Chapter 88 of the fourth "Festival in the Wind" wanders

(I think everyone may be anxious to know the cause and effect of why Lu Dongli has fallen to such a point, just work hard tonight, and now it's even more time to the second chapter.) Oh, whisper, in order to encourage and reward me for my hard work, monthly pass, monthly pass, sweat.)

When Lu Dongli woke up again, everything had already settled, and it was impossible for him to do anything more.

"Dashuai, we killed the stand-in and reported it to General Meng, saying that Dashuai, when you heard that the Qin mission was coming, you guessed that the holy decree would be guilty, and you refused to be humiliated again, so you committed suicide. ”

"They examined the body and didn't see anything wrong. ”

"No one doubts that Da Shuai is so sad these days, and everyone is worried that Da Shuai will not think of committing suicide, so no one is particularly surprised that he is like this now. ”

"Marshal, don't worry, General Feng said that he not only made arrangements for you, but also sent someone to properly protect the young master, and you will have a chance to see each other again. ”

"Dashuai, General Feng wants us to tell you, you must survive well, only by surviving can you have a chance of rehabilitation, only by surviving can you avenge him, if you feel sorry for him, you must survive. ”

"Marshal, General Meng is now in charge of the whole army, as the deputy marshal, in charge of all affairs, just in case, I can't let you hide in Dingyuan Pass all the time. We'll find a way to get you out tomorrow. ”

"Dashuai, forgive us for not being able to protect you for the time being. After you get out of the customs, go to Tongcheng, which is the closest to Dingyuan Pass, and find Qu Daoyuan, the great leader of the merchants there. He will arrange for you to meet the lady and the young master. ”

"General Feng asked us to resign from the military as soon as possible, in order not to look too dazzling, we will unite a group of guards and resign together. General Feng said that in order to win the hearts of the army, General Meng appeared considerate and understanding of us, and he would definitely not be embarrassed and hindered. Even military households, he will help remove from the military. It's just that now we can't go. My lord, if your affairs are not finished, we will ask for your resignation, which will make people suspicious, and even if you resign, there are still many trivial things to do, and it is estimated that it will take at least more than a month to find you. ”

"Great. You have to ......."

They chatter, they chatter, they tried their best to tell him that everything was planned for the future, there was no need to worry, there was no need to be discouraged, there was no need to despair.

They confessed and confessed so worriedly. begged and begged, for nothing more than to give him enough will to live.

At the last moment, Xiaodao and Wang Dabao knelt in front of them together and begged: "Dashuai, you promise us that you want to live." You promise us. ”

And he, silently nodded.

He will live, not for greed for life, not for fear of death, just because, this is the wish of Feng Jinjie, just because, this life, Feng Jinjie has spent so much effort to preserve the land for him, he can't make Feng Jinjie under the nine springs. Also disappointed and angry.

He will live. Although there is nothing to be done, we can always look forward to the day when we are rehabilitated. The trumped-up charges that had been placed on Feng Jinjie were finally erased.

He will live, live to endure all the torture and suffering, to live a little bit to Ling Chi's guilty soul.

However, Wang Dabao and Xiaodao finally let go because of his nod, and finally quietly covered him to leave Dingyuan Pass after confessing and explaining.

He was alone, couldn't see the road ahead, couldn't say a word, and quietly walked towards a blood-colored world.

He didn't go to Qu Daoyuan.

If the wind festival let him live, he will survive.

But why should a man who lives as a guilty man have to take refuge in a legitimate merchant and inflict the danger of killing the head of the clan on others?

Knowing that Wanzhen's mother and son were safe, the only concern in her heart was gone. Now that I am disabled, my heart is like death, and it is better to see the truth than not to see it. What's more, for their safety, it is better to stay away from them.

With this feeling of self-pity and self-harm, Lu Dongli wandered aimlessly alone.

In fact, there is no need to deliberately disguise your identity and change your appearance, a man's beard grows every day, as long as he doesn't take care of it for ten days. In addition, after a serious illness, he was emaciated and half-blind, so that he had to grope his way to walk and do things many times, and now even if he was a former acquaintance, he may not be able to recognize him when he walks in person.

Then, those long years passed alone in the wanderings of a man. For more than a thousand days and nights, a person was alone and left to fend for himself.

Sometimes I go to the mountains to walk, thirsty for mountain springs, hungry for mountain fruits, and occasionally encounter wild beasts, and I will fight hard.

Sometimes when he came to the market, he would look for some temporary coolie work to do, but fortunately, his eyes could barely see the size of the object, and it was still no problem to carry things and walk.

It's just that people bully him a little stunned, and he can't speak, and his salary is always deducted and deducted, and occasionally he will encounter strong beams and tyrants, and he will forcibly ask for this kind of expenses.

