Sunday, September 10, 2006

Los Angeles, 28°C~18°C, cloudy, windless/west-southwest light wind, gibbous moon, precipitation 0. 00 mm

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The empty screening room was silent, save for the sound of movies.

On the big screen, Rex Williamson is a middle-aged man with a dream of making a fortune mining opal, so he and his wife Anne, 11-year-old son Ashmore, and 9-year-old daughter Kellyanne move to a remote mining town, where most of the town's residents are engaged in the business and related peripheral jobs.

Rex has been mining for almost a year, and he still hasn't made any gains. The life of a family of four is very poor, but fortunately, the family is harmonious and happy. However, Kellyanne has a withdrawn personality and seems to be a little mentally abnormal, and she has no friends, except for the imaginary two: Bobby and Dingan.

Kellyanne believes in the existence of Bobby and Dingan, chatting, playing, going out, and eating with two more seats and two plates at the table, and the two friends follow her all the time.

Although the family thinks this is abnormal, in order to make the lonely Kellyanne happy, they will also cooperate with her to pretend that Bobby and Dingan exist. One day, Rex wants his daughter to make some real friends, and at his suggestion, he and Ashmore take Bobby and Dingen to the mines, while Anne takes Kellyanne to a community event.

Rex's mine collapsed, but luckily the people were fine, and Rex climbed to the ground in embarrassment, and left with Ashmo, distraught, to the bar, and then went home for the night. Both of them completely forgot about Poppy and Dingen.

Kellyanne, who was about to pick up her friend, found that the seat belts in the back seat of the car were unfastened, and Bobby and Dingan had not returned, they were missing. They may still be on the other side of the mine, and in her temper, the Rex father and son take her to the mine to find Bobby and Dingan together.

"Look there! I saw them running behind the winch, did you see that? little princess?"

"No, Poppy won't run, because his legs are made of wood and he has to walk slowly. Remember?"

“...... You're right. ”

"That's nice, Dad. ”

"Stop talking about the cool air, okay? ”

"Aha. ”

"Hurry up and find it, Daddy. Poppy, Dingen, Look, Daddy, you shout too. ”

"Poppy... Dingan..."

"No, it's going to be like this, Bobby!

"Oh okay, okay, Bobby!

The film has been playing for 20 minutes, and the theater in front of the big screen is just more lonely, and one audience member has left the theater early. Except for saying hello at the beginning, Ye Wei and Lily didn't say anything again, just watched the movie silently, feeling the quiet flow of emotions.

"Bobby, Dingan. Ye Wei suddenly called lightly.

Lily's heart was also flooded with the thought of calling, and she opened her mouth slightly but did not make a sound, Bobby, Dingan.

The messy mood is messing up everything, she really found him, this is not a coincidence, from Friday night to now, in the past three days, she has watched every show of "Opal Dream" in Landmark Cinema... Maybe it can be regarded as a coincidence, he doesn't look at anything else, maybe he still has a little tacit understanding and fate with him... Does that make any sense......

On the big screen, because of Kellyanne's awkwardness, the three Rex walked into the nearby mining area to continue looking, but were caught by the mine owner Sid and insisted that they were here to steal the mine. This violates the laws and morals of the town, and under Sid's fuss, the police can't listen to Rex's "just looking for Bobby and Dingen", and the case will be tried by the court.

The Williamson family is despised and resisted by the entire town, and Rex is forced by the ruffians like Sid to mine in the mines, and the utility house in the front yard is blown up. Rex went to settle accounts with Sid and the others but was beaten up, and the local police, who were weak, could not control him, so he had to run to another suburban area where opals had never been found to open mines.

Under pressure from the town, Anne, who works at a convenience store, is fired, Ashmore is teased and bullied by the teenagers at school, and worst of all, Kellyanne, who has lost two friends, falls ill, vomiting, feverish, and lacks energy, and the town's doctors are helpless, and her condition is getting worse day by day.

Seeing his sister like this, Ashmore is determined to help her find Bobby and Dingen, so he asks her to paint their portraits, and with the kind help of the convenience store proprietor, he makes copies of the portraits all over the town. But this only made the Williamson family a complete laughing stock, Rex and Anne quarreled, and the family seemed to be about to break up.

Kellyanne thinks Bobby and Dingan might be dead, dying from the mine collapse, and she asks Ashmore to take a look underneath the mine.

Ashmore mustered up the courage to creep into the mines, where their family was now off-limits, and ventured down his mine. He found an opal in the collapsed ore pile, an opal with a buttin root set in his belly button! He went home and told Kellyanne to show her the opals, and they were really dead. (The image is an image, not a fact: the opal was given to him by another well-wisher gem cutter.) ）

Seeing Dingen's opal, Kellyanne cried and begged Ashmore to hold a funeral for Bobby and Dingan so that they could be buried properly. Ashmore made a deal with the fat uncle in the town who specialized in the burial business, and the opal was exchanged for a full funeral.

