Chapter 45: The Kind Bai Yuhan
"Teacher Song, Teacher Song, woo...... Teacher Song," Bai Yuhan muttered.
"Yuhan, Teacher Song is here, don't cry. “
Song Ze looked at his student distressedly, the student who was once so well-behaved and sensible, but now he was covered in blood, his face was full of tears, and only a phantom remained.
"Teacher Song, can you hear me?" Teacher Song, Teacher Song, Teacher Song......"
Bai Yuhan suddenly became excited from the muttering alone just now, stood up and reached out to pull Song Ze's sleeve. The hand passed through the sleeve in vain, and Bai Yuhan, who was only a phantom, couldn't touch Song Ze's sleeve at all.
Bai Yuhan squatted down again, hugged his knees and cried.
Song Ze took Qingqing's hand and squatted down, facing Bai Yuhan. Blood flowed from Bai Yuhan's mouth and nose, but Song Ze didn't feel fear at all. There is only sympathy for what happened to his own students, anger for the irresponsible man.
"Yuhan, don't cry. The teacher can hear you and see you, and if you have any grievances, tell the teacher, and the teacher will help you. ”
Bai Yuhan raised his head when he heard this, and wanted to hug Song Ze's arm with both hands. Thinking of what happened just now, I put it down sadly.
"Teacher Song, I don't have any grievances, everything is my own fault. Ever since I jumped off the building, I don't know why, I've been staying here.
I only feel sorry for Mr. Song, and I am sorry for Mr. Song's usual love for me. I'm also sorry Lin Yu, my willfulness must have caused him a lot of harm. ”
A girl who was deceived and died by an irresponsible bad man, after she jumped off a building in desperation, did not have a grudge against anyone, but worried that her death would hurt someone else. Even the mentor who usually tutors her is full of gratitude.
Such a simple and kind girl, who hurt her so much......
"Yuhan, don't feel sorry for any of us, you're not wrong. Even if you are wrong, you are already ...... now" Song Ze choked up and couldn't continue.
"Teacher Song, I really don't blame anyone. After I died, I stayed under this tree and thought a lot. At first, I would resent the man who lied to me, but when I think that he is the only person in this world who makes me feel loved, even though he lied to me, I don't blame him.
Since I was a child, my parents told me to study hard. If they don't study well, they will be embarrassed in front of their colleagues at school. I have always been very obedient and obedient, and I have always been able to get the first place in my class. Mom and Dad were happy, but they didn't praise me for anything.
Once, during an exam, I caught a cold and didn't do well, and I only finished fourth in my class. Dad didn't know who I was talking to, but the reason why I didn't do well was because I had a young love with another boy in the class. So they put me in my room and beat me with a stick.
Later, I was beaten until I vomited blood, and then they took me to the hospital. Since then, I have been studying hard and hard, not making friends with anyone. Every time I went back with the first place in the class, my parents just nodded slightly.
Every time I see my parents hugging my younger brother and calling "heart baby", I am always envious. As long as he can get a good score in a single subject, his parents will laugh happily and say "baby son, you are awesome, what reward do you want?".
I don't know what is the difference between me and my younger brother, why I didn't get a reward for winning the first place? Why did my father beat me half to death when I was rumored? Why did my brother get the love and reward of his parents just because he was okay in the exam?
I don't know why. Once I asked my mother, why is it different for me and my brother, and my mother said that what is the use of my daughter, and she will not be able to provide for me in the future. At that time, I found out that my daughter wanted to kill it, but my body didn't allow it.
What's the use of me being good to you, my son can provide for me in old age. If it weren't for our scholarly family, we would have given you away a long time ago. If you study hard and can give me a long face, I will let you study.
If you don't study well, don't expect me to pay you to study. I said, Mom, I will raise you in the future. My mother glanced at me and said, "What's the use of relying on you, relying on you, you are not my son."
Once, I overheard my mom and dad talking in the study. The mother said to the father that it would cost so much money to raise a daughter, and to provide her with education, how good it would be to leave this money for her son. At that time, your mother said to throw it into the river, but you still refused.
Dad said that she took the first place in the exam, and if she didn't study, what would others think of us. You think I don't want to drown her, but I'm the headmaster of the school, and if I do, where will I put my face? It's not that you complain that your own body is not angry, and you can't just beat it in your stomach.
Since then, I have known that I am not as honored as my father and mother's son. I only have myself, and if I don't work hard, then there will be no scum left.
I told myself that I didn't need love, I just had to study hard. But I didn't expect that I was so vulnerable, just some sweet words, some pretended respect, and pretended love, which made me hand myself over, and in the end I fell into a situation from which I could never recover.
During that time, I was really happy because someone loved me and made me feel what it was like to be loved, and he said that he would form a happy family with me...... So I don't blame him, even if it's all fake......"
When Song Ze heard this, he couldn't hold back any longer. A big man with tears in his eyes. The mouth is bitter, and the sadness is speechless.
Qingqing shook Song Ze's hand, and tears flowed down. wanted to say something to Song Ze, but he choked up and couldn't speak, so he secretly turned around and wiped his tears with his hand.
Maybe it was because she heard Teacher Song say that she was not wrong, Bai Yuhan finally let go of the burden in her heart. calmly told Song Ze about her past, which had been pressed in her heart for many years, and finally made her embark on the road of no return.
"Teacher Song, these days, I have been calling you, I hope you can hear my apology. Lin Yu hasn't been showing up these days, and I know that my death must have hurt him.
I hope you can convey my apologies to Lin Yu and let him cheer up and live well. Tell him that I was cranky about what happened that night, and told him not to take it to heart and put pressure on himself.
Teacher Song, thank you, thank you. If there is an afterlife, I don't want to be a woman anymore, I'm so tired, so tired......"
Bai Yuhan slowly closed his eyes, a drop of blood and tears flowed from his eyes, and his figure slowly blurred, brightened, and disappeared into the air.
Qingqing lay on Song Ze's shoulder and sobbed in a low voice, and Song Ze couldn't breathe in pain. Bai Yuhan's obsession disappeared, and so did her. Maybe until the moment she disappeared, she didn't know what obsession made her stay for so many days.
But Qingqing and Song Ze heard the obsession in Bai Yuhan's heart, she was just a poor girl who lacked love and longed to love and be loved. She doesn't know why her parents don't love her, and she doesn't know why someone would cheat her with love. Although in the end, no one really loved her.
Her desire to be loved has never changed. She just disguised herself with a shell that didn't care if she was loved, but she was shattered by a light touch, and the person still had the purpose of deception in the first place.
If Lin Yu had expressed the love in her heart at the beginning, instead of silently unrequited love, would the result be different? Such a girl who longs to love and be loved, wants to love but is afraid of love, only fiery love can open her heart.
In the end, Bai Yuhan, who did not get true love and affection, left the softness in her heart to others, hoping that the people around her could live happily......