Chapter 187 A long sigh
Forget Chen frowned.
That's it, I already knew that Fang Qingchen was not a person who could be threatened. It's come to this, so why bother with it. It's good to cut everything off early......
He raised his eyebrows, took a step forward, puffed up his chest, and was finally ready to say out loud where he came from, and said the name of his brother who might have been forgotten by Fang Qingchen a long time ago. However, Chu Ruohong suddenly burst out laughing: "Qingchen, you are so funny, what are you doing with a casual appearance?" You know, I can't kill you. ”
He picked up the silver knife again and stuffed it into Fang Qingchen's hand again.
Fang Qingchen opened his eyes suddenly, his gaze was awe-inspiring, and the light in his eyes was so bright and sharp that Zhao Wangchen, who had already made up his mind, was inexplicably shocked and took two steps back.
However, Chu Ruohong, who was shrouded by this gaze, was as if nothing happened.
He looked at Fang Qingchen and smiled in a low voice: "Qingchen, you only have two choices. One is to help me reset, and then we will start from scratch. The second is that you have killed me with your own hands now. You don't have a third way to go. I'm not going to kill you, I'm just going to ask you to kill me. ”
He laughed as he pulled Fang Qingchen's hand again and grabbed the knife to kill his own heart.
Fang Qingchen frowned, his eyes were cold, and there was almost anger in his gaze when he looked at Chu Ruohong.
Over and over again, over and over again?
Chu Ruohong's crazy self-killing behavior was certainly out of pain and despair, but he knew with certainty that this would hurt the other party more than directly stabbing Fang Qingchen.
It's just that being so crazy, so unexpected, so using the other party's love to hurt the other party by hurting himself, is not Chu Ruohong's use at all. Not even what he could have imagined at all.
It's clear......
This is clearly his own style of acting.
Life after life, he is so extreme and willful, acting recklessly, and he doesn't care about hurting himself to hurt those who he cares about.
In Fang Qingchen's heart, he finally sighed.
back then. He used evil magic to save Chu Ruohong, let the two of them fuse their minds, and tried to influence each other, through his own calm and sobriety, to pull him to break the heart demon.
The two of them are united in their hearts, Fang Qingchen is in the depths of Chu Ruohong's heart, and he was once affected by Chu Ruohong's weak heart, and he almost went mad. And Chu Ruohong ......
Now, he understood. I'm afraid that at that time, when Chu Ruohong was led out of the demonic obstacle by his own mind, he was also affected by his extreme willful and crazy temperament. Therefore, for the people you love, but you have to bear yourself. will hate into the bone marrow, but he knows how to use the other party's affection to hurt the other party as much as possible.
Fang Qingchen's spirit is strong and tenacious, and he got out of the predicament. You can quickly get rid of the interference from Chu Ruohong's heart.
And Chu Ruohong's spirit is weak, his will is weak, and he has just woken up in a crazy obsession, and his mind is confused, so. But he has not been able to completely detach himself from Fang Qingchen's extreme mentality, which will make him have courage and stamina. can conspire with Zhao Wangchen, can pretend to be crazy for so long, can you not have it at all? to complete the game.
You can also hurt others and yourself by killing yourself so frantically after failure.
Fang Qingchen's means were used on Fang Qingchen himself, and Fang Qingchen's heart achieved the situation that made Fang Qingchen fall by himself.
Is this retribution?
Fang Qingchen couldn't even smile bitterly.
Chu Ruohong, if he is not Fang Qingchen, he will never become Fang Qingchen.
Seeing the silver knife approaching Chu Ruohong's heart again, Chu Ruohong muttered: "Qingchen, you are the person I care about, love the most, and hate the most in this world." If you can't make me not hate you, then destroy me, don't let me hate anymore, don't let me be tortured like this again......"
Fang Qingchen finally sighed softly.
There were a lot of things that he didn't want to say. There were some truths that he would rather never debunk.
He was in debt, and he paid his life. Why bother not to let others go, why bother to destroy the joy of revenge and hatred that others have planned and sought?
It's just that...... In any case, he was unwilling to let his hand, holding the knife, plunge into Chu Ruohong's chest.
"Ruohong, you want me to see your heart, you say that I am the person you care about the most. So, would you like to touch your heart and tell me whether you care about me or the throne? ”
Chu Ruohong was stunned and looked up at him: "You are still ...... about the things of the year"
Fang Qingchen sighed lightly and shook his head.
