After sending off Second Master Tong and Chang Dachun, Mo Xun immediately changed his expression, no longer crying with a look of grievance, but staring at the old goddess like a cannibal: "What do you know?"

The old goddess raised her hand tremblingly, pointed at Mo Xun and said, "You are not human. You've killed a lot of people. ”

Mo Xun's face darkened. "You know I kill, but do you know why I kill?"

Mo Xun picked up a jar of wine from the statue and poured it into the bowl without care. "It was a long time ago, I sold myself to a big family as a maid, and within two years of doing it, his family was sent to Cangzhou, and I was also used as a military prostitute. Do you know what life is like for a military prostitute? I have to be humiliated by dozens of soldiers every day, and I envy those who are military prostitutes with me, they get sick and they die, but I don't, I try to find a way but I can't die. I can only live, not as good as a dog. ”

So I promised to find that man, I took revenge, I killed the whole army of men, they were all living people, they had parents, brothers and sisters, but they didn't do even the basics in the war. They have become puppets of the generals, they wave their whips like women in their own country, and swing their spears at the enemy, they never think that military prostitutes are also human beings, and they are also flesh and blood people, military prostitutes are also the daughters of other people's families, and there are also fathers and mothers who feel distressed. Do you think they shouldn't be killed?"

Mo Xun and the old goddess have been together day and night for seven years, but they have never talked about it, Mo Xun doesn't mention it, and the old goddess doesn't ask. If it weren't for the old goddess making this scene, until the old goddess died, Mo Xun would not have mentioned these things to her.

"How long have you lived?" the old goddess couldn't help but ask her.

"Don't you believe in these ghosts and gods? Where was your god when I was suffering? Where was your god when the country was in war for many years and people could only hide in the tunnels to survive?" Mo Xun replied.

"You don't believe in gods and Buddhas, so why do you burn incense and pray every day?" the old goddess asked.

Mo Xun didn't answer, she didn't know how she should answer, she didn't want to admit that she had become accustomed to and even liked the feeling of getting along with the old goddess in the past seven years.

"I've lived for so long, so long that I don't even remember how long I've lived. More than 2,000 years ago, I was a fool, I thought that as long as I was willing to work, I would be able to eat, so I worked hard, but I still suffered insults. Then my mind became clear and I could tell right from wrong, so I started to hide everywhere, I was afraid that someone would know my secret. Mo Xun said slowly to the old goddess.

"Seven years ago, in the year of the Great Tribulation, I fainted and died on the mountain. You saved me, but your immortal family didn't allow you to save me, they were afraid of me. I was so angry that they didn't even dare come near me. I am grateful to you for saving me at all costs seven years ago, and I would love to stay by your side to take care of you. But that doesn't include conniving at you to leak my secrets. ”

As he spoke, Mo Xun changed his words: "A few years ago, you went to the village to drink the full moon wine at the third master Tong's house, and you actually announced my secret without choosing a word, if it weren't for your immortal family's upper body blocking your mouth, do you know how much disaster you would cause." I know I can't stay here, but I still want to provide for you in your old age, and you think I'm killing you. Mo Xun became more and more excited, and the old goddess's head gradually drooped.

She more or less knew from the mouth of the immortal family that Mo Xun was not an ordinary person. But I didn't expect her to be a human spirit who had lived for 2,000 years. She is not as smart as the legendary human spirit, her intelligence level is barely at the level of ordinary people, she doesn't know a little bit of yinjutsu, she doesn't get old, she doesn't die, and she is not even as decent as an ordinary person. She wore the most torn cotton jacket and ate rancid brown rice.

"I don't have many days left. When I'm gone, you can burn down the Qingyue Nunnery and leave. Go to Changbai Mountain, where you will find your nobles. That's all I can count. The old goddess stretched out her withered hands and held Mo Xun's hand tightly. Mo Xun's hands had frostbite, red and red.

"Actually, I can let you live a few more years, and I can find that person to make a deal. It's been a long time since I've talked to anyone about me. I'm afraid that someone will arrest me, and since you want to hear it, I want to talk to you more. Mo Xun pulled out her hand, she was still not used to this.

After thousands of years of life, she had hardly met anyone who could treat her so kindly. The old goddess was one of the few people, she helped her to heal, gave her food and clothing, taught her to know herbal medicine, in fact, she thanked the old goddess from the bottom of her heart.

"I won't live this year, you can't help me. Life can be endured, but the catastrophe cannot be endured. The old goddess stretched out her hand again, and she held Mo Xun's hand tightly. Didn't this girl make her feel warm.

The old goddess is a native of the former Qing Dynasty, she has lived in Mohe Village since she was a child, her original surname is Guerjia, her father is a descendant of the nobles of the former Qing Dynasty, but he is not a son-in-law, he has not been valued by his family since he was a child, and he has been doing herbal medicine and clove business alone at the age of fifteen. During a collection of medicinal herbs, he and his servants were robbed by mountain bandits, not only a few cartloads of medicinal herbs, but also the coils they carried with them were robbed.