On this day, Anne had to take the seriously ill Kellyanne to the city hospital for treatment, while Rex and Ashmore went to the town court to attend the trial. With the help of a gem cutter who acts as a lawyer, and with the help of a convenience store proprietor, a doctor, and other witnesses, Rex tells the judge and everyone the truth about "Poppy and Dingen" in court, and imitates how to find them.

Despite the laughter, the city judge believed Rex's side and acquitted Rex and regained the mining rights. The judge advised the residents to be kind to each other, especially Kylie Ann, and not to hurt an innocent little girl.

The courtroom fell silent, and Ashmo stood up, telling everyone about the funeral, and inviting everyone to attend, for the more people believed in the existence of Poppy and Dingan, the more relieved Kellyanne would be that the illness would heal soon. The case ended, and residents reacted mixedly.

On Saturday, Poppy and Dingen's funerals were held at the town cemetery, and almost all the townspeople came, including Rex from the hospital with an emaciated Kellyanne. In the testimony and prayers of the crowd, Poppy and Dingan were buried.

"Bye-bye, Bobby. Bye-bye, Dingen. Kellyanne personally sprinkled lollipops on the two coffins in the tomb, and flowers were scattered one after another.

After the funeral, everyone dispersed with relief. Uncle Fat returned the opal to Ashmore, waiving all costs of the funeral.

And apparently, Kellyanne will get better, and Anne will get her job back.

"When you believe something, it's true. The same is true for fantasy friends, how they dream and how they share their dreams, whether they are with you or when they are gone. Because dreams are always there, like my mom, my dad and my sister, we dream together, and that's real, and always will be. ”

In Ashmo's narration, he and his father, Rex, climb down the mine once again on the big screen to continue their opal dreams.

With soft music, the film ends, the end credits roll across the screen, and the screening room erupts with very sporadic applause, just two people in the middle row.

"It's a good movie. Ye Wei applauded vigorously and admired with emotion.

The simplicity of technology does not tarnish the film, but rather has the essence of a deserted town, and the touching emotions overflow in the ordinary, and the scene of Ashmore seeing his father being beaten by the bullies makes him almost cry. The warm ending in the end also completes the story.

"yes. Lily applauded, like he had said at the beginning, yes.

"I think Bobby and Dingen are innocent and childlike. Ye Wei looked at the big screen and talked about his viewing feelings: "When we were young, each of us had them, but I don't know when they died, and even you couldn't notice and look for them, as if they never existed, as if they were never fake." ”

"They're real, they used to be ......," Lily whispered.

Ye Wei continued: "Kellyanne is very willful, even annoying. In fact, she is the cutestest, and she is still innocent and childlike in the whole town. The others didn't understand her and laughed at her, not because she was wrong, but because her childhood dreams clashed with the cold, boring reality.

Kellyanne is not willful or neurotic at all, she is just obsessed with her dreams, and reality makes her sick. Her glow made Ashmore, Rex, and everyone ...... I saw the innocence and childlike fun again, even if it was just a broken corpse. They had buried them with their own hands, and Kellyanne had finally buried them. ”

"It's just ......," he said and paused, and as the cast ended, the applause gradually stopped, and the words were reluctantly finished: "The passing of innocence and childlike joy is unstoppable, and some good things will always become a thing of the past." But we have two new friends, love and dreams! If you believe, they exist, and if you don't, they don't. ”

"Believing is not an easy task, no matter what you believe. Lily gradually stopped applauding.

"Yes, some things are hard to believe, but for it to exist and be realized, you must first believe it. Ye Wei suddenly laughed, "I think this is what "Opal Dream" is about to say, a good movie, it's cool, and it's worth the ticket price." ”

"Absolutely. Lily whispered, the movie was about to end, and her heart began to clench uncomfortably, like a rope tied to both sides, what would happen next?

In the past three days, she has already felt the same feelings as him again and again, but she can't give her any answers. This is not a problem that can be solved by watching a movie, and I don't know how to solve it.

Ye Wei suddenly felt that when she turned her head, she was looking at him... Looked at him......

He slowly turned his head to look at her, the beautiful face that appeared in his heart all the time, Lily.

After being silent for a long time, she frowned slightly, "Hello?"

Time seems to go back to that cuttlefish operation in late autumn, and he and her first met. At that time, he had been looking at her for too long, and she asked "Hello?" like now, "Hello?" He suddenly thought that if he and her had just met today, without those regrets and mistakes, maybe it would be the beginning of a love story.

His mind was in turmoil, and Ye Wei said, "Hello, my name is... Angus Leaf, nice to meet you. ”

I don't know what kind of mind it is, he just said so, he is not Ye Wei, he is Angus-Leaf. Angus was the goddess of love in Celtic mythology, he was very bad when he was young, and everyone feared him, but later he fell in love with the beautiful fairy Caer and married her for the better. Angus has the meaning of "one", and Leaf is the leaf.