He only took all this silently, and if he had a few dollars in his hand, he would buy some bad wine to drink. It's not that I want to use wine to drown my sorrows, it's just that people sometimes have a lot of pain, and they have to have wine to numb their minds a little, so that they can barely continue to live.

Yes, to live, he is still trying to live.

No matter how unbearable, no matter how humiliated it was.

He didn't have any identification papers, and living as a beggar calling flowers was the only way not to be broken.

There have also been people who have bullied, there have been people who disdain, and there have also been strong beams begging heads, giving off horses, beating and scolding, wanting to drag another gang to honor themselves, everything, gritting their teeth, closing their eyes, and they have suffered.

He didn't go out of his way to beg, nor did he call himself a beggar, but the dejected description made it easy for people to think in this way, so there would be people who occasionally threw a few pennies or some leftovers to him.

Sometimes, when he was so hungry that he had to eat, the first time he ate something that others gave him away. His hands and feet trembled, and it took him more than half a day to swallow a bowl of cold leftovers.

However, gradually more and more, I became numb and didn't care.

He just wants to live.

Because, the Wind Festival wants him to live. Even though he no longer knew what the point of being alive was.

But. Feng Jinjie wanted him to live, and Feng Jinjie was still planning for him until he died, and he spent so much painstaking work just to save his life, so he had to live.

To live, to live to bear the humiliation. Feeling pain, no matter what kind of shame and humiliation, isn't it all he should suffer, should bear?

It's just that people's hearts can be so cold, even if it is a great suffering, if there are too many times, they will be insensitive.

Right now. He can be kicked and scolded with complete indifference, and now he can eat half a dirty steamed bun in one bite in order to prolong his life without blinking an eye when he is extremely hungry.

Now he doesn't understand self-esteem and self-love. I don't understand ambitions and ideals, but I'm just like the walking dead, just to live for the sake of living.

Now he is even numb, and he can't even feel pain, sadness, shame, and helplessness at all.

Amid the laughter of the crowd, he straightened up and staggered out. Hungry for three days. Even if there is half a steamed bun slightly satisfying hunger. After all, there is still no strength.

He thought, a little confused, yes. For three days, the wandering spirits also seemed to walk in all directions, why did they stop here, it seemed that they heard the direction of the stage, and someone shouted in a sad voice: "Jinjie, Jinjie......"

knew that this was just acting, but he still couldn't help but stop his pace, couldn't help but sit down, couldn't help but drink two sips of bad wine, couldn't help but shake his heart, and couldn't stand on the ground.

The stage is so loyal, good and righteous, it seems that in his previous life, he was the good official who was loyal to the country and wanted to ask for his life for the people and make contributions to the country, right? It seems that in his previous life, he gave so much, just hoping that one day, the people would be too peaceful and happy, and no one would be homeless, begging for a living, and being looked down upon by others, as if in the previous life......

However, it turned out that he was patriotic, but the country didn't care about him at all.

It's not that I don't know, it's not that I don't understand, I think I've seen it through a long time ago, I think I just need to be at peace with my heart and I want nothing else, it turns out that when the disaster really strikes, no one can really be calm and accept it calmly.

He staggered forward, not arguing about the way ahead, not knowing the direction, instinctively raised the jug up again and wanted to drink, and poured it for a long time before he realized that there was no more wine.

In those happy years in the previous life, in all the good memories, there was that person in every scene, his smile, his arrogance, he drank and laughed with him.

On the last night side by side, the man laughed and begged for a drink, but he refused with a straight face, but promised at the last moment that when you returned, you would get drunk with you.

It's just that there is no more time to get drunk together.

He was such a drinker, and he still didn't let him drink on the last night.

In his previous life, he once replied to him with a smile: "If you die, I will drink all the wine in the world on your behalf, and I will see all the beautiful scenery in the world on your behalf...... He promised him that he would replace him, live out the wonderful life of two people, and continue the lives of two people in one person.

However, after all, he still lost his word.

Jinjie, Jinjie, today's me, I can't drink all the world's wine, I can't see the beauty of the world, under the nine springs, how should you scold me for losing my words and betraying my word.

But you, until you die, have to keep every word you have ever said.

You say, "I'm alive, you're alive, I'm dead, you're alive." ”

So I have been, I have lived until now, and I will always be, to live, I can break my word, but I will never let you say it, I can't do it.

Jinjie, that night, you told me that in this life, you are your greatest luck to meet me......

No, you're wrong.

Lu Dongli knows the Wind Festival, it is his life to the earth's luck, relying on the Wind Festival, he can soar, he can take risks, he can turn the danger into safety, he can escape from death.

