"I don't want to say arrogant words, I used to scold a person from time to time, especially arrogant, others say that my horse tea is a psychopath, I don't think so, I think others are neurotic, everyone except me is neurotic. My mother used to let me study mathematics and wanted me to be a mathematician, to be an outstanding mathematician, my mother was not educated, she envied others for counting, being able to count from one to a hundred. In the process of my study, my mother wanted me to work more on mathematics, but I was not interested in mathematics, I liked metaphysics. I secretly read metaphysical books when I was studying mathematics, and then I fell in love with spells. I envy those who can fly with a wave of their hand, I also envy the strange light around their bodies when they use spells, I think that people who can do spells are strange people, and their circle is another world for me, and I thought, one day I will also learn spells, like those amazing people, who can do spells, who can perform spells, and who can live a very interesting life. I don't know where I heard it, that is, if people want to learn spells, they should look good, this is a strange saying, in fact, learning spells has nothing to do with looks. However, at that time, some people said that I was ugly, and that ugly people could not learn spells. I looked in the mirror, and I realized that I was indeed not handsome, I was a person who was not handsome, and how could a person who was not handsome learn spells. I looked at my somewhat sparse eyebrows, and then at my untidy eyelashes, and I felt sad, I was inferior, I was afraid that I would not be able to learn spells because of my bad looks. I have my own logic, I thought, a teacher. If he wants to teach students, he will definitely classify students, good-looking students and bad-looking students, students with good figures and students with bad figures, students with elegant temperament and students with unelegant temperament, and the teacher will definitely teach those good-looking students and will not pay attention to those who look ugly. The more I think about it, the more sad I become, the more sad I am for my current self, and I am also sad for my future self, I am a person with no future. ”

"I'm not like you. I am not a person with low self-esteem. You know, my father was a general, my mother was also a civil and martial artist, and I had a very happy pair of parents. I have a very happy family. I was very happy as a child. I think I'm the happiest kid in the world. But. Ever since my parents left, they left so early, my whole being has changed. I became a depressed person, and I didn't know who else in this world I loved me. Originally, I wanted to find some familiar servants in the family, but you know that the dream film country and the Lanlu country have been fighting for many years, and after the war broke out, not only my family, I believe that there are other families, other children, like me, are depressed. I wasn't alone, and I wasn't the only one who was sad. I stood on my own path, powerlessly moving forward. I also became a person with low self-esteem. I would be a person who felt unhappy, which I would not have dared to think before, and I did become such a person, and I was not unacceptable, on the contrary, I could accept it. I see the world differently. ”

"In a certain way, you and I are sad people, my family is still there, but I am still a sad person. I want to end my grief, I want to be like my family says, people live, eat, get married, die, be buried. Everyone is similar, and their life trajectories are nothing more than birth, eating, getting married, feeding the next generation, dying, being buried. People are just like that, and life is like this. So, I wondered if I should find someone to marry. ”

"I've thought about getting married, but I'm conflicted and hesitant in my heart. I don't know what kind of person I'm looking for to marry, whether her face is square or rectangular, oval or round, triangular or melon-shaped, whether her eyebrows are thick or light, long or short, thick or thin, whether her legs are long or short, thick or thin, whether her hair is long or short, black or yellow, many things, many, many things, I haven't thought clearly, I'm afraid, I want a square, I want a rectangle, I want a triangle, I don't know, I don't know in my heart, I sometimes think, it's very tiring to live aloneHe has a lot of things to think about, and when he walks, he has to think about which foot to step on first. ”

"My heart is not as entangled as yours, my idea is very simple, as long as it is a woman and is willing to follow me, I can marry her. I used to have a strange request, but now I don't, and that is that I ask her to know how to spell. If I know how to spell and she can do spells, then the child born can have potential in spells, and a person's potential is very important, so my child must have potential. ”

"You're thinking too far, you're not married, you're already talking about having children, you're really far-sighted. Tell me, who do you have a crush on, and I'll help you match. ”