"Oh......" Lily's eyes blinked, and she thought for a moment before responding, "My name is Ishta-Vitachi, and it's a pleasure to meet you." ”

Ye Wei couldn't help but smile when she heard this, she was not Lily Collins, she was Ishtar-Vintage. Ishtar is the goddess of love in Sumerian mythology, with many versions of legend, and in the Babylonian epic, Ishtar is saved by the hero Gilgamesh, who courtes him out of love and gratitude, but is sternly rejected by the latter because of her caracity and lack of kindness to her ex-boyfriend. The vengeful Ishtar asked her father for a sacred cow that brought about a drought, and went down to the kingdom of Gilgamesh to take revenge on him, only to be defeated by both Gilgamesh and Enki. Vintage means fine wine, antique, old, obsolete, and the best, and Collins means chilled cider.

He used to read the myths of the world with her, and she said that Ishtar was the female version of Heathcliff, and he said that all human stories originated from myths because they all happened in some way. She's not Ishta, she's just sarcastic about him, maybe joking?

AL and IV, IA and VL, in fact, are still them.

"Your name is interesting. Ye Wei said with a smile.

"Yours too. Lily smiled too, and it was hard to understand why, but now she looked at him and faced him with a lot of ease, as if she were a new friend...... She said, "You look a lot like one of my ex-boyfriends, his name is Wei. ”

Ye Wei didn't expect her to say this, in fact, I don't know how she ended up here, did she meet by chance? Compared to the phone call last Sunday night, her mood was much calmer, and at the same time, the unspeakable loss was even heavier. He said, "It just so happens that you look a lot like one of my ex-girlfriends, and her name is Lily. ”

"That's a coincidence. She said.

The movie will always end if it wants to end, Ye Wei took the initiative to say: "Do you have time to hang out for a while? ”

"Okay, hang out for a while. Lily nodded.

Both of them got up and left their seats with mixed feelings and walked outside the theater.

......

"I'm from Los Angeles, I was born here, I grew up here, and I think that's why I've got a lot of bad habits in Los Angeles, and in a nutshell, a lot of idiots. ”

"I'm half an Angeleno, I came from London, England as a kid, when I was 5 years old. The memories of Britain are mostly blurred, and only a few unpleasant ones remain, which is strange......"

"It is not surprising that human beings always remember fear deeply, but happiness forgets very quickly, and then spends their lives unsatisfied. And those fears...... will be with you for a lifetime, some have become the past, and some have always been there. ”

"yes, that's sad. ”

"It's much better than animals, life remembers fear, it's the law of survival, but humans have the ability to overcome fear. So you know how to pronounce English?"

"I will, that's my child's voice. I go back to the UK every summer, usually for a month, and I've tried to live there all summer, and it's okay. In the United States, people were ridiculed for being pretentious, and in the United Kingdom, they were ridiculed for being rude, and when I was a child, I cared about it, but now I see it. ”

"I thought it was cool, at least Bobby could speak English and Dingen could speak American. I've travelled to a lot of places, very few in the UK, but I'm a football fan, I love football, I love watching the Premier League. ”

"Which team are you a fan of?"

"Manchester United, it's a bit cheesy to like this kind of big club, but who makes them wear red shirts, I like red. ”

"It's the same with my ex-boyfriend, he likes Manchester United the most and he dreams of wearing a Manchester United shirt and he wears a number six. ”

Under the starry night, the landmark cinema is brightly lit, and visitors and spectators come and go. Ye Wei and Lily were strolling and chatting, just out of the studio, to go to the café on the street, or just walk. Both of them walked slowly, and gradually became more generous from the beginning of the restraint, she called him Gus, and he called her Yishi, a pair of new friends.

Lily looked at the starry sky and said, waving her hands a few times to make herself more natural, "I don't understand him, I used to think I knew him best, but no." ”

Ye Wei looked at her, she was wearing a white long-sleeved jacket, crimson casual pants and white sneakers, carrying a beige cross-body bag, rolling up a sleeve with both hands, and wearing a fashionable silver bracelet on her left wrist, fresh and youthful, with light brown medium-long hair shawl down, bright eyebrows, and delicate red lips, all glowing with fairy-like beauty.

He tried his best not to hold her hand or hug her, and asked in a curious tone, "What's wrong with you?"

"What about you?" Lily looked at him, the 22cm height difference made her need to raise her head slightly, his tall body was wearing a black leather jacket, faded blue jeans and black sneakers, he seemed to be just as handsome as he was, and his eyes had an incomprehensible intelligence.

Seeing her looking, he frowned his good-looking sword eyebrows, and said slowly, "I... I didn't understand her either, I used to think I had a heart-to-heart with her, but then I ...... Now, I think she's very mysterious, ethereal, and can't guess... I don't understand what she thinks. ”

Lily turned her head to look at the traffic on the avenue and walked past a fairly lively restaurant before she spoke, "Gus, how did you break up?"

"Me and her. Ye Wei shrugged his shoulders and said as he walked: "We were like a natural couple, we were really happy when we were together, it's not that there are no unhappy things, but we can also taste the sweetness from it." Once... It's really good. When we parted, we were younger than we are now... There was a misunderstanding, the old misunderstanding was not resolved, and there was a new misunderstanding, and we did not deal with it at that time. ”

He looked at the hazy night scene in the distance of the street, "At that time... We love too much and demand too much. We were both perfectionist in that relationship, and even a little mistake we probably couldn't tolerate, but it was still a very serious misunderstanding, and it was my fault. ”

"What's going on?" Lily's eyes were a little misty.

