245. Unspeakable secrecy

He never denied his admiration for this woman.

Maybe it's because of the pearl. It may also be the reason for those admirers, who have never looked down on women very much, and always feel that although they are not inferior to men, they often have too many miscellaneous things in their hearts. Except for a few few, they are not suitable for cultivating immortals.

But Mo Tiange is the one he thinks is the other.

She is diligent, and when her talent is extremely poor, she will not feel sorry for herself, but will work harder than others, even if she learns that she is talented, she still does not slack off; She is serious, since she has known her, I have never seen her put her mind on other messy things, just seriously cultivating immortals and seriously walking her own path; She loves herself, since she was still a little qi refining monk who had nothing, and if she wanted to go further on the immortal path, she always worked hard by herself, not betraying her pride and self-esteem; She still has some wisdom, although she can also do the wrong thing and go the wrong way. But there will be a lesson.

From the beginning of knowing her, such an inconspicuous little monk in Kunwu has slowly grown to this day, becoming a true elite disciple of the Great Gate Sect. Her hard work and persistence have never changed, but her experience and handling things are growing. Although he himself has pushed a hand in it, her talent and hard work are also undeniable.

In fact, in a way, she was lucky. I thought it was a waste spirit root, but it turned out to be a heavenly asset, and it was also favored by the god cultivator and obtained some strange treasures.

However, her own efforts deserve such a result.

In fact, which monk who can go to the back is not the result of diligence and luck? The master is unlucky, and he relies on his own cultivation to advance to the next level, but there are many strange treasures in the fighting method on his body, and these are also the foundation of his life. Uncle Zhenyang and Uncle Miaoyi, including the Master Songfeng who had an enmity with their master and apprentice, which one of them had never encountered a chance and had not obtained a strange treasure? And that includes himself.

Everyone in Xikunwu said that Qin Shoujing was a genius who was hard to find for thousands of years, but in fact? Dual spirit root qualifications, even if both spirit roots are excellent. How can he compare to the true geniuses of those single spirit roots and alien spirit roots? Even if he is simple-minded and never encounters a bottleneck, it is the same.

Before building the foundation, it was indeed the result of his own efforts, but it was also indispensable to the cultivation of the master. After building the foundation, he often went out, not only for the state of mind experience, but also for chance. Because he felt that he couldn't rely on Master for the rest of his life.

He had good luck and was alert enough, so he successfully encountered many opportunities and obtained many spiritual treasures, including the Yang Spirit Bead and the Sanyang True Fire Sword.

At the age of seventy-eight, people who don't know are surprised that he, a monk with a double spirit root, can do this to this extent, but in fact? It's because he got the Yang Spirit Bead.

Yang Lingzhu is a kind of exotic treasure formed by the concentration of heaven and earth aura, itself is condensed by very pure yang xìng aura, a small one, but it has sucked up a certain spiritual vein of Kunwu, making it an ordinary mountain peak without any aura. And then buried somewhere for tens of thousands of years. Got by him.

Therefore, after obtaining the Yang Spirit Bead, he didn't need to absorb the spiritual energy from the outside world at all, because in a certain way, he had an entire spiritual vein in his body.

Such a strange treasure made his cultivation advance by leaps and bounds, and he was successfully promoted to the rank of Yudan at the age of only seventy-eight.

However, if you change someone, you will definitely be able to get these strange treasures and encounter these opportunities? Sometimes, even if the opportunity and the treasure are in front of you, those who don't work hard can't get it.

Those monks who do not know how to work hard, but always talk about their talents and opportunities to be higher than him, or who do not work hard because of their talents, will never understand these truths

So, in a way, he admired this woman because she made him see himself.

Master told him that people who are opposite or similar tend to be curious about each other, and curiosity is the first step in developing feelings.

He didn't believe it, but now he has to.

When did you think of her as a woman and not as a child?

Maybe it was when he came to Xuanqingmen to restore his original identity, or maybe it was in those long thirty-five years. He tried to remember, but found that he couldn't remember. Sometimes it even feels like there is no reason for this feeling. Suddenly, it came about.

Because of appreciation, so curious, because of curiosity, so concerned, because of attention, so put more thoughts. When you let go of your mind more and more, you can't give up in the end.

Sometimes he thinks carefully, maybe it's because she was already grown up when they met, right? Their meeting was seven years late, giving her enough time to grow up. So at the beginning, although he still thinks about how this child is, he knows in his heart that she has grown up and she is not a child anymore.

She regarded him as a fellow monk, and would laugh with him, tell him something, and even talk about some things on her mind. This kind of lightness and joy makes him feel happy.

And he subconsciously wants to hide his identity, also because he likes this feeling of equality with her. I always felt that if he told the truth. The distance between them will suddenly become farther away, and she will no longer have that trust in him.

