It turns out that the life of an unlucky middle-aged person does not make the soul of a god numb - Shen Xi just felt that he wanted to smoke a cigarette in particular, and then picked up a thermos cup filled with warm water and wolfberries, and took a sip quietly.

"It's useless, right?" He smiled as he watched the expression on Shen Xi's face become greasy, and gave an old cadre cup with strong tea very intimately, "How can it be so simple to numb the soul." ”

Shen Xi sighed, "Life is too short. After drinking the tea in the old cadre's cup, he poured the contents of the second glass bottle into his mouth.

This time it was more weighty—it was seventy years of anguish and depression for an old man. When he was young, his parents were not in harmony, and the family was infighting. After a military disaster crossed the border, the family's floating wealth was gone, and almost all the elders were lost in the disaster. The parents passed away in the war disaster, but the bones were not cold, and even the war disaster had not completely passed, but several biological brothers fought in order to separate the family. The old man, who is not very old, gave up his pen in depression. It was decided to resist the military disaster and cross the border. However, the so-called family country Masaku, who joined the group, had little interest in defending against foreign enemies, and his troops were constantly being deployed to attack friendly forces with different ideas.

One year, three years, eight years. Finally defeated the foreign enemy, but when he became the battalion commander, he had to be ordered to attack those friendly troops. This time he finally couldn't take it anymore. led a group of his brothers in life and death to revolt, and surrendered to those friendly troops who were in tatters but dedicated to their country.

Good days are coming. However, his former allies suspected that his motives for the uprising were not pure. The endless censorship and admonitions almost wore down his spirit. After he was swept out of the army, a larger-scale and longer-lasting purge was ushered in.

Ten years of turmoil, people's hearts are broken. When he finally couldn't endure the suffering of time and decided to go back to his hometown for refuge, he found that all his relatives who were fighting for family property had died in the turmoil. And those family properties that are used to fight for have long become the property of other people's families.

None of the brothers who revolted with him survived the turmoil, and he became alone. He became a strange old man who didn't deal with people, and occasionally drank only two sips of bad wine and shed tears towards the moon.

After another ten years, the old man, who had been his boss in the Zhengshuo army, returned to his hometown to visit relatives. But he was surprised to find that the compound at home was well preserved. And the subordinates who defected to the enemy became lonely and strange old men.

"O soldiers. The old boss hugged his shoulders with tears in his eyes and cried, "What have we done in our lives!"

Seventy years of experience made Shen Xi shake for a while, he looked at the ice cave slowly, looked at the dragon's head, and sighed.

"This feeling...... It seems to work. He's eyes lit up, and without waiting for Shen Xi to agree, he directly pressed his hand on his head. "Here we go!"

He is the heart of the world. But what is the heart of the world? She herself has said that she is a recent human form. So what was it like before she had this form?

Shen Xi has always been a little curious about this question. And this time, he saw what He really looked like.

The soul also has vision. The moment He's hand just touched Shen Xi's forehead, he seemed to be suddenly in a warm white ocean. It feels a bit similar to the sea of divine power, but the real warm feeling, and the black shadows surrounding him are constantly reminding Shen Xi, this is not the place where Yu Qian soaked in the hot spring before waiting for the resurrection to read the note.

"Keep it that way. He's voice gently came into Shen Xi's ears, "Don't resist." ”

Having just experienced the confusion and hardship of others for seventy years, Shen Xi only felt that his body was extremely tired. Soaked in the warm water in this white ocean, the bones on the whole body seem to be crispy. Not to mention maintaining the status quo, Shen Xi almost felt as if he was about to fall asleep.

A green leaf suddenly appeared in front of Shen Xi. Although it is only a little emerald green, the green is soul-grabbing and the green is eye-catching.

Shen Xi's gaze unconsciously followed the leaf, watching it slowly float down from the top of his head, spin on the top of his head, and then gently and quietly fall on the black mass on Shen Xi's chest.

"Sand" is like the soft sound of leaves falling on the ground. Shen Xi suddenly felt a little cold in his chest.

The coolness lingered in his brain for a few seconds, and then it was the most intense and long-lasting pain that Shen Xi had never experienced in his life!

It was as if every nerve in the body had been thrown into a smoking oil pot, as if every cell in the body had been smashed into pulp by a hammer, as if the muscles in the body had been cut into thin strips according to the direction of the fiber bundles, as if all the bones had been thrown into the grinding pan and slowly crushed.

Shen Xi's eyes widened, and the white world seemed to have become a real ethereal existence. Even his own existence became insignificant. It hurts, it hurts, it hurts! Except for this extremely clear pain, it seems that the whole world does not exist.

Under the severe pain, Shen Xi couldn't even make a sound. The activity of the brain is completely stopped, the thinking is completely stopped, and even the shouting stop cannot be done. Nothing but excruciating pain. It was as if the attribute of severe pain had completely replaced his soul, and it was lonely and obvious in the world.

When the pain does not abate, the sensation becomes more and more pronounced, and the degree of pain does not deepen. It's just that it hurts as much as one can imagine.

"Hold on!" He seemed to notice that something was wrong, shouting as he threw more leaves from the spirit world. One by one, falling like snowflakes. After each falling leaf touched Shen Xi's soul, it cut a cloud of black gas with unmistakable accuracy. And every time he cuts, Shen Xi can re-experience this complete pain in another part.

Agnes looked at Shen Xi with a worried expression. He and He still maintained contact with each other. But Agnes keenly noticed that Shen Xi, who was still clenching his fists a little nervously just now, suddenly stopped moving completely.

Breathing, heartbeat, slight movements of the body to adjust balance, and even the micro-tremors in the joints are completely gone.

Shen Xi seemed to be transformed into a statue.

"Hold on!" He seemed to notice that something was wrong, shouting as he threw more leaves from the spirit world. One by one, falling like snowflakes. After each falling leaf touched Shen Xi's soul, it cut a cloud of black gas with unmistakable accuracy. And every time he cuts, Shen Xi can re-experience this complete pain in another part.

Agnes looked at Shen Xi with a worried expression. He and He still maintained contact with each other. But Agnes keenly noticed that Shen Xi, who was still clenching his fists a little nervously just now, suddenly stopped moving completely.

Breathing, heartbeat, slight movements of the body to adjust balance, and even the micro-tremors in the joints are completely gone.

Shen Xi seemed to be transformed into a statue.

(End of chapter)