"I didn't think about her feelings. It is natural to think that she should trust me, she doesn't believe that I don't love me, any girl will explode at that time, and some will be even more fierce. I just thought she was different, our love was different, but I forgot that she was also a girl, and she had a deep fear that I didn't understand at the time. ”

Ye Wei didn't go to see Lily, and continued to talk to his heart: "Then the second misunderstanding, she didn't know, and I, a fool, misunderstood her." The reason why we broke up, she thought it was because she didn't believe me, but it was actually because I didn't believe her. I said it nicely, actually... Actually......"

Lily didn't urge him to continue, and the past came up like smoke from the bottom of her heart, making her numb.

"I never told her. Ye Wei looked at Lily, maybe it was the strength that the journey of feeling gave him, he could say calmly and honestly: "Yishi, when I was dating her, in fact, I have always had a lot of unconfidence, occasionally even inferiority complex, she is a princess, I am a ruffian. ”

She looked a little surprised. He shook his head and laughed, "That's the source of my misunderstanding of her, before that my inferiority complex was only very mild, and it would be converted into a kind of lucky happiness." When we broke up, she ignored my explanations and pursuits, and after falling in love with her, I felt for the first time that she was a high-minded lady, I was not the same kind of person as her, she could say that she didn't care and didn't care... Like I'm just a little white face......

I was furious, but not just angry, I felt like I was an enemy of her, so I didn't ask her, I ignored her, but I loved her. Yes, it's a bit like Heathcliff, she was hit by her, it's a mess. If perfect romanticism is the reason for the light side, this one belongs to the dark side, and I didn't tell her, I didn't want her to know. ”

"I don't understand... Do you have low self-esteem?" Lily thought about it, and the more she raised her thick eyebrows, "You, I mean, I don't think you look like you, you look good......"

He is always sunny and humorous, or bad, she has seen him fall and even collapse, the time he was countered by Willis's team, that was the weakest Ye Wei she had ever seen, but it was fine immediately. Low self-esteem? I never felt like he still had this mentality.

"Haha!" Ye Wei laughed easily, "Now I can face these more maturely, not at that time, not a few months ago." I also don't want to admit and face this emotion, it just exists, other girls can't make me like this, she is different, with love it will be different.

Her family background, her background, she paid for me to travel and buy me clothes...... It's all a little bit there. You don't know, but at what age she traveled the world, and a lot of her knowledge made me feel shallow. The main thing is ......"

"What?" asked Lily.

"She has a force that makes me feel overwhelmed. Ye Wei looked at her and said, the more she said, the more she understood herself: "No other girl has it, just she has it, just looking at her, I can feel that she can make me lose at any time." Lily whispered, "You're pretty good at talking......"

"It's true. Later I realized that it was not how low I had, but that I had fallen for the side effects of love. Ye Wei exhaled and said, "It is easy to feel humble when you love someone deeply. You love, you give, and if you don't get the response you want, you're going to be lost, frustrated, upset, I'm not doing a good job, she's disappointed, I'm not worthy of her, her. These feelings create a sense of humility, which leads to quarrels, which bury a relationship. It's too difficult to give in love without caring about the response. ”

The two didn't walk into the Starbucks or any café on the street, just walked on the side of the street, blowing the night breeze and looking at the stars.

"Actually......" Lily wanted to speak and stopped, the words were even more difficult to speak than she thought, thinking that he was not Ye Wei, so she suddenly had the courage: "Gus, my ex-boyfriend... Not now, the previous one made me feel inferior. ”

"You?" Ye Wei was surprised, although she had heard her say that she had inferiority complex and her thick eyebrows before, but it was caused by a girl's love for beauty and being attacked by the environment, what else could she have to inferiority? The side effects of love should be effective for everyone, but it should not work for her. He asked, "What's going on?"

"When we were dating... I've always been afraid of losing him, and one reason is that he's so good. Lily took a deep breath quietly, not wanting him to notice the uneasiness she felt about revealing her dark side, "Another reason is my low self-esteem. I told him I wasn't as strong as he thought I was, and he just didn't believe it. My thick eyebrows ......"

"Please, your thick eyebrows are beautiful!" Ye Wei couldn't help but say.

"Listen to me. Lily glared at him and told him not to say anything, or she might not be able to speak, she looked away, and said, "Gus, I don't know how many times I've been called thick-eyed monsters since I was a child, and I tried to make them very fine, before I met him. If it weren't for my mom's constant encouragement, I would have been doing it all the time. He always says he likes it, but I don't like people telling him, 'Your girlfriend has weird eyebrows.'" And my body ......."

She felt him watching, and couldn't help laughing at herself: "I'm almost 18 years old, and I'm still like a child, and my friends joke to me, 'Are you still 15?' I exercise, I exercise, I exercise, eat a healthy diet, have a regular schedule... I just can't look like a woman. ”

"You always will. Ye Weizhen didn't know what to say, I don't think this is a problem, some girls are 18 years old but like 30 years old.

