[You are my most bitter waiting, which makes me happy and afraid of the future. 】

"Crying Sand" is an old song, but it is indeed the first time he has heard it. For some reason, this song suddenly hit a certain place in his heart, which made him feel that the song performed by Zhang Huimei was beautiful.

That's right, all the memories were completed, and on that day, I had already asked her: "Do you have a boyfriend?"

She has also answered: "What college graduate doesn't have it?" ”

What was my mood at the time? If you look back and think about it carefully, you weren't really in the mood at all. It's just a new colleague who has just met and just met, and I can't talk about friendship. It's just a casual chatter to ask, and it's not surprising to get this result, so it's quickly thrown to the back of your mind. There seems to be a little bit of regret in it, but it is not visible.

Now that I think about it, I'm a jerk.

In the material world, "Crying Sand" has not yet entered the chorus, but Yang Qi's fingers rotate flexibly, and the tune naturally shifts to the tune of another song.

[Open the window to let the loneliness breathe, this room is so airtight.] 】

[The cheers are still floating in the air, as gorgeous as the emptiness.] 】

At that time, Yang Qi was just like every young person who came to work hard in a big city with no relatives, far away from his hometown, away from his classmates, and far away from the familiar, surrounded by lingering loneliness. At night, standing on the balcony and looking at the night view of the city, looking at the flickering lights far and near, I can only feel my own insignificance.

In this loneliness, he was instinctively attracted by a bright smile. In the beginning, they were indeed friends. Just a friend, at least that's what he thinks.

As a man who knows how to listen, knows how to tolerate, and looks mature and atmospheric. Yang Qi has had many friends since he was a child. There are both boys and girls. He can always perfectly grasp the distance with friends of the opposite sex, cordial, but never off the line, never play**. In terms of dealing with friend relationships, he is already very mature, he believes that he can do well, and he firmly believes that he and Qi Xi are just friends.

Friends of the opposite sex, nothing is too bad. It's very common, and I'll do it.

So, although the two began a period of inseparability, he kept his position. There was no physical touch, no jokes that touched the minefield, no ambiguous conversations, he never did these things. He will only listen, complain, and give advice.

Listening to her and her boyfriend's sweet past, knowing that she is her boyfriend's school sister, the two have been dating for three years, and her boyfriend graduated a year ago. Went to Shanghai. Speaking of which, it's a different place. But the boyfriend is very nice. "You are very similar to him in this aspect, you are very serious about your feelings, and you never mess around. So, I'm quite relieved of him. ”

The relationship is very good, yes, how many people in other places will be envious, jealous and hateful.

When will you get married?

"I don't know, I've mentioned it a few times, but he always said that the time is not ripe, wait a few more years - you say, it won't be so yellow, right?"

Boyfriend hasn't acted for a long time, you won't be disliked, and being in a different place is a prelude to a breakup!

All of these are very common topics, and there is no part that crosses the line.

[I gradually lost consciousness, and I regarded it as a kind of self-escape. 】

[You fly to the edge of the sky, and I don't guess where you landed. 】

However, things began to change gradually. Looking back at those orange memories, indeed, I don't know when it began, perhaps from that bicycle incident, and some other things began to be mixed in with friendship. Perhaps the seeds were planted at the beginning, but they sprouted in the wind and rain one day.

When he can't see her, he's lost. He said to himself, so did his friend, and shook his head and smiled.

He would be sour when he saw her talking and laughing with her new friend. He said to himself, I really have a problem, what's so sour, but he shook his head and smiled.

In the time he got along every day, he gradually realized that things were different. But he was still saying to himself, it's not a big deal, maybe it's just a better friend, just a friend.

He began to lie in bed at night and search for information about the horoscopes he never believed, and he began to pay attention to the character of the Leo Girl, and when he saw the results, he felt congested. But he said to himself, I'm obviously a Gemini, but it's completely different from what is written on the Internet, so it's a lie at all. Haha, I'm really wrong!

He still kept convincing himself that it was all a delusion.

Until, the day when many people go to the swimming pool together. On that day, I fell into the water, opened my eyes, looked at each other, got out of the water, and dispersed after a while of playing. When he returned to the dormitory, his smile faded from joy, but he locked himself in a dark room. Tick, tick, the sound of the clock made his thoughts more straightforward and cruel, and he grabbed his hair and said to himself with a little pain: "No, it can't be, it's an illusion." Just friends, we're just friends. ”

Just a friend, just a friend, keep telling yourself to abide by the duty of a friend.

