A few days ago, Li De felt very painful at home, he felt both confused and desperate, but he felt that the person who claimed to be Officer Dong was worthy of dependence, and he should not be a bad person, so he found Chen Nan according to the address Chen Nan gave him.

"I said, you're coming. Chen Nan said to Li De, who was outside the door.

Li De bowed his head outside the door, refusing to go in.

"Come in, don't stand outside, come in and I'll talk to you slowly, don't be afraid, I'm not a policeman. ”

Li De slowly walked into the room and made it to the sofa in front of the coffee table.

Not long after, Chen Nan came over with a cup of tea, "I drank your tea at your house before, and now I want to give you a cup in return, so let's go." ”

Li De shook his hand and refused to drink tea, "I just want to know, how did you know about my deeds?"

Chen Nan smiled bitterly, "You just treat me as God, you don't need to know about it, anyway, I'm not a bad person." ”

Suddenly, Li De leaned against the table and burst into tears.

"Woo woo, my dad will definitely laugh at me and look down on me!"

"Woooooooo ”

"Calm down, listen to me tell you slowly. ”

"I can't calm down!"

The other party did not stop, and still cried loudly.

"Well, since you can't calm your mind right now, then please listen to me tell you slowly. ”

Chen Nan calmed his heart and exhaled.

"I know that over the years, your hatred for your father has been bottomless, like an abyss, and for these years, you and your grandparents have endured great suffering, they died early because of all these years of hard work, and all this was caused by your father, but he did not see it, so you feel a deep disgust for him.

However, you don't know that in his heart, he will always love you, and he loves you deeply.

You must wonder why I would say such a thing, why should he say that he loves you when he is so unfair to you, and he has broken your family?"

Actually, I believe you know better than me the reason for his crime, your father was not the organizer of the crime, he was just deceived by other people and went astray, which led to going to prison.

And you don't know, when you are at home, scolding this inhuman father, your father is also scolding himself at the same time, he scolds himself for being incompetent, he is helpless, why he was deceived like this, why he didn't choose to be a good person at the beginning, why he ruined his life for such a few thousand dollars, and ruined the second half of his father's life, he failed to let you enjoy a happy life.

What you may see is the pain and suffering that you and your grandparents have endured over the years, but these are indeed what you have experienced.

But what you don't see is the suffering that your father himself has endured over the years. The pain he suffered, you can't understand it, and it hurts you more than you.

He lost his loved ones, his friends, his freedom, and every day he was in a small room. He doesn't miss his family all the time, he cares about the family, he imagines in his mind all the time that you are raised by his parents, grow up happily, and live happily when you grow up, and he also hopes that his parents can live with you in good health, and he looks forward to seeing the three of you again and reuniting with you one day.

However, he is even more miserable than you, he has no support, no friendship like teachers and classmates, no family affection like grandparents, his only reliance is the same prisoner in prison, the darkness of prison covers his experience and pollutes his life.

Yes, he did make a big mistake, he broke your family and made you miserable, but did you know that he would rather suffer than see you live like this?

However, his hope was dashed because of the death of your grandparents, and the people who died were his parents, and he was just as sad as you.

Son, you have to know that your father loves you, that your father really loves you, and that you know how much effort he has put into trying to reduce his sentence in order to see you all these years? Do you know how many times he has been alone in his room and regrets what he did? He did so much just to be forgiven by you, to be forgiven by your grandparents. He also knows that you hate him deeply in your heart, and your hatred is like an abyss.

Do you know how complicated he is when he sees you grow from a baby to a tall young man, and he is happy that his son is so healthy, and he feels guilty that he failed to raise you, and he is bitter for his parents for the hardships they have put in to raise you.

I have been to your father's house, and he told me that if you could forgive him, even if he died, he would be worth it.

Son, go and meet your father, he actually loves you very much, see your father again before you go to the police station, and explain to him before you are sentenced to prison that you have forgiven him. Explain to him that the dream he has had for more than ten years will come true today. ”

Li De sat up, leaned back on the couch, choked up, his eyes filled with the experience he had suffered over the years.

"So, does my father really love me?"

"Go, you'll know. ”

Li De didn't get up, leaned there and thought for a long time.