Lily shook her head slightly, "That guy has had quite a few ex-girlfriends after me... Gus, he's had a Canadian girlfriend, she's so pretty, super big, tall, hot, sexy... And I've never had anything to do with sexiness. Audrey Hepburn is one of my idols, and Hepburn has always been envious of Monroe because she has nothing to do with sex appeal either. You don't understand, when I stand with Nina, I'm a child, she's a woman, in fact, I envy her. ”

Ye Wei is a little funny, girls, two girls.

Seeing him laugh, Lily smiled as if she was ashamed, "Appearance is not what I care about the most. Especially at that time, I was more in a spiritual relationship with him, I enjoyed it very much, I was very proud of our specialness, but I kept a secret from him, I have ADHD. ”

She waved her hands unnaturally, looked up, gritted her teeth, and said after a while: "This is a common disease, many people have it, it's okay, don't mind." I've been taught this way since I was a child, and I've long been used to its existence. But no matter what, how to tell him, I will be like a little monkey if I don't take medicine, and I can't tell whether some emotional problems are normal or sick. I don't want him to know, and I'm afraid he knows...... He likes a normal person, maybe he doesn't like me anymore when he knows about it, and thinks, 'Oh, it all makes sense', she's sick, she's pretending...... He came to New York to see me that day, and we were supposed to talk, but I didn't know how to deal with him. ”

Ye Wei felt that her heart was tightening, and her heart was opening again, she didn't completely resist him that day.

I heard her say again: "My origin, if you want to say proud, you can say weird. Let's just say my dad, proud because Princess Diana is his fan...... But that's him, it's him, good or bad. I'm a freak in a single-parent family. Almost everyone of us in the second generation will start seeing a psychiatrist at a very young age. ”

Lily sneered and counted with her hands: "My parents are divorced, I don't see each other a few times a year, and such and such bad things happen around me... Psychiatrists can't really solve the problem, and many people abuse drugs, take drugs, profligate, and indulge...... It's a mess. ”

"You don't just need it. Ye Wei said.

"Thank you to my mom, thank you to my ADHD for setting so many rules for me. Lily looked at him, and now added a real reason: "She has always been afraid that I will have some mental illness when I am an adult, and I will have to wait until I am 18 years old to develop my career." Ye Wei said: "That's what my mother did." The more she spoke, the more relaxed she became: "When the second generation of stars grows up, they will either inherit their parents' careers, or leave the entertainment industry completely and nothing at all." ”

She made a rabbit-eared gesture: "I'm a piece of cloth that was spotted when it was made." I want to be innocent, but I can't live without it, my birth photo was sold by my parents for charity, I made a cameo appearance in a TV series when I was 2 years old, what do I know?" blinking eyes flashed with a flash, "I only knew that I would enter the entertainment industry when I grew up, I don't hate it, as long as it exists in the way I want, I will work hard." I'm going to prove myself, I'm not just Phil... My father's little girl, I am me, I am going to prove it. ”

"That's pretty cool. Ye Wei nodded, Lily's will and independence, he understood it the first time he hung out, and that was one of the reasons why he was attracted to her.

"He grew up in a normal and happy family. Lily realized that she was talking to Ye Wei, but she was already able to muster up her courage: "Actually, he has more things that I don't have, and many times I'm not sure if I'm 'normal' in his opinion, or a spoiled and sick vulgar 'eldest lady', I'm afraid." I didn't share all of this dark side with him, and I didn't want him to know about it. ”

She gasped, and her soft voice gradually choked: "I pretended to be strong and free, and when we broke up, I was so angry that I wanted to kill him...... He deceived me and destroyed everything I had no faith in but still wanted to pursue... Later, I believed in him, but I didn't do anything, I felt that he was mine, he wasn't mine or who's? We had an agreement, he didn't keep it, I thought he still needed time, and I was still taking care of my image...... At the time I didn't understand what that meant, it was loss. That's what I think, but that's what happened. ”

"I'm sorry......" Ye Wei couldn't help but apologize, his eyes were red, he messed up everything, and he had never felt her pain and vulnerability so deeply.

Both of them understand that they used to be compatible with each other and clumsy, sharing happiness together, supporting each other's pride, and chasing dreams together. But the pain is shared too little, there is no time for them, just hiding the ignorant side of inferiority, so sensitive, so caring......

"The other party is one's own", "How can the other party be one's own", "The other party is not one's own", "The other party may be one's own, I don't know why, because of the wish"

These thoughts mingle together, sometimes strong and sometimes weak, until all the wishes are reduced to ashes.

"Gus! don't feel sorry for me. Lily reminded Ye Wei loudly of the current situation, she could already feel the complicated mess coming: "That's him before, very good, very good." But he's changed this year, and now he's ...... I don't know, not now, he's changed again. ”

"He's not a chameleon, is he?" Ye Wei quipped.

"He is. Lily pursed her lips, and when memories, moods, and thoughts were like a train to a new station, suddenly everything was different. Her face sank, and her voice was cold: "He has done a lot of very, very excessive things in his love life......"

"He's a fool who gets drowned in darkness. Ye Wei's voice was also sinking.