At this time, they met Tong Erye's cousin, that is, the grandfather of the old goddess, and he took their master and servant back home, and it was here that he met the mother of the old goddess, and her kindness and gentleness attracted him deeply, and he decided to live here. A year after they got married, they had a child of their own, who is now the old goddess. In other words, the old goddess was very happy when she was a child, her parents loved each other, and her family was rich.

As the old goddess grew up, the situation also changed a lot, the Qing Dynasty fell, the Republic of China government was established, and the war also burned to the remote villages. No one knew how he died, and even the body was not brought back.

After the death of the father, the life of the old goddess and the mother was not guaranteed, and under the advice of the villagers, the mother decided to let the old goddess marry, when the old goddess was only fifteen years old, but was forced to marry the landlord of the next village. Chen's landlord's family is old and has children, but his son suffers from eye disease, and no girl is willing to marry him when he is nearly 30 years old. It is said that the landlord Chen is too demanding, not the flag people don't want it, don't do it after eighteen, don't look like a sign. In this way, the old goddess married an old bachelor who was more than ten years older than herself.

In fact, the son of the landlord Chen was not bad for her, he ate and drank well for her every day, and knew that the old goddess liked medical skills, so he asked people everywhere to buy medical books for her to study. Please also ask the husband to teach the old goddess medical skills.

At that time, Western medicine had just entered the field of vision of the Chinese people, and the prescient landlord Xiao Chen also invited foreigners to come over. She learned English, learned foreign musical instruments, and a few years after she got married, the old god's father-in-law died, and the old god's husband took over the family property.

The old goddess and her husband were both kind people, and they saw that the villagers around them could not afford to see a doctor, so they exempted many poor people from paying for medical treatment. The villagers praised Xiao Chen landlord and his wife as good people and the reincarnation of immortals.

Three years after the two got married, they had their own child, which was a boy, and the old goddess named him Chen Jishi. I hope that he will be able to hang the pot to help the world when he grows up. But ah, that kid didn't live long enough to hang a pot to help the world.

It was when Chen Jishi was nine years old, and a catastrophe of reform came. An agrarian revolution called the fight against local tyrants and the division of land began. The land of the landlord Chen was divided, and if it was better to divide the land, they even burned down the old god's hospital, and many of those who burned the hospital even received free medical treatment there. The landlord Lao Cai, who exploited the working people, was duly punished in that catastrophe, but the old goddess's family became victims of the fire of the poor and hated the rich.

The husband of the old goddess was in a hurry, and he went in a few days. Chen Jishi was abused and ridiculed by the children of his classmates every day, as Chen Jishi's cousin, Tong Erye naturally tried his best to protect his nephew, but Chen Jishi, the child, had a too smooth life since he was a child, and he was so devastated by this catastrophe for a while that he couldn't think of committing suicide by throwing himself into the well. Second Master Tong still didn't want to go. felt that if he cared more about his nephew, he would not commit suicide, so he took the old goddess to the house.

In the turbulent times of the world, the ghosts and monsters on the mountain have also come out of the mountain to save people and accumulate merits. A group of earth immortals in the Great Xing'an Mountains took a fancy to the ill-fated old goddess. When she was thirty years old, the old goddess "went out", and she began to help people to see things and cure diseases, and asked for some food to make ends meet.

The old goddess sees things very accurately, and her medical skills are also very clever, and people still believe in her, whether it is her ability or her kindness and forbearance, all of which are admired by the villagers. So they decided to raise money to rebuild the Qingyue Nunnery for her. It is said that after the death of Emperor Shunzhi, his concubines sent people to build it, in order to pray for Emperor Shunzhi.

The second half of the old goddess's life was almost spent there alone. It wasn't until Mo Xun's arrival that the lonely life of the old goddess began to have a voice. She began to be able to eat a delicious dinner, she began to have to collect medicine alone, and her face, which had been bitter for decades, began to smile.

"Then don't you resent those who ruined you, and they will take revenge, why do you still help them?" Mo Xun asked incredulously.

The old goddess shook her head, and then nodded again: "Hate, why don't you hate? But hatred can't watch them die, I can help them, but if I watch them die and don't stretch out my hand to save them, then what's the difference between me and killing people? The immortal family said that this is my life! Kefu and Kezi, this is all my life, what can I complain about?" The old goddess's cloudy eyes were filled with tears.

"You just resigned yourself to your fate?" Mo Xun asked. The old goddess sighed deeply. "I learned to read physiognomy with the fairy family, I am three white eyes, high cheekbones, a natural Kefu face, and the eight characters of my birthday are also Kefu. Because I told my fortune, I shortened my lifespan, otherwise I would have lived to ninety. But what's the use of living that long? To live is to suffer!"

Mo Xun also sighed: "Since ancient times, the rich have sought longevity, and poor people like us are not guilty of living to live." You say, you know your own life, and you accept it, but what about me? What is my life?"