Chapter 154: Introspection

The Eastern Afich Republic is one of the few countries with a stable internal situation in the war-torn island of Isenga, which is located in the southeasternmost part of the continent, about 6,000 kilometers from the nearest city in the United States of Mary, and it takes seven or eight hours to fly by plane, and about nine hours from Santa Ana to Sibe, the largest city in the west of East Rofe.

East Rotis is rich in minerals, especially gold reserves account for more than 43% of the world, two hundred years ago the East Lopitania Empire was a colony of the former sea blue star overlord Busitania Empire, until 92 years ago, the East Lopis Revolution broke out, in 23 years of unremitting struggle, the East Lopitania Empire was officially independent, and the Busitania Empire not only suffered a great loss, but also broke out in the country at the same time aristocratic civil strife, and finally the empire declined, and the United States took advantage of the situation.

Later, hackers hacked into the United States Archives Bureau and released many top-secret documents, including the United States' secret funding of the Eastern Luo Fei rebel army against the Busitanian Empire, and even the civil strife of the imperial nobles had the shadow of the United States, otherwise how could the United States replace the once invincible empire and become the new overlord of the sea blue star.

Perhaps because of this relationship, the East Philippines has always had friendly relations with the United States, and many mining enterprises in East Philippines have United States investment, but in recent years, some high-level officials in East Philippines have become more and more dissatisfied with this phenomenon, believing that the United States has seriously damaged their interests in local mining resources, and a national defense staff officer recently threatened to take back all foreign enterprises that have appropriated local resources, but it did not take long for this staff officer to disappear.

Now most of the passengers on this flight are business people who are on a business trip to East Luofei, and as soon as they get on the plane, the men and women around them who seem to be shrewd and capable are chatting for a while and then put on eye patches and fall asleep, only Chen An is alone looking at the white clouds in the sky outside the window and falling into deep thought.

He is self-reflecting, reflecting on the flaws that he presents in all aspects.

1. The reasons for self-aggrandizement and emotional out-of-control.

Answer: Self-aggrandizement is based on two points, Chen An, who has always been an ordinary person, has the power of a strong man on the bright side after obtaining extraordinary strength, but the power he has obtained is too short, and he has not really comprehended the mentality of a strong man; secondly, the object of his killing is basically unable to pose a real threat to himself, in other words, he has not met a real strong enemy, and the smooth road has gone too much, and his mentality naturally and quietly becomes inflated, probably subconsciously produces the illusion of invincibility in the world, for example, someone who plays games in the low-level area often kills all sides and wins MVP, this person will subconsciously think that he is a game master, but he didn't realize the ridiculousness of his previous thoughts until he was ravaged by the high-level duel with the pros.

Just as Chen An realized that his personal strength was not even as good as the scum in front of the United States, he realized that he had already fallen into self-aggrandizement, but fortunately he noticed it in time, otherwise the consequences would be absolutely unimaginable.

Emotional loss of control is related to self-expansion, when the self-aggrandizing mentality thinks that everything can be settled, the rational valve has been unable to control the emotional out-of-control, if the first emotional out-of-control is caused by extreme anger, the subsequent loss of control is the result of self-expansion constantly weakening the rational valve.

2. Now that we understand the cause, how can we improve it?

Answer: To avoid the resurgence of self-expansion, clarify the state of mind, and recognize the bottom line and path of self-persistence, which can abide by the Taoist philosophical concept of "goodness is like water".

Sixteen words.

The sea is inclusive, there is tolerance, the wall is thousands, and there is no desire to be rigid.

It's easier said than done, and if everyone can do this, I'm afraid the world will be full of saints.

Chen An knows that he still has a long way to go and needs to keep going.

3. Motives for killing and revenge.

Answer: When he came to the island of Battle Royale, he could have other choices, so why did he choose the simplest and most brutal means of killing, and didn't this fall into the hands of the organizers? If he killed a group of hopeless death row prisoners, he could have a clear conscience, but could he do other things with a clear conscience? Threatening innocent Vera and Anderson, is this what the big husband did? In order to take revenge on the group, can he recklessly destroy the original bottom line again and again?