Lily stopped, looked at Ye Wei, who had only turned back after walking a few steps forward, and said, "He has become my opposite." ”

Ye Wei turned around, but one or two steps on the street brought back the sense of distance from her cliff, and his tone was a little unnatural: "Didn't you say that he has changed again?" Yishi, do you think he has changed for the better or worse?"

The streetlights stretched the figures of both of them, and Lily looked at him with blank eyes, so let's say nothing today. When a couple of passers-by walked by, she said, "It's getting better, I can see it, and I believe he's getting better." He did a lot of things to get back together, crazy, stupid, funny... It also messes me up with how I think and feel about him......"

"What?" Ye Wei's heart seemed to jump out of his chest, he hadn't gotten a real answer before, he didn't understand her all.

"He asked me to forgive him. What are you talking about forgiving or not forgiving?" Lily said and paused, turned back to the studio, and confided in him with her back: "That guy didn't do murder and arson, we weren't dating, he just turned and went the other way, the bastard road, and then went deeper and deeper." Now that he's back, I believe in his heart. ”

She didn't know what Ye Wei's expression was, so she continued as unmessily as possible: "But... But I don't want to take him, haha, I... I have a girl who dreams that one day I will meet a... My Prince Charming. If I accept him, it's like equal... Believing that Poppy and Dingan do not exist...... I'm still young, maybe, maybe there's still a chance. ”

Her heart hurt so hard that she wondered if it was her intention: "So I'm not disgusting with him, maybe I like it a little bit, but... Accept him as if nothing is ever possible...... Can you understand?"

"I see. Ye Wei looked at Lily's back, the swaying crossbody bag, a little powerless to move forward, and the sound of a car on the road was so harsh that his head was about to explode: "Your ex-boyfriend, but, no matter how he changes, he has lost his qualifications, and he is qualified to be your prince charming." As long as he is still insisting, he will kidnap you, like a toad relying on you, hindering you from moving forward, chasing your dreams, and realizing your possible perfect love. ”

He really understood, he understood some of the words she had said when she refused before, it wasn't that he didn't forgive, it wasn't that he didn't feel it, it was that he wasn't qualified.

"yes. Lily's heartache gradually replaced by a blank look, "That's what I thought. ”

"Is this your childhood dream?What is your childhood dream?" Ye Wei asked, feeling heartbroken that he was truly losing her, completely.

Lily was silent for a while, walked side by side with him, and suddenly said, "Love can last forever." ”

Ye Wei nodded silently, if love can be forever, then the parents will not quarrel and divorce, and everything will be fine. Love is like this, from the beginning to forever, of course.

"What about you?" asked Lily.

"Me?" Ye Wei looked at the dark night sky, thinking back to his childhood, almost carefree, except when he didn't have enough fun, he laughed and said, "It's always fun." ”

Love-Can-Be-Forever

Have-Fun-As-Always

Isn't this enough to explain the difference between him and her, the current problem? Ye Wei suddenly understood that he was fulfilling his childhood dream in the first half of this year, and he had to have new fun every day, and at the same time, he was offended to destroy Lily's childhood dream, how stupid.

He's coming back from the jerk road, Nina will get back together with him, Amy will get back together with him, Emma and Liz will want to try dating him...... But Lily, she doesn't.

She knew what he wanted, and she still had some feelings, but those feelings were remnants, distorted, reluctant. Why would he ask her to willingly give up her childhood dreams for him, accept the disgusting reality, and bury Bobby and Dingan with her own hands?

After thinking about this, and then accepting it, Ye Wei looked down at the street and smiled bitterly.

I used to hear that loving someone sometimes has to know how to let go, and I am very disdainful of this, thinking that it is just to get by.

But now, he knew he really had to let go.

"Li...... Ishtar. Ye Wei looked at Lily with a smile, haha a few times to make her heart less painful, useless, almost gasping for breath and said: "Your story has given me a great enlightenment, my ex-girlfriend and I happen to have this kind of problem, I know what to do now." ”

Lily's eyes were fixed on him.

"I should let go!" Ye Wei grinned exaggeratedly, "I have passed with her, and I can't go back." ”

Lily didn't speak, her face quickly turned red, and her heart was filled with a chaotic image of her love time, the time she was in love with him, his efforts to get back together, but there were photos of his date with those women, tonight in front of her eyes...... She couldn't think of things, she couldn't speak, neither Lily nor Ishta.

She felt that something was losing him again. In these three months, in fact, she had already regained possession of him, and now she was losing again, truly losing him.

Every time she rejected him and scolded him, the heartache that grew stronger and stronger, or the heartache that was frozen in her heart but was waking up, this heartache that hurt to the extreme, told her that she didn't want to lose him. Why not accept it? Not just some dream, but something holding her back.

She suddenly saw another darkness in her heart, it was a fear, she was afraid of being hurt by him again.

The first day she moved to the United States, she knew it was just a ridiculous daydream, she had no faith in it, she didn't have faith in herself, she didn't have faith in him, she didn't have faith in love.

She wanted someone who could give her more confidence, who could calm her fears and doubts, who could lead her to believe.

