"You just talked about mentality, that is, you want people to maintain a good attitude no matter what they encounter, I believe you do the same, this is how you demand yourself," Pu Yangsan said, "But, I still see a trace of melancholy on your face, I can see that you still have sadness in your heart, do you have something on your mind? Or what?"

"You said it, my expression can't fool you, even though I try to hide my sadness. Meng Hai said, "I joined the army that year, and it was an honorable thing for me to join the army, and my understanding was that I would sacrifice myself and use my personal struggle to exchange for world peace." You also know that at that time, Lan Lu Guo was harassed by the Dream Shadow Country, and the army of the Dream Shadow Country entered the Lan Lu Country, and I enlisted in the army, hoping that one day I could fight with the soldiers of the Dream Shadow Country, and I believed that with my strength, I could kill the enemies one by one. ”

Pu Yangsan: "You go on. ”

Meng Hai: "Now that I think about my skills at that time, I really don't have any skills, it's nothing more than learning some three-legged cat spells, as if I think about how capable I am." I was arrogant at that time, thinking that my strength was incomparable to that of others, as if I could break a piece of iron with a single fist. The pride at that time can be said to be great, when I was a soldier, no matter how hard it was, I didn't cry tired. At that time, the clothes were red, as if dyed with human blood, they were bright red, and the clothes were to all the people of Lanlu Country not to forget the infringement of the Shadow Kingdom in their dreams. I was wearing that red dress as if I had been stained with blood. I was so proud that I slept thinking about fighting on the battlefield, and I told myself that I was ready to fight. ”

Pu Yangsan listened intently.

Meng Hai: "At that time, I was in a boat with my comrades-in-arms and felt the turbulent water under the boat. We are going to the place where the army of the Dream Shadow Kingdom has invaded us, and our Redcoat Army has many ships, like beetles, and we are traveling on the rough waters, just as the manor is now on the ocean. The difference is that we were going to war. Our estate has no direction. Then. I was seasick and didn't stay on the boat long before I started vomiting. The feeling of my vertigo was overwhelming, and I thought at the time. It's better to see the enemy right away. Fight them to the death. When I died, I wouldn't vomit like that, I wouldn't be so dizzy. It won't be so uncomfortable. However, our ships are advancing, and we have not yet met the enemy.

I was on the boat, and I felt a sense of tragedy. We don't know if we can come back when we go forward this time, and they all say that war will kill people, and they all say that there is no return to war. My spirit at that time was a little numb, on the boat, my body was cooled by the sea breeze, my spirit seemed to be frozen, I couldn't do complex thinking, I just felt the ship staggering forward, this battle, I might die, my body might be swallowed up by the ocean, no matter what, it doesn't matter. It is a great honor for a soldier to die on the battlefield, this is what the general said at that time.

I wasn't scared and just looked ahead, which would ease my seasickness symptoms. Some people who don't get seasick also start to feel dizzy and vomit after a period of turbulence, they are just as uncomfortable as I am, and we really feel the same way. ”

Pu Yangsan sat down, Meng Hai in her palm sat on her palm, Pu Yangsan looked at the little Meng Hai: "I have also heard people talk about the red-clothed army at that time, you know, I used to flee to the edge of the manor, because of the war, we fled to escape the war." War terrifies us, we hide from it. Have you been on the sea since then?"

Meng Hai: "After a long journey of water, we came to a land, there was a big slope, at that time I heard people say it was Jincao Slope, I don't know what place it is, I have never been to that place, no one has been to that place. When we came to Jincaopo, we set up camp.

Unfortunately, we met the Free Army, which was also near this grassy slope. Before our butts are hot, we're going to meet the enemy. We and the Free Army had a fierce battle on the slope of the grass, and after a fierce battle, it was dark, and when it got dark, we fought in the moonlight, and the killing in the moonlight made the slope of the grass stained with blood. We kept fighting, our bodies were sleepy, we were still fighting, we fought desperately. At dawn, I was sleepy and wanted to sleep, but I couldn't sleep, my body was stabbed, and I felt my body bleed. At the same time, I felt someone else's blood, the blood of a corpse, dripping on me. I can't tell you how I felt, how tired I was, how scared I was, how desperate I was. At last daybreak, I was still alive, and I saw that I had just shed some blood, and at dawn, my blood had stopped, and at the same time, I saw a body of corpses, some lying on their stomachs, some lying down, some curled up, and the corpses were all covered in blood, and many of the corpses had weapons inserted in them, and some of them were broken. When I saw this miserable scene, my heart trembled. I came with a lot of pride, but after a war, I seemed to be a different person. What I thought of as war at first was actually not that fun. I matured all of a sudden, and I felt like I was really mature. Many of my thoughts and behaviors in the past seemed so naïve, and I now know what life is, and I also look down on life.

