Recently, a lot of people have asked me how I'm doing, and why I'm updating so late every day.

Let me explain here, because I am a part-time writer, I am too busy in real life, and I get home at one or two o'clock every day, take a shower, eat a meal, and deal with personal matters at about three or four o'clock before I can start writing.

Therefore, I always feel guilty about everyone, so I have never asked for anything, whether it is a recommendation ticket or a monthly pass, a reward. Also because of guilt, it should have been on the shelves two months ago, and I've been free, I want you to see more, I don't even mix with full attendance.

After explaining the doubts. Let me talk about what I want to say again.

It's been almost half a year since I wrote the book, and I've changed a lot of things in the past six months. There are good and bad ones.

For example, I was also a master of playing competitive games before, and lol was also on the net before a king, and in S6 it was also a drill one.

I don't have to brag about it, in the diamond bureau except for the electric one the year before last, I just got the position I wanted, and I could basically carry it.

This also led to the year before last, many anchors invited me to join his studio and offered a monthly salary of tens of thousands.

However, I always refuse, probably because I am a bit of a strange person in my heart, and I just treat games as a pastime, not as a profession.

Why do you say this?,Because from writing the book to now,I've only played lol twice in half a year.,And today I'm being pulled by an anchor friend I knew before to play games.,I found that I couldn't even play platinum.。 The anchor friend saw that my technical decline did not bring about the live broadcast effect, so he said not to play lol, let's play other games together, and then he said the most popular chicken now, Glory of Kings.

I'm ashamed that I haven't played either game because I really don't have time to play them.

So I'll be honest and say that I haven't played either of these games, and as a result, both my streamer friends and his viewers are expressing surprise, as if people who don't play games are not their peers.

It made me think a lot, did writing books make me miss out on a lot of things that a normal person of my age should enjoy (I'm not very old, just in my twenties).

As a result, after thinking about it for a long time, I realized that I had indeed missed it. But it's also a path I chose for myself, and I won't regret missing out on those things.

However, it also made me think about what writing a book can do for me, and it turns out that I don't get anything.

To be honest, I'm a realistic person and also crave money and praise. But I got nothing.

I began to doubt my abilities, and then I started reading my book, and after reading it, I realized that, as some readers have said, this book is too realistic in some places, and too much in the middle of the second.

I wondered why there was such a contradiction. After thinking about it, I realized that I had experienced a lot of cruelty.

It is precisely because of this experience that I want to show it in another way similar to positive energy.

For example, in the past few days, I have written a content of 7 million conversion.

The reason for writing this is 7 million is because I was in high school. I think 7 million is a lot, but when I was in college, because of my contact with Zhihu and some media, I gradually became aware that 7 million is nothing, after all, it is only the money for a suite in Beijing.

As a result, when I first worked, I looked at the payroll and longed for 7 million. However, whether it was in high school, college, or just after graduation, I never thought about how to earn 7 million. I didn't use any method to get him as my goal, I just longed for and felt it. At that time, I was just using poisonous chicken soup and reality as an excuse.

Are you like me, because you give up a lot of things you like? Have you ever been like me? Even though you have longed for a lot of things, a lot of good life. But is it hindered by the so-called reality and poisonous chicken soup?

Having said all this, I just want everyone to think, think about what kind of life should be our life, and think about whether I should be like me at that time, using some unwarranted reality and poisonous chicken soup to excuse myself?

Maybe that's just my own words. In short, please read this chapter to be able to think about your own life and make your own choices like me. Because, everyone is not a child anymore, and should have their own thinking.

In the books that follow, I will also write about things that I feel like I've experienced, or that I want to write.

May my not-so-pretty book teach everyone who reads this chapter something right.

Also, personally, I am very disgusted by one sentence, and that is:

"Online articles just let readers find happiness, not let you readers learn things, if you want to learn something, it is better to read the world classics. ”

Why disgust, because life is too short, don't deceive yourself. What really makes you feel happy is the success you put in a lot of effort to get at the end of the day.

(End of chapter)