Chapter 95 of the fourth "Festival in the Wind" returns
"I don't need you." Zhang Minxin said indifferently: "I have seen how he is facing difficulties. You have already given him enough courage and wisdom. It's not that he can't live without you. ”
"He is my apprentice, and I naturally know his abilities. This is also the reason why I can die with peace of mind, but he needs me, not because he can't live without me, but because after I die like this, even if he lives, he is lifeless, and even if he lives, it is only for the promise of me. Feng Jinjie said lightly: "I can't watch my friends live like the walking dead and pretend that they don't know anything." ”
"But it's not your responsibility......"
"It's my responsibility." Feng Jinjie calmly interrupted her, "He has today, so to speak, it is all my fault." Without my push, he might have been just a small county magistrate, and in the end he was dismissed and expelled because he couldn't fight the darkness of the whole world. Without my help, no matter how big he is, he will be limited, and the disasters he will endure after that are also limited, not to help me, he will not guard the border as a civil servant, and endure the pain of separation between husband and wife, father and son. Even in the end, if it weren't for my insistence, he wouldn't be as alive or dead as he is now. ”
Feng Jinjie's expression was slightly gloomy: "I originally planned to commit suicide immediately after receiving the order, so as to minimize his suffering." ”
"You're crazy." Zhao Chen scolded angrily, "We are strictly forbidden to commit suicide, and we will be deducted points." ”
"yes, you'll be deducted points." Feng Jinjie said bitterly, "How selfish I am. Just because I didn't want to be deducted points, just because I had some crazy thoughts in my heart at the end, and I wondered if he would stick to the end of the matter, just because I was crazy and vaguely longing if he could do something for me, I let him suffer so miserably. I let him watch me suffer. I forced him to kill me with my own hands, and I harmed him, and for many years, he couldn't speak, he couldn't see, and life was worse than death. I always wishfully thought I was planning for him. I still always feel that even if he hurts for me, it will always smooth the wound for a long time, and I still deceive myself into believing that as long as he still has the ideal of serving the country and the people, he will not indulge in pain for a long time. ”
"If it weren't for you, he would be just a small person, and you helped him all the way to get to where he is today, but you are not his nanny. You can't protect him for the rest of his life. It was he who gave up on you, it was he who did not protect you. In front of the so-called overall situation of the country, he regards you as insignificant, and everything now is just what he deserves. ”
Feng Jinjie smiled slightly, and there was some ridicule in his eyes: "Zhang Minxin, this is the real world, not the stories you have seen about love coming and going, love life and death." The people in the story. You can do it for the sake of so-called love, don't want your father. Don't recognize relatives, don't care about teachers, don't care about the country. For the sake of loving someone, it is the rise and fall of the world, and the lives are ruined, and it has nothing to do with them. You may think that the so-called feelings that shed the blood of the world and want to protect the people I love, even if I lose the world, and live up to my lover, are very beautiful and moving, but I think it is extremely selfish and ridiculous. If people in reality do this kind of thing, it will only make people's hearts chill. Lu Dongli, whom I know, would never do such a thing, and if he was a person who would lose the world for his personal feelings, he would not be my true friend. ”
His smile gradually revealed pride, the kind of pride that came from the heart because of his friend, and he said to Zhang Minxin almost with a condescending attitude: "You don't understand this feeling, and you don't know how to respect this feeling." Family affection, friendship, love, ideals, responsibility, conscience, all these are the most important things in life. There's no need to force which is the best and heaviest. He has never wronged me, he has never put me in a trivial position, he has always cherished me as his life. ”
Zhang Minxin didn't expect that he was so kind-hearted, and he was regarded as a donkey's liver and lungs, and said angrily: "You said so greatly, but you didn't commit suicide because of a moment of selfishness, and you didn't cry out to him every day to save you when you were completely out of your mind." ”
Feng Jinjie's expression darkened slightly, but he immediately said calmly: "Yes, no matter how good the truth is, I did have a moment of weakness, a moment of wavering, and in the depths of my heart, there are indeed a lot of selfish thoughts. However, I will not regret my inferiority for this. I am a human being, I am flesh and blood, so I will have weaknesses, greed, weakness, and mistakes. Lu Dongli is the same as me, but he is more determined than me, and he is more able to fight against the weakness of his heart than me. No one is born a saint. If it is a human being, it will have desires and selfishness. The difference between humans and other animals is that we know our mistakes and can change them, and we can overcome the evil and selfish thoughts in our hearts. That's why we can and create such a brilliant civilization. ”
