Chapter 22: Guilt and Apology
Yang Fan originally thought that time could forget and change many things, but in fact, time could not change some things.
"This classmate of yours is so annoying. Lan said in a disgusted tone, as if stimulated by her little girl and peculiar tastes, and then complained, "Old aunt, I don't understand the vitality of youth and the charm of a girl, by the way, why do you never attend class reunions?"
Yang Fan's pace of progress suddenly stopped.
"Why don't you go to the class reunion?" Yang Fan asked himself. As far back as he remembers, he had never been invited to a class reunion, and he touched Lan's head with a wry smile.
"Because I'm not popular, no one likes me. ā
Yang Fan remembered what he looked like in high school, when he was in high school, he was more introverted, not good at words and communication, plus he was not good at studying and had a little inferiority, and played the role of an extras in other people's lives.
In fact, even so, he will not fall to the point of being unpopular, mainly because of the so-called confession.
In fact, he was introverted and didn't have the courage to confess to a girl, maybe he felt that he was not qualified to confess, but he still confessed, because his two best friends in high school, big head and glasses, these two people are also playing the role of extras in other people's lives, and when they are about to graduate, they plan to do a big thing that will cause a sensation in the class, and don't let their high school life leave regrets, and the three of them each confess to the three girls they like.
And the result was that the glasses and the big head flinched at the critical time, and Yang Fan was the only one to confess, and he became the famous legend of "the toad wants to eat swan meat" in the class.
In fact, if it was just a simple rejection, it would not become a scar in Yang Fan's heart, at most it would be a green memory, but the girl finally said it in front of the whole class. shattered Yang Fan's pitiful and humble self-esteem.
He couldn't forget the sneering eyes of his classmates, the sarcastic words that mocked him, the way the big head and glasses stopped talking but finally flinched, and the girl's arrogant eyes.
Perhaps, I don't deserve to be liked or popular. When Yang Fan thought of this, his heart seemed to be blocked by something, and he was a little uncomfortable.
"Actually, you're quite popular. Lan looked at Yang Fan and said seriously, "You have readers who like you, I like it, and people who support you like you, it's enough." ā
"Yes, it's enough for you to like me. Yang Fan looked at the busy street and said with a smile.
"At least, for now, there are Lan and readers like me. Yang Fan led Lan into this night.
The woman looked at the backs of Yang Fan and Lan leaving, and couldn't help but have a trace of fluctuation in her heart.
She has been a proud child since she was a child, with a beautiful face, excellent academic performance, gentle personality, and versatile, and her life is so perfect.
From childhood to adulthood, there are many people who pursue her, so many that she is bored, she doesn't want to have a hard-working and unforgettable love, she is also an ordinary girl, but among the many suitors, there is no one who matches the image of her boyfriend in her heart.
There is only one requirement for her boyfriend in her heart, and that is to be strong, and there are many explanations for the word strong, and what she understands to be strong is to be indomitable and have a strong heart that never gives up. It's a pity that in her 22 years, no man has been able to make her identify with it.
She has a gentle personality, even if she doesn't like it, she will politely refuse those confessions and give the confessor a step down, but Yang Fan is the only one she doesn't give a confession to the bottom of the steps.
She remembered the senior year of high school, a skinny boy with messy hair, and hurriedly handed her a love letter.
She didn't know why she was angry at the time, and she didn't know why she said those things in front of the class, that was the first time she was angry. In fact, after getting angry, she regretted it, because she saw the boy's panicked and helpless eyes, as well as the ridicule around her.
She wanted to apologize, but she didn't, after all, she was so good, why apologize to a boy who could be said to be at the bottom of the class, why apologize to an insignificant person. But when she got home, she began to regret that it was the first time she had hurt someone so badly anyway.
Time can erase a lot of things, she thought she had forgotten about it, but in fact, she almost forgot that after graduation, eight class reunions were held, and everyone rushed to participate. But he never came. The big head and glasses will occasionally talk about him, and everyone seems to have forgotten the existence of Yang Fan. However, it seems that he has not forgotten it, because Yang Fan will become the existence of a certain joke topic. And she, as one of the protagonists of the topic, is the existence of a positive goddess.