What is the motive for revenge on the syndicate? Do they think that the battle royale game secretly organized by the syndicate is against human nature and must be destroyed? But the question is that even if he kills all the members of the syndicate board of directors, the huge syndicate will not be disbanded, and even after he leaves, the battle royale game will still appear, and the Felix syndicate will not hold it, but the other international syndicates will be held by the dogs? If he can't get used to this, what is the best thing to do? The best way is to make a revolution, to unite the proletarians of the whole world, to free the whole society from all exploitation, oppression, class divisions and class struggles.

Unfortunately, he didn't have the time or the ability to do so, so he could only rely on his own brutal methods to solve the problem temporarily.

Doing or not doing is two different things, whether Chen An is from this world or not, the bottom line he adheres to does not approve of what Felix Group has done, as a victim of it, even if it is not for others, he has a reason to seek justice for himself.

Under the self-questioning and self-answering in his heart, Chen An slowly cleared away the fog in his heart, some things don't care about right or wrong, don't care about light, don't care about justice, but ask for the understanding of spiritual thoughts.

His path is his own, not someone else's, and if he blindly compromises, imitates and avoids, he will slowly lose his true self.

When the plane landed at Xibai City Airport, Chen An got off the plane and called a taxi outside the airport to go to Mary's Tavern at No. 92 Queens.

"Is it the first time sir to come to East Luofei?"

On the road, the driver looked at Chen An in the rear mirror intentionally or unintentionally and asked.

"Yes. Chen An quietly looked at the scenery outside the window.

"You're looking for someone, aren't you?" said the driver.

"How do you know?" asked Chen An.

"The first time I came to East Luofei, I went to Mary's Tavern, and I basically came to find someone. The driver smiled.

"Can you tell me what kind of place Mary's Tavern is?" Chen An said with a smile. "Although my friend told me to go to Mary's Tavern to find him, I didn't know why. ”

"Mary's Tavern is inconspicuous in the eyes of ordinary people, but it is very famous among some special people, because it is the largest intelligence gathering place in the Eastern Tilapia Underground World. "Drivers who are locals seem to know a lot about these things.

"Won't the government intervene?" Mr. Chen said.

"No, because sometimes the government may turn to Mary's Tavern if they want to find someone. The driver said.

"The energy of this Mary's Tavern is really not to be underestimated!" Chen An sighed lightly.

"It's not about the energy that can't be measured, the Mary Tavern doesn't actually affect the government's rule, it's just a convenient place for some people to ask for information, if the energy of the Mary Tavern can really affect the local social order, the government will definitely eradicate it as soon as possible. The driver said eloquently.

"You know so much. Chen Andao.

"After all, I'm from Queens, and I still know these things, not to mention, I've received many guests like you, and I like you very much. The driver laughed.

When the taxi arrived at Mary's Tavern, Chen An finally understood why he said that he liked guests like him, because the car drove for more than an hour, and the fee was naturally much more expensive, and not long after Chen An got off the car, someone immediately took the taxi he just took to the airport, and it was like this every day, easy and profitable, who doesn't like it.

Mary's Tavern is a fairly ordinary tavern with many shops, inns, restaurants in the surrounding streets, which at first glance feel very unremarkable.

Pushing open the wooden door of the bar and entering, the guests at the bar all looked at him, and in a moment, they withdrew their gaze.

There are so many people in a bar in broad daylight?

Chen Anxin thought about it, slowly walked to the bar, and immediately saw a bartender in a neat and clean uniform wiping his wine glass.

The bartender was a gray-haired, spirited old man, whose age is difficult to accurately judge, probably in the range of 55-75.

"What's the cup?" the old man greeted politely after seeing Chen An sit down.

"My friend asked me to come here to him. Chen An directly explained his intentions.

"What's the cup?" said the old man, deaf to him.

"A light beer. Chen An said thoughtfully.

"Give. ”

The old man took out a wine glass and a bottle of wine from under the bar, filled it and handed it to Chen An.

