"Ah——!h

"Don't come, don't come!"

Zidi fled in confusion.

And the needle gold chased the girl closely.

"I'm so hungry, I'm so hungry!" Needle Gold completely transformed into a silver spear scorpion, already defeated by hunger, and his mind was full of thoughts of eating.

Zidi is finally forced to the bottom of the cave and tripped over a stone and falls to the ground.

Needlegold pounced on her with a fierce pounce, and the huge chelicerae and sharp scorpion tail unleashed fiercely.

Poof.

Zidi was dismembered in an instant, and blood splattered, staining the bottom of the cave and the entire vision of the needle gold.

The next moment, Needle Gold opened his eyes suddenly.

He saw the dark night sky.

He gasped for breath, the cold air poured into his chest and lungs, his pupils gradually dilated to their normal size, and his mood gradually calmed down.

Nightmare.

He had a nightmare.

In this nightmare, he turned into a spear scorpion and attacked Zidi, using the girl as food to feed her hunger.

Needle Gold sat up quietly.

He broke out in a cold sweat.

Looking around, Zidi was sleeping next to him, and White Bud and Cyanobacteria were lying not far away.

After hearing Cangsu's words, Needle Gold knocked the blue-green algae unconscious and placed it in place.

As for the beard, he was in charge of keeping watch for the second half of the night.

The campfire was still burning quietly, half the size of the flame, but still providing warmth.

The firelight shone on the face of the needle, and the young knight's expression seemed uncertain.

"Why do I have such nightmares?"

"Is it because I've been worried and scared of this magic crystal in my heart?"

This is a very normal psychological reaction.

Imagine that a normal person suddenly grows horns, or gives birth to a tail, or has a bulging tumor on his skin, can he not be worried and afraid?

No one has a magic core, but the needle gold has grown one.

And this magic core is very mysterious, weird and powerful, which can turn needle gold into monsters and absorb the blood of living beings.

"I can't use my fighting spirit, and when I'm in danger, I can only use it. ”

"Alas...... If you can not use it in the future, try not to use it. ”

"Who knows what the serious consequences will be?"

Needle gold subconsciously touched his heart.

He feared that if he misused the core, he would one day turn into a beast and monster, never to be human again.

Needle Jin felt that this magic crystal had begun to seduce him, tempting him to slaughter the common people and sacrifice the innocent to gain greater strength and power.

"On the other hand, I'm afraid of becoming a spirulina. Needle Gold glanced at the cyanobacteria in the distance.

From the bottom of his heart, he can understand cyanobacteria.

And this understanding is very profound.

Because needle gold once faced the same choice as spirulina.

Hunger can drive people crazy, hunger can make needle gold turn into a spear scorpion to steal golden granite, it can make Zidi feel that the cooled lava is like baked chocolate bread, and it can make Cang Xu want to eat a handful of sand. They can not let go of anything they can eat, and they can feel that jerboa meat and lizard meat are supreme delicious.

In addition to understanding, there is also fear and fear in the heart of Needle Jin.

"If I had chosen to use white buds as food, would the current state of spirulina be my fate?"

"Although Bai Ya is not my own brother, I will always be tortured and tortured by the kindness, morality, and knightly glory in my heart. ”

"I'm going to be like spirulina and I'm better off than dead!"

The heart of the needle gold is very heavy.

Because he naturally thought, "Am I going to be like this in the future?"

When returning to the volcanic cavern and picking up the white buds, the young knight told himself that I had not fallen.

However, he knew very well: he had many ideas. The selfishness, evil, shamelessness, and meanness in those thoughts make it almost impossible for Needle Gold to face himself afterwards.

In addition to understanding, fear, and heaviness, Needle Gold has a spontaneous pity for spirulina algae.

"In order to survive, he became a beast. ”

"He killed his own brother. ”

Afterwards, he came back to this oasis. Such an arrangement is simply a trick and mockery of fate. ”

"Cyanobacteria regret it, maybe they found the oasis earlier, maybe they persevered a little longer, and the yellow algae would not have died. ”

Extreme remorse made him unable to believe the death of Huang Zao, and desperately vetoed the fact that he had killed his own brother. ”

Even if he is visually normal, he firmly believes that the yellow algae is still alive and there is hope of being saved. ”

"He lied to himself, to himself as best he could. He fell into his own fantasies, and only in this way could he escape the condemnation of conscience and the torture of morality. ”

"This oasis is real, but he has fallen into his own mirage. ”

"But it's all just fantasy after all. ”

"Our appearance and attitude have punctured the bubble of illusion, and the ruthless reality and truth are once again in front of the eyes of Spirulina. ”

And this time, he no longer had a way to avoid it, there was no way to lie to himself. ”

"As Cangsu said before, those who survive in the desert will collapse because of a mirage. This is exactly the case with cyanobacteria, and the situation is even worse. ”

Frankly speaking, if Needle Gold hadn't experienced life and death, he would have repented, disgusted, and hated the current blue-green algae, and would probably have taken Zidi's advice.

