Verse 208: I'm a monster!!
The stand-in boy stared at everyone: "The current situation, I don't need to say more, in fact, everyone knows it in their hearts." β
"It's too unlikely to have unrealistic fantasies that they will save you. β
Everyone was still on guard, but their eyes flickered, showing a slight hesitation.
The teenager talked about their hearts, and the time that Scab Sha spent with them was very short, and his performance became more and more unbearable. Scab's desire for artifact possession is too strong and unreliable.
But at this time, a scab laugh came from the fourth layer: "Hehehe, stand-in, if you want to rush up and die, forget it." Do you want to trick them into coming with you to die? He's all speculating about the situation, so you can't be sure. You're like plucking them and letting them share the risk for you?"
"Don't be fooled, folks! Lightning Discord will kill you. Even if you rush up, are you going to kill me and the needle? Kill a priest and a Templar? You are making enemies of the Empire. Even if you win and survive, you will be wanted by the Shengming Empire, and you will only be able to live a life of wandering around and being frightened in the future. And once you are caught, what awaits you is a punishment that is even more cruel than hanging!"
Of course, Scab Sha would not sit idly by and watch the young man encourage others, and his words made everyone hesitate even more.
The boy in charge looked at Mango, who needed support, and Mango was clearly the most prestigious of them all.
But at this time, the orc frowned tightly and did not say anything.
Needle Jin laughed and sneered: "Stand-in, you still think it's me? You're not a Templar at all, you're not a nobleman at all, you have lowly blood in your veins, why do you let them follow you? You're just a stand-in, a tool." You want to respond to all kinds of calls, and you want to lead a group of people to deal with us? Did the lightning just make you stupid?"
After taunting the young man, he continued to shout to the others, "He just wants to take advantage of you." He can live, and you can't be deceived anymore!"
"I am an honorary mage of nobility, and you can all be saved!"
"Trust me, I'm a Templar, and he's just a stand-in who keeps deceiving you!!"
The crowd stirred.
The stand-in boy sighed in his heart.
Zidi once said on the fourth floor that her understanding of the situation was not wrong. When the identity of the needle gold is revealed, the loss is very huge. People don't trust needles and are more wary of stand-ins. Now their eyes flickered as they looked at the stand-in boy, and they all suspected that he had a bad intention.
"You've been deceiving us in the past. Who the hell are you?"
"What do you want?"
Mane finally spoke, his brow furrowed deeply, his voice low.
The crowd fell silent, all waiting for the teenager's answer.
They used to be obedient and even fanatical about teenagers, but now their faces are cold and suspicious.
The boy took a deep breath.
He is still needle-gold, blonde and blue-eyed, and handsome. But he was in a state of disarray, with wounds and blood stains on his body, and he had been struck by lightning, and his clothes and skin were much darker.
"Scabs, needles, they are not wrong. The boy said the first words.
Everyone almost thought they had misheard.
But the boy repeated: "There is nothing wrong with what they say. β
He said in a low, slightly hoarse, but honest manner:
"I'm not a needle gold. β
"I'm not a genius either. β
"I don't have a noble bloodline in me. β
"I'm not a Templar. β
"I used to have a beautiful woman next to me, and I thought she was my fiancΓ©e. But she's not me, she's essentially a conspirator. β
"I'm not your leader. For I am not qualified to lead you. β
The crowd was quieter.
If the teenager denies or avoids these facts, he will be more suspicious and guarded.
But now, the crowd began to listen to him.
The boy then smiled bitterly, "Who am I?" I used to ask myself this question over and over again. β
"But until now, I can't answer myself at all. β
"My original memories have been erased, and now my memories have been instilled by others and are still mutilated. β
"You all know your names. β
"I'm not as good as you, because I don't even know my name. β
The young man's mournful tone made everyone stare at him.
"Even my own appearance is someone else's, and I should have been modulated and transformed by the war mongers. β
"In fact, as you can see, I'm a bestiac, at best a special bestiar. β
Speaking of this, the stand-in boy paused, took a deep breath, and seemed to be mustering up courage.
"I'm a spear scorpion. β
As he spoke, he urged the demon core in his heart, gushing out red light, and mutated into a dark golden hard scorpion shell.
On a desert night, the spear scorpion boy ate golden granite and was excited: "Delicious, delicious!"
The abrupt change made everyone exclaim, and most of them took a big step back.
"I'm an acid green lizard. β
In the forest, the green lizard boy practiced flicking his tail. As a result, he was injured, and the next day he had pain in the tail spine of his hip.
The boy suddenly changed his tail, and everyone exclaimed again, and many couldn't help but take a step back.
"I'm still a manta monkey. β
The boy grew bat wings and bat ears.
That night, the moonlight was like water. For the first time, the manta monkey boy heard countless beautiful sounds and felt the extreme beauty of nature!
Everyone was continuously frightened, the exclamations were quieter, more people stopped in place, and few people subconsciously retreated.
"I'm a monkey-tailed brown bear. β
The boy spread his hands, and everyone saw the red light surging and disappearing, and then the boy's hands turned into the claws of the monkey-tailed brown bear.