He smiled slightly, his expression was bright, and he raised his hand to the main screen: "Zhang Minxin, I know you look down on him, you think he is just an ant, but don't forget, it is precisely because of generations of people who have persevered, they sacrifice their lives and forget death, they go forward from generation to generation, for the sake of the people and the world, and strive for fairness and rights and interests, which can make human beings move from recklessness to civilization, progress from generation to generation, pursue better and freer from generation to generation, more suitable for the development of the whole world, and more able to give the people a fair system. That's what makes the world as free as we are today. That's why you can condescend like this today, and treat them as ants to despise. ”
Zhang Minxin was angry and annoyed, obviously she gathered everyone to dissuade Feng Jinjie, why did she become a lesson from Feng Jinjie now: "Okay, no matter how much reason you say, it's useless." We won't let you out, it's a violation, it's a violation of the law of time and space, it's a crime, and as your classmates, we won't watch you go the wrong way. What's more, not only do you want to go back yourself, but you also want to bring things that don't fit that era, which is another crime on top of a crime, and you really don't want to live anymore. Jin Jie smiled and raised a small bag of things in his hand:
It is a thing that does not conform to the times. Da Hui Dan, Soul Return, Returning Pill, I This is all a thing of that era. ”
Everyone glared at him together, and several people rebuked at the same time: "Sophistry." ”
The more ancient times when medicine was not developed, the more people liked to spread the stories of miraculous doctors, what life and death and flesh and bones, what can be saved as long as there is still a breath, what bones are all broken, all the meridian tendons are broken, just stick the elixir.
In fact, this kind of medicine was not only not available in ancient times, but even in the later generations for thousands of years, after the medicine was extremely developed, it was never really seen.
Feng Jinjie himself was a lifetime of imperial doctors, and he had a deep knowledge of ancient medicine, and after returning to Xiaolou, he was idle and had nothing to do, so he studied some medicine in later generations.
Although in the era of Xiaolou, because everyone could change their bodies at will, medical research almost came to a standstill, but before that, medicine did reach an incredible peak.
In order to pass the time, the Wind King Festival used to be fun, using modern instruments to create many ancient elixirs that could only exist in legends.
After he woke up this time, when he saw what happened to Lu Dongliang, he didn't hesitate at all, and immediately decided to return to the world, but if he wants to do a good job, he must first sharpen his tools, and he still has to bring more tools. Xiaolou's modern and high-tech things are impossible to take away, and the medicine he used to make for fun was originally made according to ancient legends, so it can barely be regarded as an ancient thing. With sure, yes.
Although he also knew Lu Dongli's eyesight and language ability, the biggest obstacle might just be a psychological problem, but there was always a panacea, and there was always no harm in carrying it.
So, when he saw only half of it, he got up and stood up. Hurry to pack your things.
Zhang Minxin simply stared at her classmates with eyes that hated iron but not steel. The original plan was that if the current situation of Lu Dong's fence could be concealed, he would try to persuade him if he couldn't hide it, so that Feng Jinjie would not be too sad, who knows, this bastard. I didn't even save the step of being sad, I didn't even have a psychological struggle, I just said that I was going to leave, I really thought that returning to Hongchen was to go to the street to buy vegetables.
Seventy years is a long time, and he cannot return as soon as he died, as he did in previous lifetimes. Even if the people in the small building are both civil and military, and their talents are peerless, there is no guarantee that they can cope with all the hardships and hardships, in case they die. Or a serious injury, trapped in the body forever. Not being able to return to the small building freely is simply the greatest horror. What's more, even if this life is over, what will happen, and then the corresponding punishment and investigation, add up, I am afraid that it will not take two or three thousand years of suffering.
Just for the pain of a mortal, just for the sake of wanting to help each other for decades with the flick of a finger, and to pay for thousands of years of suffering and punishment, this guy. In the end, there is no basic reason.
