Searching is a distant song. Meng Hai was looking for Yun Ant Mo, and he rode the ant, and the ant walked happily.

Black Star's elephant followed behind Meng Hai, and Black Star shouted in front: "Life is always so monotonous, always moving forward in the wilderness, so boring, too boring, boring, boring, too boring, too boring." ”

Meng Hai said: "This boring and boring are all spiritual phenomena, also called consciousness phenomena, to analyze your spiritual phenomena, the reason why you have such a spiritual phenomenon may be related to the boring environment here." There are many spiritual phenomena, take the matter of Ye Duhong going to Tianyixing, many people have feelings of envy, jealousy, and hatred, and the mental condition of those people because of a certain thing is a spiritual phenomenon, and the appearance of spiritual phenomena is related to his encounters and thoughts. Some people's mental phenomena are good, and some people's mental phenomena are bad. ”

Blackstar said, "You tell me philosophy again, well, well, then you can talk about it, and I'll discuss it with you." ”

Meng Hai said: "The joy of a person when he sees a beautiful person or scenery is a spiritual phenomenon, and the disgust that a person sees when he sees an ugly person or object is also a spiritual phenomenon, and these two spiritual phenomena are diametrically opposed." ”

Black Star said: "Disgust, hatred, joy, refreshment, comfort, ironing, grief, indignation, high-spiritedness, cheerfulness, etc., are all spiritual phenomena, and there will be many kinds of spiritual phenomena, and different phenomena have different causes. When our mental phenomena are in a state of slump. It should be expected that we will have a spiritual orgasm one day. ”

Blackstar said: "When a person comes to desire, the thing that satisfies the desire is the most important, and everything else is extremely secondary. Take people's appetite as an example, when people want to eat the most, food is the most important, this kind of spiritual bias is actually a spiritual phenomenon, and people's spiritual phenomena and desires are inseparable. People love to play football. Encounter the ball. As for the excitement, this mental phenomenon of excitement has something to do with his desire for the ball. When people hate something, they will have a desire. It's about staying away from this hated thing. This desire. There will be a mental phenomenon of wanting to stay away from that thing. That's it, that's all there is to say about the spiritual phenomenon of man. ”

Meng Hai said, "Okay." That's all there is to it. We still have to hurry, we can't keep talking about the mount, I'm going to urge this ant to move forward, ant, ant, go, go, go, go. ”

Black Star sat on the elephant and fell asleep, he said, "I am sleeping, this elephant will follow your ants, you see, don't let this elephant be lost, I will sleep on its back." ”

"You sleep," Meng Hai said, "Don't lose it, you can sleep with confidence, with me, these two guys will be very obedient." ”

Meng Hai said to the black ant: "You ant, people will like you when they see you, you are so tall and mighty, you walk fast, people will like you when they see you." This liking is also a spiritual phenomenon of people. I just talked to Black Star about spiritual phenomena, and now I'll talk to you about mental phenomena like ants, and I'll stay anyway. ”

Meng Hai continued: "Some people who have read a lot of books always like to talk about the world that he thinks, and those worlds come out of his mouth, and they are always influenced by his worldview, and the world he talks about, he may think is a correct world, but in fact it is a monotonous world. Everyone's view of the world is different, people are different, and the world in their eyes is also a different world. When they see the world, the spiritual phenomena they produce are also different. Thus the mental phenomena of the individual are complex. There is also a collective spiritual phenomenon, in the face of a piece of history or something else, there will be a grand and lofty feeling, and this grand and lofty feeling is a collective spiritual phenomenon. There are also many kinds of collective spiritual phenomena, some of which are noble, and some are ugly and despicable. ”

Meng Hai said a lot about spiritual phenomena, and gradually the black ant came to a more lively place, where the grass was obviously pleasant, and the wind here was much warmer. There was not a single grass or tree here, and Blackstar did not see it, and he fell asleep on the back of an elephant.

