It's one thing to understand some things, it's another thing to accept them, if Yunxi still loves Kangxi, these things can't affect her at all, but it's a pity that she doesn't love Kangxi anymore, for a man who says he loves her, but he can pamper other women without hesitation when he turns his back, Yunxi has long been dead.

In the past few years, Kangxi has indeed doted on her more than in the past, everyone said that she was held in the palm of Kangxi's hand, which was the tip of Kangxi's heart, but no one knew that these additional things had nothing but endless trouble for her, no moved, no joy, and no moved, some were just dense pressure, so much that she felt that she was a little out of breath.

But just when she felt that life could only go on like this, God actually added a new multiple-choice question, but this multiple-choice question did not make her feel better, on the contrary, it made her mood more and more depressed, after all, people were lucky enough to get a chance to be reborn, can they not get a second time, and she can't bear her children.

Just when she was stunned, the child's talking and laughter sounded outside the door, Yunxi stood up and walked outside the door, and saw Yinzuo and Yinxi coming here with the ninth elder brother and the tenth elder brother, the four little guys, you are chasing me, so unhappy, at that moment Yunxi felt that maybe it was just for these children, and this life was enough, but why did she have the urge to cry when she saw the red walls and yellow tiles?

"The son (son) greets Eniang (Zhao's mother). As soon as Yinzuo and the others saw Yunxi coming out, they immediately greeted them.

"Get up!" Yun Xi pressed the wisps of sourness in his heart like a bone appendage, and tried to make nothing happen.

Yinxi is young and has a little friend, but she didn't notice Yunxi's strangeness, and Yinzuo is Yunxi's first child, she has poured all her efforts, even if there is a fourth and eighth child later, Yunxi is still the most special to her, mother and son often talk about their hearts, compared to Yinzhen and Yinxi, Yinzuo understands the difficulties of Yunxi's journey.

Yunxi summoned the green-sleeved Qiaoying and they waited for a few little guys to eat and drink, because they all came over often, they didn't feel restrained, and they wouldn't want to leave every time they didn't play until the next key.

"E-Niang, what happened?" Yinzuo's eyes were dark and staring at Yunxi, waiting for her to answer with a somewhat stubborn expression.

Yunxi unconsciously stroked the broken hair in his ears, and said a little uncomfortably: "Your emperor Ama is not in the palace, where can there be so many difficult things for Eniang to encounter, Eniang just didn't sleep well, and her spirit is a little poor, just rest and rest at night." ”

"Really, but the son always feels that E-Niang has something to hide from his son. Yinzuo stared at Yunxi's eyes without giving up, and seeing that she was unmoved, he couldn't help but sigh and said: "E-niang, my son has grown up and can share it for you, so E-niang should not carry all the burdens alone." ”

Yunxi didn't know how to answer at this moment. She was really tired and didn't even want to hide anything, but her sons were still young and had a green face, and although they didn't necessarily lose everything because of her, if she made a mistake, they would definitely not be pleased. A person like Kangxi, who will repay his eyes, loves his life, and evil wants his death, she can imagine the result after she clearly expresses her feelings, if she knows that she can't do it, it is basically boring for herself.

Instead of destroying everything that was hard won before, it is better to continue to endure until everything settles, anyway, in this life, it is impossible for her to escape from this place with red walls and yellow tiles, and it is impossible to escape from the side of this man named Aixin Jueluo Xuanye, so she can only endure, endure, and wait until everything is over.

"Silly boy, what burden can E-Niang have, E-Niang will be happier than anything as long as she guards you and grows up well. Yunxi touched Yinzuo's light head, and said with a soothing smile on the corner of his mouth.

"Really?" Yinzuo confirmed uneasily.

Yunxi was stunned for a moment, then nodded heavily.