I was healed of my leg by a doctor from our army, and I couldn't walk, so I couldn't participate in the rest of the battle. I was taken to safety to recuperate. When I was recuperating from my wounds, I imagined my comrades fighting with the enemy, and when I drank a cup of hot water or ate an egg, I thought of someone's head being cut off by another person, or his chest pierced by a sharp blade. The nurse asked me what was wrong, I didn't speak, just shook my head. ”

Pu Yangsan: "Alas, I don't know what to say. The poverty I experienced seemed to me unbearable. I often lament the injustice of Heaven for not being born in a rich and prosperous place. After listening to your story, I feel that your experiences are much stricter than mine. ”

Meng Hai: "When I talk about these things, I have mixed feelings in my heart, and I can't explain that feeling, I don't know if it's because I'm too weak to express myself, or if that feeling can't be fully described. When I say this, I feel better, and when I say it, I feel much lighter. ”

Pu Yangsan: "Do you fight when it rains? Don't sleep at night?"

Meng Hai: "There are many times when there is no time to fight, many times, many people are killed in the rain, and many people fall in the night. Sometimes, we don't have food, we don't have enough equipment, our clothes are rotten, we don't have enough people, we need equipment and supplies, we need support, but we don't get help. In a bad situation, we went to fight the Free Army, and the Free Army defeated us, and I was wounded, but fortunately I didn't die. ”

Pu Yangsan: "Your experience can really be written into a book, and your story is very touching." ”

Meng Hai: "I have a lot of experiences, I sometimes treat others as trash cans, and I throw all the bad things in my heart to others, and I don't care if others like to hear it or not, I just tell others. When I was done, I felt happy. ”

Pu Yangsan: "I don't like to listen to your stories, you can tell me your stories, I am willing to listen to the stories you tell me." ”

Meng Hai: "Do you know why I practice spells so hard?"

"Why?" Pu Yangsan looked at Meng Hai in the palm of his hand.

Meng Hai: "Because I've been hurt, I've been hurt deeply, deeply. I was stimulated in my heart, and I felt bad when I thought about my experiences. I know that in the past I was very weak, I couldn't defeat the enemy on the battlefield, I always retreated on the battlefield, I was not destroyed by the enemy, I really want to thank God. I survived, and since I survived, I have to make my weak self strong. No matter how long the road to make myself stronger, I have to go step by step, I know what spells can bring people, so I go to read a lot of spell books, visit many spell masters in the spell world, go to the wild to find fierce beasts to fight, improve spell skills, go to the mountains to find spirit beasts, exercise spell ability, I have practiced hard, spells have improved a lot. To be honest, spells are hard to progress, not only are they difficult to learn, but progress is also slow. ”

Pu Yangsan: "But when I see your spell, it's already very profound. ”

Meng Hai: "That's because you don't know much about spells, and you haven't laid the foundation of spells yet." My spells aren't very high, my spells aren't high. ”

Pu Yangsan: "Do those soldiers know spells? Every soldier can do spells, and they are very powerful when they start a war." ”

Meng Hai: "Every soldier knows spells, this is unrealistic, spells are difficult to learn, the whole army learns spells, and it is unrealistic to use spells to fight." Of course, I've also seen two teams meet, and many people on both sides know how to spell, so they use spells to fight, and the scene is quite spectacular. Spell killing is even more powerful, and it can result in the lives of several people or even a dozen or even dozens of people in an instant. ”

Pu Yangsan: "It's terrible. You're also a battle-hardened, and you're not the enemy for anything. ”

Meng Hai: "No. I'm not dead. I also wonder that I have been through so many battles, I have been wounded, but I am not dead, I am not dead. My fate is good, I can't say that my fate is good, I am also ill-fated, but I can always survive, go to war, I can always come back alive, this is the luckiest thing. ”

Pu Yangsan: "That's fine." Look at this bamboo forest, so verdant, much better than the battlefield, you are already far away from the battlefield, you don't have to bear that fear. (To be continued......)