Chapter 19 I can't forget him, and I can't love him

Under the moonlight, in the pavilion, two middle-aged women sat opposite each other, one slightly chubby, the other thin, the charm still exists, each with its own style, because of the advent of the battle and gathered together! Feel the cool people of the evening breeze, look at the grass and flowers at night, listen to the terrifying gunshots, and talk about the secrets that belong to women

...

"Xin'er, are you happy when you get married?"

Faint words, 'boring' questions, a dignified and virtuous lady with coiled hair, dressed in a Luo skirt, slightly chubby, with big eyes full of sadness and confusion, looking sideways into the distance

“...”

Shen Xin was stunned for a moment, although she and Luo Xiangrui were in-laws, but because Li Hu hated Zhao Mo very much, they were not too familiar, she only knew that Zhao Mo was not good to her, she was a sympathetic woman! She didn't expect Luo Xiangrui to ask this kind of question with strong subjective emotions, because this kind of question has no meaning, people will always show the best side to the outside and hide the ugliness! She lifted the frame, there was no joy or sorrow in her gentle eyes, and replied calmly, " It's okay, Sister Xiangrui, over the years, bumps and bumps have also come! The tiger is a little grumpy, but he is still very good to me, I am very content! Besides, what else can we women ask for?"

“...”

I don't know if I heard Shen Xin's answer, Luo Xiangrui's eyes flashed with pain, and she looked at Shen Xin and talked to herself

"Xin'er, do you know, I used to think that a marriage without feelings was stupid, painful, and unfortunate! And I decided when I was a child that my marriage must be free and emotional! I was once so convinced and proud of it! In the same way, I was convinced that I would be happier than others in the future!" Luo Xiangrui was full of bitterness and told her 'naivety', gloomy and sad! Then, she grew louder and louder, and laughed at herself desperately! "It's a pity... Xin'er, it's a pity that I was wrong, I was so wrong! My so-called 'happy marriage' now seems to be so unreasonable, so stupid, so ... For decades, not only did I not get the slightest happiness, but... Covered in wounds!And the marriages I disdain, but naked show me their laughter! Xin'er, you say, am I ridiculous!"

Shen Xin was speechless, lowered her head slightly, her eyes were different, and she didn't know what she was thinking

Perhaps, knowing that her death was approaching, Luo Xiangrui seemed to have unloaded all her worries, and got up to confide in her heart knots for many years! With heartache and incomprehension, "That day, we got married! At that time, I felt that I was the luckiest person in the world, and the happiest person! But he ...... But it's no longer him!" Luo Xiangrui said with ups and downs, asking Shen Xin and God painfully! "Really, Xin'er, I really don't want much! I just want to be a virtuous wife, a loving mother, a harmonious family, and a stable life, that's all! Xin'er, am I asking too much? Tell me, Xin'er, is my request too much!"

Shen Xin was still silent, looking at Luo Xiangrui's inquiring eyes, full of sadness, she didn't know how to consol her!

"I try to do everything my wife should do, I care about his emotions, I take care of his body, I take care of all the chores of the whole family for him! He never asks about family affairs, and he is no longer happy to see me! He only knows that his righteousness is spread everywhere! When others call him 'brother', he can laugh for days!" Luo Xiangrui burst into tears at the corners of her eyes, disappointed and lonely, venting her long-pent-up pain, "Before Zhang Kun appeared, I was beaten into the cold palace by him; after Zhang Kun appeared, I was regarded as an enemy by him! Endless humiliation and scolding! I thought that I was favored by God and met someone who was 'love at first sight', but as a result... As a result, I was wishful thinking and dreaming there!" Luo Xiangrui seemed to regret and hate, hating herself! Excited and crazy, she cried and asked her own doubts that she couldn't solve, "Xin'er, can you tell me what he wants so many 'brothers' for? Which of those so-called 'brothers' didn't go for his money! Is he brainless! Everyone in the city knows about it, but he alone doesn't know! Is it true that 'brothers' are more important than his wife? Ah! Who is the person who has been with him all his life? Why is there such a person in the world? Xin'er, tell me why..."

Luo Xiangrui cried, crying very sadly! Shen Xin, who was crying, was sad and uncomfortable, and Shen Xin, who was also crying, was secretly glad, she asked out loud in confusion, and her voice was angry, "Sister Xiangrui, since Zhao Mo is such a scumbag, then you should have left a long time ago! Why do you still want to stay?"