"I don't know why, I always look at other people's wives, I just look at other people's wives well, so I want to marry them. ”

"You speak so arrogantly, ah, you still want to marry someone's wife, tell me, are you a confused person, you are really disgusting. How can you have such a thought. ”

"I haven't seen the sun for a long time, and my soul is moldy. You should have smelled that my soul smells of dampness, my soul is not clean, I am a person who is not active and not sunny, when I see people who are sunny, when I see people who laugh in the sun, when I see people who are happy, when I see people who are in the pure world, I especially want to have such a good time as them. ”

"What do you think of our time in Zhuhun Mountain?"

"Of course, our time in Zhuhun Mountain is very good, but I am a person who is not good at summarizing, we have a lot of actually very beautiful experiences on Zhuhun Mountain, but I just don't have the kind of heart that can summarize. I just didn't find beauty in my eyes. What a clumsy person I am, I don't even know how to know beauty. I sometimes want to slap myself a few times because of my clumsiness. I'm just a mess, and I mean that my mind is often messed up, my mind is messed up every day, and it's no wonder that my spells can't grow by leaps and bounds. ”

"Ah, you can self-analyze enough, you can self-dissect so thoroughly, you speak arrogantly sometimes, but I have to admit that it is very enjoyable. ”

"Ah, we are all people with magic weapons now, but I suddenly feel that we are so bored, what is the use of us saying that we work hard to practice magic weapons? What is the use of us working so hard to find magic weapons? What is the use of us working so hard to improve ourselves? In this small forest, lighting a bonfire, eating barbecue, and drinking a little wine, isn't it good? Why do we have to fight, why do we fight in Zhusoul Mountain, why do we make ourselves very tired, why do we put heavy pressure on our lives, I sometimes can't figure it out. ”

"I can understand what you say, I understand your feelings. It is still necessary to return to doing things, what is doing things, and doing things is to do things from beginning to end. Doing things is too important, throughout the ages, there are many people who do things, take medicine as an example, many medical achievements, are those who do things hard research and summary, their results are accumulated, summarized by later generations, into a relatively complete theoretical system. Without those people who do things, many systems would not be valid, and without many theoretical systems, we would not be able to live the way we are now. For example, if we are sick, even if it is a minor illness, we have no way to do it, because we have no way to cure the disease, and the minor illness becomes a major illness, and the major illness kills us. So I said, it's important to do things, it's very important to do things. ”

"What does that have to do with what I just said?"

"I haven't finished telling you yet, I mean, the people who do things are very important, if there were no people who do things, we wouldn't be in the current state now, you know? So, what are we doing in Zhusoul Mountain? What are we doing to find the magic weapon? We are constantly advancing, we are constantly exploring, we are doing things, how can you use lazy emotions to question the necessity of doing things, of course things are to be done, of course we should do things, we not only want to do things, we also want to do things well, we want to do things well, we want to do good things, we want to benefit mankind. We want to contribute to the cause of mankind, and we are very valuable people who contribute to the cause of mankind. ”

"You can always solve the problems on my mind, and I have few doubts now. I still have to look for the magic weapon, because we are exploring, as you said, we are doing things, we are all people who do things, and people who do things are worthy of pride and pride. We must not only do things seriously, but also make achievements, we must do things well, we must shine like the sun, haha, we are the sun. ”

"Well, then don't complain, don't talk about discouragement, don't say negative things, don't put the valve skin, don't give up on yourself, don't deceive yourself, don't dig a pit and bury yourself, don't slack off, and struggle. You know it's not easy for us to go all the way, when we first started to go to Zhuhuo Mountain, how timid we were, and how cold Zhuhun Mountain was, we finally persevered, we are also people who have had a difficult experience, we are people who have experienced hardships, and our character has been cultivated, so we will continue to struggle with our good character and create a blue sky of our own. (To be continued......)