I didn't expect to see a bar, not in Nanjing, but exactly the same as it used to be, because we spent our happiest times there?

After that, there is no happiness at all, always parting, life and death, so sometimes I look back and think that if I really listened to Yuehua's words, I would have accompanied her to travel the world without anything, maybe ......

No, there is no if, then I may have died in the hands of gray, I don't even have room for resistance, I don't even have the strength to protect the people around me, in the end, I have come to this point, and I have gained such a strong strength, luck is the majority, but there are also many because of the persistence of never giving up.

There were a lot of people in the bar, and to my surprise, some unexpected faces appeared.

Shaohua is here, Sun Yun and Chu Yihan are also there, and there is a Qin Lan who is smiling but still smiling, and they are followed by six golden boys and girls...... Six babies masturbating each other?

I was surprised, I didn't expect that even they had grown up, and one by one they were no longer cute and sucking their fingers and wiping their noses, but slim or handsome and chic, and they rushed forward one by one to hold my arm, and called Uncle Li Yang affectionately.

I was really relieved, though I just smiled and nodded, because the trembling in my heart had not yet subsided.

"Hey, handsome little man, you're not dead, you're really back!"

At the bar not far away, Lin Yuqi smiled and waved at me, although he received a pair of jealous eyes, wait!

But...... I just nodded and walked straight to Yuehua.

Yuehua hasn't changed, not at all, it's still so charming and moving, and it's still tearful when I see me, but I've changed, and I'm desperately suppressing it to squeeze out a smile on my face.

I remember that Duan Mo once asked me not to deliberately pretend to be cold and hideous, but now, I have become even deliberately pretending to smile, dreaming in my heart and sighing, she is the most aware of my changes.

Yuehua also understood that the moment she saw my face, her originally excited expression suddenly froze, and she stepped forward and hugged me and said, "Li Yang, what's wrong with you?

Only she saw it, and other than that, even Sun Yun and Shaohua didn't notice the bitterness under my smile.

"Well, there's something I want to tell you, so ......" I squeezed out a hint of apology and nodded around, and without further ado, I picked up Yuehua and ran towards the box.

"Cut, don't be in a hurry like this, and don't talk a few words. Shaohua complained, Lin Yuqi was also complaining, but in exchange for Zhongli Yujia's glare, the little pervert scratched his head in embarrassment, but he was proud, he liked this feeling of someone being jealous of him.

Speaking of which, Zhongli Yujia's appearance surprised me, speaking of which, the first time I saw him, I felt that he was the key to my fight against gray, and then I ignored him because of Yaoguang's appearance, and I met again at this moment......

It's a completely different situation, but I can still talk to him, that decision, that plan, he's going to be an important part of it.

Of course, what I need most before this is a confiding, and Yuehua, which is still a way to release repression.

Yuehua originally thought that I was a little anxious, after all, eighteen years...... In fact, she also wanted to be released, and her little face fluttered, but she found me stepping into the box with a nervous look, closing the door, and removing a sofa to resist, and never allowing anyone to step into the box.

The nervousness, the struggle between the expressions, Yuehua felt more and more wrong, hugged me and asked, "Li Yang, what's wrong with you, where have you been in the past eighteen years, and why are you ......?"

"Don't say anything, don't say anything, listen to me!" I hugged her tightly and sat on the sofa, my arms were so strong that the oppressed woman could barely breathe, but she couldn't bear to push me away until she ......

"I killed people, a lot! There are demon beasts, there are mirror clans, there are corpse demons, and there are humans, I can't count how many I killed!" I said in a trembling voice, Yuehua's face immediately changed, she didn't understand.

When I killed those people, and even hurt Xuanyuan Ningzhi, didn't I feel it? No, I obviously felt that my heart was trembling, and even struggling, but I desperately pressed it down, but I couldn't suppress the trembling of my hands, and I was discovered by Liu Chenchen.

"What happened in the past eighteen years?" Yuehua asked in a crying voice.

"There's a lot of stuff, I can't tell, I'm just ...... Yuehua, if I change completely, if I do something that you can't accept, will you still love me?"

I plucked up the courage to say this, but Yuehua agreed without hesitation, although she didn't know what I would say next.

After stepping into the watch world, I told her exactly what happened, including saving Wang Na, including killing Ximen Ruofeng, including killing those who stood in my way in an extremely cruel way, that bloody scene was unacceptable to Chu Tian, and even the time when I almost killed Xuanyuan Ningzhi.

Every time he said a word, Yuehua's expression changed a little, but he still nodded, reassuring me that everything was a last resort, everything was ......

"It's not a last resort, it's my own decision. I smiled wryly and went back to my experience in the mirror.

I was almost crazy at that time, thinking only about getting stronger, only thinking about how to release the pressure, at that time, I was actually a little confused and distorted.

But when I think about it, I break out in a cold sweat, and I'm glad that thanks to that release, otherwise when I stepped back into the watch world, I would still be in a crazy state of mind, and even I didn't know what I would do.

