"You're only eating so much?" Di Yi looked at Fu Hanqing with some surprise, feeling as if he had only eaten two or three bites casually, which was considered a meal.

Fu Hanqing had to laugh dryly.

He had seen so much of this worried, shocked expression, and the anger and depression that came with it. He didn't want others to worry about him if he could. It's a pity that no matter how strong his spirit is, he can't control his increasingly weak body, even if he wants to eat a few more bites, the end will definitely be gastrointestinal discomfort, and he will vomit it out raw, making others more worried.

He can only regret now that he didn't think it through, that he shouldn't have eaten with Radi, and that few people could continue to maintain a good appetite when he saw the amount of food he ate.

Sure enough, Di Yi looked at the table of good dishes, but he really couldn't find any appetite, and sat in a daze for a long time before sighing softly: "I shouldn't have left." ”

Fu Hanqing just smiled, and his eyes were even a little relieved: "I think, fortunately, you are gone." ”

Di Yi was stunned when he heard it at first, and then he understood.

With Di Jiu's heart, that is, he has the heart to attack Fu Hanqing, his shadow guard is his biggest thorn in the side, if he doesn't leave back then, he will definitely take action to get rid of himself.

For Fu Hanqing, he left and avoided harm, of course, it is worth him to be thankful.

It's just that......

He looked at Fu Hanqing and smiled faintly.

Han, actually, he has already made a move, but you don't know.

A long, long time ago. He ......

"Are you doing well, are you ......" Fu Hanqing was rarely a little curious, and even asked excitedly, "Is she okay?" ”

Fei Yi's thoughts were immediately contained, and Di Yi smiled faintly: "I'm doing well, she's also very good, we live a comfortable life in isolation, I don't want the people of the Shura Sect to see her, and I don't want her to get involved in these things." That's why I didn't bring her. ”

Fu Hanqing nodded: "It's right not to bring her here, otherwise maybe Yaoguang and they will be able to hit her with their ideas." How many days are you planning to stay here? He looked at him with a smile and a clear look in his eyes, "Don't make her wait too long." ”

Di Yi endured and endured, and finally felt that he couldn't bear it anymore, and said in a deep voice: "Do you plan to live happily forever and laugh when you see people?" ”

Fu Hanqing was stunned. I was stupid for a long time before asking, "This, what's wrong?" ”

"There's nothing wrong with that." Di Yi smiled bitterly, "But, Han, why do you have to do the right thing, you must do nothing bad to others?" I'd rather you be like before, as long as you eat well and sleep well, and let the sky fall and what becomes of his world? It's okay for a shadow guard like me to be disfigured. Whether you want to stay for the rest of your life or not be free, it is someone else's choice. You don't care about it, you don't interfere with it......"

Fu Hanqing sat stunned and whispered in a daze: "If you hadn't woken me up back then." I never knew that I was so selfish, so ruthless, and didn't care about everything outside of my body. ”

"You're just selfish, and you're not harmful, what's the problem? But now you're a saint. When this happens, why do you make yourself smile as if you're happy? There was a faint anger in Di Yi's voice, "Before I came to see you." Yaoguang told me how you spent the past two years, and you were happy every day. Lele hehe, you are not lazy at all, take the initiative to worry about helping, you don't need others to urge you to participate in the council, in addition to being in poor health and unable to run around, Di Jiu has done everything you can do before, you are like this, what do you want to prove, do you plan to live like this for the rest of your life? Be a diligent, serious, talkative, and always happy leader? ”

Fu Hanqing was stunned by his scolding, since he was injured, everyone has treated him very well, and he rarely even says a word about him, but at this moment, he can't even turn his head when he is reprimanded like this.

He sat in a daze, unable to move, and after a long, long time, the smile on his face faded little by little, and the brilliance in his eyes dimmed slightly.

