Lei Yun'er closed her eyes in pain, and the long-suppressed tears fell rapidly with the trembling sound at the end of the sentence.

"After so many years, the handwriting in that letter is engraved in my heart like an inscription, and each one seems to weigh a thousand pounds. I finally understood why my mother's eyes were always so complicated, why she was sometimes disgusted, sometimes full of regret, because our birth had always been a mistake. ”

She said that she hated that person, hated it to the bone, he not only deprived her of the right to love someone, but also deprived her of the right to choose, after a month of confinement, the last words that the person left to her was that she was his thing, life and death were decided by him, if she sought death, her family and Confucianism would disappear from this world, and there would be no trace of what had ever existed. ”

She said that she was afraid, she didn't care about the survival of the family that had no humanity, but she couldn't let Rufeng have an accident because of her involvement, she was sorry enough for him, even if she was completely passive in this matter, she couldn't forgive herself. ”

She said that when she learned that she was pregnant, she was resolute, and the first thought that came to her mind was to abandon us without hesitation. The reason why she gave birth to us again in the end was because she felt that giving us up like this really couldn't eliminate her hatred for that person, and since he didn't even give her a chance to die, then she didn't need to suppress herself, so she chose to give birth to us for indirect revenge. ”

“...... How could she do that?"

Ye Shuangshuang was straightforward, and when she heard this, she couldn't understand Luo Xin's crazy thoughts, but after the excitement, she chose to be silent and chose to think deeply. She also has someone she loves, and she can put herself in her shoes, what would happen if it were her, if a strange man suddenly appeared and kidnapped her and conceived his child after she had made a personal agreement with Qing Lei for life.

The answer was too obvious, she wouldn't even think about being pregnant and chose to die, but what if this person endangered the family and Qinglei? A huge sense of powerlessness swept into her heart.

"But from what you just said, your mother didn't do what she wanted. Mo Qing recalled.

Lei Yun'er shook her head and replied, "Indeed, she said that at the moment of giving birth to us, she was confused, looking at our immature appearance, she couldn't do it at all, she hated her own weakness, and hated her cruelty and viciousness, she was not a good mother, and she never wanted to be a good mother, at least our birth was wrong, because we were not the children she wanted." ”

"Probably out of guilt in my heart, although she did not give us complete maternal love, she also allowed us to grow up healthily, taught us to read and write, and taught us to treat people and things. Maybe she is more like a teacher than her mother, until she enters the Thunder God Temple, her mother's identity is infinitely magnified by her, she will bow her head for us, she is never willing to bow her head, and even would rather kneel and beg those guards, but also beg for us some pills without pills, and will hum the songs she never hums in front of us when Yue'er has nightmares, but she will never think that she will take care of her beloved daughter in every way when she is in trouble, and eventually become the murderer who strangled her only life. ”

Speaking of this, Lei Yun'er's expression turned to grief again, and her body trembled, "I can't forget that look full of sadness and pity, and I can't believe what I did, and I can't even explain it after it happened, and when I woke up from a daze, my sister and I have been pushed out of the room, and half a day later, we learned of my mother's death, and that look has become a farewell scene between us and our mother, and it has become an imprint that can never be washed away in our hearts." ”

"At that time, my sister had been under the protection of her mother and me, her mind was simpler than anyone else's, and she was more frightened than anyone else, and her mother's death had given her such a great shock that she was completely at a loss, and she did not even see the letters left by her mother. ”

"After reading the 'suicide note' written by my mother, I was extremely painful and at the same time had a buried question, why did my mother hate that person so much, what did he do as a father, why he took my mother back from the hands of Confucianism but gave her such a painful life, I tried my best to find the answer to this question, so I did the most wrong but most correct thing in my life, leaving my sister to find Lei Gan. ”

"I don't know where I got the courage to get it, but when I came to the gate of the main temple and before I entered, I heard words that were not my own, but definitely from his mouth. The two elders, who had just come out of the main hall, spoke of my mother's death with a sarcasm that I could not understand, and every word that came out of my voice was like a claw tearing my nerves, suffocating me to the point of suffocation. ”

......

"That Luo's singer is finally dead, but it's really thanks to her that she can persevere, does she think that her persistence can make the palace take the initiative?"

"Huh...... Didn't you see that the hall master didn't even have the slightest fluctuation when he got the news? The rumor actually said that the hall master loved her deeply, and I think that eighty percent of it was just a tool for the hall master to vent his loneliness casually when he was on a mission, otherwise why didn't the hall master want to see her once in three years since he took her back? He didn't even look at her when she died. It's just a little unclear that such a woman can just let herself die outside, why should she bring it back and let the people know?

"What reputation, you don't know the character of the hall master, his domineering and arbitrariness is stronger than the old hall master, I heard that this woman was wearing red makeup when she came back, and she thought she was going to get married, the hall master has such a character, do you think he will let the people he once owned and outsiders tie their hair? Even if he dies, he must die in the Thunder God Temple, the sect master's words back then shocked many clans who were dissatisfied with him. ”

"That's right, there's another thing I still don't understand, when the hall master went out, the martial arts had reached the middle level of the Holy Realm, it stands to reason that as long as he doesn't want to, it shouldn't be possible to make this singer pregnant, how can he ......"

"Ahem...... You guy is really gossiping, the hall master is young and vigorous, a slight mistake is inevitable, in short, you don't need to think about it, didn't you ask the two wild girls about the future just now?

"Ignore it. ”

"You see, the hall master doesn't take them to heart at all, but it is better to say that they are two stains in the hall master's life, as soon as they see the two of them, those diehards will talk about the singer's affairs, and want me to say that the hall master wishes that they would die with her mother, so that they will not escape from his possession, and they will not become his stains, which can be described as the best of both worlds. ”

"What the eldest brother said is very true, no wonder the hall master felt a sense of disgust when he mentioned them, now think about it, Young Master Renault is talented and intelligent, and his mind is extremely high, how can the hall master still have the heart to pay attention to these two wild species. ”

"Phew, be quiet, this is the main hall, the hall master is still inside, be careful if you are too careful to be criticized by the villain. ”

"Shhh ”

"Let's go!"

"Yes. ”

......

Perhaps this conversation left a particularly deep impression on Lei Yun'er, she actually showed this memory to the three of them in the way of spiritual mapping, and the memory was mapped here, Lei Yun'er gathered her mental power and said bitterly, "Since then, I have never taken the initiative to find that person, because the answers I want to know have all been clear, he is not worthy of being my father, and I don't need him, but what I never expected was that at the same time that I was disappointed, another thing happened that made me miserable to this day." ”

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