However, after experiencing so much personally, the young knight's body and mind have changed dramatically.

"He's our companion, and I've said I'm going to do everything I can to save everyone, so I'm going to help him. "This is the decision that Needle Gold made after facing two very different suggestions from Cang Whisker and Zi Di around the campfire.

Then, he got up and brought half a bowl of coconut water and barbecued jerky to Spirulina.

The cyanobacteria did not react at all, still staring blankly at the yellow algae corpse.

In the end, the needle gold was only able to stun the cyanobacteria.

Why did you make the decision to help spirulina?

Needle Gold also thought it strange at the time.

But now, he kind of understood: "Maybe it's because of a desire in my heart." I hope that one day, if I fall into the situation of cyanobacteria, I also hope that someone outside can help me. ”

But it was clear to him that he couldn't really help the spirulina.

The problem with cyanobacteria is not on the outside, but on the inside.

Even the needle gold is skeptical, and he is asking himself whether people like spirulina should help.

Human society has ethics and morals, so the ethics and morals of the Templars must be higher than the standards of the general public. Such behavior of spirulina is undoubtedly anti-moral and anti-ethical.

"Isn't it right for me to save people like Spirulina?"

"Did I save him because I saw myself in him?"

"Am I making excuses for my possible depravity?"

At this moment, looking at the swaying flames, Needle Gold felt that he was hesitating and shaking.

He initially controlled the magic crystal in his heart and became very powerful. He had plenty of food and water and was able to get out of the crisis.

But the young knight felt weak.

He asked himself in his heart.

"What kind of person am I?"

"I'm afraid of death, can I continue to live up to the spirit of chivalry, can I take on the responsibilities of my family?"

"Am I a selfish person?"

"If I fall into the situation I was in before the spirulina, how do I choose?"

"If I choose not to eat it, then I will lose my life and I will not be able to walk to the oasis. If I choose to eat, then I will live rather than die. ”

"Which choice is the right one?"

Needle Gold bravely faced himself, and he did not use the core of his heart as an excuse to escape from his true self.

Needle Gold couldn't answer his own question.

Every time he thinks, every time he faces these problems, every time he tortures his soul, he loses part of the strong self-confidence he had before, and then part of it.

Needle Jin knew very well in his heart: when he saved Bai Ya, he said to himself that he had not fallen. It's really just a knee-jerk denial. Who doesn't want to be brave, who doesn't want light, who doesn't want to be upright and free from any moral deficits?

"However, the words of the beard...... It does not make sense. ”

Needle gold in real thinking.

This kind of thinking, forcing oneself to face the ugliness and darkness of the deepest part of one's human nature, is undoubtedly very painful.

Confidence in himself is lost, and Needlegold is in deep self-doubt at the same time.

Beside the campfire in the middle of the night, the knight boy quietly got up and half-knelt on the ground.

He lowered his head, covered his heart with his hand, faced the direction of the Shengming Continent, and began to repent.

"God, Emperor Shengming, my great Lord. Under Your gaze, the world is bright, and the shadows are fleeing in a hurry. Now, Thy believers, thy knights, confess to Thee because I have fallen into the mire of my soul. Enlighten me with your Spirit and fade away my shadow of corruption, ugliness, filth, and filth. I beseech You to forgive me for my sins in my mind and mind......"

The long confession is over.

A gentle night breeze blew in the ears of the young knight.

Everything was expected from the needle - the gods did not respond.

The boy sighed.

Purple Ty slept soundly.

The white bud lay flat in the grass, while the cyanobacteria curled up and lay on their side on the ground, like a shrimp.

Both of them frowned and looked pained—both of them struggling.

Time passed, the night faded and the sun rose, casting a scorching glow.

As for countless days and nights before it, nature still operates in the same way.

Any feelings of distress, sadness, pain, confusion, etc., seem to be hypocritical in this vast nature.

The heavens and the earth are big, and life is the biggest.

Wealth, power, beauty, honor, must be preceded by food and water.

No matter how painful, confused, or sad, life still has to go on.