"Let's not talk about your mental and psychological problems, you can treat me as a friend who met in Pingshui first, and casually talk about what you think in your heart now. ”

Early one morning on the weekend, Chen An, who received a call from Consultant Wang, immediately rushed to the agreed place to meet Professor Xu Lan.

The meeting place was in a park near Professor Xu Lan's residential community, and when the two met each other, he was leisurely exercising with a group of aunts and uncles playing tai chi.

In the end, the three of them sat down casually under a gazebo, and after greeting each other and introducing each other, Professor Xu Lan said this sentence in a gentle tone.

"Professor Xu, to be honest, I'm very confused now, if I ignore the changes that have happened in me, I can basically live a normal life, and that's what I've done these days, but for some reason, in the dead of night, I feel alienated from the world...... I don't know what I'm thinking, I've tried hard to live a normal and ordinary life, and this has always been my previous state of mind, but since that dream, my state of mind has quietly changed, and it seems that I am no longer willing to be plain......"

Chen An thought silently for a while, and after considering the language, he confided in Professor Xu Lan.

"Do you like a dull life?" asked Professor Xu Lan with a smile.

"I like it, otherwise I wouldn't have gone back to my hometown to work as soon as I graduated, instead of staying in the big city and working hard, I broke up with my original girlfriend for this matter. Chen An said truthfully.

"But why did you choose to come to Pengcheng to work hard?" Professor Xu Lan said.

"It turned out that when I was in a dream, someone once said to me that I was a coward who didn't dare to face life, and at that time I thought that some of what she said was very reasonable, so I decided to make a change, but finally came to Pengcheng, and after that dream, I found that she was not all right, after all, everyone has the right to choose their own life, and other people's fingers are just their thoughts, not your own thoughts...... Unfortunately, it was too late. Chen An said in a deep voice.

"Are you saying you've had the same dream before?" said Wang Zaiqi, who was sitting next to Professor Xu Lan, with his eyes lit up.

"Yes. Chen An nodded.

"I want to ask, if you continue to stick to your original idea and stay in your hometown, will you still have the changes you have now?" Professor Xu Lan stretched out his hand to stop Wang Zaiqi's questioning, but continued to take Chen An's words and asked.

"I don't want to lie to myself, the answer is yes. Chen An was silent for a moment and said. "As long as the next dream still appears, I will definitely change, and this is a fact that even I can't change. ”

"Tell us about your true state of mind right now, especially about your surroundings and your personal thoughts. Professor Xu Lan said.

“...... Do you really want to listen to it? Maybe my true state of mind is uncomfortable. Chen An hesitated.

"Hehe, I'm a lot old, I haven't seen any messy people and things, and as a psychiatrist, we must accurately understand the patient's truest state of mind in order to know what kind of mental and psychological problems have occurred in him. Professor Xu Lan shook his head and smiled.

"Well, in that case, I'll be honest. ”

Chen An sighed at this, and even his expression became solemn.

"Now my truest state of mind is to look down on all living beings, and I am like a passer-by in the world anytime and anywhere, for example, many people in modern society are very interested in wealth, fame and fortune, but in my eyes it is quite interesting...... I know that the life of a powerful and wealthy Venerable Master is very nourishing and happy, and if I want to, I can do it with a little effort, and this is not that I am talking big, because I really have the ability......"

"Then why didn't you do it?" Professor Xu Lan said.

"Because I don't want to expose too many of my secrets and cause a lot of trouble, and I don't want to lose too much of my freedom, I'm starting to think about when I'm leaving. Chen Andao.

"Aren't you afraid that we will expose your secret?" Wang Zaiqi couldn't help but say.

"I'm looking for you to solve my psychological problems, but if you have a great impact on my life because of this, I'm sorry, I'm afraid I won't be able to control myself and kill you. Chen An said indifferently. "After all, there is no death penalty for a psychotic killing. ”

Professor Xu and Wang Zaiqi were stunned, as if they didn't expect Chen An to threaten them.

"I can tell from you that you seem to have a great disregard for human life now, and you don't even have the psychological burden to kill. Professor Xu Lan came back to his senses and calmed down.

"If you've killed thousands of people with your own hands, maybe you'll have the same mentality as me. Chen An said calmly. "It's because of something wrong with my mindset that I found you. ”

"But that's a dream after all, it's not reality......" Wang Zaiqi said speechlessly.

"Doctor Wang, do you seem to have forgotten the fear I gave you?" Chen An glanced at him.

Wang Zaiqi immediately closed his mouth after hearing this, but Professor Xu Lan said to Chen An thoughtfully. "Mr. Chen An, can you use your ability to stimulate Xiao Wang again?"

"Are you sure you need to try? If you're not mentally strong enough, you're going to die. Chen An said cautiously.

"Hehe, if there is anyone who can become a doctor who is psychologically fragile, you can rest assured. Professor Xu Lan waved his hand.

"Well, I hope you don't regret it. ”

As soon as the words fell, Chen An once again released the murderous aura condensed into substance on his body towards the other party.

Suddenly, Wang Zaiqi's face turned pale, and his whole person sat down on the ground with fear on his face, but Professor Xu Lan closed his eyes tightly, as if he was forcibly enduring the influence that Chen An exerted on him.

After a while, the two slowly returned to normal, obviously Chen An withdrew his murderous aura.