"It's not back then, it's now, it's the ten days that have just passed. Ruohong, you have checked the wounds in my heart many times, but you have not noticed anything wrong. ”
"What's wrong? You weren't injured in the first place, and the one who died on top of the Golden Temple was originally a stand-in you sent! ”
Chu Ruohong laughed miserably: "It's ridiculous, I'm stupid, I know everything, I still can't help tearing your clothes to see, or I'm glad I didn't see the wound, I'm afraid I'm the guy who can deceive himself the most in the world." ”
"He is still the most forgetful person in the world."
Fang Qingchen said lightly: "I have fought for the Chu State all my life, I was born and died, and I was scarred all over my body, do you know?" ”
Chu Ruohong was stunned for a moment, looking at him blankly, not understanding what he meant. Zhao Wangchen's eyes moved slightly, as if he had an understanding.
"Naturally, you don't know. I never told you about the pain of battle, the pain of injury. When you ask occasionally, I only have a few words lightly. But, at the very least, there is one thing you should know. When the palace changed, in the chaos of the army, I protected you alone, fought hard and did not retreat, covered with bruises, only above this chest, I was stabbed three times, and the knife was deep and the bones were visible. Of course, I never let you see my injuries, but you should remember that at that time, my clothes were broken, and you should remember that those three knives were very badly injured and bleeding everywhere. The doctor even said that I might not survive......"
Chu Ruohong finally called out: "There is no injury, there is no injury in your chest......"
Fang Qingchen looked at him with a smile: "Yes, I don't have any injuries on my chest." But you don't notice it. You only remember that I dug my heart and scared you crazy, so I was single-minded, just to look at my heart. You don't remember that I was stabbed in the chest three times, but now there is not a single scar here. You never even noticed ......"
Chu Ruohong's face turned pale a little: "I...... I was just...... For a while...... Didn't pay attention...... I didn't expect ...... I ......"
Fang Qingchen just laughed.
"Ruohong, back then, you once entered my heart, except for ruthlessness. Indifference, hatred, you really never see it again, hear anything else? ”
Chu Ruohong's face turned pale and stood up. He took a step back slowly, his body trembling inexplicably.
Something else, something else......
Ruohong, believe me, please, believe me. If you don't believe me, how can I protect you?
I never knew that human voices could be so sad. So grief, so helpless.
Ruohong, believe me, as long as you are willing to believe me, I will support a country for you, and I can fight against the whole world for you. All I want, as long as you believe me, that's all.
Such humility, such helplessness. It hurts so much.
Let's go, if you don't want me, I'll leave, the fate is over, it's the time to say goodbye, it's okay. It's okay, that's it, it's okay
You. Let go of me, I'll leave forever, you and I don't owe each other.
Is it amazement, sighing, helplessness, or giving up?
Why, why? Chu Ruohong, you can bear me, you can abandon me, you can not believe me, but why do you want to wronged me, why do you insult me, why do you want to impose such a crime on me? Why...... Chu Ruohong, why are you treating me like this!
If you are angry, if you are sad, if you are sad, if you are sad......
Chu Ruohong screamed and hugged his head, no, no, no, what's wrong? This is not true! It's not really! It was a stand-in who died back then, and it was the dead soldier sent by Fang Qingchen to drive him crazy! The person who stood on the Golden Palace, with pain in his heart, but a gentle smile on his face, anger in his heart, and a clear heart in his hand, should not be Fang Qingchen......
But...... But...... Obviously, it was after all this that Fang Qingchen's world was left with despair and darkness, and there was a cold non-forgiveness, no looking back, and no forgiveness......
And until then, that voice had been expecting, calling, longing......
But why, why, why did he pass through his heart, but forgot all the calls and waits, and remembered, only the last hatred and death.
Why, why, he never forgets, it was the stand-in who died, it was the dead who cared for the heart, and his tragic fate was all sown by that man, but he refused to remember for a moment, in the depths of that person's heart, what kind of pain he had seen!
Oh my God......
Fang Qingchen still didn't let him go, and said word by word: "These days, you have been pulling me to me, going in and out together, drinking and eating together, and sleeping in the same bed." Is it really just reluctant? You pointed to your heart and told me that you were not afraid that others would harm you, the sober Emperor, that everything you eat should be shared with me, not so that I could test the poison for you, and that you would not let me leave for a moment, not to guard against assassins......"