As long as you are just a friend, there will be no problem and you will be able to continue.

At this time, the most sensible thing to do is to leave immediately. But at this time, it is like drinking a donkey to quench your thirst, and the wine is poisonous, but why is it inseparable?

But in the end, you still can't deceive yourself.

In December, at the beginning of the month, a dinner. During the meal, her boyfriend called, and the two began to cook porridge. Seeing her smile, hearing her happy words, and feeling the light of happiness, Yang Qi only felt that his heart was threaking fiercely. That night, Yang Qi ran away like a desert, but did not go back to the bedroom, but wore slippers and ran to the road below.

[If the cloud knows, he can't escape the prison of entanglement. 】

[Every time the heartache is one more second, each time it is entangled, it is a second. 】

[Only left, the heart is burning. 】

You, no, know. 】

He started running, he didn't know why he was running, but he just started running. Just barefoot and wearing slippers, in the cold wind, running wildly. Kilometer after kilometer. Farther and farther away. The surroundings are getting stranger and stranger. My feet hurt. But he couldn't stop him. He just wanted to exhaust himself, let himself have no time to take care of himself, and let himself calm down in this cold wind. After coming to his senses, sue himself - just friends.

But......

"I'm going to TM friends!" the boy gasped as he scurried away as he tore the clothes off his chest, exposing his heart to heaven and earth. He yelled at himself, "Don't be a bully! Friends are not like this, friends are not concerned like this." Friends are not jealous like this, friends are not like this at all! I, I, I ......."

He suddenly stopped, held his head in pain, bent down, shook his head and convulsed hard: "I'm a bastard, I already have a boyfriend, I'm a bastard......" He finally got up suddenly, and shouted at the apartment building in the distance, without any image: "I'm in love! I'm in love for the first time! I believe that love is not an illusion! I'm really tempted! But, I've become a damn bastard! My Yang Qi's first love. It made me a junior?hahahahaha

A loud roar, blown away by the wind. After the roar. The boy stood there silently for most of the night. He stood as a log and a stone. In the cold wind, he instinctively shivered, and his skin was red from the cold, but it was no more painful than in his heart.

No, it can't go on like this.

In this way, it is not right.

In the middle of the night, he made a decision, a very rational decision......

In the real world, Yang Qi's playing fingers stopped. He heard a voice in his ears, so he raised his eyes and looked at the gate, and sure enough, the door was pushed open. Two panting women appeared there, both looking at this side. One is my aunt Yang Shu, and the other is a stupid dream.

If there was anyone I could rely on and confide in during that time that was driving me crazy, it was only her. When the heart moves, the hands move, a familiar melody begins to steady the output, and the Chinese bewildered musicians look at each other, and finally start playing in cooperation.

Yang Qi finally looked at that position. Qi Xi, your expression is so complicated, however, you don't know everything. That year, the story of you and me, what you saw in your eyes was just a small piece floating on the water.

It's a lot of things you don't know.

[Butterflies blink a few times before they learn to fly.] The night sky is sprinkled with stars, and a few of them will hit the ground. 】

You don't know, that cold night, the boy called Da Meng and went to her bedroom.

You don't know what kind of mood the boy was in when he showed a reluctant smile to Da Meng, and said in a dry voice that he would break up and say that he would never see him again.

But that night, Da Meng's appearance was also remembered by himself.

That day, the two sat together on the sofa. When Da Meng heard the words of breaking off friendship, he didn't panic, but said softly: "Why?"

The boy was also silent for a long time, and after taking a deep breath, he said calmly: "Because, I suddenly found that I fell in love with Nerd Xi." ”

Da Meng was silent for a long time when he heard this, and he was silent for a long, long time, and finally shook his head and asked the same three words: "Why?"

"Why ......" the boy was a little stunned, because there were so many aspects of the second why he could ask. Is it asking why she likes Nerd Xi, or is it something else? Her tone was so heavy, and there was some deep unwillingness, that the boy didn't know what he was asking.

