(16) Buried in the depths of memory
"My dad was also lost when I was very young, maybe a few months old, it was a car accident, and I didn't know anything at that time. Xu Sinan was blaming himself, because he didn't even have any memory, so he could only inquire about it from other people's mouths, and when he said these words, he was not discouraged at all, but just smiled faintly, and shook his hair against the wind blowing on the river.
Shen Bijun's mood was also much better, he shook his long hair in the wind like him, and then laughed heartlessly, laughing and saying, "I don't hate him, I hate myself, why can't I face this matter head-on after so much time." ”
"Who became an adult all of a sudden?" Xu Sinan turned his face to look at her, took out a candy from his pocket as if he was juggling, and stuffed it into her hand before continuing with satisfaction, "We are all forced to accept, forced to grow, forced to bear those natural and man-made disasters, those things always have to pass." Like me, now that I have a stepfather, he is very good to my mother, and I can accept all this for my father instead of punishing myself. ”
Of course Shen Bijun can understand his words, such a simple truth, how easy it is to understand, she is not a two- or three-year-old child, and she is not unable to digest her negative emotions, obviously she has nothing wrong.
"Shall I send you back?" Xu Sinan got up and pulled his sleeves.
"No," she refused with a smile, "my house is not far from here, I can go back by myself, you can go back quickly." ”
Shen Bijun's refusal is really commonplace for Xu Sinan.
"Okay, then you pay attention to ...... on the road"
"Shen Bijun! Before Xu Sinan could finish his reminder, a tall and thin figure appeared not far away, four or five meters away from the street lamp, with his hands around his chest, leaning against another street lamp, as if he had been paying attention to them for a long time, and only called Shen Bijun's name when it was almost over.
She and Xu Sinan looked over there together, it was Wen Xian who came! A trace of relief suddenly flashed in her eyes, and she immediately got up and trotted all the way into his arms, and then buried her head in his chest to shield herself, Wen Xian caught her very steadily, and then stretched out her hot hand in her arms and rubbed her face, "Let's go, send you home." ”
Xu Sinan watched them leave quietly, his heart fell into the ice cellar like a grunt, for a while he only felt that this cold style was piercing, his eyes flickered, no one saw what was inside, and finally, he turned his head to the dark side and walked away silently.
"What are you doing today?" Wen Xian held Shen Bijun in his left hand and a box of steamed dumplings he had just bought in his right hand, as if he had picked up a child from kindergarten and went home.
Shen Bijun was a head shorter than Wen Xian, she could only rub on his shoulder, and said coyly, "I don't know what I'm doing today, I'm going to visit Old Man Xu, maybe I'm too afraid of losing my job." ”
Unemployment is an industrial chain for her, and if she is unemployed, Wen Xian will also be unemployed, so how should she raise her thousand-year-old goblin who can only pick up a pen and write?
"So, it's boring to ask for yourself?" Wen Xian was happy to listen to her embarrassment.
"What's more," Shen Bijun was angry when he talked about this, "The old man doesn't like me, forget it, how do you feel hostile to me, and you don't know the situation at that time, he is aggressive and bites my father's problem, I don't want to mention my father at all." He was rude like that. ”
"So you bite?" Wen Xian didn't forget to tease her at this time.
"I didn't. She punched Wen Xian in a gesture, and then looked at him with a blank eye, "Don't you wonder why I don't want to mention my father?"
"Since you said that you don't want to mention it, wouldn't it be rude for me to ask again. ”
“......”
Shen Bijun found that Wen Xian was becoming more and more able to grasp the essence of her speech, but it was better for him to ask.
She looked at Wen Xian's face, which had been looking at the front level, and under the blessing of the night, it was even more cold and three-dimensional, and some cold lights hit his face, making him look more and more lonely.
Shen Bijun suddenly stopped, Wen Xian was puzzled, and also stopped, looking at her suspiciously.
If he said that he had seen his father when he was a child, and he had been accompanied by his mother all the way, he was very lucky, and he had been lonely for so long, he had no parents and relatives for a long time, he was lonely and lonely at any time, there was no one worth protecting, and there was no one who would affect his emotions for his joys and sorrows, it was really distressing to think about it...... Shen Bijun thought so in his heart, so he suddenly stood on tiptoe desperately, tilted his head, and kissed him lightly on his cold lips. Then ...... Don't let him be alone anymore!
