When Fang Qingchen believed in the reins of the horse and walked under the moon, outside the capital, on the hill, someone was staring at him from afar.

Coming back from the spies guarding outside Fang Qingchen's mansion, Liu Heng entered Fang's mansion at night, and he left the palace, left Qin Jing, and found this high place on the mountain, waiting for him.

He knew that if Liu Heng hadn't been convinced, he wouldn't have gone to Fang Qingchen. He also knew that the willful and radical Fang Qingchen's final choice must be to go quietly and no longer let him make painful choices. He also knew that Fang Qingchen would definitely not return to Chu, he would only choose this direction away from Chu and leave.

What he didn't know was that not long ago, when he led the army to leave the Chu State, Fang Qingchen had also been on the top of the mountain from afar, staring at each other like this......

Qin Xufei quietly let his gaze follow the mountain, so small that he could only faintly see his figure.

Hearing the sound of sighing in his ears, Qin Xufei's eyes still refused to move down the mountain slightly, and he only said softly: "Ah Heng!" ”

"I went to the palace and couldn't find you, Manager Sun showed me the letter you left for me, ...... you" Liu Heng sighed, stood side by side with Qin Xufei, and looked down with his gaze, what he could see was the same, only a faint shadow.

"If you really don't give up, don't suffer like this. He ......"

Qin Xufei just shook his head.

"I can't keep him, and I can't keep him."

Liu Heng was silent for a moment, but still spoke: "Of course, he is ruthless, but if it weren't for his arrangement, things would only be able to drag on for another ten or twenty years." But sooner or later, those people will also compete for power and profit and lure wolves into the house. If it weren't for him, we would all be too old to fight by then, and even if we wanted to go back to our division to save the country, we would not have the strength. can only be depressed and helpless in the state of Chu, watching our own country being carved up and disintegrated, and the lives of people are ruined...... In the end, all of us will only die alone in the Chu State, and we will not have the glory we have today. Although he was planning for the Chu State, we also accepted his affection. Got his advantage. The great Qin State, can't you even give him a place to live?

"Ah Heng, I know, if it weren't for the fact that you couldn't bear to make me sad, you wouldn't say that."

Qin Xufei looked at the figure that was slowly moving away at the foot of the mountain, and his tone was gloomy.

"I've seen the newly compiled household registration register in Beijing. Half of the people are missing. The slaughtered cities are even worse than the capital. I also copied the list of the dead in our army by hand. So many brothers, who followed me, suffered a lot of displacement, and there was no country to return for many years. Seeing that there were peaceful days, but for me to return to killing, fell in this battle. ”

Qin Xufei's tone was bleak.

"Ah Heng. Twenty years, a lot can happen. I can't touch my conscience and say that this catastrophe, if it weren't for him, if it wasn't for him trying to help me as the king of Qin, it would have happened. I can't say to all the people who died, for the sake of the big picture, for the sake of the country. For my sake, their death is deserved. I read all the way to the literary network However, I know that all this is not his fault. Not his sin. I don't blame him for hurting him, but I can't get along with him right away without any guilt. Because, I can't let go, I'm sinful. ”

His face was lonely and desolate in the moonlight.

"The disasters of the Qin country, the deaths and injuries of the people, the sacrifices of my comrades, everything in all places, in fact, I am the one who should bear the greatest responsibility and the greatest sin. If it weren't for my indecisiveness over the years, the kindness of a woman, and if it weren't for the recklessness, shallowness, and incompetence I have always had, how could I have corrupted the country so much by tyrants and wicked people. But he wouldn't think like that......"

Liu Heng stood quietly beside Qin Xufei, listening to his soft whispers, looking at Qin Xufei's eyes that showed deep feelings. He never knew that human eyes could show so many complex and true feelings, and that they could have so much pity, reluctance, love, and care.

"He is always like this, all his faults must be carried on his back, and then he proudly rejects all care and understanding, and strives to make everyone believe that he is the most terrible demon in the world. Whether it is the State of Qin or the State of Chu, all the disasters, he thinks that it is his fault, but he has never pursued it, I have also invaded the land of the State of Chu, and I have also been trapped in the name of loyalty and righteousness, and sit back and watch the State of Qin fall into the hands of tyrants. ”

He stared at the tiny figure down the hill with only a sigh. Liu Heng muttered: "It's not that you want to investigate, but he can't let go?" ”

"Of course. Otherwise, why can you find out the truth, but in the end you failed to catch a secret agent of the Chu State. Why was it that all the people sent by Fang Qingchen to help the people escape in time, but you could still collect conclusive evidence based on the clues left behind? ”

Qin Xufei's expression was gloomy: "He never thought about covering it up at all, he wanted to hide it." The overall situation has been decided, the big thing has been accomplished, and the truth should have been known. I guess the truth, he wouldn't know? You are secretly tracking, will he not know? You can find out, but it's because he doesn't want to thwart you. He sent everyone away and kept every subordinate safe, but he was left alone to face our possible anger and revenge...... Ah Heng, it is himself who refuses to let him go, he treats himself more harshly than others, for the sake of the Chu State, he has laid so many bureaus and trapped so many people, no one can blame him. However, he himself could never ignore all those who died because of him, and he never laid the greatest sin on himself. He stayed, perhaps because, he had a vague feeling in his heart that he deserved to be punished......"