Chu Ruohong shouted miserably: "It's not the ground! No! It was Zhao Wangchen who told me to use you as a shield to prevent poison and plotting, but when I am with you, I am really reluctant to let you go, I don't have that heart......"
He hissed and shouted, using all his strength, but the weakness of his tone could not be concealed.
Fang Qingchen looked at him steadily: "You said that I ruthlessly let you be imprisoned as a caged bird for a lifetime, but, just now, I promised to take you away, the world is free, and the four seas are all over, and what is your response?" It was the poison that brought out the earth in me. Chu Ruohong, tell me, what do you value the most? ”
Chu Ruohong stumbled back, afraid of getting too close to Fang Qingchen.
Fang Qingchen looked at him calmly: "Chu Ruohong, think about the past, and then look at the present." The purpose of everything you do has never changed. Stop kidding yourself! If you want to die, find a random place to wipe your neck, don't try to take my hand and kill yourself! While using me and calculating me, you have to shout, I am your most important person. Chu Ruohong, you make me sick. ”
When the last sentence came out, Chu Ruohong was hit hard, his feet were weak, and he fell to the ground. Stunned for a while, he suddenly screamed: "Light dust, light dust......"
He screamed, pounced on Fang Qingchen in a kneeling position, grabbed Fang Qingchen's clothes, and shouted: "Qingchen, Qingchen, believe me." Please, trust me! Yes, the throne is very important to me, I want the throne, I want everything I have back, but my heart for you is also true, I see you, happy, sad, crazy, it's all true, I hold you, I refuse to let go, I don't want to leave, it's also true. Light dust, light dust, I ...... really"
Fang Qingchen was silent.
Yes, the scheming is real, the conspiracy is real, the trap is real, but the pain, the joy, the sadness, the attachment, are also real. How sad it is that all of this is true.
Because it's true, even if you are ordered to sleep, you will cry because of my departure. Because it's true, so, so ......
It's even more hurtful......
Ruohong, do you know, you know that you want to kill me and harm me, and you know that all the bureaus you have set up are plotting against me, but that day, I walked into the Ganning Palace, watched you go crazy, watched you shout, listened to you call my name, and looked at your blood......
I finally relented.
Originally, I just wanted to watch a play with a cold heart, and after paying off my life and paying off my debts, I cut everything off. However, I can see that even if you are acting, your love is real.
Actually, your acting is really clumsy, the porcelain pieces have been cut four or five times on your neck, and they are all flesh wounds, and you haven't rubbed the carotid artery at all.
Little fool, too much, suicide is played too much, and the flaws are particularly obvious.
It's just that you walked over step by step, and you shouted at me like that, and I knew that my heart, which I thought was already iron, still hurt.
Originally, I just wanted to give you back your life, however, at that moment, I decided...... How about repaying you another love?
Chu Ruohong, do you know that I knew that you were going to kill me and hurt me, but the moment I finally hugged you into my arms, I opened my heart again and let you walk in......
In those days, I have been with you, and I have been calmly waiting for your final killing machine. However, those gentleness, those care, are also all true.
Zhao Wangchen came to me that night to remind you. I told him that such a willful day would not be too long, in fact, at that time, I was like you, cherishing this unscrupulous and willful time, but you always have to launch, and I, always have to reject you.
Chu Ruohong, do you know that I have always been pretentious, but last night, you were ordered to sleep by me, but you were still reluctant to cry. I watched you all night, hugged you all night, I even made up my mind, give you again, give myself another chance, if you really regard me as the most important, I will really let go of all the burdens, forget all the past, always accompany you, never leave you again, never hurt you again.
Chu Ruohong, just now, I said that when I took you away from all over the world, I actually hoped that you were willing to smile and nod, however, what you gave me was just that little bit of poison in my heart.
Chu Ruohong...... It's true that you treat me with your heart, but it's also true that the power of the throne is more important to you.
What I mean to you is true, and what I owe you can be repaid with my life. However, my dignity, pride, and principles have never been used for trading, so in my heart, I am more important, in fact, it is true.
What a pity.
You and I are both sincere, but we all have more important people and things to choose, so in the end, we have to abandon those sincerity.
Actually, that's fine. I can let go, and you need to let go eventually. What I owe you, I am repaying, and what you owe, you should face it. The last opportunity, each other has been missed, so why bother to entangle and torture.
Fang Qingchen sighed and stood up.