When Chen An took a sip of wine, the old man handed him a pen and paper.

"Write the other person's name, don't let people see it. ”

Chen An knowingly wrote Ed's name and handed it to the old man.

The old man looked at it, turned around and walked into the bar with a note, and soon the old man walked out and handed a note to Chen An at the same time.

"Here's where he is now. ”

"Thank you. ”

Chen An took the note and looked at Farm No. 17 in the north of Mansk.

"How much?"

"No, the person you're looking for has already paid. The old man pointed to the wine glass on the countertop.

Chen An nodded, turned around and left the bar.

Shortly after leaving the bar, he bought a map from a nearby newspaper and found the address given by Ed, Mansk was in the east of Si Bai City, there was no direct airplane, and the fastest means of transportation was the train.

Chen An, who understood clearly, immediately went to the train station to buy a ticket, and boarded the train to Mansk in the evening, the train drove for six hours to arrive in Mansk, and it was already early in the morning when he arrived at the place.

Mansk is a small town dominated by agriculture and animal husbandry, and the degree of prosperity naturally cannot be compared with Xibai City, when I first arrived at the place, the outside of the train station was very deserted, only a few taxi drivers gathered together to smoke and chat, and when they saw Chen An, they rushed forward to solicit passengers.

At first, Chen An wanted to let the driver drive directly to No. 17 Farm in the north, but the driver refused on the grounds that the road was too far and it was unsafe to drive at night.

It wasn't until the next day that Chen An finally called a taxi to Farm No. 17 that he understood why the previous driver was reluctant to take him at night, because the second half of the journey from Farm No. 10 had no formally repaired cement roads, all of which were potholed dirt roads, and once they fell into some inconspicuous dirt pits, the car was likely to be at risk of breaking down.

Starting at 7:10 in the morning, the taxi resisted the vicinity of the farm around the fence at about 12:30 noon, and after paying the driver double the fare, Chen An, who was sore and weak, got out of the car and stepped on the ground before finally feeling steady.

Shortly after the taxi turned around and left, a dark shadow came from the house on the distant farm, apparently because the arrival of the taxi had alarmed the people on the farm.

Chen An slowly walked towards the so-called Black Shadow, because the Black Shadow was actually a black painted pickup truck, which looked very domineering on the outside, like a Raptor F150, and could easily drive on rough roads.

In a minute or two, the black pickup truck braked sharply and stopped when it was approaching Chen An, the car door opened, and Ed, dressed as a farmer, jumped out, he opened his hands, laughed and hugged Chen An warmly.

"Hey, man, you've finally figured it out and come to us?"

"Something happened and I had to take refuge with you. After hugging, Chen An shook his head helplessly.

"Let's get in the car first. Ed gestured and laughed. "I'm sure someone will be especially happy when you come. ”

Boarding the pickup truck, Ed first used the intercom in the car to tell the people in the house that everything was okay and that there would be a surprise for them.

"Is there anyone on the group who is looking for trouble with you?"

After getting into the car, Chen An noticed that there were several guns in the car, and from Ed's communication contacts, he could see that he was cautious on the outside and fine on the inside.

"Don't worry, since leaving the Republic of Waricho, we have all changed our new identities, as long as we don't show up in front of the group, they won't be able to find us, but we have indeed encountered a little problem recently. Ed's expression slowly turned serious.

"Is something wrong?" Chen Andao.

"You'll remember that we extorted 10 million dollars from the Republic of Waricho. Ed said.

"Of course, could it be that the matter has something to do with this money?" Chen Andao.

"Yes, our smugglers of the freighter found out about this, and as a result, the lion opened his mouth and temporarily raised the price, two million gold ...... per person," Ed sneered. "Later, I said yes, but I preemptively killed them before I got off the ship. ”

"Didn't you hide the news?" Chen An instantly understood.

"Yes, now the companions of this group have been investigating our whereabouts, so after Mansk has taken root, we don't dare to go out so as not to expose ourselves. Ed sighed, turned to look at Chen An and smiled. "But now that you're here, we have nothing to worry about. ”