The emperor, who had lost his restraint for a time, was anxious to get rid of the omnipresent and powerful shadow of the Empress Dowager Feng - Empress Dowager Feng's eloquence, Empress Dowager Feng's foresight, the new generation of emperors standing on the shoulders of great men, and even her favorite wife were selected for her by her vicious eyes...... Subconsciously, I want to resist and get rid of ...... An extremely subtle psychology: because she is so much like her.

She grew up with her, and unconsciously, many words and deeds, and many ways of thinking were very similar to her.

Therefore, he has never let her be the queen!

Men who dare to move their capitals, don't they dare to abolish a bad habit?

It's just that he didn't want to at that time-

It's so strange, so subtle reluctance.

Outsiders don't understand it when they want to break their heads, and even he himself sometimes doesn't fully understand it - and he doesn't dare to understand it.

Until she broke with him, until Feng Miaozhi entered the palace, until he saw two faces so similar - sometimes, he didn't know who was who...... I felt regretful and guilty in my heart, so I made her the queen by mistake - it wasn't her Feng Miaolian after all.

After all, it is not the path that the Queen Mother chose for herself.

Is it a victory?

Unexpectedly, the cost of this trip is so great.

The psychology of people, the darkness of a certain moment, who can say clearly?

Even he Tuoba Hong is no exception.

I used to be vindictive about this - it's incredible to think about it.

At this time, the burden that had been hidden in his heart for a long, long time, even the depression and depression that had plagued him for so long were gone.

Instead, it was Feng Miaolian, who listened quietly.

I felt understanding and sympathy—the kind of sympathy that breeds because of pity.

He, the emperor, is really not easy.

Such a strict mother, such a great woman - she has erected a monument in front of him, it is so difficult to surpass.

Even his own embarrassing identity - the illegitimate son of the Empress Dowager Feng!

What if he is the eldest son of Emperor Hongwen?

Such a title as an illegitimate child will also accompany him for the rest of his life.

There is no way to get rid of it.

Therefore, the mother has become less like the mother, and the son has become less like the son - there are no relatives outside, no strong support inside - he has fought his way out of such a difficult environment.

Isn't this a great pain in the heart of a man who is arrogant and ambitious?

He also needs an outlet for catharsis.

It's just that I didn't know it at that time.

For so many years, I didn't even know at all.

only saw his filial piety to the Queen Mother, and only saw his mourning for the death of the Queen Mother - it turned out that in his mind, he was, more or less, a spy?

That's right, she was Empress Dowager Feng's spy—the spy she sent to him; It was also the spy he sent to her.

A double spy.

So separated by distance.

No matter how close people are, who dares to say who really understands each other without any distance?

No wonder, once she got sick, he threw herself into the arms of other women so easily—at least to see how she was different from other women. In other words, after completely getting rid of the shadow of the queen mother, what kind of changes did life make.

Unexpectedly, everything was not as easy as he imagined.

It is true that strange women flattered him, welcomed him, and did everything in their power to please him, but these were within the limits of the court—they were determined to submit to him, not to love him.

Everything everyone does is to get double the benefits from him: either to improve his status, or to seek promotion and wealth for the family, or to win the crown prince for his children......

How could anyone have ever loved him as a man – as much as a normal man?

After a thousand turns, I realized that love turned out to be the most expensive thing in the world.

As soon as his heart knotted open, his voice became brisk: "Miaolian, you see, sometimes I am also a very unbearable person, right?" But I won't be like that in the future......"

Actually, he didn't have this for a long time.

Sometimes, it's often a thought, and it suddenly comes to pass.

It is precisely by understanding this that we know how to go forward.

She didn't answer.

I don't know how to answer. His head kept resting on the head of the bed, stupidly, his eyelashes drooping, neither looking at him nor at himself, his expression flying far away. Even if it's morning and twilight, even if it's a childhood sweetheart, even if it's a pillow Fengyue, in fact, who has really understood whom?

"Wonderful ......"

In the dark, he took her hand, and the palm of his hand was warm. Since she became pregnant, her body temperature has increased, and her palms are often hot, unlike when she vomits blood, her whole body is often cold.

Even her belly, which was diagnosed by Dr. Hua as "Gong Han", but I don't know if it was because she was cured or because she was pregnant, and now it has become hot.

It is guaranteed that the child can live comfortably in the warm belly of his mother, and not be invaded by the cold. The gentle caress of his large hands brings a reassuring power.

