Jingyuan, I have only been willful once in my life, and I will never recover. ”

Once capricious, once late.

Shi Jingyuan wanted to comfort him, but it was difficult to speak: "He's back......"

"But that doesn't mean it hasn't happened." Yan Rin looked ahead blankly: "He is not here, I think of him every day, I look forward to him every day, and when I saw him, I suddenly remembered that I was so sorry for him." I'm not actually worried about spending the night outside, I just don't know how to face him, how to talk to him, how to smile at him, I ...... I only know that what has happened has happened, no matter what I do, no matter how much I regret it, no matter how ashamed I am, it is impossible to get it back, and everything will never go back to the past. It doesn't matter if he blames me or not, whether he minds or not, I just ......"

He raised his hand and pointed to his heart: "You can't fool yourself, that's all." ”

Shi Jingyuan was silent, but he was indescribably uncomfortable in his heart.

Yan Rin has always felt that she is very, very sorry for Rong Qian, but from Shi Jingyuan's point of view, except for Ling Chi's life being too cruel, Yan Rin has not done anything wrong.

Whether it was a coup d'état or a seizure of power, it was originally arranged step by step by Rong Qian himself. At that time, Rong Qian deliberately acted arbitrarily, arrogant and arrogant, and powerful, and did many things that the king could not tolerate. He sought his own way to die like this, and was later arrested and given death, and he really couldn't blame Yan Rin.

In this life, Yan Rin just listened to his own wishes, and was willful that time, he did not give him poisonous wine, but gave Ling Chi's life, and he will never be happy in his life.

Unlike Feng Changqing's elders who knew the truth, no matter how loyal they were, they couldn't help but secretly blame Yan Rin for being too ruthless. However, Shi Jingyuan is a person who grew up with Yan Rin since he was a child, and how Yan Rin got to that step by step. Those who used to be, all the pain and despair, he saw in his eyes.

Those great generals, great Confucians, and great virtuous ministers, will only be happy for the growth of the little emperor all day long, and be happy for the future generation of famous monarchs, have they ever regarded Yan Rin as a person? One is also a living flesh-and-blood man. A fatherless and motherless child who is closest and most trusted by himself. What is it like to be the most admired and admired person to abandon, obviously in his heart, he is like a father, a mother, a teacher, a brother, and he clearly thinks that even if he is abandoned by the world, that person must still be there, and he clearly thinks that even if the sky falls, that person will smile and protect himself. Then, in the blink of an eye, all the warmth turned into ice, looking at this dearest and beloved person, and disappeared indifferently. treated each other coldly, and tried to redeem it again and again, but returned disappointed again and again. Trying to get closer again and again, and then being ruthlessly pushed away again and again. Who will understand how painful all this is? Who cares?

Feng Changqing couldn't see a child crying in the dark corner of the palace, and Rong Qian couldn't see the red-eyed, pulling his good friend and asking, "What did I do wrong?" "Child.

The world can only see the Ming Jun who brought them peace, and they will not know that many years ago, the last time that the child stretched out his hand to keep the warmth in that little memory, but was indifferently rejected for the last time. He once quietly hid in the most remote small forest of the palace, holding a knife at the tree, and slashing desperately like a mad tiger. Chop until your hands crack. Bloody, he didn't know the pain. I don't know how to hurt, I don't know how to stop.

His friend, desperately unable to pull him, that day, the immature emperor, all the time until exhaustion, could no longer hold the handle of the knife, paralyzed on his friend's body, his eyes were distracted, only repeated muttering: "I want to kill him, I want to kill him......"

He kept talking and talking until he finally fainted, still muttering. It's just that in the corners of the eyes, tears fall silently, mixed with sweat, and there is no trace in the blink of an eye.

He was just a child abandoned by his loved ones, strong and stubborn, proudly forcing himself to be strong, and abandoning him before that person abandoned him.

He's just a stubborn and awkward kid who tries hard to learn everything, just for one day, so-and-so

Then push him away lightly, and you must face him seriously.

He is still a big child, but he has to work hard and be alone, scheming everywhere, preparing for a shocking coup d'état for the imperial power and the world.

But it turns out that the traitor is actually a loyal minister, and it turns out that all the acts of disobedience are a fist.

It's just that if you can't see through this heart, can you blame Yan Rin? I didn't guess this game, can I blame Yan Rin? In the face of a powerful minister who shows that he must be opposed by all indications, who has the responsibility and courage to be the emperor and will not fight desperately?

If he hadn't ordered Ling Chi back then, but had only secretly executed him...... That, Yan Rin, what's wrong with him.

Even the "Ling Chi" back then was simply trying to torture and kill an enemy.

He just wanted Rong Qian to stop being so indifferent, he just wanted to force Rong Qian to show even a little care and emotion because of him.

In his life, he was just willful for so once, and he will never recover!

He doesn't need more reproach from others, he has put his heart forever and forever on the furnace and boiled in the oil pot.

Back then, it was he who was unwilling to let go of Rong Qian, and now, it is he who refuses to let go of himself.

In fact, it is difficult to say what is wrong and what is wrong. If he hadn't ordered Ling Chi back then, but really given a cup of poisoned wine and a piece of white silk, he might never have learned the truth of the year, but ...... There will never be such a reunion like today, such a chance to remedy.

However, Shi Jingyuan had no words to persuade, and he was powerless to persuade. He couldn't say that. Because he knows, Yan Rin...... Definitely won't listen.

He just silently stayed by Yan Rin's side, silently walking with his monarch through the most prosperous land in Yan Country, walking through the capital that Yan Rin has been trying to protect, and walking towards the palace in the distance.

In the twilight, the grand palace forbidden, like a giant beast, silently waiting for its sacrifice.

The palace, the state, the kingship, the people, everything, high-sounding, high-sounding.

Shi Jingyuan knew that Yan Rin had all the happiness, all the freedom, and all the happiness. In the end, they can only be silently buried in the depths of this giant beast.

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Rong Qian explained the local affairs, and Feng Changqing certainly did it very dedicatedly. Qinggu didn't trouble him either. She vaguely knew that a great event had happened, so she only took care of all the miscellaneous things, and after confirming that Rong Qian did not have to be distracted by these idle things, she went back to her room, waiting for the matter to pass with peace of mind, and when Brother Rong was free, he would explain it to her.

Qinggu settled down, Feng Changqing sent Shi Jingyuan and Yan Rin away again, only then did he have time, sank his face, took out the majesty of his inner guards, and gave a strict order to those guards, not allowing anyone to hold a grudge against Qinggu. Facing the top boss, some of the guards present naturally didn't dare to say more, but just silently accepted the order.

After explaining, he went back to the room with Rong Qian first. Rong Qian was not in a hurry to confess to him, and only asked him how Yan Rin came to meet him by coincidence.

Although Feng Changqing had never witnessed the whole thing, he had already communicated with Shi Jingyuan when Yan Rin and Rong Qian were talking secretly, and he immediately told the matter concisely and quickly.

Rong Qian's expression did not move, and after listening to him finish the whole thing, he asked lightly: "Can you find the person who made trouble?" ”