He lowered his head for a long, long time before he said softly: "I must live well, I must be very happy, happy, I must work hard to do a good job of what Di Jiu threw down, I must make myself feel that he is not there, I can also live happily, he is gone, I can also cope with it......"

He didn't look up, and his voice became deeper and lower: "In this way, you don't have to hate." ”

He looked down at his cold fingers.

I have been thinking that I have clenched my hand, and if I don't let go, the days will go by, no matter how cold my hand is, it will be warmed, it turns out that holding a cold hand for a long time is more likely to make myself feel cold.

I never knew that I would actually hate it. never known,

After several lifetimes, I thought that the most negative emotion was nothing more than disgust. After several lifetimes of confusion, I thought that the topic of love was the most difficult, and it turned out that hating or not hating was the most difficult thing in this world

At this moment, the mind was almost confused.

How can Xiao Rong do it, every life is let down, betrayed, and hurt, but there is no resentment or resentment.

How can Xiao Rong do it, face everything with a relaxed and calm attitude, and accept everything. Even if he just pretends to be happy and pretends not to care, how can he pretend to be so successful, successful even he himself does not know, is pretending.

It's too cold, wearing such a thick mink fur, and I still want to shiver.

You're tired, aren't you? So I was so tired that I just wanted to close my eyes and couldn't dream.

He just...... I just don't want to hate him......

Hatred, how strange, what a terrible, what a strange emotion.

Because it is too strange, because it has never been experienced, it will be afraid, it will be afraid, and it will not dare to indulge such negative emotions in the heart.

He just didn't want to hate him, so he tried to live well. It's just that...... It turns out that living so well is such a tiring, tiring thing.

Di Yi looked at him quietly, watching him slowly curl up, watching him slowly begin to tremble.

Every time, he did this, digging a hole, burying his head in it, creating an illusion to face the whole world. Every time, it was he who dragged him out by mistake, and every time he was confused afterwards, not knowing whether his approach was right or wrong.

He hesitated for a moment, gently stretched out his hand, and pressed it on Fu Hanqing's shoulder, just to give him a little support and comfort. However, in the next moment, Fu Hanqing's entire body weight leaned back, as if he could no longer support this body, and could only rely on the strength of his hands to barely sit down.

Whether it is the body or the mind that is broken, he has been holding out for more than two years. As if all the pain, all the weakness, all the inconvenience are gone, fall down, get up, giggle twice, tired, headache, panting, sleep, take a breath, rest, everything is as usual, continue to face it happily

。

If he doesn't come, this person may be able to hold on, and if he doesn't say it, this person may always feel that there is nothing bad about this kind of life, and there is nothing unhappy or unhappy about such a day.

At that moment, Di Yi could almost hear the sound of his teeth gritting, Di Jiu, did he know what he had hurt and what he had destroyed?

"You...... Will you forgive him in the future? ”

"Forgiveness?" Fu Hanqing was almost a little surprised, and when he raised his head, he even smiled reluctantly, "Why forgive, he actually doesn't owe me anything?" In the past year, I have taken over a small half of what he left behind, and I know how heavy and hard it is, he has been working for me for eight or nine years, even if he has ulterior motives, he has done enough, and I can't deny that I have gained so many benefits. In those years, he treated me very well, and we had a lot of happy ...... together."

He felt that he could go on and on, saying many, many things, and then, Di Yi stared at him with such deep eyes. Fu Hanqing's originally straightforward voice gradually became smaller, until he couldn't say it anymore.

Then, he lowered his head again, and after a moment said, "I'll try, try, not to hate him, but forgive...... That's something that doesn't exist. ”

What happened, just happened, forgive, this word, too light, too unfocused.

People like Di Jiu will not look back from what they have done. There will be no regrets, and no one will be forgiven.

And he himself has always been dead-eyed. Whether it's love or break, what happens happens happens and can't be treated as if it didn't happen.

All he could do was not to hate him.

Maybe it's time to meet. You can smile, and when you are in distress, you can save you, but forgive......