At this time, there is a phenomenon in Meng Hai's spirit, that is, boredom, this boredom is like this wild earth, spreading in the mind, and this boredom, like the tide, will drown Meng Hai. Meng Hai often feels a sense of boredom in life, he will suddenly appear in his mind a desolate scene, or a dead old tree, or a desolate wilderness, or a thick and foggy night, those scenes, none of them are bright, all make Meng Hai feel bored, these boring scenes, suddenly appear in his mind, Meng Hai feels a sense of life is dying, because those disgraceful scenes make people despair, despair is related to death. It is possible that everyone will have despair at some point, and a pessimistic natural vision will appear in their minds, and this kind of boring advent seems to be encountered by everyone. However, Meng Hai encountered more times, probably because he was often in a lonely situation, even if there were a few people around, Meng Hai's heart would isolate himself, so even in the crowd, Meng Hai would still feel an inexplicable sense of loneliness.

The advent of this sense of loneliness made Meng Hai feel that many things are fleeting, every qiē is instantaneous, every qiē thing is a moment of existence in time and space, and every qiē will be fleeting. These negative feelings will make Meng Hai feel that his life is incomparably empty. That's right, nothingness. Nothingness, nothingness, nothingness, nothingness, nothingness! Meng Hai just felt nothingness, and this sense of nothingness made Meng Hai feel bored in his heart. When Meng Hai felt nothingness, when he couldn't find Yun Ant Mo, Meng Hai stretched out his hand and competed with his own life, always making some movement, always showing something. When something appeared, Meng Hai felt that he was an impure person, an unhealthy person, a person who might have a disease, an unreliable person, a weak person, a person without concentration, and a small person.

After Meng Hai struggled with the root of life with his hands, he would still face life in a more positive state again, facing the next life, no matter how he felt the boredom and emptiness of life today, he still had to eat tomorrow and sleep tonight. Maybe Meng Hai used his hands to compete with the root of life because he wanted to get something interesting, at least physical. Maybe it's not right, but when he feels that a lot of things are boring, this is the only thing that is still a little interesting.

Meng Hai thought that people are boring after all, so they have to do some strange things, such as traveling, exploring, and doing things that seem noble and pure, such as speeches and volunteer activities, so that they can enrich their very empty lives, so that they will feel that life has content. Or just go drinking, prostitution, etc., which is also a kind of enriching life. People always have to enrich their lives, do a lot of things, do a lot of things, so that they can fill a very empty life, so that it at least has content, whether the content is noble or vulgar, at least there is content.

So what is the content of Meng Hai's life? He didn't drink and eat in taverns with his friends, he didn't go to play ball games, and he didn't go to any entertainment school, he just rode on thin ants and walked slowly in the wilderness.

At this time, Meng Hai felt the emptiness of life and the boredom of qiē, how could his spirit suddenly be in such a situation? When he was a child, he was able to jump up with joy because he ate a piece of candy, but at this time, how could he feel so bored? This kind of almost world-weary affection has not been in existence for a day or two, and Meng Hai feels very uncomfortable.

Meng Hai wondered, if he had smoked cigarettes, did he have any problems with his lungs? Stayed in a city with dirty air, did he have any problems with his respiratory tract? If he had not solved his sexual desire through legal channels, would he have been very strict with venereal diseases? He had experienced the battlefield and crawled out of the pile of dead people, and he was very frightened at that time, and he was afraid of those corpses, so would his spirit be disordered because of the fright? If he had fallen and injured himself, would there be sequelae in the part of the fall? Meng Hai has also done a lot of dirty things, such as spitting in other people's meals and urinating in other people's thermoses, will this affect himself to be a kind person? Meng Hai has always felt that he is a kind person, and he himself is a kind image in his heart. On the one hand, Meng Hai was very worried, and on the other hand, he felt that there was nothing wrong with these things, even if they were bad. Meng Hai rode on the thin ant, gradually the sun was setting, his heart was quite complicated, he didn't know if he was a simple person or a kind person, maybe a simple person, maybe a kind person, maybe nothing. Maybe it's a patient.

Ah, the patient. Meng Hai felt that he was really like a patient. All the things that Meng Hai has done, all his experiences, are not perfect, imperfection is flawed, flawed life is sick life, yes, Meng Hai admits that he is a patient. And who in the world is not a patient? (To be continued......