Shen Hua hurriedly took two steps in front of me, "Qingqing, how are you going to find it?" It's almost dark, and the hill is so big, how can I find it? ”

I stared at him in a daze, and suddenly smiled, "Hard-working people, the sky is not worth it, as long as you want to find it, you will definitely be able to find it." Shen Hua, get out of the way, don't let me hate you. ”

Shen Hua has always known my temperament, and he has made up his mind to do what he wants to do

He didn't want to stop me anymore, and watched my figure walk through the thorns.

My eyes were only on my feet, inch by inch, but there were only rocks and weeds on the ground, and there was no trace of Ah He. Whether it is Shen Hua or Aoki, when they talk about Ah He's whereabouts, their words are vague, and they don't know how Ah He's body has decomposed, which is undoubtedly looking for a needle in a haystack.

As long as I found a suspicious place, I knelt on the ground, pulling the land, there were no tools around, I could only use my hands to temporarily replace the hoe, digging inch by inch, digging deep, and finding no trace of Ah He, I got up and dug in another place. There was no distraction in his mind, he just wanted to find the place where Ah He was quickly.

My nails were broken, my fingers were broken, and the speed of digging slowed down, and I wiped the tears from my face as I dug it.

It got dark very quickly, and suddenly there was only a little light left around him, and the visibility on the hill was pitifully low, and he could only see a small area in front of him if he tried to look.

I didn't want to give up any hope, so I looked little by little, little by little to look for possible traces of Ah He, the terrain of the hill is complicated, and I stepped on the slippery weeds several times and rolled down from above, but fortunately I was not seriously injured, but I still saw red on my body. Frustrated, I got up and continued to search.

Shen Hua couldn't stand it, rushed to my side, grabbed my hand, and lifted me up from the ground, "Qingqing, that's enough!" ”

I didn't have the strength to speak to him, so I gently pulled my hand out of his hand, turned my head and continued to dig half of the hole in the ground.

Shen Hua simply put both hands on my shoulders, forcing me to look up at him, and also preventing me from digging on the ground.

"Look at the wounds on your body...... Are you planning to put your life on the line here, too? Shen Hua had a straight face, and his tone was also tough that he had never been before.

"This is my business, don't worry about it, if you have a little affection for Ah He, you go back now, don't bother me to find her." I broke his hand off my shoulder, but he grabbed it so hard that I couldn't break free.

"Why are you so persistent? Now that Ah He has left, wouldn't it be good to let her rest here? Shen Hua's clear eyes were filled with grief.

"Rest here?" I suddenly laughed, and in a blink of an eye, I swept around, it was pitch black, and one after another raised small mountain bags were like beasts lurking in the depths, running out to bite you when you were unprepared, "Ah He also has family and friends, she should be buried in a beautiful place, not in this mass grave!" Shen Hua, do you remember Arrow? Ah He is Arrow's only relative, if he knows that his sister not only died tragically, but also died nowhere else. If it were you, would you be able to accept it? You said enough, I don't think it's enough, I don't owe Ah He enough, and I will never be finished! ”

Shen Hua's body was slightly stunned, his eyes were sad, and the hand holding my shoulder loosened.

I took a deep look at him, turned and continued digging.

After a long time, Shen Hua said in a hoarse voice, "I'm sorry......"

The emotions that had accumulated for a long time completely exploded because of his words, tears flowed like springs, and my digging action gradually slowed down, and the voice was so light that I could only hear it, "When Ah He left, he actually wanted to see you, maybe it was fate, and there was no way to even say goodbye at the end." The peachwood sword you gave her before, she protected her like a baby. ”

I dug up a piece of rabbit's rib and threw it in front of Shen Hua, staring at him with red eyes, "She likes you!" Do you know? If she had a little hope of life, she wouldn't want to die so soon! ”

Yes, I was packing up her things in Ah He's room today, and I found a suicide note under her bed.

She actually wanted to die for a long time...... But the face is still lively and cheerful, not worrying at all, and not letting people see it at all. It's as if the past has really passed...... For us it was the past, but for her, it was far from the past.

When she was at Lian's house, she was designed by Ning Wan to sleep with Song Mingzhe all night, we thought Ah He didn't care, in fact, she already felt dirty, the reason why she was willing to stay in the Shen family villa was just to see Shen Hua who she liked in her heart, but Shen Hua avoided her every time, she felt that it was because she was dirty, so she had no way to like Shen Hua anymore, otherwise she would feel that it was a kind of defilement. Moreover, she felt that she was a monster, not a normal person, and she did not dare to communicate too much with other people, she was afraid that the secret that she had already died once would be discovered.