No, he would smile when he heard this word, and Di Jiu might just sneer in return, right?

Suddenly, there was a fiery pain in my heart. made him feel confused for a while, where did the Han who didn't know pain, didn't know feelings, just messed up, and just wanted a good night's sleep.

Di Yi sighed in his ears: "What can I do?" ”

It took a long time for him to raise his head again, to stare at him again, and it took another long time to have the strength to smile again: "Stay." Stay with me for a few days, all these years. What interesting experiences have you had outside, what good stories have you seen. Then just go back. Live happily with your wife. I would be glad to know that you are alive and well, and that there are people I know who can escape these murderous fates and live happily. ”

Di Yi looked at him quietly for a while, and then chuckled: "What do you want to say, but you can't say to me?" How many times have I told you not to always want to be a saint? Thinking too much for others. You don't look like you at all. You think I'm an outsider, and I can't bear it. Or do you not want to be involved? Or do you think I'm too weak and in danger at any time, and you don't dare let me take the risk? Don't forget, I've been with you for six years, and in those six years, how much you helped Di Jiu, and how much you have instructed me, now I, no matter what kind of danger I am in, as long as I am dedicated to self-protection, I really can't find a few people in the world who can kill me. ”

Fu Hanqing was told by him, and smiled a little embarrassedly, but his eyes became more and more dim: "I think that the Shura Sect's action against Di Jiu should start soon." ”

"You want to?" Di Yihu was suspicious.

"Although I am the sect leader, and I have indeed not been set aside, I basically don't ask about all the killings, and it is not impossible for them to do this behind my back. Now that most of the martial arts deficiencies of several of them have been filled by me, and many loopholes and chaos in the Shura Sect have also been made up and pacified, with their temperament, it is impossible to keep pressing on. Fu Hanqing's voice was lonely, and his eyes were gloomy.

He knows everything, but he can't stop it. He understands everything, but he can't say anything, he can't do anything.

He can't say no revenge, it's a matter of principle, no one will be convinced, and there is no reason.

He can't deliberately not point out the mistakes and omissions in the martial arts of Yaoguang Xiao and others in order to continue to delay, or deliberately make the teaching affairs chaotic, he can't do this kind of thing.

Yet, it was a surprisingly sad feeling to sit here so powerlessly, watching the people he loved, and those who had treated him so well, fighting to the death, and not being able to do anything himself.

Di Yi asked softly, "What do you want to do?" ”

Fu Hanqing shook his head: "I don't know what I can do?" I have no reason, and there is no way to prevent Yaoguang from taking revenge. If it really fights, Di Jiu's strength should still suffer, but he is such a proud and radical character, if he wants to retreat, he may not be willing, not to mention, I don't have a chance to persuade him......" Before the words were finished, he was silent again.

Even if there is a chance to meet, even if there is a chance to persuade each other, that person will not listen.

Di nodded: "I understand, I'll stay here for two days and leave." ”

The words were said very lightly and casually, and Fu Hanqing could naturally hear the deep meaning and weight in it.

Di Tongyao, Guang, Xiao and the others have different positions, he has no feelings for the Shura Sect, and may even have hatred, and he will not feel that there is anything wrong with betraying the Shura Sect.

At most, he just felt that Di Jiu betrayed Fu Hanqing, which was a little hateful.

But as the person who knew the most about the matter between them, and maybe even more than the person concerned, he could also guess that after this betrayal, Di Jiu might have lost far more than he had gained. In this state of mind, his hatred for Di Jiu is not so deep.

Therefore, Fu Hanqing's sincere words, the whole church, only dared to say it to him.

is the only one who will nod indifferently and promise indifferently after listening.

Fu Hanqing was a little stunned when he heard him answer so refreshingly: "In the past few years, his whereabouts have always been very secretive, and it is difficult for hyacinths to find out, so you may not be able to find him?" ”

Di Yi smiled: "Han, I have my own ability, you can rest assured." ”