In a blink of an eye, Kangxi took a large group of people back to Beijing, this time Galdan no longer had the good luck of the past, he chose to commit suicide after failing to escape, such an ending is still in line with history, but Prince Gong Changning was hit by an arrow in order to save him, I heard that he was seriously injured, what is the real situation, Yunxi does not know, and does not let people inquire, after all, after learning that Prince Gong was interested in her, they are destined to distance themselves.

In fact, Yunxi and Prince Gong don't have much communication, although they will subconsciously help me and return your favors, but in fact, they can't even count the number of times they have met with a slap, this is the reality. Just like Yunxi has been in the palace for so many years, I want to see my family just by looking at each other at the palace banquet every year.

After Kangxi returned to the palace, he didn't care when he saw that there were no special changes in the palace, and Long Wei's report just let him know what happened inside and outside the palace, and who were dishonest, after all, Kangxi wanted to ensure that the entire capital was under his control.

After the clouds and tides slowly fell silent, everything seemed to be suddenly pulled back from the deviated route, and began to move in the original direction, and the only thing that remained unchanged was probably Yinzhen's fate. As Yunxi's son, he is destined not to be pushed around like in history, and even dragged back by his biological mother, obviously suffering from all the unfair treatment, but he can only swallow his anger.

When it came to the draft again, Kangxi began to help several elder brothers who had grown up to choose Fujin. The four blessings in history are still in the process of choosing, but Yunxi doesn't want to pick her anymore, it's not that she has an opinion about the Ulanala clan, but how can a person who can't even protect his own children make the fourth child do his own thing wholeheartedly. Yunxi had a plan in her heart, but she didn't ask Yinzhen's opinion, if Yinzhen insisted on the Wulanala clan, she would not insist on changing people.

But Yinzhen listened to her words, just looked at her with a look of trust and said: "E-Niang chooses the best, and my son believes in the vision of E-Niang and Huang Ama." He has always believed that E-Niang is the person who will not hurt him in this world, as for Fujin, no matter whether he likes it or not, he must first get E-Niang's heart.

Seeing him like this, Yunxi couldn't help frowning and said: "Don't just believe in our vision, you have to like it yourself, Yinzhen, do you know? People's hearts are very small, men and women can only fit each other, one more is not good, one less is not good, E-Niang is being chosen in this life, it is rare to choose once, but in the end he was disappointed, now it is time for you to choose, E-Niang hopes that what you choose is at least what you can accept, not what others impose on you, otherwise E-Niang has done so much is not in vain." ”

"Isn't E-Niang the best person in her son's heart?" Yin Zhen said with a smile.

Yunxi stroked his head, and said with a melancholy and sad face: "Silly child, Eniang will grow old after all, and the one who can accompany you is the one who can walk into your heart after all, if you really meet it, remember to cherish it, otherwise by the time you understand, maybe it's already too late." ”

It's not that the prodigal son will be able to recover it if he turns back, no matter how much he makes up for the wounded heart, it will leave traces, and besides, no one will always wait for anyone to turn back, she is like this, let go, move forward, and wait until the distance is farther, it will not be easy to catch up.

"E-Niang will not be old, E-Niang will accompany her son for the rest of her life. Yin Zhen is tired of being in Yunxi's arms, and only in front of Yunxi will he show his childish side without reservation.

Yun Xi sighed, stroked her son's head and didn't speak, of course she would, because her life was not easy to come by, if God didn't let her close her eyes, she would have to persevere no matter how difficult she went.

In the end, Xilin Jueluo was pointed out to Yinzhen as a concubine Fujin, and Wulanala was pointed out to the fifth elder brother, the original Wufujin was pointed out to Yunxi I don't know, but she knew in her heart that such an arrangement might be a good choice for her, after all, the Wufujin in history was not only not favored, but also had no children in her life, how can a woman survive such a day.

In the following days, Yunxi watched everything happen coldly, although she couldn't remember many things, but she still had to avoid the danger, after all, there were too many unpredictable things, just like the prince, Yunxi originally wanted to pull him, but unfortunately the prince didn't trust her much, she could listen to it for a while, but she couldn't listen to it for a lifetime, and finally the prince still embarked on the road called destruction.

