For a while, he didn't even like the fact that others kept mentioning that he was suppressed. Even when she had a conflict with Miao Lian in her illness, she mentioned the Queen Mother, and he became more and more disgusted.

But now, he misses the Queen Mother very much.

I miss the woman who gave me all the warmth and was extremely strict with herself.

In childhood, she was warm and affectionate, and devoted all her efforts.

Once on the throne, she became extremely strict, not like a mother, but a strict supervisor.

He didn't know how to express himself clearly, he couldn't even say that it was his biological mother—he was where he is today because he had such a mother, and he had always stood on the shoulders of giants. Only such a woman can raise such a son.

However, his harem concubines are obviously impossible to compete with Empress Dowager Feng, so they can't be expected to educate such a son. I think that at the beginning, I was not only the eldest son of my father, but also the authentic "son-in-law", once I had Prince Rui's younger brother, the queen mother was still so afraid, not to mention the other concubines now!

How can they compare with the Queen Mother?

He didn't dare to expect a Goryeo woman like Gao Meiren who couldn't read a single word to educate a sage-like child, but, at least, he could educate the child to be less cruel, right?

"My father has always been very, very fond of me, when I was a child, he would give me whatever I wanted, even things I couldn't even think of, he would do his best to give me. But when he was in Beiwudang, he would hug me or eat with me every day, and wherever he went, he would take me to hunt, play, enjoy flowers, and read...... My father used to say that as long as I don't see me for a day, I will miss me so much......"

His eyebrows were locked in the dark night, as if he was talking to himself blankly: "I thought that a father should be in such a mood for his son." But for some reason, I have never been in such a mood for Xun'er, I even sometimes only see him once in ten days and a half months, and I don't miss him when I don't see him...... I can't love my father the way I did...... I don't want him to be the crown prince at all, and I even have a terrible premonition that if these children inherit the throne, my northern country will soon be doomed......"

These words are the biggest secret in the heart of a lonely man who is a ninety-five honor.

The crown prince, Jiangshan, no matter how close a woman is, no matter how trusted the minister, he will not say it so calmly, that is an extremely secret matter that the emperor can know, weigh - otherwise, why is the emperor called a lonely man?

But now he said it to her.

Unreservedly, they all spoke, just like when there was no mustard between the two.

If the time and place were changed, if the content of the conversation was changed, Feng Miaolian would definitely be overwhelmed. But now, she was not at all moved, nor even sympathetic to his pain—if it was pain!

So who is to blame?

Blame children for their bad nature?

Blame those women for not having a good moral character and a bold heart? However, how many women in this world can be the Empress Dowager Feng? Throughout the ages, this is the only one!

His Emperor gave an order, and he once enjoyed so many delicate **, isn't it ridiculous to say this now?

In the gradual dawn, she quietly put her cold hand into the quilt.

His bewildered voice became infinitely tired: "Nowadays, the ministers are piled up, interceding, and stating...... For example, I was made a prince when I was born. Now, Xun'er is four or five years old, why can't he make a prince? Yes, I'm also wondering, why did my father make me the crown prince so thoughtlessly? Now, why don't I want to ask at all? ”

"That's because the emperor had a deep affection for the queen mother back then......"

These words came out of his mouth.

It was too late for her to shut up, so she instinctively reached out and pulled the quilt and almost covered herself. I wish I had my tongue cut! I can't wait for it!

There is even a secret fear in my heart - revealing the emperor's life experience and looking for death.

No matter how much she is a favorite concubine, she can't do it.

Takubahiro was startled, but didn't get angry, just looked at her blankly—how would she know?

How?

However, he was soon relieved, before and after the appearance of the Batman, the battles - she knew it, Miao Lian herself experienced it - and she had followed the Queen Mother for so many years, like her own daughter, it was impossible not to know at all.

Feng Miaolian was also a little scared when she said this, the palace was secret, and the slightest carelessness was a capital crime.

But Tuoba Hong didn't get angry at all, but nodded and whispered extremely lowly: "Yes, my father may love me very, very much because of this...... Even though I have several brothers, I know that none of them are as good as me, because my father rarely hugged them at all, and he only loved me, not them......"

Because he loved that woman, he loved her son very much.

Her son is the crystallization of his love.

Other sons are only the duty of an emperor.

Which is more important between love and obligation?

Otherwise, with the kind of fierceness in the bones of the father, how could he tolerate the queen mother's reform plan for so many years?

What I didn't understand when I was a child is suddenly clear now.

