Xie Zebo, when it comes to Principal Xiong, I can't help but think of Xiong Xiaoyong, who accompanies me to do homework in the classroom every day.

When he was about to graduate, he was the class president.

Every night for self-study, two or three of us went into the classroom to do our homework—and all the other students went to the Anchang River for training.

One day, Grandpa Zheng suddenly brought me a copy of "The Weakness of Human Nature", showed it to me, and asked me to take notes for him to check.

At that time, we were required to write in imitation Song script, and each character had to be the same as the printed version.

A few months ago, when I saw Zhang Qiangfa's employees practicing calligraphy, it seemed that I had returned to the time when we practiced together when we were young.

But when I was studying, Xiong Xiaoyong gave me a copy of "Xu Zhimo's Poetry Collection" and told me, "Qin Qin, if you can't be a hero in your life, you have to be a hero." ”

I smiled and criticized him, "I'm just a little woman, where do you come to be a hero." ”

But he retorted: "Then what kind of person do you want to be in your life, and what's the point of living?"

To this day, I don't understand how to live after so many years of busy work, as if I have achieved nothing.

For love or dreams?

At that time, I still wrote a lot of poems, but the poems were no longer sweet and happy, they were all sad.

I was still busy in the kitchen of Grandpa Zheng and Grandma Yang on the weekends, boiling all kinds of newly excavated stones, waxing them, imagining patterns, and choosing names.

Grandpa Zheng likes to look at stocks in class, and when he eats at his house, he always tells me about stocks.

Grandma Yang likes me, although I have always been timid and withdrawn, and I am full of pathos in my bones.

After all, after what happened to my dad, my personality has changed.

I like stone specimens and I like to take care of them, just like I later lived alone and liked to clean.

That year, I wrote in my notebook: The dwelling is inelegant without stones, and the garden is indecent.

And that sentence was written on the blackboard by Grandpa Zheng when he was in a geology class.

Without you, I don't understand love, although when I read Xu Zhimo's poems, I also yearn for crossing Kangqiao.

Although I seem to live a cheerful life, and I have fallen for the red moon by the Anchang River, I rarely pick up a pen except for my homework.

In the final exam that year, the students didn't go to the exam, as if they didn't want to graduate, so they all played cards in the dormitory.

I had just returned to the dormitory after playing mahjong all night with the boys in the teahouse, and when I saw that no one was there, I asked them, "You don't go to the exam?"

They said they didn't want to go, so I didn't want to go either, so I invited a few girls to play double buckles.

It was when Principal Zhou walked to the door of the dormitory and said to me, "Qin Qin, you still don't ask your classmates to take the exam?"

I felt aggrieved and pouted, "If they don't go to the exam, they don't care about me?"

When my classmates saw that I didn't move, they ignored me and continued to play cards.

So I had to exhale and say, "Let's go, let's go to the exam." ”

......

Suddenly, I remembered April '09, the month I took the initiative to look for you on the alumni network, and I wanted to open a lot of things, so I wanted to contact you.

It was also a coincidence that the boy I pulled into Grandpa Zheng's house suddenly came back from Kunming and came to me wearing a black suit, and at the same time brought a colleague from the Petroleum Bureau.

He was the same as he was when he came to Guangji to pick me up and take me to Kunming, and nothing had changed. His mother specially bought him a suit worth more than 700 yuan. (But at that time, they were still children.) ）

That day, we went to the Pacific Cinema at the intersection of Chunxi Road to watch a movie, just like when he came to Mianzhu, I took him to the cinema to watch a 3 yuan ticket price of "The Mummy".

He asked me what I liked to watch, and I looked for a magic blockbuster to watch at the time – I've always loved fantasy movies.

After watching the movie, he asked me where to go?

I said I was going back to my dorm.

And let him ride the bus with me, even though their travel expenses are reimbursable.

And I want to remember what it was like to go to school, so I had to let him take the bus.

That day, there was a cold white light in the car, and I didn't take him seriously.

I pulled the tab in the car and stood beside him, and I could lean on his arm when the car shook, but I wasn't as crazy as I was when I was younger, trying to chase him and hold him accountable to me.

But he was very strange and actually said to me, "I'm going to get a divorce." ”

This sentence came out of his mouth, and the cloud was light and light, just like when he called me one year and said to me: "My father-in-law asked me to take my cousin before he died, and you can find someone to marry." ”

In the second year, Cai, who had not been in touch for seven or eight years, called me and said, "He is married, do you know?"

I laughed and said, "He told me." ”

And when I hung up the phone, I called him and said with a smile: "I used to say that the whole class of our wedding will be present." Even if you marry someone else, you should invite me. ”

He told me on the phone, "I haven't been to see anyone, and I didn't go back until the day of the treat." ”

Two days after I hung up, he was standing in front of me.

However, he asked me to find someone to marry, so I found someone to get a marriage certificate.

That day, I kept a straight face, pulled the handrail of the bus, and said lightly, "It's enough to ruin one of my women, why hurt another woman." ”

It used to be clear that he had to be with me, and then he heard his last words and married her, but now the demon wind blew from nowhere, and came to me and said that he wanted to divorce and marry me again?

Soon, it was time to arrive at the school dormitory.

He sent me downstairs to the school dormitory, and I ignored him and went upstairs.

On that birthday, he came again.