It's hard to say whose fault is this kind of thing, Kangxi and the prince have worked hard for this father-son relationship, but there are too many things between them, so that in the end, they can only go to the opposite side.

So, under the situation that she can't change, Yunxi began to plan for her son, she may not be able to challenge Kangxi's majesty, nor can she control the government, but she may use her own way to transfer all the forces she can gather behind her son, after all, compared to other elder brothers, her son still has an advantage over others, that is, unity enough.

Kangxi is contradictory to his sons who are fighting with each other, he hopes that his sons will be friends and brothers and get along in harmony, but he is afraid that they will be too united and pose a threat to himself, and finally in order to ensure his status, he has to use the way of balance on them, this terrible situation makes Yunxi feel cold and have to accept it.

Year after year, slowly Kangxi began to favor Concubine Han, and the women brought back from the southern tour were not a threat to Yunxi, but it made her feel disgusting, so that her attitude towards Kangxi became more and more cold, and when Yinzhen was named the prince, Yunxi found that Kangxi seemed to have not come to her Yonghe Palace for a long time.

If it were in the past, Xu Mama and they might have persuaded a few words, but now, the three elder brothers have all been married, and whether they are favored or not is really not a big deal, after all, there are children in this harem who are not very good now, Kangxi went to just sit down, drink a cup of tea and have a meal, and at most talk again, and Yunxi is only now considered to be left out, for herself or the concubines of this harem, it is actually very powerful.

Kangxi didn't come, Yunxi didn't invite, so the two were in the palace together, but they each lived their own lives, maybe Kangxi finally noticed Yunxi's coldness, or maybe he was tired of this so-called love and chose younger concubines.

Just when Yunxi thought that the days would continue quietly like this, Kangxi suddenly visited, and the angry appearance made people unconsciously relax their breathing, for fear that if they were wrong, they would become the target of people's venting.

"The concubine asked the emperor for peace. Seeing Kangxi, Yunxi got up and saluted very calmly, with a bright smile on his face, as before, as before, as if there was no change.

Kangxi's anger became condensed the moment he saw Yunxi, he endured the pain that erupted, his eyes stared at her, seeing her bow her head and be silent, he couldn't help but take two steps forward and grab her arm, gritted his teeth and asked, "Doesn't Xi'er have anything to ask me?"

Yunxi's expression was slightly stunned when he heard this, as if he couldn't think of what he wanted to ask, and said with some embarrassment: "What does the emperor think the concubine should ask?"

She knew what Kangxi was asking, but she didn't want to answer.

What is the answer? Tell Kangxi that he has been making himself amorous for so many years, just like she used to be?

She didn't even want to ask, this kind of realization made the anger in Kangxi's heart burst out like a volcano, "Ask what? Ask me why I didn't come, ask me why I spoil others...... Ask everything you want. ”

"In what capacity do you ask? Are the emperor's women the emperor's women?" Yun Xi chuckled, his attitude was indifferent from beginning to end.

"Don't you understand my intentions? Except for the identity of a queen, I gave everything, or I gave you the status of a queen, do you understand what I mean to you, and what do you mean to me?" Kangxi said hoarsely looking at her.

Yunxi suddenly felt that that place, burning pain, she thought that she would no longer be heartbroken for the man in front of her, let alone moved for him again, but she didn't want to end up with a way to make her uncomfortable, "It doesn't matter what it means, the important thing is that the emperor has a new beauty, countless heirs, no power, everything you want, and everything else is no longer important, including concubines." ”

A tear slipped uncontrollably from her eyes, and she knew in her heart that she had no power to be willful, and could only let the man in front of her scratch one scar after another on her heart again and again, deeper and deeper, more and more, until this heart no longer had the ability to carry it.

"How could it not be important!" Kangxi shouted angrily.

