Section C, Chapter 23: Dreams and Inertia (Anusen)
In the dim light of the early morning, the knight carefully wiped the freshly waxed shield, polishing it to a sparkling glow.
Looking at the faded fine patterns on the shield, the somewhat distracted Anusen sighed and shook his head: I always felt that there were two very important family members missing from my memory. But in any case, he could not recall a single fragment of the relevant fragment - not even a vague figure.
Having lost these memories inexplicably, he did feel a lot lighter - as Mad Dog said, he was always in a bad mood a few days ago, and his heart was like a knot. After losing part of his memory, he decided that his whole life was much easier.
Isn't my former self always bound by the chains of memory...... Anusen felt a pang of sorrow: if such a heavy memory is true, should he take it back?
For some reason, the knight's heart had already given the answer without thinking: he must find a way to retrieve that memory. It is a memory that should not be forgotten and should be carried for the rest of your life...... If it changes a lot just because of its own personality, then it must be extremely important.
His gaze drifted from the shield and landed on the mirror. Looking at the glass mirror, his face appeared in his pupils.
Slightly swollen eyelids...... Anusen picked her eyelids and carefully observed the bloodshot on her eyeballs: she hadn't had enough sleep these days. And I was in an inexplicable crazy march for a whole month, and I didn't have a good rest at all.
There's a lot of gray hair...... Looking at the gray of his black hair in the mirror, Anusen smiled bitterly: "It's normal for Aya's hair to be as white as snow, but it wouldn't be good if my black hair turned gray as well—like many Ebone, human beings are getting old and life is about to die.
Hair...... Looking at his little silver filaments in the black jungle, he felt a little dazed: something in his memory seemed to be about to surface.
Silvery-white hair...... He kept rummaging through the fragments in his memories: he always felt impressed by them, as if they had been reflected in his eyes day and night.
Stopping in a daze, Anusen shook off his confused thoughts as he took his face away from the mirror. Stroking the smooth shield, the knight set it aside and picked up the long sword beside the bed instead.
Grabbing the hilt of his sword, he drew the sword halfway through, and the knight brought it close to his eyes, scrutinizing the blade.
In the dim environment of the room, the sharp blade is especially bright. Stroking the blade of the sword, the knight pulled it out completely and placed it on the table in front of him, parallel to the scabbard.
There was a slight crack in the lock, and the door was slowly pushed open. A lazy dry cough poured into the room through the crack in the door.
"Come in, Mad Dog. Anusen smiled, "Haven't you gotten tired of playing yet?" ”
"Yo, when did Mr. Knight be so polite to Mad Dog?" Théreya squeezed into the door with a hippie smile on her face, carrying two glass bottles.
"Close the door and tap. Anusen picked up the whetstone and sharpened the blade intently: "Those two children haven't woken up yet. ”
"Come on, the sound of your sharpening knives can't wake them up?" Mad Dog closed the door: "Also, actually, those two Lori have already woken up." ”
"Awake, so early?" Anusen's attention briefly shifted. The whetstone slipped, and the blade nearly cut its finger.
"Hmm. When I came here half an hour ago, I heard the sound of the lovers' bedroom, so I quietly leaned in front of the door and listened for a while. Seresya coughed dryly, "They went back to sleep after they finished playing." Then I came directly to you. ”
"You listened there for half an hour?" the Templar was stunned for a moment, not knowing what to say, "You're all a voyeur!"
"I don't know why, I always think you've called me that before. Mad Dog said casually, "Also, I have to clarify - I didn't see anything, so I listened through the door for a while." ”
"It wasn't much better, it just changed to an eavesdropper. Anusen shook his head helplessly: "It's too immoral, you'd better not do it in the future." ”
"Today is just an occasional buzz. Seresa cheekily retorted: "Anyone will listen to it for a while, isn't it? And how interesting it is to listen to what the two Aya do!"
"I'm not going to listen. Anusen focused on sharpening the blade: "And I don't think it's interesting at all." ”
"Hey, you didn't hear that. Seresa spoke with great interest of his great discovery: "Especially Lusa, the one called a ......"
"Shut up, I'm too lazy to listen to this. Anusen interrupted the mad dog and sharpened his knife intently.
"Well, it's really not interesting to talk too much...... Get me a bottle?" Ceresya snapped the cork of both bottles and placed one in front of the knight's eyes.
"I said I don't drink. Take it away - you're out of my sight. Anusen tilted her head to look at Blade, but the bottle of wine was in view again.
After repeating this twice, Anusen finally got impatient: "Can you not be cheap?
"Good, good. Mad Dog took the wine away and stared at the whetstone.
"Is there anything special?" said Anusen, who paused, confused.
"Yes. Seresa took a sip of wine and squinted at the knight, "When people sharpen their swords, they use their weapons to rub the whetstone. You're rubbing a whetstone against your weapon—aren't you worried that something will go wrong?"
"It's just a habit. The knight replied briefly.
"Well, get used to it. Mad Dog snorted, "Yes." You grind every day, and the hard work of these decades is not mixed. In the future, if you can't hold a weapon, you can go and sharpen knives for others to earn money. ”
"That's thankful. Anusen smiled bitterly: "Speaking of which, do you have any plans for the future?"
"Not yet. Take it one step at a time. The mad dog coughed dryly: "It's good to eat and wait to die." Don't worry about what to do tomorrow. ”
"I know what you think, Mad Dog...... But you don't have to live a life of licking blood at the tip of a knife and dying at any point. The knight looked at him firmly: "There is nothing wrong with thinking about the future life." People have to have a dream. ”
"yes, dreams...... For example, find a true love to live with, drink and sing when you have nothing to do, and no longer need to pick up a sword. Mad Dog's eyes were a little dazed for a moment, and he sighed a little dazedly: "That's not for me...... Listen, Knight: Dreams are like drugs. The more you crave it, the more addicted you will become. In the end, dreams are shattered, and all you are left with is pain and suffering – you know, the addict who has a drug addiction but doesn't take the drug. ”
"Your understanding of dreams is too biased. Anusen shook his head helplessly: "There are two sides to everything, you can't just see its cruel side. ”
"But I've always seen the cruel side of life since I was a child. Against the backdrop of the glossy city of the city, the dirty territory that ordinary people will never set foot in. Ceresya's expression distorted for a moment, "Do you know how they train the Assassins...... Knight, if you had experienced that as a child, I promise your personality wouldn't have been so normal. ”