In the morning, Gong Ximutu's face looked a little ugly. He told Banniang that he wanted to rest alone in the room and skip breakfast.

Banniang couldn't help but care. But at noon, there was still no sign of Gong Ximutu.

"Senior, senior?" she knocked on Gongxi Mutu's door and saw that there was no movement. He pushed the door open by himself, and Gongxi Mutu lay on the bed, biting a towel in his mouth, covering half of his masked face, and cold sweat broke out on his head all the time.

"Senior, what's wrong with you?" asked Banniang

"Leave me alone for a day... Don't come to the noise...", Gongxi Mutu's voice was hoarse.

Banniang was a little scared and exited the house.

Gongxi Mutu's sweat was pouring down like rain, and he stared out the window, which was just the most ordinary earthen wall.

The young Gong Ximutu is emotionally naïve, but his physical desire has gradually ignited. He also has a fiery desire for emotions like many young men, and has also heard and seen a lot of pink stories before and under the moon. One of the most common words is love, love is too precious, too beautiful...

I'm sure I'll find one of her who will be a vigorous and touching love, he told himself.

It was a bright spring day, and he met her, and she had bright eyes and a gentle voice. She was a soft-spoken girl, and that was his first impression of her. He felt that she had a beauty that made him obsessed.

She brought up a sense of ignorance in him. He gave enthusiasm and got a response from the other side, his hopes grew stronger and he became more and more excited. But how to achieve true love, he believes in the sincerity of his feelings, so as long as the other party loves him so much. He decided she was the woman.

How to prove this, he felt that first of all, the other party would not care about his situation, or would not care about everything about him, he often wrote in his love letters to her: "I am so ordinary, how can I love you, goddess." Or, "Without me, perhaps you will have true happiness." "If a man often writes such things to a woman, he must be crazy in love with this woman. But no matter how she reads these sentences, it seems that she can only read that he doesn't value her, or that this man is pessimistic, unconfident, and a failure... Behind the difference between the two modes of thinking, a tragedy is brewing.

Gong Ximutu is a man with self-confidence in his heart, and he knows that if he wants to win the other party's affection, he must prove that he is good enough. From time to time, he always told the girl about his new achievements. However, Gongximutu didn't know that many girls often don't have just one date, they will have several people at the same time, and compare them to determine the best one, and of course, many boys will do the same. And Gongxi Mutu is basically in the spare tire position among these people. From time to time, his self-proof made the girl feel too childish, and from time to time it caused her distress. Because the girl always feels that no matter how good she is, it is still Gongxi Mutu's own, and it has nothing to do with herself.

Gong Ximutu's intuition failed to detect the rift and strangeness of feelings, not to mention that at this time, he had the urge to blaspheme his beloved goddess, and at this moment, that Jiao He may help him break through the obstacles and achieve a qualitative mutation, making him more mature and closer to success, so he needs her. He felt that as long as she loved him, she would be willing to complete the union of spirit and flesh with him... And this will also open up a new world for the future of the two of them. From time to time, he would tell each other about his willingness to union. But as time passed, there seemed to be an extra layer of arrogance on her that he didn't understand. He started asking her out, but she was always refusing.

When his attitude was cold, she suddenly came to him again, and he was not happy, so she went to someone else and told him about it. It drove him crazy.

Sometimes, she would be happy to date him, but by this time Gong Ximutu had begun to question the relationship between the two, and he felt that it seemed to be more out of satisfaction than love. She seemed to care more about how well she was alive than how he was doing. He would only be thought of when she needed him.

He grew displeased with her. She began to complain about why he didn't ask her out. So, he offered to marry her.

But she scolded him, "Is that the only thing you have in your head?" ”

Isn't she true love for me, he asked himself over and over again. The other party regarded him more and more as a hooligan, and for this, Gong Ximutu still believed in the creed in her heart, if she loved me, she would be willing to sacrifice herself.

Things were far from what Gong Ximutu imagined, and the woman finally despised him to the end, feeling that he was simply the scum of the scum. But Gongxi Mutu didn't understand what he had done wrong.

One day, the girl fell out of love and came to Gong Ximutu and asked him, "Can we continue our relationship?"

At that time, Gongxi Mutu almost couldn't believe what was happening, the girl he had invested all his emotions in had just come back from someone else's arms??The white and flawless beauty in his memory, since he was dumped by someone else, and then came back??

"What a joke, what a joke, what a joke!!" Gong Ximutu wanted to cry without tears, "the most holy and beautiful girl in his heart, how could everything be like this......"

"As long as you can completely forget the past...... Gongximutu said

"What do you say, those are love, why forget ......" the girl refused.

One day, Gongxi Mutu received a message from the girl, "Let's not contact each other in the future." ”

Later, after some time, Gongxi Mutu learned that the girl was married.

This incident left an indelible pain for Gongxi Mutu, who bordered on madness and collapse. But the back and forth of this relationship made him like chewing wax, tasteless, he began to self-reflect, he began to look for his own shortcomings. Of course, he began to do everything in his power to make himself better, in order to tell the girl how wrong her choice was.

Gongxi Mutu's Taoism is getting higher and higher, but because of his withdrawn and changeable temperament, he is gradually regarded as a monster by the whole village. But it was only at night, when the girl appeared in her dream in the form of a goddess, that Gong Ximutu could realize that his stiff heart might still have old feelings. She will always appear in his dreams when his life is not going well and give him warmth. Gongxi Mutu couldn't cry or laugh, it was like an absurd farce. The woman obviously had no feelings for herself, and she was tired of her, but she would appear in her dreams, so beautiful, so elegant.

Many years, many years, time passed little by little. Gongxi Mutu became the patriarch of the Wu clan, and he became a monster in the eyes of more and more people. Many people bullied him because of his stuffiness, and many people snubbed him because of his coldness. This also greatly increased the chances of conflicts, and as a result, in the dripping rain, the bodies of several colleagues fell beside them. Gong Ximutu's eyes widened, like a devil, and he watched as the blood of those corpses mixed with the muddy water.

In prison, for countless days and nights, he remembered the past from time to time. I don't know why, he doesn't care about so many things, but only she has always existed. He figured maybe she'd given him a chance. But love actually has invisible rivals. Girls have in their hearts the underlying criteria for the perfect object. It's just that he never got it. In addition, he also found it absurd to measure a girl by her appearance. Weak girls may also have hard-hearted hearts. Behind the girl's cute expression may be hidden ambitions and thoughts that men can't bear.

But he regretted the marriage he had proposed to her in the past, and perhaps she had the purity and nobility of a girl in her heart, so she could not accept such an insult no matter what. From his point of view, union is the best way to prove love, but from the other person's point of view, maybe it is just a measure of a man's style. He thought that the other party was selfish and only thought about himself, but he found that he was not like this.

Over the years, he gradually understood that girls need to be coaxed and pampered. Girls need money and love successful men...... He gradually discovered that the last thing many women think about is love.

In order to forget her, he drew a circle on his face with blood, called the forbidden art of love, and every time he thought of her, the half of his face would be miserable. As a result, he never forgot her, the woman who was sometimes very bad and weird.