Chapter 257: Let go of the past
The dark green skirt slowly crossed the cold ground of the dungeon of Dali Temple, Xiao Xiwei walked slowly step by step, countless pasts emerged in her mind over and over again, the closer she got to that person, the clearer those pasts became.
"You're here?" As if hearing the movement, Chu Yanzhi raised his head.
Xiao Xi stopped slightly, raised his eyes and looked at Chu Yanzhi, compared to His Royal Highness the Crown Prince who was full of energy in the past, Chu Yanzhi is really haggard now, but these are all expected by her, but what surprised her was his attitude - after experiencing so many things, he could still greet her so calmly, didn't he hate her? However, Xiao Xiwei knew Chu Yanzhi's city government, perhaps, he was just using this surface calm to cover up the undercurrent in his heart. After two lives, and fighting with him for so long, she had already learned to hide her emotions, so after listening to Chu Yanzhi's words, she quickly smiled, and said in a soft voice, "Your Highness, don't come to harm." ”
Don't come, it's all right......
Chu Yanzhi looked at Xiao Xiwei's smiling face, and felt bitter in his heart.
Where did he come from the way he is now? He knew that she was sarcastic about him, but when he thought of that dream, he hated her.
Unexpectedly, he didn't see the resentment and anger in Chu Yan's eyes, but saw the guilt on his face when he looked at him, Xiao Xi frowned slightly, and he was really a little confused. However, she didn't bother to guess the reason for this, she hadn't forgotten the purpose of her coming.
"What are you going to do with that kid?"
No, Chu Yanzhi lowered his eyes and laughed dryly when he heard her words, "Xiwei, how can you be so smart, you don't know, this child can't be kept." ”
Xiao Xi's eyes widened, although he heard Chu Yanzhi's words, but he still had some doubts in his heart, "What does Your Highness mean by this?" ”
Chu Yanzhi raised his head and looked at Xiao Xiwei with his eyes, "Although I am deposed, I may be beheaded in a few days, but as long as this child exists, will no one use him to give birth to anything in the future." Besides......" he paused, "and you're worried that I'm going to use this kid to shake the mind of the one in the Chongde Temple." ”
Now although Chu Xizhi is in power, he has not yet ascended the throne after all, if the one in the Chongde Hall knows that he still has such a trace of blood and blood in the world, even if he can't do anything now, then he will take good care of this child, and over time, maybe this child can become Chu Xizhi's confidant?
He understood this, and Xiao Xiwei was afraid that she would understand it better, but she asked Hongyu to come to see him and tell him the news, she was sincere to that girl. Thinking of this, the inexplicable Chu Yanzhi felt a dull pain in her chest, she was sincere to Chu Xizhi, sincere to Hongyu, and sincere to many people, but only to him......
Xiao Xiwei didn't expect Chu Yanzhi to say such a thing, she couldn't help frowning, and said, "Since you know that it is beneficial for you to keep this child, why are you ......?"
"Sway, if I say I'm doing this for you, do you believe me?" Chu Yanzhi looked at Xiao Xiwei, and a wetness suddenly appeared in his eyes.
For her?
couldn't help it, the corners of Xiao Xiwei's lips sneered slightly, "Your Highness, which one are you playing?" ”
Could it be that he has come up with some sinister tricks?
"Sheawei ......"
"Your Highness, I will bring your words to Red Rain." Xiao Xi coldly cut off Chu Yanzhi's words, "Since you, a father, are unwilling to keep your bones, why did Hongyu endure everyone's criticism and give birth to this child?" Besides, having a father like you is also a great misfortune for this child. After speaking, she flicked the corners of her sleeves and turned around to leave, but as soon as she stepped away, Chu Yanzhi's voice sounded behind her.
"Xiwei, is that dream real?"
Xiao Xi stopped slightly, turned his face, frowned, and looked at Chu Yanzhi with gloomy eyes.
Today's Chu Yanzhi was too strange to her, whether it was his attitude towards her or the words he said to her, everything was unexpected.
"Xiwei, I had a dream......" Chu Yanzhi opened his mouth again, his hoarse voice with a slight trill, and there was a trail of water in his dark eyes, "In my dream, I watched you be burned to death by fire......"
There was a sudden sharp pain in her chest, and the wound that had already scabbed over seemed to have been picked open by life, and in an instant, she seemed to have returned to the Fengyi Hall that night, she dragged the blood stains all over her body, desperately trying to escape from the sea of fire, but outside, Chu Yanzhi just stood like that, staring at her motionless with those cold and dark eyes...... The scorching flames consumed every inch of her skin, and the pain, even if she had lived again, was enough to send her to hell at the slightest thought of it......