Da Meng shook his head and exhaled, and finally explained, "Why do you want to break up your relationship?

"Yes. The boy admitted: "Some people may say that if you are not married, you will rob it, and it is nothing." However, if you like someone, don't spoil her happiness. She and her boyfriend are so good, I must not provoke her. So, I thought, it's better not to see each other again. And you, Da Meng, you were affected by the pond fish. It's just that the two of you are inseparable, and I'm afraid it's not convenient for us to meet again. I thought, I should do it, I have to do it, so ......"

"No, no, not at all! You're too arbitrary, you're too self-righteous, you're too self-conscious!" Da Meng was rarely excited, she approached, and shouted a little out of control: "What do you think feelings are? If you want to draw away, you can draw away? You can draw a distance from people, but can you draw a happy thought! Do you think it's good to leave? I sue you, you alone don't count! You ...... you?"

She stared at Yang Qi with big eyes, as if she was a little fluorescent. She bit her lower lip and trembled in her voice: "What about yourself? What about yourself? The feeling of staying away on your own is very uncomfortable, very uncomfortable, believe me." ”

"I ......" the boy looked at Da Meng, but after a while, he finally pursed the corners of his mouth and said heavily: "Help me keep it secret, I have to try." ”

So, in that winter, that December, he suddenly disappeared. And Da Meng really kept his promise and didn't say it to anyone.

He no longer went to take the shuttle, no longer went to eat, he began to work overtime desperately, even if he was invited by Nerd Xi, he found various reasons to avoid it.

In winter, the haze fills the air, and the familiar road is no longer glamorous and dreamy, and he walks through it alone every day.

He started watching a lot of anime, playing games, he started reading recipes, improving his cooking skills, he started trying to socialize with other girls, and he started trying to distract himself.

But a qiē is really not easy.

Reason told him that he has a lot of work now, and he must ensure sleep every day, but he just can't sleep.

Reason told him that he was very active now, and he had to eat well every day, but he just couldn't eat.

Reason told him, this world is very exciting, very rich, and there are many beautiful girls, and there are many ways to relieve stress. But he couldn't find a way out, and he began to talk to himself. Every time he walked back from work, he would always talk to himself when he walked in the cold wind.

He ridiculed himself as a second goods, and he angrily denounced himself as an SB. He said that he was not promising, and he couldn't see any trivial things, and he said that he actually had a very poor vision, and if he thought about it carefully, he didn't find anything good about the nerd, right?

Walk all the way, talk to yourself all the way. He knew that in the eyes of outsiders, such behavior would be simply insane. But he couldn't help it, and he had to say a lot of things to himself.

Reason, emotion, morality, are in constant conflict, and belligerence is played out every day.

Reason said: She has a boyfriend, and the result is - either leave or poach.

Emotions say: I don't want to leave.

Morality says: I can't poach.

Perhaps, the relationship between boyfriend and girlfriend is not marriage, and intervention on the way cannot be defined as a third party.

However, if you think about it carefully, the boyfriend of the nerd Xi, the person who has never shown up but has abused himself all over his body, he is innocent! The boy is willing to believe and maintain the purity and beauty of love wholeheartedly. Comparing hearts to hearts, if he is working hard to manage a long-distance relationship with his girlfriend, wouldn't this kind of poaching be too fucked up and too lacking in morality?

It's like a computer stuck in a contradictory program, and after hitting the enter key, no matter how many times it calculates, it will never be free. As Da Meng said, although people are gone, their hearts are more entangled. In just fifteen days, he lost fifteen pounds. From a well-proportioned and sturdy handsome young man, he has become sunken and haggard.

Until the end of December, on the fifteenth day, the nerd Xi came to the door. At the moment when Nerd Xi sent the milk, the moment he came into contact with the worried and distressed eyes of Da Meng, who came together, he smiled gloomily.

On that day, he talked to Da Meng for the second time, and he had to admit defeat to Da Meng.

He failed.

He still, inseparable.

At this time, Da Meng pointed him out a way out. (Want to know more exciting news about "Extraordinary Twins"?Open WeChat now, click on the "+" sign in the upper right, select Add Friends to add the official account, search for "Qidianzhongwenwang", follow the official account, and never miss every update!) (To be continued......)

PS: Today is a total of 7,000 words, which is a small compensation.