So, I know that I shouldn't, I obviously have a dream reminder, but I still have a relationship with Cuihua, I have to vent that madness thoroughly, before I dare to go back to the watch world to see, otherwise......

If it weren't for that venting, Situ Jiulin wouldn't have survived, and Xuanyuan Ningzhi would have died a long time ago, and I couldn't control my killing heart at all.

"You...... And other women?" Yuehua was stunned, this time, she didn't nod, she didn't say that she would still love me, I understand, no one can accept the betrayal of a lover, but I still told her.

It's stupid? It's stupid? No, I just don't want to hide it from her, whether she forgives me or not.

In fact, Yuehua's era was different from mine, and she did not practice monogamy in many remote areas at that time, so Yuehua once asked me if I was willing to accept Shaohua, and if it was her sister, she was willing to part with some love.

But I'm different from Cuihua, that's not love, that's betrayal......

Yuehua couldn't accept this betrayal, even though she wanted to say forgive me, and even she still loved me very much, but she couldn't help but sit up straight, she was trembling.

"Li Yang, what have you been through in the past eighteen years? Tell me first, okay?" Yuehua said astringently, even she began to be unable to accept my changes.

At this point, I finally said the torture in the black hole, and at this point, Yuehua's face completely changed, because the pain was unimaginable.

The corpse demon knows how painful it is to peel off the demon martial arts, Yuehua was once peeled off six tail ridges by Luo Tianyan, and the pain was so painful that she almost wanted to die, that experience was like a nightmare for Yuehua, and she never wanted to experience it again, and she didn't even dare to think about it again.

And I, in the past eighteen years, how many times have I been stripped off by Yuwen?

Anyone who is strong knows that although it can be regenerated after being injured, it is a very difficult process, the blood is dry, the body is torn, and even the internal organs are broken, and he falls into a pool of blood to survive, desperately condensing even a little demonic power to recover.

It's not like in an online game, eat an herb and instantly return to full blood, and continue to kill monsters, that's the most painful torment, don't believe it?

And I, in the past eighteen years, how many times has my body been torn apart by Yuwen?

What's more, the one who kept devouring unknown monsters, testing the poison with his body, the stomach being melted from the inside out, the one who couldn't move for days because of paralysis, and couldn't even breathe, the one who fell to the ground and convulsed for hours because of the poison, and the pain was unbearable!

My eyes turned silver blue, this is very beautiful, whether it is Yuehua or Shaohua, even Lin Yuqi was stunned when he saw it, he almost regretted that he and Zhongli Yujia had made a pair.

But these silver-blue eyes are not beautiful, they contain endless torture, imagine how much pain a person has to suffer to change the color of his pupils?

Yuehua was stunned, caressing my eyes, looking at the deep silver blue, she was intoxicated, but her heart was broken.

The experience of killing that monster and swallowing that egg was actually my greatest torture, and I was in a very happy mood at that time, because I finally had the strength, and even my expression was full of excitement, but how many people knew about the bitterness in my heart?

Can't I see the cry in the monster's eyes? I don't realize the greatness of motherhood, and I beg me not to hurt its child......

No, I saw it all, but I had to harden my heart, or ......

Maybe because of this, many people have scolded me, saying that I am cruel to the point of disgusting, but please think about what would happen if I didn't do that? I would have died at the hands of Yuwen, tortured to death by him all the time, or killed without resistance after he found the wormhole!

If I don't do that, I won't be able to return to the surface world in my life, I won't be able to see Yuehua and Wang Na again, and I won't be able to solve the chaos in the surface world, I won't be able to kill Ximen Ruofeng, and I won't be able to force Xuanyuan Ningzhi to close that door.

Instead, it's Yuwen who comes back, and he's going to destroy everything in the watch world at once!!

This is the reason why I abandon kindness, I just want to live, I want to see my relatives whose life and death are unknown, and I want to protect the most precious home in my heart.

When I killed that monster, when I threw myself into the egg liquid and tried to devour it, my heart also hurt, but those who rebuked me, touched their hearts and asked themselves, while they pity the monster, they are tantamount to saying to me: Li Yang, you die, let Yuwen live, let Yuwen destroy the whole world.

It's ridiculous......

Yuehua's hand wrapped around me again, her hands were trembling, her heart was trembling, she still couldn't forgive me for my betrayal, because it was like a thorn that pierced deep into a woman's heart, and she couldn't imagine that I would do that kind of thing with another woman, she would go crazy.

But at the same time, she realized the bitterness in my heart, the reason why I had to vent, and she forgave me? No, not forgive, she just understood my suffering.

But Yuehua had to think that she had waited for me for eighteen years, but she had at least Wang Na to accompany her in the past eighteen years, her sister to rely on, and those friends to help express her grief.

What about me? With me is Yuwen, the never-ending torture day after day......

Yuehua's heart was so bitter that she couldn't help but start kissing me, and even wanted to go crazy with me immediately to wash away the smell of other women on me, but I held her little hand and stopped it temporarily.