"Will you kill again?"

After Professor Xu Lan opened his eyes, he asked Chen An directly.

"I may still kill people in my dreams, but in reality, I will not easily challenge the bottom line of the country and the law. Chen Andao.

"To paraphrase a novel that you young people love to read, you're now in the dark. Professor Xu Lan sighed lightly. "You are able to control yourself now, which means that you still retain your humanity, but your temperament has become very extreme, to put it mildly, you are a time bomb, once stimulated, you are likely to be unable to control yourself, and you think that violence can solve all problems, and you will not think about any consequences at all...... If this continues, I'm afraid you'll gradually degrade your sanity and eventually become a lawless murderer. ”

"Yes, I am also aware of the problem you said, Professor Xu, in terms of a person's normal three views, my existence is already a sin, but another voice came out of my heart and said to me, do I need a person's normal three views? If I can live well all the time, what is the use of normal three views for me?" Chen Anfei explained.

"That's why I said you're in the middle of it. Professor Xu Lan couldn't help but say seriously. "If it was before, would you think about these questions? No, because only when you feel guilty will you give yourself a reason, you have to convince yourself, I'm right, I'm right, but you didn't think that the more you think like this, the more it will pull you into an abyss that is bottomless, and sooner or later you will regret it. ”

"What should I do?" Chen An said gloomily. "Sometimes I don't know who I am, it's fine, but when it happens, I will follow my own happy way to solve the problem, even if I know it's not for me, I can't control myself. ”

"Do you think you're still alone?" Professor Xu said.

“...... I'm still human, but I'm starting to feel like I'm out of the human realm. Chen An gave an ambiguous answer.

"If you think you're still a human being, if you still want to be a normal person and live a normal life, then you forget about everything, especially forget your past self and start anew, think about your family, your friends, your lover, you have the ability to do all this. Professor Xu said seriously with a straight face. "But if you don't think of yourself as a person anymore, or if you can't help but be out of the human category, then you don't want to be a human at all......"

"Professor Xu, what do you mean by that?" Chen An was puzzled.

"Stay away from the world, don't be happy with things, don't be sad with yourself, and be too forgetful from now on. ”

Is this really what a professor should say?

Chen An thought in his heart, listening to the other party's meaning, as if he was planning to exhort himself to believe in Taoist thoughts.

Or, the subtext of Professor Xu's subtext means that you are not worried that you will not be able to control yourself?

"I don't have the idea of being a Taoist monk. ”

So Chen An said directly.

"No one wants you to be a Taoist monk, I just want to tell you to calm your mind as calmly as possible. Professor Xu said. "Do you need me to teach you the specific method?"

"I'll try it slowly. Chen Anming realized.

"There are so many troubles in the world that it's hard for everyone not to be affected by emotions, and it's best to stay on the sidelines unless you have to. Professor Xu said.

"But if someone kills or robs someone on the road, I can't help but stand up and do justice. Chen An thought.

"You can do justice, that's a good mentality, but you always have to remember that justice is justice, but you can't forget the original pure thoughts because of justice. Professor Xu said.

"I don't know what you mean. Chen Andao.

"Do you understand?" Professor Xu suddenly read a poem and explained.

"Roughly understood. ”

Chen An nodded as if he didn't understand.

"Well, I'll leave you a phone number, and call me if you can't figure it out if you can't figure it out. ”

As he spoke, Professor Xu told Chen An his personal phone number.

"Thank you so much, Professor Xu. ”

Chen An thanked him after remembering the phone.

"You young man, isn't it good now?" Professor Xu stood up and said with a smile. "It's probably not a bad thing to stay the same, but aside, I have something to go first. ”

"I'm sorry, Mr. Chen, I also have something to do with the teacher first, you can go back first. Wang Zaiqi on the side apologized to Chen An and immediately followed his teacher.

After the two left the park, Wang Zaiqi, who had rarely spoken before, finally couldn't bear to say to Professor Xu Lan. "I said, teacher, you have had too many specious things with the other person, haven't you? In my opinion, that guy really has a mental problem, a typical antisocial personality disorder, if it weren't for his magical ability to influence the will of others that is worth studying, this kind of person should have been put in a mental hospital a long time ago. ”

"Xiao Wang, do you believe what he said?" Professor Xu Lan said with a calm face.

"What are the words?" said Wang Zaiqi.

"The effect of dreams on him. Professor Xu Lan pointed out.

"Believe it. Wang Zaiqi frowned. "I've been ignoring the conjecture that if he has a split personality, then everything might be explained. ”

"Give him up. Professor Xu Lan said. "Your suspicions are correct. ”

"Ah......" Wang Zaiqi looked at his teacher in disbelief.

"Think about it, what kind of person did he look like just now?" Professor Xu Lan said.

“...... Babbling mental patients. Wang Zaiqi said silently.

"Since you all have this kind of thought, then why bother with it anymore?" Professor Xu Lan said. "That's why I'm going to talk about the mess that caters to his problems later. ”

"But how to explain his magical ability to affect the senses of others?" Wang Zaiqi was still unwilling.

"The product of the combination of aura and hypnosis, a very clever technique. Professor Xu Lan said. "I'll admit that this approach appeals to me, but I don't want to deal with a schizophrenic person anymore, especially someone with an antisocial personality. ”

"And you call him back?"

"The call is fake. ”