One cannot give up on oneself because of sorrow.

Blackstar's sadness is that he is not in a good state of life. Similar to Black Star is White Star, after White Star sighed, he told Black Star and Niu Donkey that he wanted to find a job, a job that could get some money, and it was not a long way to always fight monsters and eat picnics in the wild. Shirahoshi expresses his desire to find a job, Niu Donkey is the owner of the Big Weapons Shop, and Niu Donkey is willing to help Shirahoshi.

Black Star didn't give up on himself, and White Star didn't give up on himself. Blackstar felt that he could still accept a life like this, after all, he was still young. But Shirahoshi can't do it, the old Shirahoshi sometimes has leg pain, I don't know if it's internal rheumatoid arthritis or bone hyperplasia. Shirahoshi needs a steady job and a quiet life.

Some time ago, Niu Donkey planned to set up a weapon shop branch in Depression Mountain. Now things have come to an eyebrow. Shirahoshi doesn't have a job now, and Niu Donkey wants to help Shirahoshi find a job.

The job that Niu Donkey found for Shirahoshi was to sell weapons. Niu Donkey needs some salespeople in the weapons shop in Depression Mountain, although Bai Xing said that he is older, generally speaking, sales staff should not be so old, but he is a friend of the boss Niu Donkey, Niu Donkey is still the top thing to say, and Bai Xing can go to work through the back door. After listening to Niu Donkey's words, Bai Xing was quite willing to work for Niu Donkey.

Niu Donkey gave Bai Xing a note, and the note had the address of the Depression Mountain Niu Donkey Weapons Shop, and Bai Xing could go to the store today for an interview and then go directly to the training.

Shirahoshi plans to go to the weapon shop for an interview at noon today according to the address on the note, and now he is taking a walk with Niu Donkey and Black Star.

The donkey said, "Do you know why I made friends with you? Is it just because I'm lonely? I guess I'm afraid it's hard to describe my state of mind exactly. What is my situation? I need to know myself. I think everyone in the world needs to know themselves. I've been looking at myself for a long time, I don't know who I am, I haven't done a lot of things, a lot of the things I've done are wrong, and I need to correct myself. I want a lot of things to be good for myself, and I need to enjoy a lot of things in this world. However, I can't eat all the barbecue meat in the world in one bite, no matter how delicious the barbecue is, I will eat it for a lifetime, and no matter how amazing the amount I can eat, there is a certain amount. There are also a certain amount of clothes I wear. The words I can speak, the songs I can sing, the words I can write. Maybe a lot. That number may be staggering, but there is also a number, that is, a finite. I'm always exploring what's right for me and what I should be doing. I want to be exposed to good things. I'm going to understand the world and analyze myself. Try to expose yourself to good things. How can I say this, when I have this thought, let's talk about making friends. I don't touch people I don't like, no matter how much they like me. I stay away from people I don't like, approach people I like, and go and say what I like to say. I think that's the good life. However, when I made the friends I really wanted to make and said what I really wanted to say, I found myself suddenly lonely, and suddenly I felt so lonely. I've lived for so many years, so old, although I'm younger than Baixing, but I think I'm about the same as old age, I'm just old, old people will have a lot of problems, loneliness is one of my problems. I found out that the so-called friends I made were just a few meals together, a few words, originally made to kill boredom, and after making friends, I found that I was still lonely. I don't think I can really get along with people, I don't trust anyone, I think anyone talking to you is suspicious, maybe you are good-looking, he talks to you, he will feel face, so he talks to you, so he talks to you. I definitely don't talk with my mouth close to shit because shit isn't pretty and stinks. I think someone would talk to me because I'm not a piece of shit yet. I have talked a lot to people, I have said so many things, just like a writer has written so many words, what can I do in the end? I open a weapons shop and get so many weapons to sell, what can I do in the end? Yesterday I sat alone on my bed in my room, surrounded by walls, and although there was a window on one wall, the window was closed. I thought, if I die for some reason at this moment, the world doesn't know me, others don't know about me, if I die, for the world, it's just one person in the world, and for others, it's just one person in the world. It seems that all people in the world have their own things to eat, their own clothes to wear, and their own things to do, and as for other people's things, although they can listen to and take a look, after all, people have to do their own things, and do other people's things have a relationship with their own personal affairs? Life is so boring, eating, walking, going hungry, and then eating. So boring. I feel the boredom of life. ”

