Han Bing and others are going to participate in the clan competition, but the author is even more longing because he has fled the place of his first love that he has been waiting for for many years.

She held back her inner emotions, but she kept looking at his photos on the website, and now, she couldn't help it and began to write to him again.

I want to ask him to appear in front of him and come to see him.

Xie Zebo:

It seems that I have been away for some days, but now the weather is finally clearer, and I went out for a walk.

I wanted to make my mother-in-law happy and ask my grandfather to buy her a silk scarf as a gift for Thanksgiving - after all, in foreign movies, lovers will give silk scarves when they give gifts to each other.

But even if I said that my mouth was dry, my throat ached, and even coquettish all the way on the street, he was indifferent, very failed and boring.

The mother-in-law obviously said coquettishly, "You can go without eating meat for a year", and I really want to get a gift from him - and my mother-in-law is also very considerate to him, but when he walked on the bridge with me, he said that it was "corruption", not to mention that he didn't fall in love, and he didn't see each other for three or five years, so there was no need to give gifts - fainted to death, I asked him to buy a silk scarf with his pension, is that corruption?

Can't you fall in love every day when you're old?

It's because you're old that you should cherish every day together, shouldn't you?

When a woman starts a family with a man, she gives up her freedom – not really, I didn't give myself freedom when I wasn't married.

In 2012, my mother always said that the neighbors around her laughed at her and that her daughter couldn't get married.

So, I asked him to have a wedding with me.

On the day of the wedding, many of my mother's family members did not come.

Over the years, I've only called my mom once – and on the first day of our wedding, I called her.

But she didn't want to come—because, when she saw him, she didn't agree.

It was my brother's wedding, and when I took him to the wedding, my mom sat at the dinner table with my mother-in-law, and told me behind his back that she wanted to find me a new partner - and said that I looked like Zhang Mi.

Even though she didn't come, I couldn't help but get married, after all, the wedding card was sent - we had been at odds before the wedding, and we wanted to cancel it, but my mother said she had a treat.

So, I took a leave of absence to take wedding photos and held my own creative "Blue Dream, 1314" wedding.

I thought that the LED screen at the wedding scene could play a MV of the growth process of both parties, but I had too many things to do, so I only found some existing photos around me and made an electronic album.

I am not very happy about the future of many mothers' families - especially this year's Chinese New Year, Lele said that his uncle got married, and he still wore a suit, I was very envious, jealous and hateful.

The wedding day was too busy and busy until late.

But the next morning, while I was still sleeping, he sat on the sofa in the living room and called his mother, claiming that we were going to divorce.

And said that my wedding to him was just a farce for relatives and friends on both sides.

Then his parents and Feifei's parents came up to persuade me - mistakenly thinking that I was going to divorce.

I was lying in the bed, and after being noisy and noisy by them, I was so aggrieved that I got up from the bed, pointed to them and said, "This is my house, please go out." Do you think my dad is dead, so no one can help me?"

I didn't want to talk to them like that, but I was so tired and at a loss.

In addition, I was very sad - many, many of my relatives were reluctant to come to my wedding, and even my classmates only wanted the day to be a class reunion, and did not want to admit that I was married. Not to mention friends, no one approves.

Later, my sister got married, there was a family group, and even my brother came back from Shanghai, and I thought I was never married—it was just a monkey show for my mother.

Later, as I told him the day after the wedding, as long as you say divorce once, we will leave.

He once said that I was his first love.

So I said that I would protect his first love, so that the first love can blossom and bear fruit and have a happy life.

But I never dared to fight for my first love, and I didn't dare to think about having my first love.

A few years ago, a classmate introduced me to someone on the phone, saying that he was a person who repaired a house at Wulukou.

I didn't know who he was talking about, but I politely refused: "What's the point of getting married? ”

Actually, because in Mianzhu, there are you.

And you, have always lived in my heart.

I always thought that as long as I always had you in my heart, this life would be enough.

Who, then, would I want to marry?

Xie Zebo, today is November 22, 2017, I am in Manhattan, Mianyang, my mother's house.

At 8:30 a.m., Mr. Qin, who lives next door to the lawyer's house, suddenly opened the window to answer the phone and chatted with someone about a certain couplet—he thought that the person who was in the couplet was not the right couplet.

Then he mentioned the "Yellow River" and said that it was the soul of China. It reminds me of the Yellow River color TV that my father bought from Mianyang when I was a child, and I also remembered that I had a classmate in Mianyang, named Huanghe.