By the end of the day, she was so angry that she didn't want to speak. said angrily: "It's up to you to say whatever you like, we won't let people go anyway." Even if we tie you up, we will tie you up, and we won't let you ruin yourself like this. ”
Feng Jinjie frowned slightly, and he was already a little angry.
Just when the situation was deadlocked, a broken shout sounded: "If he wants to go, let him go, even if it is a crime, it does not harm others, even if it is a catastrophe, it is his own choice, why should we decide the fate of others with our own opinions." ”
Everyone looked at the only one who stood up in support of the Wind Festival. Zhang Minxin said angrily: "Fang Qingchen, it's just that you are ruthless to the people in the world, why don't you even care about your classmates." ”
"Students need not only to care, but also to respect. We can disagree with his own decision, but we must respect it, not to mention ......" Fang Qingchen's tone paused slightly, "If I had such a friend, I would do the same for him." ”
Everyone looked at him in amazement and disbelief, including the Wind Festival that he supported.
After a long time, Zhang Minxin said: "Who can't say big words, and someone has to believe them." Just your selfish and crazy nature, look at how unlucky those emperors who meet you are, they just didn't put you first by chance, and they ended up miserable, Lu Dongli is a person who always takes care of the overall situation everywhere and always sacrifices his friends to run into you, God knows what you can do. ”
Feng Jinjie's face showed an unhappy look, although he knew that Zhang Minxin was not targeting him, but he didn't like someone to comment on Lu Dongli like this.
But Fang Qingchen only smiled faintly, his eyes were all cold and proud: "How can people like you understand?" He looked at them almost indifferently, and didn't give a second word of explanation.
How can the people on the other side understand? He did not demand that his love must be put above all else. He never forced his lover to admit that he was more important than his parents, his friends, and his country.
All he wants is the fidelity of love itself. The blows he suffered were not because the king valued the country more, but simply because he did not love enough.
All the high-sounding reasons can't hide the fact that they don't love each other enough, and they can't even give him the least trust.
He doesn't mind facing difficulties in order to protect his country, and he doesn't care that in a critical moment, his lover leaves him in distress for the sake of the big picture. He is not afraid of any danger or difficulty, and all he hates is betrayal and distrust.
From the first Queen of Gyeongkook to be wary of him, a few years later, another queen misunderstood him because of other people's clumsy schemes. With the life and death side by side with King Yan for many years, he can't resist the suspicion and prevention after becoming famous, and the care for Chu Ruohong can't fight the simplest imperial mental technique.
He never asked his lover to put him above the people of the country. He was not afraid of suffering, he was not afraid of sacrifice. He doesn't even mind that when he can't have both, the people he loves give up on him for the sake of the country's overall situation. As long as you can be honest with each other at the last moment, you can be honest and honest.
All he hated was a thousand loves
Thousands of after, hypocrisy, weakness, suspicion, betrayal.
All he did was repay him. Whether it is love or hate, sincere treatment, or suspicion and suspicion, he will do the same, multiply and reciprocate a hundredfold thousandfold.
Everything, but no one understood, not even his teachers, his classmates, and the person he chose to support.
Like other classmates, he also watched the simulation record of the Feng Jin Festival, and others shook their heads and sighed, not understanding why the Feng Jin Festival was so serious and confused, but he only felt envious.
Others think that everything Feng Jinjie does is too stupid and worthless, for a friend who always gives him up. He only saw that there was no suspicion, no misunderstanding, no wavering and suspicion between this friendship. Such affection is pure and clear, as bright as glass, and as bright as crystal. Such a beautiful relationship, such a mutual acquaintance, belief and trust, made him envious and frightened.
Others are always laughing and saying that Feng Jinjie is not worth it, others are always angry, Lu Dongli is unforgivable, others are always anxious, they can't let Feng Jinjie know the truth, and they can't let him do stupid things.
And he just smiled indifferently.
The love between Feng Jinjie and Lu Dongli, why bother others to comment. Between them, what is worthy or not, forgive or not, for the sake of such a friend, what can't be done, and why care about what is smart and stupid.
Fang Qingchen's unexpected speech and statement made the whole situation stiff again. However, the encirclement of several classmates did not loosen at all.
Feng Jinjie raised his eyebrows a little impatiently, oh my God, did he have to force him to jump up and kill him.