Just like himself, whether it is a high beauty, or other concubines, a fresh appearance has passed, except for the joy of **, there has never been any exchange of souls enough to communicate, and even for a year or two, he has never had sex with Gao Meiren again, and it is not a thing to see each other for ten days and a half months, where is there still much affection at all?

And so much more so with a mother, let alone a son?

Especially these sons, who were not taught by their mother's tolerance, were all taught to compete for power and profit, and to compete for favor with each other.

You must know that when she grew up in Beiwudang, she never witnessed any palace battles, and the Queen Mother was dedicated to cultivating herself to the mentality of ordinary children, surrounded by Li Chong, Wang Su and other famous decent people - plus the "fairy grandfather" behind the scenes - in essence, she received a kind of loose and sparse "celebrity and scholar" general education since she was a child.

That's why I became such a person.

I really can't imagine that if it weren't for that period of Beiwudang's childhood, I might not have been a cockfighting and lackey prince brother who grew up in the palace.

How can you talk about eloquence and generosity?

But who are the ones who educate their sons?

He was suddenly shocked, and found that most of the ministers around his son were Xianbei ministers, all of whom were military generals. In this way, how can we educate good talents?

But where do you go to find people besides these people?

Many famous Hanchen of that year were old and dead, and even Li Chong couldn't teach them.

How can we expect these children to grow up to be celebrities?

No, no, no, it's impossible!

They are just the same princes and grandchildren who have come out of any court in the past: the same grew up in the hands of deep women, the same only close to the palace maids and eunuchs, the same did not know the hardships of the crops, and the same rarely left Kyoto......

What can such a son become?

Moreover, there is another sentence hidden in his heart, he can't say it, in fact, he still hides a fantasy in his heart, maybe, Miao Lian is back, and he and she will have children - if it is her child, it is her flesh and blood, will she also teach an outstanding son like the Queen Mother?

His thoughts were surprisingly strong tonight.

"Miao Lian...... I wish we had a child as well......"

Feng Miaolian's eyes widened in surprise. I was even more surprised than when I heard that Tuoba Hong gave him the Golden Treasure Gold Book. Child! For many years, she didn't dare to think about it anymore.

She held her breath and heard his warm voice: "Miaolian, in the early years, you didn't have children because of your poor health, and now that you have recovered, we will definitely have children......"

This is the knot in his heart, he is unwilling to make the prince selfish!

He is still waiting, expecting her to give birth to a satisfactory son for himself - this crown prince is reserved for him.

If Feng Miaolian was not moved at all at this time, it must be fake.

Even though I hated him so much in my heart, when I heard such words, I was shocked to the extreme.

She said lightly, and her voice was very eraugur: "Your Majesty, between us...... It's impossible to have children......"

He asked rhetorically, "Why not?" ”

"Maybe it's the daughter of the Feng family...... You see, isn't the queen also alive? ”

He was stunned.

Yes, for so many years, I and Miao Lian have been in love, and there is no man and half woman. And Feng Miaozhi has been in the palace for more than two years, but her stomach has not moved. Even though he didn't say much about Miaozhi, Miaozhi had slept for many days when he first entered the palace, but he had never been pregnant.

Could it be that the Feng sisters really have any incurable disease?

As soon as he thought about it, he became anxious: "Miaolian, are you still uncomfortable in your body?" ”

She smiled: "I'm fine." However, I'm afraid that I will never be able to give birth to the son you want......"

"Miao Lian, I will ask the best doctor to treat you, if the imperial doctor in the palace can't do it, we'll go out and find ......"

"It's not like I didn't look for it back then. Your Majesty, we have looked for so many Langzhong, but what effect? It's not that it's useless......"

Tuoba Hong was speechless for a moment, because it was a fact.

But he still doesn't give up, after all, the symptoms of hematemesis are so serious that they can be cured, can't they have children?

"Your Majesty, I suggest that you make a prince as soon as possible."

He was slightly surprised.

Even if you are angry, it should not be such a gamble.

Did she ever know what it meant once she was crowned prince?

"Your Majesty, since ancient times, it has been the royal way to establish the eldest son. Since Xun'er is the eldest son, it is also appropriate to be made the crown prince. For the stability of the northern country, it is best to set up a prince as soon as possible, so as not to have any accidents. ”

She understated it, and Tuoba Hong couldn't tell if she was sincere or fake.

He pondered for a while: "Miao Lian, maybe we will have our own children......"