He also talked about the Yellow River Cantata, so I got out of bed with a grunt, pushed open the glass window, and looked at him.

Strange to say, for some reason, every night in bed these days, I spend more than an hour reading the letters written to you in books on the Internet, which is very funny.

I wrote that letter in order to forget the past, but why did it arouse my feelings, so I would find a lot of stories posted in 2015 on the Internet to remind myself of what happened that year.

In fact, I want to remind myself how much I like Wang Xiaoman, whom I have never met, that year - is it so easy for me to change my mind, and I was confused by you 19 years ago?

Hey!

And that year, only Long Bingbing called me once—a phone call that lasted for more than an hour.

He said that if no one wants me to write to the end, he will ask me to live according to my own ideas, and love me well and give me a happy life.

Secondly, my apprentice is Xiao Wuxie, who often calls me long-distance and asks me about writing [Emperor Dream]. Even before he went out to open a room with his classmates for the first time on February 14, he reported it to me.

Afterwards, he said that he felt sorry for Xiao Tianzhen - I asked him to find Xiao Tianzhen, after all, he was someone he liked for two years.

But I don't understand, he was a little virgin at that time, how could he write so straightforwardly - like a veteran in love.

It was a good year anyway, after all, I forgot about you, I forgot about love, and I didn't know what it was like to miss someone - well, I admit it, as if I didn't miss anyone much - I was embarrassed to say anything to my face, super shy.

So all along, I have never mentioned my first love to anyone, and I have always said that I have no first love.

Even if other people's self-righteous speculation, I don't refute it—so that everyone doesn't know that my first love is your early love.

This summer, at the hotel in Shihezi, opposite lived Wang Zhizhi - I think it was Wang Zhizhi, and I checked his photos on the Internet for comparison. Sure enough, it was him.

I was still numb, ran to his room, and told him: Please invite him to come to our Mianzhu as a teacher.

When I decided to leave Shihezi, I thought that my life was coming to an end, and I would never see you again, or I couldn't feel your breath very close to you.

It was the third day of acupuncture treatment, and I was lying motionless on the bed, with steel needles inserted in my hands and wrists, lower legs, and several places in my brain (each needle was inserted into my body by an inch)—I didn't dare to move anyway, for fear that the long needle would break, and I even wondered if it was some kind of mysterious therapy that made me forget the past—and was Grandpa Wang a doctoral supervisor of the scientific research institute?

When I was crying and crying, and I kept begging for mercy and not to be cured with acupuncture.

My mother and Grandpa Wang stood at the head of the bed, looking down at me, and she said sharply, "Don't you keep saying that you are strong? ”

With that, they went out and closed the door.

And I was lying on the bed alone crying, feeling that I might not be able to leave this world in 15 minutes as Grandpa Wang said.

When I was dying, I suddenly remembered you.

I remember when I drowned, you jumped down and hugged me for the first time, leaving me to struggle in your arms.

I also think of us lying in bed, talking.

The more I thought about it, the louder I cried.

I even thought it would be nice if you could show up out of nowhere. That would help me rip off the needles and lead me to escape.

But you didn't show up — you didn't show up in front of me for 19 years and 4 months.

It was also on that day that I realized that I was not brave, that I had always been a coward.

You're somewhere less than 20 kilometers from me, and I don't dare step in to find you.

When I saw Li Boer in the square, he was still the same as he was in school—even I suspected that he was the son of Uncle Ma whom I had met in Changji.

When I called you on a landline at the gate of Qiankun, the person who answered the phone was obviously a lawyer, and I was embarrassed to ask which Qin Qin I was?—— Okay, although I haven't seen you for 19 years, I don't know what your voice is now--but I know, you will never ask me like that? Could it be that you found N women with the same name and surname as me?

On November 15, my mother-in-law called and asked who, "Is there anyone to receive you?"

And she told me during the meal that some people are spending money to lose weight.

I just noticed that your photo had become thinner that day — I hadn't seen your photo online for years, except for your youthful student photo.

I found out that when your student took the photo, Zhou was studying in Switzerland, basically we often watched the screen, and I also saw several foreign classmates who lived together when he was studying abroad, and I saw one by one in the video, especially one of them, very handsome. Even when I was drinking tea and talking about things in Liangmuyuan, he video chatted with me — usually about his girlfriend in China. I don't know if his current wife is the girlfriend he used to mention to me back then?

At that time, I also agreed with Jiang in Singapore that if I got married and had a honeymoon, I would go to Singapore to find him and ask him to take me to all the fun places in Singapore - he would give money anyway. Ha ha.