Many late nights, the brown bear boy was digging in the cave, diligent.
The people did not retreat, the fear and tension diminished a lot, and the color of surprise began to appear.
Greybeard looked at the bear's paws, as if he had thought of something, and fell into deep thought.
"I'm a blade spider. β
The boy conjured a sharp blade.
In the forest, the spider boy was in distress: "It seems that spider weaving webs also needs hard training!"
"Oh my God. This is the truth!" someone whispered, and he recognized it, this was the sword that the boy and the demonic beasts were fighting and using more and more often.
"I'm still a flying squirrel, able to discharge. β
The blade of the boy's mutation began to glow with lightning.
In order to be able to release electricity, he practiced hard for a long time, did not hesitate to catch flying squirrels alive, endured electric shocks and tried to find the trick of discharge.
"Yes, I'm a beast and a monster. The young man's expression was extremely heavy, and at this moment, he felt as if he was naked in the ice and snow.
As he thought, people looked at him with a deep sense of horror and repulsion, wanting to stay away.
But it was also different from what he thought, in addition to the emotions of fear, rejection, and avoidance, there were many other emotions, which made many people's faces complicated.
No sound came from the fourth floor.
It was the first time he had seen such a change in the boy, and he was amazed.
The monster boy continued, "Although I am a beast and a monster, I want to be a knight, so I have always used the rules of knighthood to demand myself. β
"I want to be a god, so I keep praying, but the Holy Ming Emperor never answers me. β
"I want to be a nobleman, the sole heir to a large family. That's why I've been pushing myself to work hard to revitalize my family. β
"I want to be a leader, so I try to be at the forefront and uphold justice with all my heart. β
"How I wish I was!"
"I almost thought I was. β
"But I'm not. β
"The memories that come to my mind are someone else's. β
"My name belongs to someone else. β
"My fiancΓ©e is someone else's. β
"Awakened from my island, I have lived in lies. β
The young man smiled bitterly: "Do you know how shocked I was when I first transformed into a beast!"
"I suspected that it was a bloodline awakening, and I suspected that I had taken some kind of transformation potion by mistake. β
"When I found out that I could become more beasts, I was tormented. β
"Fear, doubt, hesitation...... I asked myself, why did I do this?"14
"I don't want Zidi to worry, and I don't dare tell the truth. β
"How I wish it had been a nightmare, but it really happened to me. I wanted to forget, but I couldn't, because the harsh environment always forced me to use this ability. β
"Gradually, I realized that they were part of my body, a part of me. I hate and run away from them, that is, I hate and dislike myself. β
"I sympathize with the big man, because in him I see myself. β
"When my companions become mad, I am most afraid. I am especially afraid that one day in the future, I will lose my sanity, become a beast, and kill the people around me. β
The young man looked at Mane Ge and said frankly, "Someone just said that I lied to you, yes, I deceived you. If it were possible, I would still want to lie to you for the rest of my life. I'd be willing to cheat myself if I could. β
"Because I don't want to be a monster! I don't want to be a beast, a stand-in, a tool! I don't want to be ostracized, I don't want to be disgusted, I don't want to be discriminated against. β
Everyone was moved.
The young man lowered his head, looked at his hands, and smiled bitterly: "Actually, there are many flaws along the way, but why didn't I realize it until now?"
"Because I want to lie to myself even more. β
"I want to deceive myself that I am a noble knight, with fine armor, riding a tall white horse. β
"I wanted to deceive myself that I was a nobleman. There is its own castle, a summer manor. There is also a beautiful and touching fiancΓ©e with good financial resources. β
"I wanted to deceive myself that I had been favored and appreciated by the gods, and I wanted to prove that I had strong faith. β
"I failed. β
"As you can see, I'm not. β
"I'm nothing!"
"All I can tell myself now is: Hey, you idiot, don't lie to yourself, throw away your ridiculous, pathetic, unrealistic fantasies, you're not! Recognize the reality, you're not even an ordinary person, you're a transformed beast, a monster. β
Speaking of which, the boy's eye sockets were visibly red.
This is the expression of his true feelings.
The crowd was silent.
Everyone watched the boy silently.
The wariness on their faces vanished, and the look of vigilance faded away.
"Haha, you're very self-aware, stand-in. From the fourth floor, there was a mockery of the needle.
People frowned, and many looked disgusted.
But then, the young man's voice suddenly rose, and the words changed: "Although I am nothing, can't I even think about it?"
"I'm not, can't I do it,"
"I'm not, can't I try?"
People's hearts are shaken.
"Hmph, wishful thinking. Shasha was extremely displeased and derogatorily, "People are born to determine their identity and status. You have to recognize the reality and keep to yourself in order to get the happiness that belongs to you. Driven by greed and desire, coveting what does not belong to oneself, it will inevitably end up miserable and bleak. This is your greatest original sin, and the idea that you hold this is the source of social unrest. How can you have the face to say such a thing, and now confess your sins and maybe you can be redeemed and forgiven!"
The crowd's brows furrowed even deeper.