Looking at Xiao Xiwei's pale face and crumbling appearance, he stepped over suddenly, looked at Xiao Xiwei with a sad face through the fence, and muttered in his mouth, "Isn't that a dream?" Xiwei, you once said to me, you said, you used to believe in a person wholeheartedly, you believed everything he said, and you did whatever he asked you to do, but in the end, that person set a fire to him......" Chu Yanzhi said, tears suddenly fell, and his voice became more and more choked, "I went to investigate later, there was no fire in Zhongyong Houfu, and you were never trapped in the fire, at that time, I thought you didn't accept me, so I deliberately made up this story to deceive me...... Until, until recently, I always had the same dream, in the dream, I watched Xiao Xiweile put a fire in your room, I obviously wanted to save you, but in the dream, I just watched, Xiwei...... I've never done anything like that to you, but why, do I dream about it over and over again? ”
He still remembered Xiao Xiwei's bitter and resentful curse in his dream. Every time, he would be frightened awake by that curse, and after waking up, he desperately convinced himself that it was just a dream, but now looking at Xiao Xiwei's expression, the last trace of luck in his heart disappeared without a trace.
Thinking of this, Chu Yanzhi staggered back two steps, looked at Xiao Xiwei with a sad face, and said in a hoarse voice, "Is this all true......?"
Is it that God can't see it, so let go back in time and start all over again, otherwise, how could she hate him from the moment they met? It turns out that everything is for a reason, no wonder, no wonder he has done so much for her, but she is always indifferent, it turns out that he used to treat her so cruelly, no wonder......
Xiao Xi took a deep breath slightly, trying to pull herself out of that nightmare, she looked at Chu Yanzhi, persuading to maintain the calmness on her face, "Whether it's true or not, everything is over after all." ”
She lived again, and although she went through many hardships in the process, she finally stayed with the people she loved, and with children, her life became more and more complete, so she didn't want to resent it anymore, and she didn't want to remember the past, she had to start learning to let go......
After all, God was kind to her.
"Sheawei ......"
"Chu Yanzhi, I don't hate you anymore." Xiao Xi took a deep breath slightly, calmly stared at Chu Yanzhi's eyes, and said word by word.
Whether it is betrayal or pain, it is over after all. Now, those who hurt her have also paid the price, and she should let go. Because, more than hate, love is the most important thing. Because of love, she is willing to forgive the suffering that God has given her.
"Xiwei ......" Chu Yanzhi looked at Xiao Xiwei sadly, and the tears that had been swallowed couldn't help but fall.
Once, he thought that if she couldn't love him, then it would be good to hate him, at least, she would always remember him, but now, she didn't even hate him, so what was he to her?
"Chu Yanzhi, in the future, you and I will cherish each other, and we will never meet again." Xiao Xi glanced at Chu Yan silently, then turned around and walked towards the light that poured in at the door without any nostalgia.
Those nightmares that once haunted her day and night were finally completely left behind by her at this moment.
Behind Xiao Xiwei, Chu Yanzhi opened his mouth, but in the end he still didn't shout out those two words.
He knew that from now on, the woman he once loved was completely out of his life...... He didn't even tell him that many years after her death, he ordered the burned Fengyi Hall to be restored one by one according to the appearance she lived in, and he stood outside the hall every day and watched quietly, but he never dared to step in......
Heew, now I finally believe in the saying, everything has a cause and effect. I planted this evil cause with my own hands that day, and now I can only taste this bitter fruit with tears, but I hope that from now on you will have a smooth and healthy life, peace and joy, and never meet anyone like me again......
As soon as she jumped out of the prison, the bright sunlight above her head stabbed Xiao Xiwei's eyes a little dry, and she subconsciously closed her eyes.
"Miss."
Red Rain's voice brought her back to her senses.
Xiao Xi glanced at Hongyu who was guarding the door of the cell, she smiled faintly at her, and gently spit out two words, "Let's go." ”
No matter how ruthless Chu Yanzhi is or what kind of wrong things he does, after all, there is still someone in this world who is sincere to him, perhaps, this is God's kindness to him. It's just that this is still a little cruel to Hongyu after all, but who can say anything about feelings?
"Yes, miss." Hongyu pursed the corners of her lips, smiled at Xiao Xi, and responded meekly.
From the beginning, she knew who Chu Yanzhi's heart loved was, and she never had the luxury of getting anything from him, and even she didn't expect him to have a place in her heart. She begged Xiao Xiwei to take her to Dali Temple to see him, but she just wanted to see him, telling him that she had his child in her womb, and she wanted to at least let him know before leaving that he was not nothing in this world, and that he still had someone to worry about, and there was still a trace of blood left in this world.
It was the only thing she could do.
Coming out of Dali Temple, Xiao Xiwei held Hongyu's hand and was about to get on the sedan chair, when suddenly, a faint hoarse voice sounded.
"Sister."