Even when he was closest to her, he had never been so gentle - it was a kind of tenderness other than the love between men and women, far beyond the simple love between men and women, it was a deep integration, husband and wife, relatives, and long-term affection...... Maybe one day, the two will never have a little bit of passion again, but that warm feeling will only become longer and longer, more and more affectionate.

The big hand goes down, and the ten fingers are interlocked.

Even the scars on the palms were warm, fused with flesh and blood, and they couldn't be distinguished. However, I can feel it, because there is a slight difference in the slight bulge.

In the dark night, Tuoba Hong's voice was full of emotion: "Miaolian, unconsciously, we have been together for so many years...... Alas, after a long time, I can still vividly remember the flatbread you brought me to eat when you came to the secret room...... That flatbread is delicious......"

The child who was hungry and thirsty for two or three days almost regarded the flatbread as a peerless delicacy at that time.

Even if he delicacies the sea every day afterwards, he never felt that the food tasted so good again.

Even the girl standing beside him at that time, he thought about it, and he also had a heart-beating feeling, at that time, she was so thin, her face was so white that it was almost transparent, and there was a heartbreaking stubbornness in her panicked expression: she didn't let anyone hurt him, bullied him, even the queen mother...... A little girl, a little boy, affection, from then on.

At that time, she was as beautiful as a fairy in his eyes.

"Miao Lian, if it weren't for you...... Maybe I won't be me today......"

In the dark night, her palms were held in the palm of his, burning hot and intimate.

I see.

I've always been grateful.

He has always been deeply grateful - this life-saving grace is not a dispensable thing in life for him, but a miracle in a desperate situation.

Therefore, the grace of dripping water is reciprocated?

So, even if she was a double spy, he was grateful?

Therefore, for many years, no matter how disobedient, arrogant, and out-of-character she was, he did not depose her, never said that she was in the cold palace, and he never even beat her once...... No matter how angry she was, she was allowed to look back?

The court career is not a civil husband and wife, and the Hedong lion's roar is not allowed to exist - a smart and virtuous woman or a ruthless woman, thinking of her Feng Miaolian, the means are not very clever, and not so flattering, how can He De get his forgiveness and forgiveness again and again? ?

If it had been any other man, she would have died 10,000 times.

If she met a man like Emperor Wu of the Han Dynasty, she thought to herself that she had died 100,000 times, where would she still have the life to fight for the position of empress alive?

So unbearable, so coercive, so repeated, he even gave her the queen's throne.

In the end, he gave it to her.

Even if he failed Feng Miaozhi, he did not live up to her Feng Miaolian.

Come to think of it, it's all because of that deep gratitude.

For him, she is different from other women after all. is not only a childhood sweetheart and playmate who depend on each other, but also an indispensable part of all his memories, these many years, it has become a flesh-and-blood whole, and it can no longer be separated.

Even, this time the dissolution of the harem and the removal of other concubines, is the same?

Is that so?

Her voice was a little erratic: "Your Majesty, in fact, you don't have to thank me at all......"

In the dark, his voice sounded a little strange: "Miao Lian...... How can I thank you? ”

"Actually...... Even if I hadn't brought you food, you wouldn't have died...... Queen Mother, she is just testing your ...... She's just doing it for others to see...... The Queen Mother will definitely not harm you......"

Of course he does.

Later, everything was known.

Only a woman like Empress Dowager Feng can use such a means, and later facts have proved that it really blocked the mouth of the world, and also blocked the gossip that questioned his identity, thus making his future road smoother.

It's just that after many years of struggle, she really knows those stubborn old nobles too well, but whatever she supports, they oppose it; But whatever she opposes, they support in their bones.

Tiger poison does not eat children, and a woman who can be so cruel and ruthless to a hairy child is unlikely to be the child's own mother.

Therefore, the Xianbei nobles raised the banner of protecting his little emperor Tuoba Hong so clearly.

Throughout his life, at the end of the world, that group of Xianbei men who thought they had won, how did they know that the last person who laughed was actually the woman who was extremely insidious? ?

It is the turn of the deep scheming, the patient planning, and the resourcefulness and foresight, if the Empress Dowager Feng claims to be the second, then who dares to claim to be the first?

Later, Tuoba Hong completely understood.

Some painstaking efforts, some love, will not be realized until a long, long time - until he controls the world with one hand, he can understand the pain and pain.