(40) Live to die
"Hey,
Have you ever accepted the reshuffling of fate,
Have you ever tried to despair of yourself,
Also, have you ever wondered,
You've lived so long,
What's the point?"
Bai Rongyue didn't know how many times she was woken up by the same dream, it was a dream that was not a nightmare, but it always made her sweat profusely and frightened. She got up and put on her coat, walked slowly to the window, pushed open the old wooden window, and the creak was particularly abrupt in the hazy and quiet night.
Bai Rongyue couldn't forget the masked woman in her dream for a long time, and it was also in such a night, holding a long sword in her hand, standing under a tall green pine, facing the gloomy wind, constantly questioning her the same paragraph, over and over again.
Could it be Ah He?
Suddenly, she looked up again, only to realize that there was something white fluttering in the sky, and she reached out to take it, but the small thing turned into soft water after falling into the palm of her hand.
"It's snowing......"
Time flies so fast, and this year she finally escaped again.
Last night's snow didn't fall much, and it only lasted for less than twenty minutes, but this morning it was so cold that it seemed to freeze.
Meng Qilan didn't go to work today, but he still got up early in the morning, and happily matched himself with casual fashion that he thought was absolutely in line with the aesthetics of young people today, and combed his bangs, revealing his forehead that had not been revealed for a long time, but he was always a little awkward, and he went out satisfied. He inquired, and now the students of Xiling University are preparing for their final exams.
"Yo, Dr. Meng is dressed so handsomely today. Meng Qilan is indeed a little sassy today, and when he passed by the stall selling pancakes and fruits outside the road, he was praised by his aunt again and again.
"Huh, is it?" he was so proud that he bought a pancake fruit as soon as he was happy...
It is estimated that the eldest aunt began to regret that he had passed by for so many years, and he didn't praise him until today......
Xiling University is exactly the same as when he left, with high teaching buildings next to each other, and cobblestone paths can be seen everywhere, at least that's what Meng Qilan remembers, but he hasn't been back for a long time, and the two rows of camphor are getting thicker and thicker. From the moment they entered the door, there was a strong atmosphere of youth, and the expressions of those students were full of youth, pride, longing, and restlessness. Occasionally, one or two couples could be seen flirting and scolding on the way, and as soon as the girl pretended to be angry, the boy immediately surrendered and had to catch up and coax...... Meng Qilan was in a trance for a while, everything he saw was like the plot of a movie, but he didn't seem to remember anything, what kind of people he liked and what kind of things he did during his entire college years, but at that time he should have been very boring, he didn't like anything, he just liked to do experiments or learn around with his mentor......
Meng Qilan walked and walked to the building of Xiyuan Medical College, and then passed through the small square, just when he was about to leave the small square, he vaguely saw a man and a woman talking in a corner, the man's voice was obvious, and the voice was very loud like a reprimand, he could see a lot of blackmail and blackmail of female college students, what if this girl was in danger, maybe driven by his natural sense of social responsibility, he actually hid and leaned over......
Xiang Mingle?
It's a coincidence that he came to her on purpose, but he didn't expect to run into her in this situation.
The man looked much older than Meng Qilan, at least forty or fifty years old, and he was dressed very ordinarily, and the dense stubble on his face could be seen through his lowered peaked cap.
"I don't care, if you don't get me money, how can I raise your sister? Your family eats mine and uses mine, and you can't earn your own money now that you're so old?" the man's voice was hoarse, and he sounded a bit of a ruffian.
Xiang Mingle on the opposite side kept his head down and didn't dare to look at him, his hands hanging down on the seams of his legs kept rubbing the edges of his coat, she was very nervous, and she opened her mouth in a low voice, "Uncle, I really don't have any money, all the money I paid for my part-time job last week was all yours." ”
Those who ask for help and send people under the fence are all like this.
"So much money, your sister's food money for a month is not enough," the man who was called uncle by Xiang Mingle was obviously unhappy, took off his hat and fell heavily on the ground, "Xiang Mingle, let me tell you, if I hadn't taken in your mother and daughter, you still don't know what it would be like to be tortured by your dead ghost father, you tell me now that you have no money, do you still have a conscience?