“...”

Luo Xiangrui froze, froze her beautiful face, but hastened her bitter tears! She turned around and walked slowly towards the bench, indescribably desolate...

"I've left, Xin'er, I've really left..."Luo Xiangrui's eyes were scattered, bowing her head and crying, mixed with endless sadness and helplessness... After the deep voice, Luo Xiangrui raised her head suddenly, and her hair was soaked, tears soaked her beautiful face, clasped her hands tightly, and cried hard, "But after I left, I replayed the 'love at first sight' when I met! I can't forget that figure, Xin'er! I'm just a cheap person and can't forget it! I always can't help but think of that figure, the figure that makes my heart beat faster! Xin'er...... I don't like him anymore, Xin'er, really, I really don't like him anymore!" Luo Xiangrui tearfully revealed her current intentions, but she didn't reduce half of the pain! Instead, she couldn't help but get up and yelled loudly, full of heartbreaking! "But, but I can't forget him! Xin'er! No matter how hard I try to forget, he is still so unforgettable and stubborn! I know I shouldn't be like this, and I know it's wrong, but I just can't change it!" Xin'er, can you tell me why, why is God tormenting me so much?"

“...”

Shen Xin looked at Luo Xiangrui with shock and did not speak. Luo Xiangrui's words still resounded in her head, making her extremely shocked, full of incredulity! In her heart, her sympathy for Luo Xiangrui dropped rapidly, she didn't know what Luo Xiangrui was talking about, and she didn't care! She didn't think that she needed those ethereal things to live, just like her and Li Hu, just for the sake of family interests, but she was still very satisfied! She felt that Luo Xiangrui was purely looking for guilt, and to put it mildly, she was cheap!

However, Shen Xin finally persuaded her, full of kindness, "Sister Xiangrui, we are just ordinary people, don't be too persistent, we live a life, it doesn't matter if you have that kind of emotion or not!"

“...”

After Luo Xiangrui looked at Shen Xin, she smiled bitterly, "Xin'er... You are happy!"

......

"Daddy, you take your mother and kiss them and leave quickly, it really can't hold it here" Li Xue anxiously persuaded Li Hu to leave, tears welling up in the corners of her eyes! At this moment, she already regretted letting her father come to support

"Then will you go?"

"Daddy, Qinglong is still here, my daughter can't go, you guys should go quickly," Li Xue explained urgingly

"If you don't leave, let me go? Your grandparents left early, I will be your child, you are dead, what are you and your mother doing alive? You better hurry up and see Qinglong."

"But... But..."

"Hurry up, don't do it" Li Hu pushed his daughter and walked out. He didn't want to cry......

......

"Councilor Zhang, Lord Sun Qing just replied that they are not coming, it is enough for them to have Li Hu's industry, and Zhao Mo's industry will not be robbed of you" A communication soldier hurriedly rushed into the conference room to report

"What are you talking about?" Zhang Kun roared with wide eyes, "Sun Qing is not here, bastard, this bastard!"

"What can I do about this, Zhang Kun, in order to deal with Li Hu's Tiger Roaring Army, Sun Qingna's troops are much more than ours."

"yes, we're not going to lose, are we?"

"Sun Qing, the sinister villain, actually stabbed a knife in the back"

“...”

Looking at a group of men who only knew how to scold, Zhang Kun became even more annoyed! However, he could only sigh and stop, "Okay, don't panic, the 'dirty dog' will arrive tomorrow at the latest, and we will win in the end!

"What? Is the 'dirty dog' coming? That's great!"

"Hmph! I have to kill Sun Qing when the time comes!"

"Yes, yes, such an insidious villain must not be forgiven!"

“...”

Zhang Kun left the conference room and left with disgust and disgust!

......

"Duh... Duh..."

A rich man with a kind face answered the 'Hu Baobao' and didn't say a word

"General Qin, there may be a bandit group entering the city to help me tomorrow, I hope you can be merciful and let them go" Zhang Kun's smiling face appeared in front of the man, and said flatteringly, "In order to cooperate with the base to protect the safety of the people, I have prepared 'things outside my body', and the general will receive them tomorrow morning."

Qin Hai opened his mouth and reminded indifferently, "You pay attention, don't go too far!"

"Yes, be careful, be careful, General! Then you're busy, you're busy."

"Duh... Duh..."

"Hmph! Smiling Tiger!" the man got up and left...