"You said your mom had a son who grew up in college. I looked at Shi Xia, who was a little stunned, "You still support him to continue his studies." ”

"He was a proud child. It spoke of its brother in a tone as if it were not the little boy it had hated, "I persuaded him again and again, and he was finally willing to go to college, and I also came to the city where his school was located, so that it would be convenient to take care of him, and then his journey was smooth, the school he wanted to go to the most, his favorite major, and the best students." ”

"So you're still just working?" I suddenly remembered the letter I had written for it.

Shi Xia nodded.

"But what about the letter?" I had a bad feeling.

"That's what my brother wrote to my mother. Shi Xia took several deep breaths, "It's just that he can't write anymore." ”

"He... What's wrong?"

"You humans, you should call it an accident. Shi Xia said, "He worked too hard, too serious, and blamed me, if I could supervise him to go to bed early that night, if I could bring him more good food every day, if I could not be afraid that I would affect his body and avoid meeting him, he would definitely not fall that night and never get up again." ”

“... If you don't want to say it, don't say it. "I can't take it anymore, it's not what I imagined.

"It's okay," Shi Xia waved his hand, "He once said that he practiced every day until it was very late and affected his dormitory classmates, so I helped him rent a house, he could go and live there when he needed it, and I would send him something from time to time, but each time it would only stay for a short time, on the one hand, I often had to work night shifts, and on the other hand, I was afraid that I would affect his body." But I ignored that his exhaustion was enough for him to sleep, and by the time I got to the house the next day, I could no longer feel the breath of his life. ”

“... Youkai can see the physical condition of human beings. ”

"Yes, that's why I blame myself, I have seen so many people's diseases, but I neglected him who was closest to me for fear of hurting my brother, I didn't even see his deteriorating vitality, I was really a derelict brother. Shi Xia said, "If my mother knew the news, she would definitely not be able to stand it, so I decided to imitate my younger brother to write to her." ”

"That's why you found me," I said, "wait, human death is not such a simple thing, hospitals, schools, can't they all be unknown?"

"I don't know. ”

"How is that possible!"

"Because, I live like my brother. After Shi Xia finished speaking, his face blurred for a while, and in a blink of an eye, he had become another boy in the photo, "I went to school instead of him, went to participate in activities, and went to be careful about human contact." ”

"But what about your mother? you can't keep her due. ”

"Mom's time is running out, I'm already a derelict brother, I can't be a derelict son anymore, the last time I came home, her life was already weak, and instead of leaving with sadness, it is better to leave with satisfaction. Shi Xia said, "I will change different roles at different times every year to go home to visit my mother, sometimes my younger brother, sometimes myself, in fact, after a long time, I can't figure out who I am." ”

"Sorry, I don't know what I'm supposed to say right now. I said.

"It's okay, no need for comfort. Shi Xia looked at me with the face of a younger brother, but his eyes were clearly a monster, or rather, a person, "Ye Ke, don't mind if I call your name directly, right? If you can, I want you to send me away and send me back to that no-man's land." ”

"Why?" I asked, "you still have your mother and your brother's unfinished life." ”

"Mom was too weak for me to approach her anymore. It said, "And the life of the younger brother... I have nothing to worry about when my mother is gone, and I have come to you in the hope that you will help me to keep communicating with my mother in the little time I have left, and she is so weak that even the objects I have touched will affect her. ”

"You've worked hard so hard not to hurt humans. I said.

"But it's impossible for my current demonic power not to hurt ordinary people, it's not something I can control. Shi Xia said, "This kind of physique is no longer suitable for staying in the human world. It looked at me pleadingly, "I've always wanted to be a human being, because human beings have feelings, families, and all sorts of interesting things. The appearance of my mother made me yearn to be a person, and the appearance of my brother redeemed my monster heart. But Ye Ke, being a human being, is really too difficult and too bitter. ”

I looked at Shixia in front of me, this youkai who had made countless contradictory decisions, and I didn't know what to say.

When it doesn't love human beings, it lives a chic and boring life, when it just falls in love with human beings, it lives cautiously but happily, when it really gives its heart to human beings, it loses the ability to live with human beings, and when it truly understands human beings, the person it loves the most will soon die.

"If you really want me to do this," I said, pulling out the paper spirit, "I promise you." ”

Shi Xia cast a grateful look.

"But not today, you still have something to do. ”

"I understand, but I can't do anything about Mom..."

"No," I said, "you do look so much like a human that you forget you have a monster companion." ”

“... Tsubaki, huh..."

"I don't know what's going on between you, but it seems that you still have some things that you haven't made clear. In general, humans have friends in addition to their families. If you can't do it yourself, it's not bad to trust your friends, which is also one of the treasures of mankind. I said, "If you can't do it, go to Tsubaki for help, she can definitely do it now." ”

Shi Xia seemed to hesitate, his brows furrowed and loosened, and when he finally raised his head, he had changed back to his own appearance.

"The departure of the master of Tsubaki does have something to do with me. When I came to her, her master was already very weak, and I just wanted to tell her that the person was going to die soon, but I still couldn't avoid the harm I caused to that person, and I inadvertently absorbed part of the life force of that person, and I could say that I was the reason for hastening his death. It said, "I don't expect Tsubaki to forgive me for doing such a thing." ”

"With her temper, she will definitely not forgive you. I said, "It's good that I didn't kill you, but that doesn't mean she won't help you take care of your mother." ”

"She," Shi Xia asked cautiously, "is she really capable of turning into a human form? ”

I nodded.

"I really envy her. Shi Xia said, "You can rely on your own efforts to form a fate with human beings, so as to increase your strength, unlike Jinhua cats who can only survive by seizing power, I must have done heinous things in my last life, and I will become a Jinhua cat in this life." ”

"You are not just a previous life, the ghost knows what immoral things you did in your previous life!" Tsubaki's voice suddenly appeared from the corner.

Her dyed black hair looked no different from that of an ordinary little girl.

"If you want to be human, it's not that easy. Tsubaki walked over and said, "That's right, we agreed to be the big monster, we said that we would be able to compete to see who can live like a human faster," she stopped beside me, "But you've lived like a human being, why haven't you learned how they can deal with their lives?"

Shi Xia stood in place, speechless.

(End of chapter)