Before, she felt that Ye Wei was this person, but now, she doubted whether Ye Wei was this person.

"Wait, I'm sending a text message to my ex-girlfriend. Ye Wei smiled, took out his mobile phone from his jeans pocket, pressed it, and sent a text message.

Lily calmly and calmly took out her mobile phone from the crossbody bag and opened the new text message she had just received: "Lily, let's end it peacefully, I'll let it be, I wish you a quick meeting with your Prince Charming, good luck!" Please let me keep it selfishly. ”

"Aren't you going to give your ex-boyfriend a reply?" Ye Wei asked with a smile, only by squeezing a smile can he look like a little bit.

Lily suddenly smiled toothily, and didn't know why she was laughing, and shook her head slightly: "I want to tell him in person that we... We...... It's a shame. ”

"There are always some regrets in life. Ye Wei said.

"Perhaps...... Perhaps only regrets can last forever. Lily said.

"Love is okay, as long as you work for it. Ye Wei couldn't stay any longer, otherwise he would probably go crazy and hug her, be slapped by her again, etc., he took a deep breath and exhaled, and smiled: "Ishta, I have to go, thank you very much for talking about this tonight, you look like a super good girl! Come on, and I wish you good luck, goodbye." ”

With that, he strode forward with all his strength, in the direction of the parking lot.

At night, on the side of the traffic avenue and on the street in front of the studio, Lily watched Ye Wei gradually walk away, turned the corner and disappeared, she didn't move for a long time.

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Sunday, May 30, 2004

Los Angeles, 28°C~14°C, sunny, windless/west breeze, gibbous moon, precipitation 0. 00 mm

"A hundred flowers bloom in the summer, and a hundred flowers wither in the autumn, why, I see that everything in the world is a lily? Lily, because of you, I have everything!"

"Okay, okay, how many times have you read it this week? I love it...... Your poem really doesn't rhyme, haha. ”

In Crestwood Hills Park, in the woods on the north slope, a young couple sits on the grass by the big tree, laughing and playing, and several books are placed next to them. The boy looked at a copy of the Encyclopedia of the Unsolved Mysteries of the World and read a poem, as if all he could see, and the girl leaned on his shoulder and stretched out her hand to hit him.

She suddenly thought of a question and was shocked: "When our relationship is exposed, it will always be, this poem is so embarrassing......"

"How to be ashamed? Poetry is about telling emotions. He said.

"It's much worse than Shelley's. She said.

"What! I thought you would say at most, 'It's so much worse than my dad's lyrics,'" he looked stunned, and she pretended to be serious, "That makes sense." He said angrily: "Take it and see how she writes poetry! She burst out laughing, and took a tome of Shelley's poems from the side and handed it to him, which he opened.

The two watched together, read together, enjoyed the poems, shared their feelings, tasted their emotions, and looked forward to the future, the future of VI and LI.

They liked and excerpted Shelley's poems about the future, like Fear-not-for-the-future, weep-not-for-the-past. There is no need to fear the future, and there is no need to cry about the past.

And their favorite one: The-past-is-Deaths, the-future-is-thine-own. The past belongs to death, and the future belongs to you.

"As Dr. Brown said, the future is not static, but in their own hands, and everyone should work hard to create a better future!" he laughs.

"Haha! You can talk about anything in the movies. She laughs.

"Yes, I'm going to be a master of cinema. ”

"I hope so. ”

"For your hope, I will also work hard. ”

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The night grew thicker and thicker, there was no rain, no wind at all, and the whole world seemed to stop, deep in the dark mire.

Lily returned home blank all the way, and without saying anything to her mother at home, she went back to the upstairs bedroom, and lay down on the bed without taking off her shoes, covering herself in the quilt, closing her eyes and falling into darkness. It's finally over, and it's a peaceful breakup, it's quite romantic, Angus Leaf, Ishta Vita......

Tonight's scenes and sentences came to my heart, and every bit of detail was clearly presented in the dark.

Some thoughts that I didn't notice at the time, and the emotions that I didn't have time to experience, are now completely aware of them, so detailed.

In the end, it all came to him to say goodbye: "Come on, and good luck and goodbye." ”

Lily turned, her mind still fluttering, thinking about all the nearly three years she had known him, thinking about this year, the last three months, the last week, tonight......

The more I think about it, the more I feel heartbroken, the more I think about it, the more panicked I become, and I can't calm it down at all.

She remembered Elizabeth Olsen's half-joking words on the phone, "You really don't want him, I'll take him if you don't." She could tell Olsen what he meant, that it was a temptation, and she said, "Take it away if you want." ”

He came back to Los Angeles a few days later, and she came back to Los Angeles too, with a bunch of gifts...... She remembered waking up in the middle of the night when he shut down the IA-Songs channel. Remembering that nightmare, she saw that in the future, Elizabeth Olsen became his wife and they got married. Or is it Nina Dobrev, or Amy Rosen?

It's going to happen sooner or later, he's already decided to let go, he's going to have a new date, then a girlfriend, then a fiancée, and finally a wife.