Xiang Mingle hurriedly squatted down to pick up his hat for him, bowed over and stretched out his hands to hand it respectfully, almost begging, "Uncle, I will pay my salary next month, are you waiting......"
"Wait?" Uncle took his hat away, his tone changed, he looked around with a sinister eyebrow, Meng Qilan hid in time, so he didn't let him notice, "Eh, Mingle, didn't I hear that female college students can make a lot of money doing that? Why don't you try it?"
"Zhao Pan, are you still human?" Xiang Mingle's face changed suddenly when she heard his words, and she couldn't pretend to be good-tempered just now, of course she understood what he meant, so she pushed him away and kicked him in the thigh viciously, "You are my uncle!"
"Eh, you damn thing! I'll kill you!" Uncle didn't expect Xiang Mingle to react so much, and dared to kick him, so he picked up his hat and was about to hit her.
Meng Qilan finally couldn't stand it anymore, he rushed out first to block in front of Xiang Mingle, the first loud slap fell on him, and before his uncle could react, he was about to continue to do it, but he was grabbed by the tall Meng Qilan with his left hand.
"Stop!"
"Doctor Meng?" Xiang Mingle came back to his senses when he heard Meng Qilan's voice, and his eyes were full of astonishment. Originally, she had closed her eyes early and was ready to be beaten, how could she have thought that Meng Qilan would appear in time to help her.
"Where did you come from?" the uncle continued to refrain from reluctance, and he insisted on teaching Xiang Mingle a good lesson before he would give up.
Meng Qilan is naturally not a person who advocates using violence to solve problems, he still used his tall body to block in front of Xiang Mingle, quickly took out his mobile phone, dialed the phone in a gesture, and quickly shook it in front of Zhao Pan, "Look at it, I have already called the police, and if you don't leave, the police will come to arrest you!"
Sure enough, Zhao Pan immediately stopped the movements in his hand, although he wanted money, but he was indeed a timid master, the more Meng Qilan was so humble and not arrogant, the more he didn't dare to do it, and finally put on his hat in a gloomy manner, spat at the mouth and left.
Before leaving, he pointed at Xiang Mingle and said viciously, "You guys just wait for me to roll up and leave!"
Xiang Mingle had never been so high-eyebrowed, and she had been unprecedentedly happy since the moment she kicked Zhao Pan, she watched him walk farther and farther away with a disgraced face, and her fist clenched tightly before she slowly let go, and the whole person also relaxed.
"Xiang Mingle, what's going on?" Meng Qilan gently rubbed the position where he was beaten just now, this Zhao Pan's hand was too heavy, he was a big man and still had a faint pain, if it fell on a girl, how could he stand it?
As soon as Xiang Mingle saw Meng Qilan, he was inexplicably a little nervous, this kind of nervousness was completely different from the kind he saw his uncle, and there was still a slight green and happy nervousness here.
She looked at him apologetically, and didn't dare to look at each other for more than three seconds, and immediately lowered her head again, and her eyes looked away, "It's all a family matter, thank you Dr. Meng for relieving the siege." ”
"Are you very short of money?" Meng Qilan regretted it a little as soon as this sentence came out, would he ask too bluntly, how can girls have strong self-esteem, he blinked his eyes and tried to change his words, "Eh...... I mean, your uncle is short of money?"
It still doesn't seem right......
Xiang Mingle was already extremely sensitive, and such a straightforward and naked question was no less than asking her to strip naked in public and display it in the window, her face turned red all of a sudden, and she took a few steps back at a loss along with her feet, not knowing how to answer.
Meng Qilan on the other side has been quietly waiting for her to answer, but in fact, it doesn't matter if she doesn't answer.
In the end, she nodded her head with difficulty, "Yes, I am short of money, and so is my uncle." ”
In the process of stalemate, Xiang Mingle has been fighting for a long time, she is thinking about whether to confide her heart to Meng Qilan, as a person with low self-esteem and twisting, what she is most afraid of is being asked about her family affairs, but she has struggled to the point that there is no way out, she still chooses a positive answer.
"Doctor Meng, why are you here?" Xiang Mingle wanted to talk about something else, but as soon as she looked up and saw his bright eyes, she still couldn't forget the glamorous girl who stood next to Meng Qilan yesterday, even if she trusted him at the moment, she always knew that she and he were not people of the same world, that person was right.