"Come, go, after you go, you won't feel guilty, and you can tell him how you have felt over the years, so that your father and son can be heart-to-heart. ”

Li Deyu hesitantly stood up, wiped his ruddy eyes, sobbed several times, and walked to the door.

Chen Nan took Li De to his father's house and rang the doorbell. Li De waited with a tense and painful heart.

There was a sound of footsteps inside.

"What is this, son?" Li De's father, Li Qiang, was very surprised by his son's sudden arrival.

"Dad, I'm back!" Li De shouted at Li Qiang.

Li De's father was overjoyed when he heard his son call him Dad.

"Son, son, you, have you forgiven me?" he turned his gaze to Chen Nan behind Li De.

Li De choked up, "Dad, over the years, I know your pain, and I also know that you have only been trying to get my forgiveness all these years, now, please allow me to call you again: Dad!"

Li De's eyes began to grow rosy.

Li Qiang felt very overjoyed, "This is my police officer Dong who came to me last time, right? The last time police officer Dong came to my house to check on my feelings after I was released from prison, I didn't expect to bring my son to me so soon." ”

Chen Nan smiled at him and nodded.

"Son, it's great that you can forgive me. I really don't know how to thank you, come, come in and sit down, in the future, we will live together, I will talk to you about the ups and downs of these years, I have a lot of words in my heart, I have been holding back for more than ten years, I have always wanted to tell you. ”

"In the future, we must live together, our father is together, and we will definitely be happier than anyone else. Li De walked inside, looking for the teacup.

"Your father, I have been looking forward to you every day all these years, thinking about you every day, my heart is about to fall, just so that I can reunite with you one day, be with you, today you can forgive me, I really don't know what to use to thank you. Li Qiang said happily while looking for the teacup while turning his back to Li De.

However, Li De stood outside the door with his head bowed, refusing to come in for a long time.

"What's wrong, why don't you come in?" Li Qiang was stunned for a moment, put down the cup in his hand, and looked outside.

I saw Li De with his head down, as if he was sobbing.

"What's wrong, why are you crying, don't cry, today isn't the day of our reunion, shouldn't we be happy?"

Li De raised his head and just wanted to speak, but when he looked at his father's happy expression, he couldn't bear to speak to him, so he lowered his head sadly.

"Son, do you have anything to say? It's okay, you can say it slowly in the future, it's okay, don't cry, come on, come in." ”

Seeing that Li De raised his head to look at himself, lowered his head and cried, Li Qiang felt that something was wrong, so he asked again: "Son, what's wrong with you?

"Dad!" Li De suddenly raised his head, wiped the corners of his eyes, and looked at Li Qiang resolutely, "I'm here today to say goodbye to you." ”

"Huh?" The smile on Li Qiang's face suddenly disappeared.

"I have committed a crime and killed someone, and after today, maybe you will never see me again, maybe I will be sentenced to life, maybe the death penalty. Allow me to say sorry to you, I'm sorry for you, I know what you've done for me all these years, I know how hard you've worked to be with me, but I really can't help it, I'm sorry, I've made a more vicious mistake than you. Li De sucked the snot that was falling down.

Li De's father stood in front of the door sluggishly, unable to believe what he said, and his happy smile suddenly turned into a painful expression.

"Dad! In the future, no matter how good or bad you are, don't miss me, miss your dead parents, live the life you should live, parting is only a matter of time, there is no need to complain about how unfortunate your life is, the unfortunate person in the world, as long as he feels that he is living a comfortable life, then he is a lucky person. I killed someone of my own free will, it has nothing to do with you, live well, don't feel guilty, find a wife to be happy with her, you are not happy, everything I do and say to you is in vain. ”

Li Qiang was startled, standing stiffly in the hall, looking at Li De, who was crying at the door.

"In the days when your relatives are away, take care of your body, don't drink for sadness, don't disturb your work because of thoughts and worries, find a wife well, and know that the only person who can save your life is yourself. ”

After speaking, Li De wiped his tears, gritted his teeth to eat, and ran into the distance.

Chen Nan followed.

"I wish you happiness!"

Li De's father stood at the door sluggishly, wanting to go forward and chase him, but also feeling powerless to chase him.

Crystal tears flowed from his eyes, crossed his cheeks, like beads of broken thread, poured down, intertwined with the earth, and merged into indescribable and indescribable pain.

(End of chapter)