Whoever it was, it wouldn't be her, because she and he were completely over on this day on September 10, 2006. She's looking for her Prince Charming, maybe she found it, maybe she hasn't, but it will never be him......

Why is this... Why?

Her heart ached and she couldn't be relieved, and in the darkness and pain, she asked herself three questions, and three questions were enough:

"Do you still love him, even a little bit?" Yes, you still love him, not just a little.

"What ......will happen when one day you see him have a new girlfriend and see him get married?"

"If you can be sure that he won't hurt you anymore, that it's right to get back together, that you'll be happy, that you're going to be better than before, what will you be?"

Then why not give him a chance, not give yourself a chance, not give this love a chance?

Because you are not sure, afraid, doubtful?

You say that you want "love can be forever", his love is still there, what about your love? If that's it, and he can't last forever, won't any dream be over?

The so-called dream is an excuse! You are afraid, you are suspicious, you are jealous, you just can't forgive, you can't love......

Lily felt herself sink to the end of her own darkness, and she saw her own arrogance and cowardice, which was a real crossbar hanging high in the air, and she couldn't jump over.

She also seemed to see and felt that Ye Wei and Elizabeth Olsen were dating, Nina was in Canada, Amy Rosen was in New York, it wasn't them, it was Olsen, maybe he was looking for Olsen, maybe Olsen was looking for him, he was confiding in Olsen, Olsen was comforting him, they hugged, they... They......

"Don't !!" Lily suddenly shouted, opened her eyes, and raised her thick eyebrows, "I don't want that future, I don't want that to happen, I don't want !!!!!"

Just like that, she propped up the pole, jumped over the crossbar, flew in the sky, landed on the ground, and was fine!

Lily hurriedly sat up, reached for the bedside table and took the mobile phone and dialed Ye Wei, covering her ears while running out of the bedroom.

Future?

The past belongs to the Grim Reaper, and the future belongs to you!

That little rascal, good or bad, he's mine! It's all mine!

It's not about accepting the shattering of dreams, it's about accepting him, and getting out of my dreams,

If I try and fail, I will die, but if I don't try, if I don't try, I will die now.

In the midst of a long beep from the mobile phone, Lily came downstairs and ran out of the house, why didn't she get through? Where is he? What is he doing? Each long beep slashes her heart like a sharp knife, and those bad memories are invading again, making her breathing and her steps uncontrollable.

When I came outside, the night breeze blew slightly, and the phone was suddenly connected with a click.

"Lily?" Ye Wei's voice came out, obviously suppressing surprise.

"Where are you?" asked Lily, running to the car in the distance. Ye Wei said: "I'm at home." She heard a girl's laughter, it was Duoduo, he was really home. He said again: "Just now I was playing hide and seek with Duoduo, I thought she was using her mobile phone to lure me out, and I was embarrassed to answer so late." What's wrong?"

She couldn't say no, "Go somewhere, now!" I'll be waiting for you there. ”

"What......!?oh!oh... Well, I'll go now. He just screamed in surprise, and then lowered it again, with some embarrassment.

Idiot. Lily added, "Either you go, or you're stubborn." ”

"It's either you go or you're stubborn. He also said.

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"The reprition is not your soul, but you know thyself,

neither do you hate the sins of others, nor your own.

It's just the dark idolatry of the ego,

Then, when our thoughts and actions are gone,

It is demanded that the man should weep, bleed, and groan;

Rest in peace!

The past belongs to the Grim Reaper, and the future belongs to you;

And love and joy can turn the evil heart into a paradise of flowers, where peace may build her comfort zone. 』

――The-Revolt-of-Islam，Canto-VIII-21

By-Percy-Bysshe-Shelley

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Under the dim night sky, the street lamps lit up the lonely neighborhood streets with a faint light, and it was almost 11 o'clock, except for the occasional barking of dogs and the sound of cars passing by.

Ye Wei drove the Volkswagen Polo to the old place on Sunset Boulevard, girl, do you really need to tell me "We're a pity" in person? He didn't understand, but he didn't care if Lily needed this breakup ceremony, but he didn't expect to meet again so soon.

The headlights were on, and before I could get there, I could see Lily's white Maserati parked on the side of the road. Time seemed to go back to the first time they hung out, only the lonely night sky and the cars that were no longer bicycles reminded him that it was all in the past.

Ye Wei parked the car on the sidewalk, unbuckled his seat belt, opened the door and got out of the car, only to see Lily in front of him also get out of the car at the same time. She is still a heroic girl dressed in her previous clothes and shoes, white jacket, crimson trousers and white sneakers.

Come, princess, swing your sword and stab me in the heart.

He walked over with a smile, "Hey, Lily, how are you doing?"

He suddenly felt that something was wrong, it was her tearful eyes, it was her face that seemed to have tender love......

"But. Lily whispered, walked over to his step, and looked at his suspicious face, and in this moment she remembered a lot, big fool. In the light breeze of the night breeze, she raised her left index finger to point at him, stared at him, and naturally sang from her heart: "Listen, dear, I want you to listen." ”

Ye Wei was stunned, and then suddenly a huge force surged in his heart, this is