"If it's important, why does the emperor want to hurt again and again. Yunxi's expression was calm and terrifying, not a question or a complaint, but just a calm narrative.

Kangxi was suddenly stunned, and there was even a hint of panic on his face, his throat was tight, and he wanted to explain but found that he couldn't say a word. Even though there are countless reasons, it is not an excuse to indulge in hurting her, "Are you saying you don't forgive me?"

Yunxi glanced at Kangxi, with a shallow smile on the corner of his mouth, and his gaze was long and far-reaching, "What else do you talk about between the emperor and the concubines to forgive or not, some things are over." ”

For example, the feelings between them, and the injuries caused before, are offset by merit and demerit, and no one owes anyone.

In the next life, yes, if there is a next life, she hopes that she will not have anything to do with him again, and then she can have an ordinary home, a husband who can guard her life, and a few children who do not need to be surrounded by intrigue and intrigue and can grow up healthily.

Kangxi's heartbeat almost stopped at this moment, her words didn't sound like much, but he felt like a farewell, "Xi'er, I'm wrong......"

He knew he was wrong, so could they hold hands and start over?

Yunxi looked at Kangxi, who suddenly became naïve, and couldn't help laughing, "The emperor is right, it's the concubine who is wrong, because the concubine is too greedy and wants too much, so she will be punished." ”

Kangxi's hands trembled, he thought that he was lucky that others would attract her attention, but he didn't want to be slapped in the face by what he did in the end, what the hell is this!

He couldn't figure out what he wanted!

"There is no punishment, only I think I am smart but I am mistaken by being smart!" Kangxi said this, then let go of her hand and left Yonghe Palace with a sense of loneliness.

Yunxi thought that everything was a foregone conclusion, but he didn't want Kangxi to summon anyone since then, and even when it came to the draft of the next realm, there were no more show girls in the palace, such a move made the courtiers talk a lot, if they didn't let him go to court as usual, they would all think that Kangxi was seriously ill.

In fact, since the second abolished prince, Kangxi's health is indeed not as good as before, but because the sixth and eighth children are honest, even if the eldest brother and the prince have been punished, the result is not as tragic as in history.

In May of the fifty-sixth year of Kangxi, Kangxi suddenly issued an edict on the Zen throne, which was passed on to Yinzhen, the fourth son of the emperor, which made the entire court boil.

Yinzhen himself is also surprised and happy, although he has a feeling that Huang Ama has a tendency to this aspect of himself, but he didn't expect everything to come so quickly, after all, with Kangxi's current physical condition, it is not indispensable to be the emperor for a few more years, but he chose to directly Zen position, which has to be said to be extremely surprising.

Just when Yinzhen was about to be a filial son and fulfill her unfulfilled dream for Yunxi, Kangxi packed Yunxi and took it to Changchun Garden with a will, such an arrangement made people feel reasonable and unexpected, after all, in the past few years, the Cold War-like move between Kangxi and Yunxi has caused many people to look sideways.

Who would have thought that just when they decided that Concubine Zhao was going to fall out of favor, she became the Queen Mother, and was invited to Changchun Garden by the Emperor alone, all of which shows that Concubine Zhao has never fallen out of favor, and everything before has become everything Kangxi has paid for her in the eyes of these people.

Yunxi was speechless for a while, looking at Kangxi who was standing opposite, she could only say that she had slapped her face countless times in her life, but she didn't expect to be slapped in the face by Kangxi's calculations when she was old, is this considered a cycle of cause and effect, and retribution is not happy!

Anyway, whether it's cold or hot, at least this life between them is to be entangled until they get old, rather than let themselves be depressed, it is better to treat each other as a companion, and just go through the last journey.

Kangxi looked at Yunxi with a helpless face, but continued to make his own little calculations in his heart, he could say that he was helpless before, but now there is no one else, no burden on his shoulders, only her, so he can always coax people back in the rest of the time!