"How is that possible?" Liu Heng only felt incredible. He ...... How many years has he been fighting? How could it be ......"

Qin Xufei shook his head slightly. "When he led the army against the enemy, he never refused to counterattack deep into our borders. During the peace talks with me, he said that he would never invade another country, even if the king had the will. I couldn't believe it at first, but now it's ....... He's such a weirdo, he values everyone's life, but he always pretends to be ruthless. Carrying all the responsibilities on your back, but still feeling cold and ....... He betrayed the Qin State for the sake of the Chu State, but he secretly used the government of the Chu State to hone my power of governance, and taught me from an ordinary general to a person who can be qualified for the position of monarch without a trace. After the Qin army all withdrew from the state of Chu. He also dragged his wounded and poisonous body to the Qin State, rescued him many times, protected each other, and did his best to calm the chaos in the Qin State in the shortest possible time, so that there could be fewer dead and injured people. Less. Then, only to stay, wait, the final ending, the final exit. ”

Qin Xufei's tone gradually became gloomy.

"Now he's gone. It's not to run away, it's just because he doesn't want me to be unhappy for the rest of my life. He knew that if it was up to me to choose, it would be to hurt him. If nothing else happens, and I still have a happy relationship with him, I will feel uneasy. So. Rather than me choose, it is better for him to choose, than for me to be embarrassed, it is better for him to bear the name of cowardly escape......"

Qin Xufei's gaze followed the tiny figure that was gradually imperceptible.

"Ah Heng, so far, it's not that I can't keep him, but I'm just uneasy. He will not be as open as he has been. It's not that he can't stay, but he doesn't let go of the burden in his heart for a day, and he can't treat me as naturally and calmly as he did at the beginning. Strong to stay with each other, against each other, blunt and difficult. Fake a smile and be careful. Adds to the grind. So, he went and didn't tell me. But he knows, and I know his heart. So, I sent it and didn't say it to him, but I also knew that he never blamed me. He left, and I let him go, not because I gave up, but because, between us, we have never been frank and can't tolerate such hypocrisy and reluctance. Remorse forgiveness, needless to say. We just have to do what we can to make amends. ”

Qin Xufei looked at the figure that finally faded out of sight little by little, there was pain, injury and reluctance in his eyes, but there was more determination and firmness: "Whether it's a sin or a sin, I should share this sin and this sin." I should taste this bitterness and hatred together. Since staying is forced to stay now, there will only be more knots and unhappiness, so if he wants to leave, I will let him go. In his absence, I will do everything I can, until one day, in the distance, he sees a powerful Qin State, and sees many happy people, and is as happy as I am, believing that the sacrifice should be more or less meaningful. Until one day...... He and I can let go of the burden in our hearts now, and after facing so many deaths, we still have the courage to be happy people, and we can stand tall between heaven and earth and say, we are qualified to be happy people, then, he will definitely come back to me, and I will definitely be able to welcome him calmly, so ...... So ......"

Qin Xufei muttered, as if he was showing his intentions, as if he was giving himself more courage, more determination, and more support.

However, the figure in the distance, which is gradually almost invisible, is still heart-wrenching.

Fang Qingchen, where can you go? Chu State, you will not go back, Qin State, you can't stay. Chu Ruohong, who you tried to wake up with your life, hurt you deeply, Zhao Wangchen, who you created with one force, ruthlessly poisoned you, and I who you quietly helped me, and there was no way to relieve you at this time. Fang Qingchen, the sky and the earth are big, who else can you find, what can you do, such a person is lonely and wandering, where will you end up......

No one will chase you anymore, you are not allowed to indulge in drinking, no one will force you, you must be forced to heal your wounds, no one will look at you, disturb you and annoy you, you, the person who will not take care of yourself, will destroy your body to what extent......

There was a sweetness in his throat, as if the blood from the tormented ground was about to gush out. Qin Xufei closed his eyes, and swallowed hard again without moving, but it turned out that no matter how much reason and determination he had, he couldn't restrain himself after all, his heart hurt at the moment, and he was reluctant to give up.

