[A little impression]

Stars: I sometimes insist on some dispensable aspects.

insisted on getting thinner, insisted on practicing calligraphy, insisted on watching, and insisted on making up for sleep, but he couldn't insist on the simple and beautiful learning that high school could insist on.

expels loneliness, but annihilates ideals. So when I'm out of nothingness, I can't let go of anything, I can't think through anything, I can't even be nothing.

I can get instant peace of mind by shopping, traveling, and aimlessly visiting Station B in exchange for instant peace of mind. This peace of mind adds up to a lot more than the peace of mind that is serious about reading a book, which is undoubtedly dangerous, even if I often go out to study on my own. If someone treats me as a top student, then there is no need for this hazy and illusory shell to exist. I need pressure. I even want to let a mountain of pressure crush me first.

Also possessing hard scale armor, the pine ball fish will become food for humans, while crocodiles will not. No matter how tenacious a person is, it is meaningless if he does not have inner strength.

I watched a drama today, the strange classmate next door, twelve and a half episodes in one breath, and waited for the evening self-study to go back to watch the finale. Frankly speaking, this love dog food with a funny label really made me want to fall in love. But I can't put myself in a long-term uneasy situation because of a momentary brain fever. The heroine has a confusion between learning and love, but I'm different, I'm already very confused just by studying. If I had to make a choice in a short period of time, the only choice for my lifestyle, I would choose to spend my time reading a few books that would be good for me, because I wanted to exalt myself from the point of view of the soul—and the prerequisite for that was to do well in the exam, and therefore I had to study. Even if some people around me occasionally say, "You are the only one who has no goal (for falling in love)", I will still use "my idol is Liu Qiangdong" as an excuse not to think about this kind of thing. I take care of myself to become stronger, fate or something, I should come and come, God's arrangement, not I was born in the countryside, not strong or weak scholar can change.

For the novels that have been suspended for two months, I simply mixed them up on the grounds of studying, but every time I lie in bed, I still have countless fantasies about the plot of the novel just like in junior high school. This is not a sealed pen, it will never be a sealed pen. When the exam is over, I will remake the previous mystery story, and I will do my best, but the premise is that I have to study hard now.

So, everything depends on learning. It's not brainwashing, it's not chicken soup, because I can't find any other way to achieve my dreams than studying. At the very least, I think learning is the most stable way to get closer to my goal.

So, I think I'm a little sorry for the book next to my phone, the work drawing, I've been reviewing it for a long time, and I haven't finished reading it yet. I think my friends will see the balance between study and play better than I do, right?

When I said these words, I felt much more comfortable. On my way to self-study, because of my complicated heart, my heart beat faster and my breathing was tense along the way, and now I have finally returned to normal.

I don't regret how much I've played, how long I've been willful, I just hope that I can face my shortcomings calmly and correct them little by little. At least, I've lost weight, I've received a lot of compliments for my handwriting, and I'm not satisfied with that, I can be in better shape, my handwriting can be better—then, it's time for me to awaken my fanatical passion for learning.

Perhaps everything I do is out of the desire to be more perfect in the eyes of the world, forgive me for being rational enough to quantify what I have experienced and what I am experiencing, to analyze how beneficial and helpful they are to me, and then to take action. Friend, if you see this miscellaneous article of grammar and logic, can you cheer me and yourself up in your heart? Isn't it also a kind of progress and growth to calm down and reflect on yourself?

Finally, I want to say a word to my textbook, 好きだよ (I like you).