It's the first time I've written a male frequency article, and there are a lot of bad things, thank you for your tolerance.

In fact, from signing a contract, testing the waters, and recommending the second recommendation, to the current strength. I was lucky enough to make it, but the next week I ran naked.

I think many old readers know what kind of horror concept it is to recommend streaking in the free period. I cried many times for this book.

I'm worried about hitting the street, I'm worried about not writing well, I'm worried about not getting grades.

It can be said that from the beginning of the article to the present, I have been very serious about typing down every text, I dare not spoil this story, I want to show you what it looks like in my mind.

It has a large pattern and a deep background. There are so many places that can be carried out in the later stage, and I have too many suspense and puzzles to write. But I'm really, really scared that I won't be able to make it up.

......

At noon, I said to my boyfriend.

I can't play them, I admit defeat, this book failed to advance, and I won't recommend it next week.

The boyfriend said: "Eunuch, it's over. 】

I cried again, I couldn't bear the story. I haven't finished telling the stories about the rivers and lakes and many banshees. I don't want to write another one, incomplete story.

I know I'm impetuous, and I can't settle down right now. It's because I'm too young, and because I'm a newbie, and I'm not strong enough.

Sometimes I feel like I'm really a failure.

This book is from Kaiwen to the present, the wind is dominating the world, blood red, Xuanyu, Cai Jin, the knife is sharp, Xiao and 2, the sky is white cranes, and the grave is barren and grass...... Many people have given me chapter recommendations, and many people have encouraged me.

I really don't want to disappoint others, I don't want to be a serious loser for others. It's hard to write a story, and it's even harder to write a good story.

But I really... I don't want to admit defeat.

......

In the afternoon, I chatted with my girlfriends.

My girlfriend said: [Why have I been so aggressive lately? Does love make people irritable?]

I said, "My new book is cold. 】

My girlfriend said: [I can see, whether I am talking to me or him (my boyfriend) recently, the tone is aggressive. 】

I said, "Really, I've been being pressed for a while, it's so uncomfortable. 】

My best friend said: [Then let it out, see that you have lost the desire to write books because you are so irritable with books. 】

I said, "I don't want to give up..."

Really, I love writing stories so much, and I want to write good grades so much. So think... So think... Let readers enjoy the stories I write.

It's my dream!

How can I abandon my dreams?

......

And knowing that I wanted to give up, another good brother of mine asked me at night: [Do you remember your original intention of writing a book?]

Just now, I said I really don't want to give up on this story. I wanted to finish it, not for anything else, just about the rivers and lakes, about the banshees.

Then the night snack said: [Here you go, how to say it, it's another way anyway.] 】

Supper: [I'll stay up tonight to read your update, and then tomorrow I'll accompany you to adjust the outline, give you an analysis of how to write male frequency, teach you how to write a cool layout, and I will accompany you to write in the future.] 】

I said, "Uh-huh!"

Supper: [But only if you do this, you'll stick with it until it's finished.] 】

I said, "Okay! 】

......

Really, it's been held back for too long, suppressed for too long. I cried for a long time for this book, and I felt that I was so useless and a failure.

Before, supper asked me to build a readership, and I never dared to. I'm afraid no one will come in, no one will like my story.

Supper said: "You should take a look at those who really like your story. 】

I was silent.

I don't know how many people will like it, and I don't know...... Can I write the flavor you guys like.

I'm sorry if I don't write to your satisfaction.

Also, I'm not going to be a eunuch.

This time, I stuck with it until the end.

Thank you to all of you who read this story.

Whether it's supportive or sprayy, thank you.

——March 30, 2018, Chihiro Qiqi