Because, now is the beginning of the real confession, before it was just complaining, now is the moment for me to tell her the decision in her heart!

I'm going to kill, constantly, brutally to the extreme, it's not venting, it's something I decided to do!

"Why?" Yuehua was stunned.

"Because the world is in chaos, goodness can no longer be saved, and there must be a person who turns into a demon and washes everything and burns everything with the fire of hell!"

"Chu Tian can't do it, so in the past eighteen years, he has done nothing like an idiot......" I said hatefully.

Actually, I was wrong, Chutian didn't do nothing.

Yuehua told me that Chu Tian was unable to fight against all the Seven Imperial Envoys at first, he practiced hard in the Himalayas like a madman, and the first decisive battle with the Seven Imperial Envoys, he was defeated and fled back scarred, because ......

Not all of the Seven Imperial Envoys would confront Chu Tian, only Gongsun Qi Shi, Helian Lijin, Ximen Ruofeng, and a crazy killing Xiahou Yanyun! But how many of their subordinates did they have? That time, each of them brought nearly a thousand of their most elite grays.

On that day, Chu Tianyi vs four thousand!

He was completely defeated and almost didn't survive, but he still didn't give up, he was still fighting, until the second, third, fourth, and countless times, he finally trampled Xiahou Yanyun under his feet.

But that was the real beginning of the tragedy, Xiahou Yanyun shouted and told him that if Chu Tian dared to mess around, he would slaughter the city, even the country, and even turn the human race of the whole world into corpse demons!

Even, that day, Xiahou Yanyun and Ximen Ruofeng arrested tens of thousands of innocent humans and forced them to kneel on the streets of Chicago, as long as Chu Tian dared to make a move, all those innocents would be killed instantly.

Chu Tian was stunned, and as a result, he was defeated again......

"I know!" I nodded, in fact, from the time I stepped into the world of the table, saw the collapse, and saw that Chu Tian still hadn't solved the gray, I had already thought of the reason.

This idiot, although he is invincible, still wants to stick to the goodness in his heart, and is still unwilling to give up the sentence of relying only on good and evil, and still does not want to hurt the innocent.

But in doing so, he is fueling the arrogance of the enemy, so that this chaos will never end.

What about me? I used to be the same as Chutian, and even I was more naïve than him, and I wanted to stick to my heart more, but one of us had to give up this idea, and one of us had to go to hell.

"I'll come, since he can't do it, then let me do it, through Yuwen's torture of me, through my heart that has become cold and cruel. I sighed, and that was my real decision.

Yuehua didn't answer, just hugged me tightly, tears flowed involuntarily, she knew that I didn't want to become like this, but had to change, like I said, kindness can't save the world anymore.

That day, when I stepped out of the box, Chu Tian had already returned, grabbed me, wanted to have a good chat with me, wanted to ask me why I became like this, but I coldly shook off his hand.

"I have nothing to talk to you about, idiot, a fool who has done nothing for eighteen years, I don't need you in the future, I'll just come!" I said solemnly, Chu Tian was dumbfounded.

"Why, Li Yang, why don't you tell Chu Tian about this idea?" When I was in the box, Yuehua asked me in tears.

"Because he's my brother, the best...... So the two of us, as long as one person abandons kindness, it is enough, and at the same time, the two of us must have an ideal that adheres to the past. I said.

"Dad, how did you become like this!" Wang Na cried, she couldn't accept it, but I didn't pay attention to her crying, and just coldly pushed her aside.

"You don't even want to tell Wang Na?" Yuehua also asked.

"Well, I've been teaching her how to be a good person, and I've spent so much effort on this, so I can't teach her how to be a jerk anymore. ”

"I was the one who lifted her up to heaven and made her like an angel, so I can't drag her to hell anymore......" I said.

Yuehua cried, she knew how painful it was the moment when I made up my mind, and she also knew that what I would face in the future would be......

"If you want to be redeemed, you must first turn your back on goodness, and even turn your back on the whole world, and that's what that guy taught me, my teacher. I sighed faintly.

I still see him as a teacher, even though I never thought I would be on the same path as him.

However, his betrayal is only because he wants to save Shaohua, and I have a lot to save, so I have to turn my back on a lot, more and more completely than him.

At the same time, I didn't tell anyone about these thoughts, because I didn't want those friends and partners to be infamous with me and go to hell with me, and I had only one request.

"Yuehua, no matter what the result is, I just ask you to accompany me and support me forever. I pleaded, and Yuehua nodded vigorously.

"But...... If you really can't stand me, it's okay to leave, I won't blame you. I sighed again, because what I was going to do next, maybe even I couldn't stand myself, and the cruelty of the past was just pediatrics.

"No, never!" Yuehua hugged me tightly and kissed me gently to remove the tears in the corners of my eyes, and at the same time, this tear is the last time, from today onwards, I Li Yang will not cry anymore, I Li Yang will become a man without tears.

Until, I finally put an end to it all, forever and ever, whether it's gray or a necromancer......