Fortunately, before his patience ran out, the rescuer finally arrived.
"What are you doing in a heap, fighting a mental battle? This is the main control room, if you break any important equipment, do you want to go home? Professor Zhuang's voice came. Everyone breathed a sigh of relief, and everyone moved out of the way.
Professor Zhuang strolled over, but his eyes were firmly locked on Feng Jinjie: "Jinjie, you are an adult." I am your mentor, and my authority is only to supervise your studies. Your choice is against the rules of the school. It's also against the laws of the Temporal Authority, but since it won't hurt anyone else, I'm not going to force you to trap you. However, you also have to think it out yourself. After we travel through time and space, we can no longer use the original Vajra incorruptible body, even in the small building, your physical body is no different from mortals, and when we go to the human world, there are many restrictions. And. Your current body is not the same as your previous life, and you are back in the world. Lu Dongli can't recognize you as a wind festival. You don't get any help from the small building, and you can't use the automatic positioning system and teleportation device. You can only be teleported out of the mountains with a teleporter. You rush on your own. The world is so big, with your strength alone, how can you find a person who hides yourself, and after finding him, how can you make him accept you. Don't forget that you can't tell him the truth about Xiao Lou, or our central computer will destroy him in no time. The life span of a human being is very short, and in such a short period of time, aimlessly looking for a wandering person. Keep him safe and make his life better. And to untie the knot in his heart, the chances of success in this matter will not be greater than digging a needle in the sea, are you really sure that you are going to do it? ”
Feng Jinjie smiled, and his eyes did not waver from beginning to end: "Professor, success or failure, in the sky." To do or not to do, in me! ”
Professor Zhuang sighed softly and waved his hand: "When it comes to this, I don't have anything to say, you can go." ”
The wind nodded and turned to leave, without the slightest hesitation.
Several classmates looked at each other, and there was a lot of confusion in their eyes.
Feng Jinjie walked to the door, and the moment the door opened automatically, Zhang Minxin couldn't help shouting: "All the efforts of the past generations have come to naught, and the future will have to endure thousands of years of hardship, just for a thing with little hope and impossible to succeed, is it worth it?" ”
"It's worth it." The answer was not the Feng Jinjie who didn't go back and left, but Fang Qingchen, who was standing aside.
"What the person concerned thinks is worth it is worthwhile, and any opinion from us outsiders is meaningless. Besides......" He stared at the door that was closed again, but his eyes seemed to pass through the gate, chasing the figure of Feng Jinjie resolutely without returning, and there was a faint sense of yearning, "When he makes a decision, he doesn't think about whether it is worth it or not, such a boring question. ”
The entire main control room was completely silent, and the students either pondered, sighed, shook their heads, or disagreed.
Professor Zhuang only glanced at Fang Qingchen deeply.
I used to think that Qingchen's temperament was too extreme and willful, but now I know that it turns out that Feng Jinjie, a good student, is the same. It's just that the two of them are willful in different ways, and they go to different extremes.
Feng Jinjie completed the thesis but completely ruined his grades, and Fang Qingchen, if he continues like this, he will never be able to complete the thesis, as a tutor, what should he do?
He sighed heavily, alas, there are students under his hands who are as powerful as Ah Han and whose personalities are equally strange and strange, there are extremely willful and reckless disciples like Fang Qingchen, and there are even students like Feng Jinjie, who seem to be well-behaved and obedient, making all teachers proud, once it breaks out, he will completely break the record and become the first student in history to violate the rules so seriously.
Alas, as their mentor, I am unlucky or lucky. Will they be exhausted by their exhaustion, or will they be remembered in the history of education because of them?
Compared to the troubles of the tutors, the students are not easy.
Zhang Minxin sat back on the main console silently, and after a few operations, the main screen was divided into two, showing the figure of Feng Jinjie on one side, and Lu Dongli on the other.
Everyone's eyes naturally look at the main screen.
This time, Fengjinjie re-entered the WTO, and there is no way back, no matter life or death, no matter what is good or bad, he will not be able to return to Xiaolou in the short term
What will happen to him, whether he will succeed or not, all this no one knows.
For a long time, I don't know who it was, and asked softly: "We...... Are we really not helping at all? ”
There was silence in the main control room, and no one answered.