He told Zhong Muling that because he didn't hide it, she wouldn't stay in Xuanqingmen. That's right, that's one of the reasons. She was like a frightened bird at the time, if she knew his true identity, she was afraid that she would try to escape, right? She could trust Qin Xi a little, but she couldn't trust Qin Shoujing wholeheartedly, especially when she fled like that.

To save her in the luàn of the demon beast, he didn't think too much about it. Was there any superfluous emotion for her at that time? It seems that too much time has passed, and he can't even remember it. But he was sure that at that time, he would not have the idea of double cultivation or anything like that.

A monk who has just built a foundation, he will not look at it, even if she is extraordinarily talented. The gap of more than a hundred years is nothing in the eyes of immortal cultivators, and he has no blood relationship with her. Even he and his father are just companions, although they are incompatible, in fact, they are more than a hundred years apart. Seniority? For monks, this is simply not a problem. There is only one thing that he can't care less about, and that is the gap in cultivation.

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He patiently searched for the traces of the past in his heart, but found that the reason was so simple. He is not a detached person, and the utilitarian interests of the monk are buried deep in his blood and bones. Even if he has a good feeling, he Qin Shoujing, the future hope of Xuanqingmen, will not marry a woman who has just built a foundation and the immortal road is unknown.

These are the fragments he picked up when he thinks about it today, and he never thought about it back then.

Later, when he entered the Void Heaven Realm, he saw those two god-transforming monks, and let him suffer such humiliation.

He thought that he was standing high and looking at her, and he had a little good feeling in his heart, but it was difficult to convince himself to let go of his cultivation opinion. But it turned out that in the eyes of others, he only ended up in the word "furnace".

These two words are almost the greatest humiliation for men.

This is especially true for Qin Shoujing, who thinks very highly of himself and has no dust under his eyes.

Therefore, he cultivated frantically, wanting those two people to know that he was Qin Shoujing. It will be an existence that can match them, or even surpass them, and finally step into the avenue.

But the master said that he had entered his own magic barrier, and let him think about it carefully, the simplicity of the first cultivation of immortals.

At that time, he didn't cultivate immortals for any reason, just because he wanted to cultivate immortals. So he didn't have any ties, no obsessions, just cultivated wholeheartedly.

Not anymore.

Over the years, it's not that he doesn't know that his mood has changed, he is no longer the Qin Shoujing who has no superfluous emotions in his heart, doesn't know the taste of obsession, has a pure heart, and has a simple Taoist heart.

But once it changes, how can it become back to its original simplicity?

He tried to calm himself down, and the retreat was thirty-five years.

And in the past thirty-five years, in fact, he fell into the situation laid by himself, and finally trapped himself firmly. The more you have to prove yourself, or the more you love it in your imagination, so you are obsessed with it, and the magic obstacle is difficult to go.

Today, little by little, he slowly collects these thoughts that he never thought about in the past from the corner of his memory, no matter how difficult these thoughts were to speak.

He originally thought that he or his whole life was like this, Shen mí immortal road, a lonely life, and finally set foot on the supreme avenue.

Or, they will really fall in love with a woman, no matter what their status is, and they will be with them until the end of their longevity, and they will sit together.

But it turned out that he was not as innocent as he thought, nor as noble as he imagined.

He has feelings for a woman, but he is trapped in the view of cultivation, and enjoys the superiority of looking down on her. Because of his self-esteem, and this sense of superiority, he cultivated frantically, so that he could look down on her again.

Why such dark emotions? Or because he can't let go of her, but he can't let go of his ridiculous self-esteem, and he doesn't want to admit that he was in love first. Or maybe he was so utilitarian in his own right that he was no different from the monks.

Master was right, he had entered the demonic barrier, thinking that by cultivating himself and concentrating on cultivation to the Yuan Infant, he would be able to get rid of these unspeakable gloom. In reality, it's just putting the cart before the horse.

But even if he asked his heart, he wouldn't have said it now.

If you say it now, what's the difference between trying to use her? If you can't get married, you want to get her, so that you can get rid of your obsession and get married smoothly? He didn't want to do such a thing, he didn't even want to have anything to do with it.

This is what he can do after admitting all his gloom, the last bit of persistence.

Chengxian Road, after all, you have to go by yourself, how can you hope to go to the left side of the door? Even love, cultivating immortals is still his lifelong wish.

And she probably won't want an emotion mixed with utilitarianism.

Therefore, if love can't be let go, then, just wait for him to become a yuan baby, wait for her to turn into a golden pill, and then simply ask, would you like to visit the fairy road together?

If she is willing, her long-cherished wish can be fulfilled, and if she is unwilling, she will have no chance in this life.

What's more? Actually, I'm not sure if I can change it at night, so I'll change it first. This chapter is a psychological analysis, and it is also a jiāo generation of some of someone's behaviors in the previous article, which is a bit boring.