested.

“…… Can I go to her now? ”

"Please take care of yourself."

Looking at Apaya's somewhat hurried steps, Bora rubbed the corners of her forehead.

If it weren't for the fact that the "instructor" appeared today, he wouldn't have been nosy.

Whoever will make Filly sad, just disappear.

…… But "he" appeared, so they had to eliminate all hidden dangers, otherwise they would not be able to fight.

After standing in the doorway for a moment, Bora slowly walked in the direction of the station, with a somewhat heavy footsteps.

Boundless darkness.

Rhines felt her body float in the darkness, and she couldn't even see her silver-white hair.

There is no way to touch anything when you reach out your hand.

"You're a monster who deserves to live in the dark, Little Four."

The man's voice made her reflexively look at the source of the sound, but she still couldn't see anything.

"Look, I told you, right? Love or something, you won't have it. ”

The man's voice rang out from the other direction.

"The person you love right now has chosen his friend instead of you."

No, he said he was the most important person.

"Then why can't he give up his friend for you?"

That's not true! He shouldn't have given up his other for her-

"But you're hoping for that, right? Isn't it good to suppress yourself? Wouldn't it be nice to simply express your thoughts? ”

In the darkness, the instructor's vicious face suddenly appeared in front of her eyes.

"You're such a selfish monster, that person won't fall in love with you."

"No......" she said, opening her mouth, but she couldn't even hear her own voice, "he loves me." ”

The instructor's face suddenly changed to Apaya's, and that face was rather cold and uncaring.

"You make me sick."

——！

Reins snapped her eyes open, then sat up.

She breathed heavily, cold sweat running down her back, and she kept blinking, and although it was dark all around, she could barely see the outline.

It was just her dream.

She's ...... now In her own room.

When she came back, Ellie and Ella weren't there, so she went back to her room to get some rest.

…… As a result, I didn't get a good rest at all.

She buried her face in her hands.

It's not like I haven't had nightmares before, but I've always been clear that it's my old injury, and I can wake up as soon as it's dawn, so I'm watching indifferently.

Why is this the case when it comes to Apaya?

A warm heat suddenly came from behind her, which made her quickly lower her hand.

Is there someone else in her house? How could she not have noticed-

"Have a nightmare?"

…… It's still the last person she wants to face.

"Ah...... Apaya? When the words came out, she realized how dry her throat was, "Why are you ...... here?"

"After talking to Bora, I rushed over." He gently tightened his arms and brought Reins closer to him, "When I was in the lab before, I felt your soul ......"

Reins was stunned for a moment.

“…… I didn't suppress it, sorry-"

"Don't apologize." Appaya interrupted her impatiently, "Don't apologize......"

The room fell silent for a while.

“…… It's me who should apologize. ”

Apaya's words made Rhine's eyes widen unconsciously.

"Not ......"

"Yes." Appaya said firmly, "Anyway...... There is a contradiction that I could have told you well, but I have taken this worst possible solution. ”

Reins's body trembled imperceptibly, but Apaya, who was hugging her, felt it.

"But you're also at fault." He muttered in her ear, "Why don't you tell me plainly what you're worried about?" Why don't you just tell me what you think about relationships? ”

- What a joke.

“…… How can you say it......"

"Why not?"

Reins bit her lower lip hard, and the impact of the day, combined with the nightmares, had left her barely able to keep her sanity.

"What am I going to say?" Her voice raised a little uncontrollably, "I'm going to tell you that I want you to never have anything to do with Hua Shao again?" That kind of thing is impossible when you think about it, right? ”

Her voice even shifted a little, which made Apaya's heart tighten.

"Why should I say something I know is impossible?" She clutched the quilt on her body, in order to restrain herself from being irritable and doing irreparable things, she couldn't control what she said, "Saying it will only make you feel irritable, right?" Ella: They also told me that this is not normal, and it is impossible to cut off all of my social circles for the sake of the people I like, which is not right, so I have been convincing myself. Why can't you just wait a few more days? ”

She's trying, she's trying, she's been trying.

She was struggling to discard the false notions she had been indoctrinated with since birth, and she was trying to ignore the curse of everything the instructor had given.

She's trying to learn what to do right when you really get along.

But no one can teach her how to get along with the people she likes, everyone is different, so she is trying to figure it out.

She knew that her style and ideas were different from theirs, so she was trying to learn so that he could accept herself more as well.

But doesn't that take time——!

The warm liquid splashed on Apaya's hands, and the burning sensation made him panic completely.

"Rhine?" He hurriedly walked around to her, reaching out to touch her face at a loss, "Rhine, I'm sorry......"

In the past, she had shed tears for letting her blood relatives choose an option that might kill her, but at that time she was just buried in his clothes, and she didn't even choke, and she stopped it in time.

But now it's different.

That's because of the hurt he gave her.

"Why do you have to come now?" Her hand was so hard that it spasmed, "Why can't you wait until tomorrow......"

Just wait until tomorrow and she can get rid of those cursed shadows with the help of Ella and Eliam, and she can return to normal.

Nothing she said would be said now, and with a little more patience, she would surely succeed in changing.

Why do you have to come over now?

"I'm sorry, Rhine ......" Apaya reached out to cover her hand and whispered an apology, "I'm sorry, I didn't notice ......"

If Bora hadn't told him, wouldn't he have been unaware of her true thoughts until she finally drove herself to a breakdown?

Even if he knew that she cared about Shao's affairs, he didn't really take it to heart, he just thought that she was caring about the previous things, and thought that as long as he expressed his liking for her, it would be fine.

wanted him to keep his distance from Shao, and wanted him to choose whether she was the most important one, but he thought it was just her jealousy.

As a result, because she was afraid of facing a choice, she never calmed down to understand her feelings.

How did he do this again?

At first, she withdrew, because she was afraid of change, and her soul was traumatized by him.

Now it's because she's afraid of change, and she's hurt from him again.

He's still there, thinking he's done enough......

He's really a hopeless idiot.