When she met Yang Fan today, she didn't know why, she felt a kind of guilt in her heart, especially in the face of his indifferent expression and tone, the guilt in her heart became heavier and heavier.
She felt that Yang Fan didn't attend the class reunion because of herself. But she still didn't apologize for what happened before, although there was a reason to fight with Lan. But more often than not, she only felt guilty at all, rather than thinking she was wrong.
"When you have a class reunion, help him ease the relationship. She said to herself with determination. The guilt in my body seemed to be alleviated a lot because of this sentence.
At this time, on the Longkong Forum, the largest online writer forum in China, there was a post with more than 10,000 clicks and 1,000 replies in just half an hour.
The name of the post is "The god who is tired of writing runs away from the xx network, where is the xx network." ć
In the post, it was said that the pen-tired god jumped to Lewen because of his dissatisfaction with his salary. And announced the income of the pen-tired god on the xx network. Compared with the other nine people who are also in the top ten of the Internet gods, he has the lowest salary, and he is sarcastic about the bullying of old writers on the xx network.
This post was posted by a newly registered trumpet. But his organization and evidence are abundant, which makes people unconvinced of the authenticity of this post.
Tired of writing and desperately coding words, he didn't know much about the post, and he finally chose to refuse Lewen's invitation. Because for him, it is the most important thing to finish the work at hand with one heart.
His phone rang, he glanced at it, it was his editor in charge,, and he answered the phone.
"I'm tired of writing, you're going to change jobs?" the asked directly.
"Nope"
"Lewen.com, didn't you sign a contract with you?"
"How do you know that Lewen sent me a contract, but I refused. ā
"Why didn't you tell me about the contract?" said the on the phone angrily after hearing the contract.
He was stunned for a moment, and then he said angrily, "Why should I tell you? This is my private matter!"
"Don't forget, you are on our website, our website is popular with you, we have given you so many resources, don't betray us in the end. The spoke with dissatisfaction. Today he was already angry, and he didn't have a part in this essay competition, and he was reprimanded because of "tired of writing and changing jobs", and his tone was not friendly.
"Are you finished?"
"Iā" The was a little speechless, as he remembered that he was not calling the little writers, but the best writers on the site.
"It's time for me to say it, I've been writing books on this website for ten years, writing six works, and in ten years, I've earned 3.6 million. At the same time, they wrote books with me and then changed jobs, basically earning more than me, and at the same time, they have more opportunities to adapt games, anime, online dramas, and movies than me. "I wrote for ten years, and it took me ten years to get to where I am today, and it is true that part of the credit is the credit of the website, but more of it is my own efforts." It can be said that I have exchanged my efforts for my current status, please don't forget!"
"I know. After listening to this, the also felt a little guilty in his heart, because a god level like a tired pen should have gone to the No. 1 website a long time ago, not only with many readers, but also with many resources. Instead of staying on this site and wasting time slowly.
"I, tired of writing, although I am not the best writer, but I have the basic quality of a writer, and I know how to repay it, so I stayed on this website and rejected Lewen.com. I also hope that you will respect me and believe in your own writer!"
The held his phone, and he was silent. This is the first time he has been silent in the face of his writers in so many years. For him, he believed in the seven words of his own writer, he hadn't heard it for a long time.
"I'm sorry. The picked up his phone and said sincerely. "I'm sorry because a lot of things happened today that made my tone a little bad, I shouldn't not believe you. ā
He vented all his frustrations, and he felt as if he had been drained of strength.
"It's okay, my tone is a bit heavy, is there anything else? I hung up first. ā
"It's okay, okay, I'll also tell the people above that you rejected the contract from Lewen.com, I believe you, I'm sorry. sincerely apologized again.
Tired of hanging up the phone, he looked at the shiny computer screen, he began to fall silent, and after a few minutes of silence, he smiled, he hadn't laughed in a long time, because the pressure of long-term writing had made him breathless.
"It's like going back to when I first wrote a book. He shook his head and said to himself.
The apologized, feeling as if the discomfort and stress of the day were gone, and he smiled.
"It turns out that it is such a happy thing to trust the writers under me. It turns out that admitting mistakes can also make people so easy. ā