"Didn't you come to me yesterday and left without saying anything. Meng Qilan explained his intention very bluntly, "Yesterday, my sister and I had some things to deal with, so I didn't go to you, so what are you looking for me?"
"Sister... Sister?"How can it be a sister?" Xiang Mingle was stunned for a moment after hearing this, and accidentally asked back, that girl turned out to be just Dr. Meng's sister? "Dr. Meng, do you have a sister?"
"You don't even know Meng Lianxi, the youngest female devil in the city's famous business district? No wonder she was so angry with me after you misunderstood my relationship with her yesterday, it turned out that she felt that her reputation was not as good as mine, hahaha!" Meng Qilan inexplicably poked a laugh in such an environment, his sister turned out to be just a child who didn't grow up, why was she angry with him because of this kind of thing?
"She's Miss Meng Lianxi, I've heard ...... slightly" Xiang Mingle felt a little embarrassed because of a misunderstanding, but her heart brightened up all of a sudden, revealing a sweet smile, and as soon as she inadvertently looked up, she bumped into Meng Qilan laughing, like a hearty big boy, covered with the sunshine from the sky, so soft and good-looking, she couldn't help but tremble slightly, that feeling was like static electricity generated by touch in winter, both afraid and longing.
"But you still haven't told me what you're looking for me for......" Meng Qilan laughed for a while before remembering the matter, the purpose of his coming was to know the reason why Xiang Mingle was looking for him. He calmed down a little, expectantly waiting for her answer.
"Let's go over there. Xiang Mingle didn't want to stand here awkwardly all the time, she pointed to the gazebo in front of her, it was okay to sit with him, and when she sat down, she slowly spoke: "Doctor Meng, I went to see you yesterday because I wanted to thank you personally and thank you for the operation you gave me last time." ”
"It's normal for a doctor to treat a patient, what is there to be thankful for. It doesn't seem to be a big deal, Meng Qilan's tone is very casual, and to others, it means that he doesn't take it to heart at all.
Xiang Mingle was also a little embarrassed, thinking about it, isn't it a matter of course? And she didn't pay the medical bills, how could she think of such a stupid excuse to see him?
"Hah...... She pursed her lips and suddenly twisted her head to the side without embarrassment, silently moving her body a little farther away from Meng Qilan's position, in fact, this action was just redundant.
Meng Qilan could sense something at the moment, and pretended to smile generously to ease the atmosphere, "If you really want to thank me, come to work in our hospital in the future, and let me bring such an excellent newcomer to show off with them." ”
Xiang Mingle thought that he had misheard, and leaned forward slightly with his hands on the stone bench, wanting to see his face unconsciously, to see if it was as serious as she imagined. She finally met his eyes and smiled, "Are you telling the truth?"
"Of course, what are you lying to?" Meng Qilan was sincere with a clear conscience.
Xiang Mingle is rarely carried away by her own happiness, and she doesn't know why she is so lucky to meet a ray of sunshine in her despair, so impartially it just shines into her heart again, dispelling all her fear and darkness. I remember the last time I was inspired by Meng Qilan like this was when I was just a freshman, the mountain of life was already pressing on her, and when she was almost desperate, she accidentally saw a video of Meng Qilan being interviewed, and she was deeply attracted by that smile at that moment, she can still clearly recite every word he said in that video, and what moved her the most was always the most simple part he said:
"Everybody said I was a delicate boy from a well-to-do family who didn't suffer, but they never understood that I was in the lab longer than they slept, that I had memorized more cases than they had turned over in a dictionary, that they never tried to understand my hardships, that they had just doubted my success, but that was okay because I was a doctor, and I just had to let them see that every one of my patients was getting better. ”
At that time, the whole school was crazy every day, scrolling on the big screen to play Meng Qilan's video. In this way, as a legendary figure, in a dark time, like a sharp sword, he killed the beast that had trapped Xiang Mingle for a long time, and redeemed a girl who almost gave up hope, but he didn't know anything. Just like he said, Xiang Mingle wouldn't let him know, he just needed to know that she would be a doctor who was qualified to stand by his side, it was enough.
"Thank you, Dr. Meng. The big stone in Xiang Mingle's heart finally fell to the ground again, what a coincidence, this person saved her again.