Wen Xian didn't react for a while, she was suddenly attacked by Shen Bijun and looked at her in a daze and couldn't speak, until Shen Bijun wanted to drag him to continue walking, he pulled the person in front of him back, lowered his head, kissed back like a counterattack, moistened her lips gently, and then ate her little by little. Two cold people are meant to be warm to each other, if there is a day in this world when you are there, then I will accompany you for a day.
Love has to go on no matter what time it is, a happy day, a depressed day, a muddy day or a full of vitality.
The moment Xu Sinan returned to the office, everyone was stunned, there was no doubt that it was their savior, Lu Lulu finally became a personal assistant, turned into a serf and sang, and no longer had to bow down to Li Qingfang, because Li Qingfang had retreated to the second line, and the position of deputy director was also in name only.
"Lulu, you're so imposing right now. Shen Bijun also raised her eyebrows, as soon as Xu Sinan came back, she would become a related household again, and those people who were looking for trouble began to avoid her again.
Lu Lulu gave her a triumphant smile, and then put the things she had just taken out of Xu Sinan's office on her desk, "Well, this is what the director asked me to give you, saying that I apologized for what happened last time." ”
"Oh. Shen Bijun understands, in fact, it is not Xu Sinan's fault, and she doesn't need to be so careful.
"For what?" Lu Lulu was still gossiping as before, staring at that thing for a long time, and she had to find out what was wrong.
It was a box of delicate biscuits, it was the dessert shop outside the hospital that she had been thinking about for a long time and had no time to go to, she was still strange, Xu Sinan really knew her very well.
She opened the cookie box, and there was a small pink card inside, on which lay a line of graceful block letters, "Wait for me after work at noon." ”
"Hey, don't be so ambiguous. Lu Lulu can be regarded as seeing through everything, most likely Xu Sinan is frantically pursuing Shen Bijun, she stared at Shen Bijun for a long time before sighing, "This figure... Not bad. This face, a standard melon seed beauty face, I usually don't find that you still have such charm, no wonder I always feel that Director Xu and Writer Wen have some meaning to fall in love with you!"
Shen Bijun was so frightened that he immediately covered the biscuit box, put the pink card into the book randomly, and then explained in a panic, "What nonsense are you talking about, who poured it for me, you work hard!"
She decided to sneak away, so as not to be deceived by Lu Lulu, so she secretly ran to the pantry with the box of biscuits.
She has already begun to be absent-minded, Xu Sinan's move is really unexpected, will it be a confession? If Wen Xian finds out, will she be angry, obviously she is a married woman, such a relationship is unclear, the boundaries are not clear, it will always attract people to misunderstand, but Wen Xian is not at work today, she just has the heart to explain, and she doesn't dare to say it on the phone, in case he suddenly kills, it is not very embarrassing?
"Ah!" Shen Bijun woke up when she was distracted and her hand was scalded by the hot water, and she hurriedly retracted her hand, and rushed with the cold water next to her, grinning in pain, "Shen Bijun, you are really not angry!"
"Are you hot?" As soon as Xu Sinan came in, he saw Shen Bijun's red hands, so he immediately put down his cup, squatted down and took out the first aid kit from the small locker below, "Come and deal with it for you." ”
"No need!" When Xu Sinan's hand was touched, she dodged like an electric shock.
Xu Sinan was puzzled, "What's wrong?"
"I ......," she hesitated, "I can handle it myself." ”
I don't know why, she can't face Xu Sinan at all now, she used to be able to say nothing like a buddy, but now, after she thought she understood Xu Sinan's intentions, she didn't dare to face him anyway.
"We ...... Is there any misunderstanding?" Xu Sinan finally saw the biscuit placed next to the water dispenser and found the clue, and then he smiled and continued to squeeze out the ointment, "Shen Bijun, aren't you so narcissistic that you think I asked you out because I like you?"
"Huh?" Isn't it? Yesterday in the hospital, she felt that Xu Sinan's eyes were very different, "No... No, I don't. ”
Shen Bijun stammered, and his heart was very empty.