Black Star said: "You still say it's boring, I don't say it's boring, you still say it's boring." You still have food to eat and clothes to wear, and those who don't have money to buy biscuits, those who don't have money to buy clothes, feel that life is not boring. They want to eat and be dressed, they have goals, they feel like they have pursuits, so they don't feel bored. You don't have to worry about food and clothing, and the idle balls hurt, of course you will feel bored. Maybe it's because you're bored that you've made friends with us people, a weapon shop owner, it's really interesting not to stay in the weapons shop and follow us people around. ”

The cow and donkey said, "Maybe you're right." ”

Black Star said: "You just mentioned, you said that a person, what can be done in a lifetime is limited, so a person's life can be seen to the end, although the road is a little tortuous, but the things that can be encountered in this process can be estimated in advance, so think about it, life seems to be a given, that is, no matter how outrageous you are, how far can you go? This idea is very reasonable, really reasonable." I sometimes think that people need to drink water every day, and when they drink water, they always need to urinate, and who doesn't need to drink water and don't need urine? People need to drink water for a lifetime, and people need to urinate for a lifetime, and satisfying desires is sometimes enjoyable, but is it really interesting to drink water and eat? Is it really interesting to pee? People can't get rid of physical desires, people always have desires, and people's desires are almost established. Let's take a girl for example, she is still young this year, she will be a year older next year, she should get married in a few years, have a child, how many years she will live, she will almost reach the age of death, and the human meaning will be gone. People are such a process, almost everyone is such a process, this process, everyone needs to go through, is the same. ”

Niu Donkey said, "I have a weapons shop, won't you be jealous of me?"

"I fantasized about having a weapons shop, a huge weapon shop, but I knew it was unrealistic. I scolded myself for my bad luck, and then I stopped scolding fate, and I didn't scold others anymore. When I was a child, adults said that they scolded people. My mouth is really rotten, of course, that's because I don't drink water and get angry. I was very young at the time, and there was something like a blood scab on my mouth, and I had an uncomfortable mouth almost once a year, and when I was strict, there were bubbles all around my mouth, and they were all scar-like things, and one mouth was uncomfortable, and one mouth was very uncomfortable. At that time, I thought, how can people have such a disease, how can a person's mouth encounter such a situation, does a person have to encounter such and such difficulties in life? Why is my mouth so unfortunate? Is it really like what adults say, scolding people's mouths? When I remembered what I had scolded, I blamed myself a little and told myself that I must not curse in the future. Of course, swearing is not a bad mouth. If you get hot or get some other disease, your mouth will rot. My mouth was rotten, and my parents took me to the county to see a doctor, and the doctor prescribed me what seemed to be herbal medicine, and asked me to go back and boil it in boiling water, and then wipe my mouth with the soup, as if I had to wipe my mouth with gauze or something, and drink more water. Later the mouth was fine. I didn't understand until now that a rotten mouth might be a person who didn't drink water. I hated it, the parents at that time didn't know how to maintain health, they didn't know how to give their children more water, if they drank a lot of water a day, the skin would be moist and shiny, and the mouth would not be rotten. It is really irresponsible or dereliction of duty on the part of my parents to make my mouth rotten like that. At that time, the village was not short of water, maybe my parents were lazy and did not give me hot water to drink, or they were negligent in managing me. In addition, I also want to say that in some places, villages, and mountains, it is difficult to draft water, and those places are fucked up, and they are forced to sell, and many poets have spoken a lot of beautiful words, and said a lot of good things about nature, and many literati have praised nature, but nature does not seem to appreciate it, and there are still floods when there should be floods, and there are natural disasters when there should be natural disasters, and when you can't eat water, you can't eat water, and you can't eat water, and you can't eat water, and you can't eat water, and you can't eat water, and you can't eat water, and what kind of water balloon is called, if there is really a God, you can't eat water, how can you have the face to say that you are God, even if you are God, I can't eat water, how embarrassed to be God. Many times, many people, it is difficult to drink water, some people are not difficult to drink water, but it is difficult to eat. It is difficult for someone to get dressed. It is difficult for someone to find a man. It is difficult for someone to find a woman. It is difficult for someone to have children. It is difficult for someone to have a son. It is difficult to have a daughter. It is difficult for someone to go to school. It is difficult for someone to learn spells and not find a famous teacher. It is difficult for someone to want to go to the big estate. People will always encounter difficulties of one kind or another, take the current Shirahoshi as an example, if you don't get a job for him or a donkey, then it will be difficult for him to find a job. (To be continued......)