At the beginning of September, the rare good weather, the blue sky and white clouds that have not been seen for a long time, and nothing else is special.

Everything was so ordinary and as planned.

For others, such a boring and explosive life, Zhang Xiaoguang is very comfortable.

He enjoys this kind of ordinary life, and does not like sudden changes. He will not accept sudden invitations from friends, be dissatisfied with the temporary shift change of colleagues, and even feel irritated by visits from relatives and friends that have not been announced in advance, and he is happy when he is alone.

This may have something to do with the environment in which he was raised.

Zhang Xiaoguang remembers very early, so early that he himself doesn't remember when it started, he remembers his birth in a trance, and the trivial things that happened on a certain day, a certain month, and even include what he ate on which day (sure enough, he was born a foodie), but the strange thing is that it is difficult for him to remember the relationship between relatives, and when he meets a slightly less common relative, he doesn't know what to call it, no matter how many times he has been taught... There is also a serious matter, always unable to remember, but I have suffered a lot in learning, and I forget it after learning, he once wondered if he was a brainless person, or there was a parasite in his head. As I grew older, I became more and more forgetful, and I used to be able to tell my cousins the whole Harry Potter book, but now I can't remember all the lyrics. He felt that it didn't matter, and with the attitude of not worrying about everything, he had to get by. None of this was a big deal for his childhood shadows.

Zhang Xiaoguang's father is very similar to An Jiahe in "Don't Talk to Strangers", and even surpasses it. At least An Jiahe is the head of the family and can earn money to support his family, just because he loves Mei Xiangnan so much that he loves him so much that he is perverted. Xiaoguang's father smokes, drinks, gambles, beats his wife and children and does not work, and at the same time he is very sociable, relatives and friends all think he is a humorous and funny person, and his other face, only Xiaoguang and his mother know. Since I was a child, I was often beaten inexplicably, or I was grabbed and kicked on the ground for a little thing, and even once, on the side of the road, I was beaten by a belt in the crowd. Every time he woke up in the middle of the night and heard the sound of his father coming back, he was so desperate that he felt that he might not survive the next day. And he treated Xiaoguang's mother even better, how many times he was beaten and couldn't get out of bed, how many times he had to take care of housework with a blue nose and swollen face, how many times he escaped from the house late at night, his mother walked in front, Xiaoguang followed behind, and sat by the railway at the old railway station until dawn. When Xiaoguang grew up, his mother told him, "If you think about it, you can take that step, but your mother really doesn't worry about you." ”

Xiaoguang's mother is a gentle and generous person, when she married his father, she mainly blamed those feudal society for the poison, which was almost an arranged marriage, because she didn't want to marry, she went on a hunger strike for two days, but she couldn't resist his grandfather's accusations and grandma's crying, and finally embarked on this road of no return. Xiaoguang is very strange, it's all like this, can't he really get a divorce? My mother said that he was too naïve, how could it be so easy to divorce in the 80s, and in the countryside, the rumors and rumors pierced people's backbones, and she would rather suffer how much she would rather suffer and suffer than let people know. Maybe it's forced by life, fate forced her to become a strong woman, the original family conditions were very ordinary, but there are young people in the upper and lower levels, and there is a big demon king in the middle, how big is this pressure, now think about it, this family has not collapsed, Xiaoguang is really lucky. At the beginning, she stood at the counter in the department store, she was not afraid of hardships, she was more discerning, she did a good job, and her popularity and reputation were also very good. But within a few years, the business was sluggish, and he was replaced by a related household and laid off. Then after a period of investigation, she found a storefront and started a small business, and her financial luck was good in those years, although she had Xiaoguang's father's spending and drinking, but she also slowly saved some savings. However, the good times did not last long, and within a few years, he encountered villains and was forced to close. Although she is a villain everywhere, but her fortune is getting more and more prosperous, even if she later did some business and the time is not very long, but she still earns more and more, and her financial management is also very lucky, the stock market fell sharply that year, but the stocks she bought made money, maybe God can't see it and wants to compensate her.

Fortunately, with such a tenacious mother as the backing, Zhang Xiaoguang can be said to have grown up in an environment of hell and heaven, and he has not grown crooked, but the shadow of his childhood lingers, he no longer believes in love, no longer believes in strangers, and is also afraid of being lively, being targeted by others, and suffering grievances silently, slowly, he feels that he looks down on everything, everything doesn't matter, others see him as a walking corpse, well, he himself sometimes feels like this, and his current mentality is that he doesn't want to live so much, but he doesn't particularly want to die, well, it's this strange state。

Today, I stayed up for another eight hours, and when I got home from work, it was still bright, I changed my clothes unchanged, turned on the air conditioner and computer, logged on to Weibo and Qidian.com, and listened to novels on my mobile phone while aimlessly looking for new novels. I feel that there are fewer and fewer good novels in the past two years, and it may be that his generation is already old, and he has been photographed on the beach, and he is not interested in all the popular novels on the list now, and at the same time, he also feels extremely disgusted with those who are kings and hegemons, what swords break the sky, what love, what drunken beauty knees and so on.

"Young people nowadays, do you really know what love is? Although he also likes to be cheerful and drenched, hoeing the strong and helping the weak, but don't go too far, okay? And then there's the harem stallion, which is so lacking in love, and needs to be satisfied in the story, hey, poor young man......"

I got home from work at about six o'clock, stayed up until more than ten o'clock in the evening, and almost didn't leave the computer except for pouring water and drinking, so I was still unwilling to rummage through the novels I was interested in.

At this time, the mobile phone rang, and it was WeChat from my mother.

"Tomorrow is your birthday, my mother is here to wish you a happy birthday in advance, I wish my son good health, happiness, and find a girlfriend as soon as possible! Also, go to bed early! Go to bed early and get up early!"

After WeChat, a big red envelope was also followed.

Xiaoguang was suddenly very moved, the only person she hurt is her mother now, because she is the only one who cares about whether she is doing well or not, worried that she has no support in the future, and she also desperately hopes that Xiaoguang can have a complete and warm home.

But Xiaoguang really felt tired and felt that he had lost the ability to love. He has been running away, thinking that if he doesn't face it, he can be safe.

Lying on the bed, tossing and turning, he had insomnia as always.

But this ordinary day is not destined to be peaceful.