That night, we went to the song city to sing, and my brother Feng started dating the girl who sold clothes in the store.

The flower sellers came in, and they paid 10 yuan each to buy them for us.

That night, we each lay flat in Feng's rented house, speechless.

After a few hours, he suddenly said, "Can I hold you again?"

I said lightly: "We are both married, so we should be responsible for each other's families." ”

But I heard his breath and said, "Hold it one last time." ”

So he turned around and hugged me.

In less than 1 second, he turned around and lay flat and stopped talking.

On that day, he was no longer like when I went to see him in the Xiaoquanjing team, and he kept smoking while I was asleep.

I lay motionless on the bed, just like him.

But I couldn't sleep all night.

I think he also had a sleepless night.

I told him the first time it was going to be on the day I got married, but he didn't believe it. I have to despair of my feelings about the world to give up.

In the winter of that year, the personnel who were transferred to the army for on-the-job training came to our school. For some reason, everyone who came invited me to dinner.

And I started drinking.

I've long since thought I'd been a girl, not to mention that after graduation, the place where I work is usually the well team, and since the day I didn't have you, I thought I was a boy.

When the first batch of students went to the Taklamakan Desert, I was very eager to do it.

I imagined the beauty and wonder of the desert – but now I don't think I can survive there.

I go to drink with them, I like to buy bread and jam. At that time, I liked to eat blueberry jam, but now I find that my mother-in-law's mulberry jam tastes even better.

Every time I go out to eat hot pot, I like to buy a bread and a bottle of jam, and then I dry it with pride.

Every time I had a drink with them, I ran back to my dorm before the urge hit — well, since I was hospitalized, I didn't drink.

The worst time I drank at that time was when the boys from the retraining of the well team came and invited me out for barbecue.

So I had a good drink with them - I drank 17 bottles of beer alone, and then I was taken back to the dormitory by my classmates, crying and fussing.

When I woke up, I realized that I was injured, and I realized how ashamed I was.

Because we were together, I thought we would be together for the rest of our lives.

I always go to the dorm and take out his clothes to wash them together, or ask other girls to wash them.

I even went to Nanchong during the summer vacation, and wandered around the homes of all his relatives and my classmates in Nanchong - when Lu Xuanhui's house was eating, they were digging a well at the door, and I squatted curiously next to the yellow mud to watch and ask his parents about it.

Together with him and his cousin, he went over the mountains to his grandmother's house, and made walnuts from the walnut tree in front of the yard and burned them.

It's more like a little girl who has never seen the world, and when she crosses the mountains and mountains, she asks them what the names of the wild flowers and grasses on the side of the road are.

He thought it was funny and said to me, "Hogweed flowers." ”

But he obviously didn't even look at it, so he laughed at me and perfunctory me.

At the fish farm in Phong An, I had to cook and play every day, and they all went out and came back drunk.

He also likes to watch the adults feed the fish and turtles at the fish seed farm, and keeps asking his father about fish farming. But his father always told me about transporting fish.

Anyway, it's big, big, and there are a couple of super big wolfdogs.

The first time I stir-fried that year was sautéed green beans.

It was the first time in my life that I stir-fryed.

I imagined what the chef in the restaurant was doing, but I couldn't do it for a while, and I confused the sauce, but his father and aunt were very satisfied, and I talked to them every day.

Suddenly, one day, my mother called my brother Feng's house and told me to go back.

At the same time, they received a notice that they were going to be assigned work to the well team.

I sat on the bus with him, and he asked me to go with him to school and then report to work.

But my shoes broke somehow - they were fine, and they broke on the bus back to school.

And my feet are too small to buy shoes.

I said I'd come home and change my shoes, so my mother wouldn't let me go out.

Later, when he came to pick me up, we went to Chen Xingping for dinner together, and she said, "If you two get married, no matter how far away, I will come." ”

I didn't know what she meant, but I knew he did, because she was clearly telling him.

There must be something else to this statement.

Because on the night when Grandpa Zheng was sick, the messenger was Chen Xingping.

The year I sold the house, he bought a school district house in Kunming.

He said that she had to buy it for the sake of her children's studies.

When they were divorced, I talked to his wife a lot, and prevented him from divorcing her, and told him to be nice to her - since he was married, he had to be responsible for her, didn't he?

It's enough to be responsible for me, so why bother to harm other women?

Whether it's for love or for some other reason, isn't that what men should be?

At the beginning of 13, I had a wedding, Xiao Jun and He Yanhua obviously said they were coming, but because I was not at the Deyang Hotel, they didn't come.

Inexplicably, I don't understand what they mean.

Perhaps, when Grandpa Zheng took me as his granddaughter, he wanted me to be with his students—because I really love geology and rocks.

Or I'm thinking, if I had a wedding at the Deyang Hotel, would Grandpa Zheng and Grandma Yang have inexplicably appeared and told me that the "On Diligent Learning and Good Questions" written back then would have been published?

Or, can I go to a place with a lot of stone specimens, boil the stones, buy the stones, and admire the stones with peace of mind?

The so-called fate is really magical.

One year, in Wang Xiaoman's space, I saw a photo taken in front of the Geological Museum of China.

I know that it is not Wang Xiaoman himself.

I write a lot like him, maybe because we both studied geology.

But I was a student who never got a diploma, and even all the schools I attended were cancelled after we graduated.

How hard is it to find a job?