The big ship moved on the Black Sea at a speed that was satisfactory to Ye Duhong, neither fast nor slow. The pace of life when Ye Duhong joined the army was fast, walking fast, eating fast, pooping fast, peeing fast, killing people fast, doing everything fast, which made Ye Duhong often feel breathless at that time, life was like a big ship, its speed was too fast, not good, too slow, and not good, and the military life at that time could not be carried out at the speed that Ye Duhong was satisfied with.

In those days in the army, Ye Duhong was looked at by many people with various eyes, some people looked at Ye Duhong thin, they said that Ye Duhong was thin like a hemp pole, and he couldn't hold a weapon, and he was still fighting, he was really laughing to death, and some people saw that Ye Duhong's eyes were not big, so they said that Ye Duhong's eyes were squinting when he saw things, like a blind man, and the enemy couldn't see it, and he was still fighting, so he took a knife and cut himself with a knife. Ye Duhong was full of all kinds of eyes in the army, which made Ye Duhong feel very uncomfortable at that time.

A lot of people can't look at others with good intentions, and that's a very strict problem. A person's vision represents the person's mental state, and a person who treats others coldly, does not consider the inner feelings of others, and regards the pain of others as the basis of his own happiness, then, such a person's mental state is not good. The unkind mental state made Ye Duhong remember for a long time, and Ye Duhong was unwilling to be with those mental states, so he stayed away from those spirits. Ye Duhong was in the Death Valley of the Demon Domain at this time, he would still think of those bad spirits, he had hatred in his heart, and he hoped that over time, those hatreds would disappear, just like the traces of a ship disappearing into the water.

Wufa ate enough food, just holding a glass of plum wine and tasting it carefully, he squinted his eyes, a little drunk, and said: "I know that you think of the past war years, although the time is not long, but the cruelty and bloodiness of the war, you have a deep memory. My advice to you is not to get old and think about those terrible things, think more about happy things, unhappy is a day, happy is also a day, why be unhappy? We want to be happy, happy is good, unhappy is bad. ”

Ye Duhong ate a spring fish, and also picked up the plum wine to drink, he drank a sip, the taste of plum wine rippled in his mouth, "I think of the chaos of the war, I don't want to remember those panicked days today and don't know whether to live tomorrow, but many times I can't help but remember the state of existence at that time, my heart is very uncomfortable." When I am tired, tired, tired, and unhappy, I will look for something to eat, to drink, to eat to my heart's content, to be drunk, as if nothing had happened. Eat and get drunk, and don't even want to!"

Wufa laughed, he almost didn't choke, quickly took out a tissue, covered his mouth and laughed, "You are in a good state like this, you can think about it, you are very good at self-psychological counseling, then how can I see you sometimes have a sad face, as if others owe you 200 yuan, you must know how to regulate your heart, so that your heart is always in an excellent state." You see that you are an enlightened master, your neck was bitten, your head was almost bitten off, you are not as clueless as you, he should eat and eat, he should drink and drink, he should sleep and sleep, he should laugh and be small, this is open-minded, I know that you are sometimes very open-minded, but you are a strange person, and your strange place is reflected in: sometimes you are confident, sometimes you are not confident. The reason for this may be known only to you. ”

Ye Duhong ate well, poured himself a glass of plum wine, moved the chair away a little, cocked Erlang's legs, and drank carefully, "The reason is very simple, when I think of happy things, I am very happy, and I am very confident, and when I think of unhappy things, I am very depressed and unhappy, and then I am very unconfident, and I feel inferior and feel sorry for myself." There are still many times when I am low, too few times when I am happy, and slowly, those happiness only become distant thoughts, and unhappiness becomes the protagonist of my life. I lost my parents early, in the troubled times, the people I used to know and I knew ran away and didn't know where to go, I was lonely, I worked hard until now, in the meantime, I'm afraid only I can experience. There will still be a lot of people who look down on me, and I will still encounter a lot of cold eyes, and I think it may have something to do with my pockets, my pockets are empty, I have no money, because I don't have money, I am snubbed by many people. Of course, I have friends, but friends gather and disperse, it is really unpredictable, I have experienced the vicissitudes of personnel, the helplessness of life, and the joys and sorrows. ”

Wufa tilted his neck, poured all the plum wine in the cup into his stomach, and said: "You are really a person who is too serious about the past, and the things of the past, whether good or bad, have passed, just like smoke scattered in the wind, and if you go, you will go, and you don't have to take it seriously." ”

Ye Duhong drank all the plum wine in the cup in one gulp, and said: "I have a comrade-in-arms, he and I sleep in a dormitory, at that time our bed was very narrow, we were crowded together, we didn't sleep on pillows, there was a difficult period, we pillow bricks or stones, at that time he gave me a stone, said it was a pillow for me. We help each other in life and our friendship is strong. One day we were fighting with the enemy, and my comrade-in-arms was beside me, and I saw a free soldier with a big knife, rushed to the side of my comrade-in-arms, and swung the broadsword vigorously, and my comrade's head was cut off by the big knife, and I saw my comrade's head roll to the ground, and I saw his headless body fall down with a dull weight, and I was shocked. I realized that I was on the battlefield, what a brutal battlefield I was!"

Ye Duhong took a sip of plum wine, he drank a lot of wine, and he also drank a lot of wine, he was drunk at this time, and his heart was in a trance, and he said: "I still remember the bloody appearance of that head, and it was talking to me just now, and it became a bloody head in a blink of an eye." You don't know, that kind of horror, incomparable. ”

"But I've heard you say that you want to build an army, and you didn't think that after you build an army, there will be a new war, and then there will be people who have the same experience as you?" said Wubo, "I don't know what you think in your heart. ”

"I thought about building an army, but I thought that someone might suffer a tragedy because of my army, so I put my idea on hold. Then I went from the small mountain peak to Guyu Town, and I was no longer in a hurry to build a team. ”

Wufa said, "I see. You are a person, many times you don't say something in your heart, but think about it alone, and sometimes you can't solve the problem. Maybe it's your personality that can't be changed for a while. ”

Ye Duhong and Wufa talked for a long time, and they drank a lot of wine and got drunk. Then the two of them fell on the deck, muttering on their backs.