The stand-in ignored the scab and continued, "If I have the opportunity, I want to be a knight, I want to be a nobleman, I want to be a god. I want to do all this, don't tell me, you don't want to!"
The crowd was shaken.
"If you don't want to, what are you going to do on the Wilderness Continent?!What are you going to do on a long journey, across the ocean, taking great risks, going to a place full of war risks?!"
"I am a monster, I am ostracized, but what about you? Haven't you been ostracized, haven't you been spurned and disgusted? Haven't you been crushed by the powerful? Haven't you been deceived by life? Have you not been tormented by your ideals and your dreams?!"
The young man suddenly spoke a series of questions at a very fast speed, which made the audience silent.
The young man took a deep breath, his tone softened, and he said with a deep gaze, "We are actually the same kind of people. β
"We are born ordinary. The young man looked at Bai Ya, who was flushed and excited.
"We are ostracized and hated. The boy looked at the big man. The big man's eyelids twitched slightly.
"We were betrayed by our loved ones. The boy looked at the beard. The old scholar's eyes narrowed.
"We are never treated fairly. The boy looked at the orc. The orc's breathing had become heavy.
"We have sinned, and we cannot forgive ourselves. The boy looked at the blue-green algae. Ever since the boy woke up and stood, Cyanoza had been half-kneeling on the ground, looking up at him at the moment.
"We were spurned, exiled, wanted, ridiculed. So what?"
"Shouldn't we think about it?"
"Shouldn't we do it?"
"Reality has made us so miserable, life is so bad that we can't bear it, we can only be better if we think about it. β
"In fact, we've been trying. β
"Falling to this island mountain together, we fought side by side. We went hunting for food and water, we were poisoned. We struggled in the desert, we were hunted by the beasts, we fought off the Monster Legion in the camps, we traveled long distances to gather supplies along the way, we built new ships in small valleys, and we set sail in the alchemy factories to break through difficult obstacles. β
The boy paced in front of the crowd, repeating the energy he had spent all this time.
"What are we for?" the boy asked again, opening his arms.
"We want to live. β
"But that's not enough!"
"It's not enough. β
"We want to live better!"
"I've always thought like this, and I don't believe you don't!"
"Shut up, shut up. You devil, you are demagoguery, you are so rebellious. Your sin is too great, and you will not be redeemed if you go wrong like this!" Scab roared, and the boy's words made him furious.
The young man smiled slightly: "Devil? yes, I am!"
He patted his chest and boldly admitted.
Then, he pointed to the crowd in front of him and said, "But I'm not the only one." Each of us is a devil and a beast!"
"We want to live, we want to live a nourishing life, we want to have abundant food and water, we want the status and glory of being a human being, we want artifacts, we want monstrous merits. So, so are you, my priest!"
In an instant, the scab pupils contracted suddenly.
The boy cried out: "On this island, we are lost, we are trapped, we are hunted and killed, like dead dogs." We were so tired that we collapsed, just for the hope that the new ship would bring. On countless rainy nights, we prayed together for a sunny day. β
He then stomped his foot and pointed to the ground.
"This is the Monster Island of the Warmongers. There are not only man-made monsters, but also devils and monsters. β
"We may seem lost in our lives, but in fact, we always know in our hearts how we are going to move forward. β
"Everyone, listen to your inner voices!" the boy beat his chest excitedly, "what do you want? Wait here to die? Do you want to surrender? To trust such a priest? Wagging his tail like a dog, begging him to give you a chance to live? And then, he swallows all the credit, like the master who eats all the meat and throws the bones to the dog, will you gnaw it?"
"Bones, big men don't eat bones, big men eat meat. The big man opened his eyes in a daze, he was woken up, he saw the boy and he saw the others, but he didn't react for a while.
"I am not qualified to lead you. But I want you to listen carefully to your inner voice, what do you really want?"
"Do you bow your head and stop, or do you rise up and resist?"
The crowd was dead.
But this dead silence is different from before.
If you listen closely, you can hear people's pounding hearts and heavy breathing.
"Daddy, you're still alive!" the big man shouted, and he stood up in ecstasy, but because of his rapid movements, his mind was dizzy, and he did not stand firmly, and fell to his knees again.
The stand-in smiled at him, then looked at the group again.
He didn't speak again.
He's waiting.
Then, he waited!
"Master, whoever you are, you have always been my master!" cried out Spirulina, standing up.
"You saved my life, too many times. I will follow you, my lord. Bai Ya said loudly.
"You're better suited to the status of a knight and a nobleman than pingold, I've always thought so. Greybeard spoke slowly, wiping his lenses.
"You are a hero, our hero. Mu Ban took out the repeating crossbow, and the people around him suddenly moved a few steps, subconsciously moving away from him.
Mane Ge took a deep breath and said in a deep voice, "This is the most moving pre-battle speech I've ever heard. Let's ...... once again Let's fight together. β
The big man stood up, Mango stepped forward, and the three knives followed.
Cyanobacteria, barbarium, white buds......
Everyone gathered.
Reunited with the boy.
And this time.
The boy is no longer a needle, no longer a Templar, no longer a nobleman, no longer a god.
But...... A monster!