It takes a lot of strength to control yourself from calling that person's name, and how hard you have to work hard to force yourself not to go after that person's figure.

Light dust, light dust, since you can't let go now, then, I'll let you go.

No matter how many years, no matter how much effort I make, I will always wait for the day when your heart is fully resolved, and under the stars and moon, I will return to this land that has experienced calamities because of you and me, but finally returned to prosperity because of you and me.

Liu Heng had been quietly guarding beside him, watching his expression, listening to his whispering, and then, sighing softly.

It's rare to be confused, it's rare to be confused, why, these two people have to face everything so soberly, and no one is willing to be confused.

Qin Xufei had been standing quietly, staring at the bottom of the mountain without blinking, until the tiny figure had completely disappeared into darkness and could no longer be found, and then turned his head. looked at Liu Heng and let himself smile: "Ah Heng, don't be sad. In fact, even if I don't investigate, he doesn't say it, no one will investigate this matter, and just by virtue of his identity as the marquis of Dachu Town, it is impossible to stay in the Qin State for a long time at present. ”

Liu Heng sighed when he heard this.

Not bad. How could Fang Hou of Chu State stay here forever and be a so-called male pet who didn't even have a name and identity in the eyes of everyone? And if his identity is made public, it will be even more inappropriate. The Marquis of the Great Chu State should not serve in the Qin Dynasty. can't bear an ambiguous identity and often appear next to Qin Xu's enclave, whether it is for the people of Chu or Qin, they will not be willing for this kind of thing to happen emotionally.

Qin Xufei breathed a long sigh of relief. Straightened up.

"Ah Heng, after returning to Beijing, you can inform the ministers to persuade you to enter the book."

"You've finally decided to ascend the throne." Liu Heng's expression was clear. Finally, there was no longer any hesitation, no longer delay, so that the day when the man came back could be earlier, earlier?

"Yes, I will ascend the throne, I will become a monarch. I will do everything in my power to make this ruined country grow stronger. Although Qin Xufei's tone was light, he had the determination to use all his strength to shake the slightest.

"Ah Heng, please help me and help me protect this country. Help me and make him strong. And also...... Help me not to become ......"

Liu Heng was slightly stunned: "What?" ”

"Everyone told me that whoever sits on the throne will eventually change. Before his death, my eldest brother kept cursing me, telling me that one day, I would become like him. However, I didn't want to change, and I finally figured it out. They've all changed, so what? They are him, I am me! I have you to help me, I have him to watch me, who can say that I am destined to be like them? ”

Qin Xufei secretly clenched his fists.

"Ah Heng, please watch me, guard me, and don't let me change. If one day you find that I have forgotten my original intention, please remind me, and if one day you find that I can no longer listen to your advice, please stand up against me. Ah Heng, I don't want to change ......"

Qin Xufei's voice was low, and in the quiet moonlit night, this call and prayer clearly flowed from his heart.

Ah Heng, I don't want to change, I don't want to forget the blood and enthusiasm I had in the future, I don't want to be in the future, ignore the people of the world, ignore you, I don't want to one day, I will lose you, jealous of you, I don't want to become the same as those who have hurt him.

Years later...... There will be a rich Qin State, a strong Qin State, and thousands of comfortable people. Those generals and soldiers who have followed me and suffered so much can return to their hometowns, regain their loved ones, and be loved and respected as heroes. All of this can make us believe that the past tragedy, the past abandonment, is really not all sin.

After a few years, you will no longer be a symbol, a statue, and no longer have an overly sensitive identity, and at that time, you don't have to have too many scruples about what to do.

A few years later, when we meet again, I can calmly stand tall and say to you, Fang Qingchen, you see, I haven't changed. You see, not everyone, in that position, will change!

Fang Qingchen, you are waiting for me......

Liu Heng stared at him under the moon and responded in a low voice: "You know, I will always be here." ”

He will always be, always be, with his friends, with his lord. Wait until one day, time will make the pain fade, the years will make the suffering fade, and one day, that person will float in, he will tell him that someone has been waiting for him, that person, for him, has been holding on and refusing to change! has been persevering, to atone for the sin that should not have been borne by him and him.

Fang Qingchen didn't know what kind of painful eyes he had behind him, and he had been sending him away from afar, Fang Qingchen didn't know what kind of determination someone had made for him in the high places in the distance.

He sat on his horse, and let the horse walk freely—

Nonsense divider-

Secretary Brown: 5000 words big chapter, wipe sweat, this chapter Nalan has been written for a long time, and it has been changed for a long time, so it is late.

Tomorrow will be added every hundred. Happy birthday to Yin. Waving a handkerchief, Xiao Qin, you have to come on......