"Let's rub the medicine. Xu Sinan's face still kept smiling, and it didn't seem to be because he liked her? Shen Bijun then stretched out his hand, "You, you won't be distracted by this matter, right? Actually, asking you about you is my grandfather's meaning, he has been discharged from the hospital, and the family decided to have a party, he told me that he really offended you last time, and decided to apologize to you personally, and said that if I can't invite you to go, don't go home, you said I'm not afraid." ”
"That's it......" Shen Bijun was finally relieved, not to confess, she smiled awkwardly, "That's so embarrassing, in fact, I didn't take it to heart, and specially invited me to go." ”
"Then you can agree, and I'll make a good deal. Xu Sinan's movements were very light, for fear of hurting her.
Shen Bijun agreed and nodded.
After Xu Sinan bandaged her, he slowly packed up the medicine box, and he looked up and saw Shen Bijun opening the biscuit box with difficulty, so he helped her open it again.
"Shen Bijun. ”
"Huh?" she shoved a whole cookie in her mouth.
"If I really want to confess to you, will you agree?" Xu Sinan's movements suddenly stopped, just lowered his head, and asked without confidence.
Shen Bijun almost choked on the biscuit, she tried her best to swallow a mouthful of biscuit dregs, and then pretended to pat Xu Sinan on the shoulder, "What do you say? I used to be your eldest brother, and I will be your eldest brother for life, although now you are strong enough and do not need to be protected, but I can still help you smooth your career." ”
"That's good. Xu Sinan smiled reluctantly, at least he couldn't let his loss be obvious.
No matter how obvious it is, it will become a burden for her. He didn't go any further, he just wanted to end the conversation.
Old Man Xu's banquet is set at the most luxurious Meng Hotel in the city, it is Meng Lianxi's family business, and it is generally a place for dignitaries to entertain, Shen Bijun still heard from Meng Lianxi's mouth, and the people who come here cannot be entertained without 78,000 at a time. She came here once before, and she followed Meng Lianxi on her graduation trip and stayed in a luxury suite for free for a week...... In this way, she can be regarded as a winner in life.
"Qingfang, come and see this, Grandpa Xu prepared it for you, do you like it?" Old Man Xu waved his hand, and a person held a delicate jewelry box in front of Li Qingfang.
There was a finely carved translucent and deep sapphire lying inside, all around the body were inlaid with diamonds, sparkling, Li Qingfang was very happy, and quickly got up and picked up the necklace and took a bite of "Thank you Grandpa Xu", it was very sweet, she took the necklace and walked to her mother, Mrs. Li, and coquettishly wanted to wear it.
"Eh, I'm going to keep this for a while, and Sinan will come here and put it on for you personally. Old Man Xu seemed to understand Li Qingfang very well, he held the crutch of the details and looked at the door, "He should be coming soon." ”
As soon as Li Qingfang heard the old man's suggestion, he was so happy that he hid behind Mrs. Li and whispered, "I don't know if Brother Sinan is willing yet!"
"What do you say about me, I hear me. Xu Sinan led Shen Bijun to the door belatedly, when he heard the people inside say his name again, and he was disgusted to listen to the original words.
"Brother Sinan, why is she here too. Li Qingfang's originally happy gaze fell on Shen Bijun behind Xu Sinan, and he immediately changed his face and looked impatient.
Before Shen Bijun could choke with her, Old Man Xu spoke, "This one, it's my invited guest, don't you still have to wear a necklace?"
Li Qingfang understood, took the sapphire necklace and walked towards Xu Sinan, shouting that Xu Sinan had to put it on her.
Xu Sinan didn't realize that he was in their plan, but he was very skilled in helping Li Qingfang put on the necklace as he had since he was a child, and he didn't forget to praise her like he did when he was a child, "Little sister is so good-looking." ”
"I'm all grown up, don't call me little sister anymore. Li Qingfang never hoped that Xu Sinan would treat her as a sister, she hoped that she would be a woman.
Yo, this is the bridge. Shen Bijun has seen too many of this kind of scenes, don't all TV dramas act like this? The two of them sang and harmonized, and the people in the whole room were envious, probably all kinds of praise for how the two of them were golden boys and girls, how they were made in heaven, it seems that Old Man Xu invited her to come, just thinking that she approached Xu Sinan to covet glory and wealth, and gave her some color to let her have a long experience.
"Oh, I'm sorry. Li Qingfang put on the necklace, deliberately took a step back, just bumped into Shen Bijun's shoulder, and threw her long hair in the face, "I didn't see this and another ...... What about outsiders. ”
Old Man Xu just glanced at it, and all the elders just glanced at it, and then pretended not to see it.