But the wind festival met Lu Dongli, but it was the greatest misfortune in his life, without Lu Dongliang, who else in the world can restrain the sky can not be restrained, the earth can not be bound, free and uninhibited. What kind of holy decree can a proud man have that can force such a man to die with his hands tied......

Wind Festival, Wind Festival, you are smart all your life, why are you so stupid in Lu Dongliang......

He lifted his head and turned his back to the sky. Laughing miserably, because the throat can't make a sound. Even such miserable and tragic laughter is silent.

At noon that day, a foul-smelling and filthy man named Huazi was scolded and driven away from the stage in the market, and he walked all the way out of the downtown to the newly built Lugong Temple, and finally could not support it. Fainted to the ground.

Lu Gong Temple was originally a temple built spontaneously by the local people because of the benevolence of the local people to protect the country and protect the people under the call of the imperial court.

Because the imperial court is trying its best to publicize the deeds of Lu Feng and the others, this temple is not small, and it is majestic and solemn.

The two temples blessed someone fainting in front of the temple. Although he hated his dirty and smelly, he thought that Lu Gong was benevolent and protected all the people during his lifetime, and it would never be good to hurt his benevolence again after his death, so he had to pinch his nose and drag this person into his life.

The author's nonsense dividing line***************

The prototypes of Lu Dongli and Fengjin Festival are actually Gao Xianzhi and Feng Changqing in the Tang Dynasty.

Gao Xianzhi was a famous general of the Tang Dynasty. And Feng Changqing was originally a small official. With Gao Xianzhi's hand, he showed his talent and established his fame. The two have the grace of acquaintance, the feeling of knowing each other, the friendship between the top and bottom, and the depth of affection, which can be imagined. Some people say that the intersection of Gao Feng and the two is the friendship of heroes.

However, their end was extremely tragic. Because he offended the eunuch who oversaw the army, he was accused of blackness. Tang Xuanzong gave the two to death.

Bai Yang recorded their death in the article: "The two guarded Tongguan. Mr. Feng returned to the camp after a hard fight, and a eunuch came over. Holding the emperor's edict in his hand, he was arrested and beheaded, and his corpse was displayed on the grass like a dog, and then the eunuch turned around and sneered at Mr. Gao Xianzhi and said, "You also have a grace. Mr. Gao was immediately tied up and executed. ”

When I read this account at that time, I had a misunderstanding, thinking that Gao Xianzhi watched his friend being killed, and then he was tortured to death.

In addition to the sadness in his heart, he guessed Gao Xianzhi's mood at that time, and he faintly had an idea, wanting to write such a story, wanting to write about a pair of confidants who were close friends and did their best for the country, but they were abandoned and betrayed by the country, and one of them had to watch the other person being executed in front of him and could not save him.

Recently, I wrote about the Wind in the Spirit, and I checked the information to know that when Feng Changqing was executed, Gao Xianzhi was still fighting outside, and when he came back from the battle, he saw the corpse of his friend and the holy decree that he wanted to die.

However, this truth does not make my sadness any less. I will also think about what it was like to be in the middle of a thousand years ago, when the general came back with dust and blood for the sake of the country, he saw his friend's head in a different place, thrown on a straw mat to show the public, and he silently knelt in the place where his friend was tortured just now, and received the order to die.

At that time, the three armies gathered and shouted in unison, what kind of scene was it.

However, the injustice is the injustice, the holy decree is the holy decree, the head is still the same to be cut, the sin is still the same to be determined, a thousand years later, I look at this record, there is blood boiling in my chest, but my heart is as cold as ice.

In the last line, according to the original idea, with the first assumption, the wind is designed to die violently.

In fact, the earliest setting was written in the history books, and a eunuch led the team to deliver the decree.

After thinking about it, he always felt that with Lu Dongli's temperament, if he allowed someone to kill Fengjin Festival just for a holy decree, it would inevitably be too cold, and the officers and soldiers of the three armies would only stand by and let everything happen, which would be too ruthless.

Thinking and planning after that. The enemy's retreat and peace, and his own army of 25,000 people, are nothing more than creating a situation in which neither Lu Feng nor the others can avoid and resist the order.

I've seen readers accuse Lu Dongli of ruthlessness, and some accuse Feng Jinjie of ruthlessness. However, in any case, in the current situation, they cannot be perfect, in that situation, it is difficult to do both, how to do it, it is wrong, and they can only choose to bring less harm and take into account the overall situation.

Lu Dongli didn't give up his friends for high-sounding reasons, and Feng Jinjie didn't deliberately add fuel to the fire and force Lu Dongli to come to this point, they all had their own helplessness, they didn't have more and better choices, that's all.