For a long time, she was immersed in this tangled emotion. Even so, she still has nostalgia for life, and is still full of expectations for love, friendship, and family affection.

"The best thing to do is to leave, leave and start all over again, and I'm still as clean as new." That's what she said in her letter.

No one is wrong in this matter, and there is no way to blame.

Shen Hua froze in place as if he had been struck by thunder, and it took a long time to find his voice, "She is ......" said two words, and his eyes were red, "I thought it was ......"

"Why are you avoiding her?" In this land where Ah He is buried, I asked her the question she wanted to ask the most.

Silent tears slipped down his handsome face, "How can a person like me, whose life is dedicated to the Lord, have his own feelings......"

I watched him for a while, turned around and continued to dig, Ah He, did you hear me? It's not that you're bad, it's that the person you like is someone who can't have love.

After this conversation, Shen Hua didn't stop me anymore, and squatted down to look for it with me.

It was completely dark.

Only Shen Hua and I were left breathing staggered with each other.

The summer night is like a child's face, saying that if you turn your face, you will turn your face, there is no warning at all under the rainstorm, and it will wet my and Shen Hua's clothes in an instant, it doesn't matter if the clothes are wet, the soil is wet by the rain, and the mud is muddy, which increases the difficulty of us digging a pit.

But none of us said that we would give up, so we dug endlessly, after all, there is always a moment when the rain stops, right?

It was already the middle of the night when Aoki found us, and the rain had stopped, but his body was still very wet, sticky and sticky to his body, and the hairs on his arms couldn't stand up when the night breeze blew.

Shen Ming's hand was on my shoulder, and his voice was low, faintly angry, "Follow me." ”

I shrugged my shoulders and shook off his hand, and my hands continued to grope on the ground, not wanting to pay attention to him.

And Aoki was going to pull Shen Hua, Shen Hua had already dug out of strength, and he was pulled like this, and he almost slipped down the slope.

Aoki hurriedly took his hand, and blamed while feeling distressed, "Why bother, what are you doing here?" You don't want your own life, do you? ”

Shen Hua smiled weakly, his face was full of sadness, and he did not speak.

Aoki hated iron and glared at Shen Hua.

Shen Ming tilted his head and gave Aoki a look, Aoki willingly took Shen Hua away, Shen Hua was reluctant in every way, but after all, his physical strength was overdrawn, so he could only do something to him casually.

The departure of Aoki and Shen Hua did not affect me, but Shen Ming stood by my side and never left.

After a long time, I looked up at him, and on the dim hill, his face was indistinguishable, "Why are you still here?" ”

Shen Ming squatted down to eye level with me, "I just want to see how far you can get the little thing." ”

I sighed lightly, looked at him pleadingly, and asked exhaustedly, "Where is Ah He?" You give her back to me, and I'll leave. ”

"How disappointed she would be if she saw you like this." Shen Ming said in a low voice, but the extremely soft voice poked into the softest place in my heart, "Even if you can find her, she is still dead, and her burial is just a formality, what use can it be?" It's just adding to my own troubles. ”

That's right, if Ah He sees me like this, will he blame himself again?

Ah He said when he left, it's okay, everything is okay, let me not take this matter to heart. But after all, it is a fresh life, how can you not take it to heart.

His eyes gradually moistened, and Shen Ming reached out and gently took me into his arms, "Even if I am the Hades King, I can't control everyone's life and death. Life and death are the same as the way of heaven, no one can control them, everyone's life is written in the book of life and death, Qingqing, I'm sorry ......"

After listening to Shen Ming's words, my silent heart gradually began to beat, and even the colors around me began to become vivid.

Many times it is not others who do not let go of themselves, but they do not let go of themselves.

After thinking about this, I threw myself into Shen Ming's arms and cried uncontrollably.

His solid arms made me pick up the sense of security I had not felt for a long time, and my body soaked in the rain was no longer cold, and my heart gradually warmed up.

I don't know how long I cried, but I felt weak, like I had just been fished out of the water.

Shen Ming hugged me by the waist and left step by step with firm steps, as if he was saying his final goodbye to Ah He.

Shen Ming's pace was very steady, I was really tired and sleepy, curled up in his arms, sleepiness gradually crept up my eyes, and I fell asleep unconsciously.

When I woke up, I had been sent back to the Shen family's villa by Shen Ming, and the warm quilt made me feel like I wanted to indulge in it and didn't want to leave.

My head hurt like it was about to explode, and I opened my mouth, only to find that my throat couldn't make any sound.