After Yang Fan finished buying the medicine, he went to the nearby supermarket to buy the tools of the pharmaceutical ointment, and then returned home.

"What are you doing, why are you so slow?" Lan asked casually while eating snacks while looking at Yang Fan, while Lin Wanting looked at him nervously, holding the open bag of potato chips motionless next to him, the number of potato chips in it was about the same as before leaving, as if it was because he had been waiting for Yang Fan to come back and share together.

Yang Fan looked at the time, it was almost time for his part-time job, he could only wait to go home and boil the ointment, he looked at Lin Wanting's nervous appearance, so he hesitated and stretched out his hand, put it on Lin Wanting's head and rubbed it, and said gently, "I went to buy some medicinal materials and prepared to make scar removal cream for Wanting." ”

"Hmm" Lan nodded to indicate that she understood, and then she looked at Yang Fan and said worriedly, "Yang Fan, don't go to work today, you didn't have a good rest today." ”

"It's okay, it's okay, it's enough to get a good night's sleep tomorrow. Yang Fan shook his head and said with a smile, he quickly changed his clothes, told Lan to take care of Lin Wanting, thought about it, took out his wallet, took out a 100 yuan from it and said, "You two's dinner money." Then Yang Fan put the money on the table and hurriedly walked out.

Yang Fan walked out of the house, looked up at the sky, and cheered up and walked to the convenience store.

The pressure of life forced Yang Fan to go out to work part-time, if you want to stick to your dreams, if you want to realize your dreams, then you must have economic support, although it is a bit cruel to say this, but this is the truth.

"Xiao Wanting, what do you want to eat at night?" Lan turned her head with the money and asked Lin Wanting, but when she saw Lin Wanting's appearance, she couldn't help but be stunned.

Lin Wanting kept snorting, her big eyes were full of tears, and she trembled all over her body to prevent herself from crying.

In her bumpy life, no one has ever been as gentle as Yang Fan to treat her, but she can't cry because she promised Lan not to be a crybaby.

"I didn't see anything, I cried when I wanted to. Lan turned around, and then she heard a loud cry.

Yang Fan hurried to the convenience store, and then found that the atmosphere in the convenience store today was a little depressing.

"What's wrong?" Yang Fan asked Yang Yuan and Li Xiao in a low voice. Li Xiao pointed to the side and whispered to Yang Fan

"Didn't Mr. Liu's child go to the hospital with a cold some time ago? Later, I found out that it was not a simple cold, but leukemia. ”

Speaking of this, Li Xiao couldn't help but shake his head and didn't say anything. Although Liu Ning did not have a good impression in his heart, the innocent child was innocent.

Yang Fan looked in the direction of Li Xiaoshou and saw Liu Ning, and couldn't help but be shocked.

Liu Ning no longer had the bitter and mean face of the past, his face was full of sadness and deep self-blame, and the whole person looked decadent and powerless.

It was the first time Yang Fan saw Liu Ning like this, he thought about it and walked over, looked at Liu Ning and asked softly, "Are you okay?" ”

Liu Ning heard Yang Fan's voice, he raised his head and looked at Yang Fan and sighed, didn't say anything, and then turned around and walked into the staff lounge.

It was the first time Yang Fan had seen such a look, such a desperate and powerless look.

Liu Ning walked to the staff lounge like this, he took out a crumpled cigarette case from his pocket tremblingly, opened the cigarette case, and found that there was no cigarette in it, he angrily crumpled the cigarette box into a ball and threw it beside him, and then he squatted on the ground with his head in his arms and began to cry quietly.

"Are you alright? Yang Fan opened the door of the staff lounge and shouted loudly, and then saw the crying Liu Ning, who stood awkwardly and stiffly.

I don't know how long the time has passed, Liu Ning seems to have cried enough, he raised his head and looked at Yang Fan with red and swollen eyes and said

"Is there any smoke?"

After Yang Fan heard it, he hurriedly took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, then opened the cigarette case, took out a cigarette and handed it to Liu Ning.

Liu Ning took Yang Fan's cigarette tremblingly, took out a lighter, lit the cigarette, took a deep breath and looked at Yang Fan and said

"I used to be like you. ”

"Huh?" Yang Fan stood aside a little bewildered.

"I used to be an online writer like you, and I came to the online writing world with a dream. Liu Ning said with a smile while smoking, a reminiscing smile bloomed on his face.

"Writing books is my happiest time, although I don't have many subscriptions to the books I write, but it is always exciting to be able to pass on my works and my thoughts to others. Speaking of this, he paused and looked at Yang Fan and said, "Do you know why I don't write a book?"

Yang Fan shook his head and didn't speak, he just quietly looked at the man in front of him who was stuck in memory.

"Because I didn't have many subscriptions for the stories I wrote, I didn't have much income, my book averaged more than 50 subscriptions a day, and the website only gave me one or two mosquito pushes and put me aside and left me to fend for myself. At that time, I was about to get married, and I was short of money. ”

Speaking of this, Liu Ning grabbed his head and said with a smile, "I really like writing." Every chapter of mine is written with heart, every chapter of mine is carefully crafted, but not many people read the books I write without editorial recommendations and without publicity. That's when I quit my job and gambled everything on writing. I thought hard work would pay off, but it didn't. ”

The cigarette in Liu Ning's hand was already halfway burned, he quickly put the cigarette in his hand, took a deep breath, looked at Yang Fan and said, "I thought at that time, it would be great if the website could give me a big recommendation, I will definitely be able to let more people read my book with a big recommendation, and then subscribe to the results, do you know what he said when I found my responsible editor to apply for a recommendation?"

At this point, his face suddenly contorted, as if he had thought of something that was the most angry thing. He clenched his fists hard and slammed them against the wall, hatefully

"The editor ignored me at the time, so I left a message to the editor every day, until a week later, the editor didn't know if it was annoyed by me or for some other reason, and he finally replied to me, and he replied that I couldn't. I asked why? He said a word, and because of that sentence, I gave up writing. Do you know what that phrase is?"

Yang Fan looked at Liu Ning and shook his head without speaking.

He said: Newcomers should write books obediently, don't be ambitious. With this kind of garbage results, do you deserve to recommend a position?" Liu Ning began to laugh, and the smile was very sad.

"After that, I gave up writing, and I gave up the book that had taken two years to conceive and write. Then I started looking for a job, I was 30 years old, and the most precious two years of my life were over. At that time, I felt like a failure. Fortunately, I met my wife, she didn't dislike me for having nothing, and she didn't dislike me for not being able to earn money to marry me naked. When he said the last sentence, Liu Ning had a sweet smile on his face.

"Later, our baby was born, and she was so lovely, so beautiful, like an angel, that I thought it was the best gift God had ever given me. But why, let my baby get leukemia. Liu Ning angrily swung his fist again, hit the wall, and then cried again.

"I don't have the money to operate on her, I'm really a failure, if I didn't write a book at that time and continue my original job, I would definitely be able to come up with money to treat the baby's illness now, if it wasn't for the editor's words, I insisted on writing it, maybe, I would also make enough money by writing a book, I'm a failure, why, why!"

Yang Fan looked at Liu Ning like this, he walked over, patted Liu Ning's shoulder in a manly way and said

"You're not a loser because there are at least fifty readers subscribing to support you, and the real loser is the editor because he lost a writer who was full of dreams and persistence. Now the most important thing is to find a way to make up for the child's medical expenses as soon as possible, and then give the child surgery as soon as possible. ”

"Thank you, why did I treat you so much, and you still comforted me so much. Liu Ning looked at Yang Fan with tears in his eyes and asked.

"Because only a writer can really understand the difficulty of a writer. ”