"Qingfang!" On the contrary, it was Xu Sinan who took the lead, and he glanced at Shen Bijun with some apologies.
"Oh, it's fine. Shen Bijun endured the displeasure in her heart, and looked like she was smiling brightly, who knew that she suddenly stretched out her hand, brought Li Qingfang a handful of hair, and pulled it back, and pretended to apologize with grievance and guilt, "Oh, I'm sorry, Miss Li, I just wanted to tickle it, but I didn't expect my hand to have no eyes and grab your hair." ”
"Ah! Shen Bijun, you did it on purpose!" Li Qingfang was so angry that he gritted his teeth.
Shen Bijun spread his hands and expressed helplessness, "Who isn't?"
She was already planning a complete showdown, and she cursed secretly in her heart, it seems that these so-called upper-class upbringing is not very good, and it is no different from me, a small citizen in the market.
"You girl, why are you so uneducated!" Mrs. Li was anxious to protect her daughter, and when she saw this, she came up to accuse Shen Bijun, and the corners of her mouth were disgusting.
Xu Sinan immediately protected Shen Bijun behind him and gave her a round game, "Aunt Li, don't be angry, Shen Bijun didn't mean it." ”
"She just did it on purpose!" The audience was shocked by the sound of Old Man Xu knocking on crutches, and suddenly fell silent, "She just doesn't have a tutor." ”
"Grandpa!"
"Shut up!" Old man Xu and Xu Sinan also scolded, he was on crutches to get up, and the people waiting behind him stepped forward to help the old man, his face was very bad, and the whole person had a calm face, as if he wanted to eat people.
Shen Bijun bypassed Xu Sinan and stood directly in front of Old Man Xu, his eyes were neither humble nor arrogant, "Oh? Why don't I have a tutor, I would like to hear about it." ”
"I have investigated you," Old Man Xu looked extremely sure, "As you yourself said, your father left you at a very young age, and it was your mother who pulled you up, so you don't have a complete family education in your life, and your father, after leaving you, will only cheat money and sex, relying on women to eat soft rice, what kind of good thing will this kind of man's daughter be?
The words are extremely harsh and ugly, Shen Bijun really didn't expect that a so-called big man would slander and insult a girl like this, and it is really that the forest is so big that there are all kinds of birds, of course she doesn't take it to heart, is there less such words.
"Yo, you know better than me about the father who is not a father, it seems that he has really put in a lot of effort, you said that he has nothing to do with me, but if you think that I am bent on pestering your precious grandson Xu Sinan without listening to dissuasion, then you can rest assured, my boyfriend is not comparable to everyone!" Showing off Wen Xian's confidence, she still has it, and after speaking, she showed a satisfied smile, "Can I go?"
Xu Sinan stayed speechless, not feeling good in her heart, it turned out that she was really with Wen Xian.
"Dad, what's going on...... inside is inextricable, there are still people outside, an elegant middle-aged woman holding a middle-aged man came in from the door, and he was frightened when he saw this scene, the old man hadn't shown such an angry expression for a long time.
This is Xu Sinan's mother and stepfather.
"Xiao Nan, what's going on. Xu Xiang looked very gentle, she didn't know Shen Bijun, and she didn't know what was going on, so she had to pass her eyes to Xu Sinan.
Old Man Xu went back to his place and sat down, coughed a few throats, pointed at Shen Bijun and said to Xu Sinan's stepfather, "Shen Heng, take a look, come and see if you still know this little girl?"
As soon as Shen Bijun heard the word "Shen Heng", his whole head buzzed violently, as if boiling water was boiling, and in the past 20 years, the name Shen Heng had disappeared without a trace long ago. She turned around suddenly, the man in front of her was the one who passed by at the entrance of the hospital, no wonder, no wonder she felt that this person was very familiar, like a person who appeared in her life a long time ago, Shen Heng's eyes were also shocked, he looked at Shen Bijun, his mouth kept trembling, and he couldn't even say a word.
It took him a long time before he stammered, "Jun...... Junjun?"
"Shen Heng......" Xu Xiang was so nervous that he clenched his son's hand, looking worried.
Xu Sinan hugged his mother in his arms, patted her shoulder lightly with his hand, glanced at her, and signaled her to relax, but wasn't he more nervous? He looked at Shen Bijun nervously, looked at Shen Heng, and hoped that all this was a misunderstanding.