Luo Qiming was very apprehensive when he saw the village chief's grandfather have such a formal attitude towards him for the first time. He sat down on the small stone pier next to the stone chessboard of the village chief's grandfather's house, waiting for the village chief's next step.

The village chief took two puffs of cigarette and one mouth very hard, and his face suddenly became confused: "You are also an adult, and your relatives are gone, so you should know some things." Actually, your mother didn't have the ability to give birth to children, and your grandfather picked them up when he was working in the fields with your father. ”

Luo Qiming's head was numb as soon as he buzzed, the village chief's expression was unprecedentedly serious, he was by no means joking with him, he knew since he was a child that the village chief's grandfather was a person who spit out of the pit, and he didn't make up his reasons: "Your mother has been married to your father for two years, and her belly is not big, and then she went to the factory hospital to see a doctor, and the doctor checked out that your mother's nest is underdeveloped and has no reproductive function." During that time, your mother was very depressed, but one day, your father was resting and helping your grandfather to work in the fields, and found you in a ditch by the ridge, and there was a note written on it, on which a sentence was written, to find the stars of enlightenment in this life, or in traditional Chinese. Your grandfather read this note and felt that you should have been deliberately abandoned, your father insisted on adopting you at that time, and then I took your father and mother to give you a household registration, and the birthday was set on the day I picked you up. This is your real life experience, the village chief grandfather did not say a word of nonsense to you, if there is, let the grandfather not die well, and there is no place to bury the dead. ”

Luo Qiming couldn't remember how he got out of the village chief's house, and those clear whispers sounded in his ears again—since he was stabbed in the hospital, there have been frequent auditory hallucinations. And later he went to two hospitals for examinations, and the results showed that his brain waves were abnormal. More and more voices questioned him in an irritable tone in his ear: "Did you pick it up?" "Who are you?" "Who is Luo Qiming?" "Are you fatherless and mother······less?"

The sound grew louder and louder, and he began to lose his ability to hear clearly, and his vision became more and more blurry. Luo Qiming shook his head violently to keep himself awake, and the moment of sobriety made him hear a sentence clearly: "Who is Ximen Peak!?" His eyes suddenly became clear, and his thinking ability returned to his brain, but the inertia of messy impact made him stunned in place, and there was only one question in his mind: "Who is Ximen Peak!?"

Luo Qiming was sure that he really heard this sentence in his ears, if it was an illusion under his madness, then this hallucination was too realistic, and when this question appeared, he suddenly woke up. He would rather lie to himself, even if he is not sure, he will give himself a hope, a chance to live: "Ximen Feng! Won't it be my biological father's name?!" Luo Qiming decided that after going back to do business with Mentong this time, he would find his family and ask them why they abandoned him.

This way of thinking is often only found by naïve graduates, but how many people can persevere? Luo Qiming soon lost his original intention in the busyness and brilliance of social life, except for the question of who Ximen Feng could keep hearing from midnight dreams, he had long since remembered his identity for this name. He opened an Internet café with Wang Qiang, which was a little difficult at first, and Wang Qiang's father also gave financial support, but everything else was left to them on their own, and he didn't think that his son and Luo Qiming were incapable of standing on their own. Luo Qiming learned to smoke and hand cigarettes, learned to sing old boys crying in KTV, and learned to nod in front of the leaders of the fire and cultural departments. He doesn't often surf the Internet, but he often gets drunk and dreams back at midnight, and the feeling of emptiness hits his heart one after another. He doesn't know what's wrong with him, he has a stable income, and he has a life that many people envy. But every time he stared at himself in the mirror, he felt that he was no longer real.

Luo Qiming often goes to a bar called Lane Tang, the name is a bit earthy, and the facilities are a bit antique. But the resident singers in it are all powerful singers with real materials. Luo Qiming often packs a card bag alone, asks for a bottle of Chivas Revas that he knows is fake wine, and looks at the colorful stage alone in the corner. Three points of Chivas Regal, seven points of green tea, and two pieces of ice have become his fixed pairing, and he will drink a mouthful. There are often some inexplicable women who come to set up, but he never leaves any of them on the booth. Until one day, a strange woman appeared beside him, and there was no temperature in the woman's temperament, but it didn't make Luo Qiming hate it. She didn't say a word, just walked straight over, pushed the Chivas Regal in front of Luo Qiming aside, paddled a bottle of rum in front of him, put two glasses and began to pour the wine, then picked up the glass in front of her, made a toasting gesture, took a sip of wine and listened to the song quietly.

Although Luo Qiming was inexplicable, he was aroused enough curiosity by this girl's attitude, and he began to observe this girl by himself. The light was so dim that he couldn't see the girl's hair color, so he calmed down and asked her, "What do you mean by that?"

"Drink, please. The girl said four words, and Luo Qiming waited for a long time without any follow-up, so he had to ask again: "Why did you invite me to drink?

The girl made a shush gesture, and it was the most popular female singer on the stage, who was singing the famous song of Stefanie Sun, which I missed. She listened very attentively, but Luo Qiming was embarrassed, as if it was herself who was disturbing others.

After singing the song, the girl thought about it for a while, and said to Luo Qiming: "I want to listen to the song here, this is spacious, so please drink." Luo Qiming was a little crying and laughing, this girl was too domineering, he asked, "Who are you?"

Who knew that the girl asked rhetorically: "Then do you know who you are?"

Luo Qiming suddenly had a splitting headache, and the girl's words became an echo that constantly hit his mind. Before the wine began to rise, he was already top-heavy, and a whirling feeling hit him, and Luo Qiming didn't know anything.

When Luo Qiming opened his eyes, the alarm clock next to the pillow had pointed to nine o'clock in the morning, he was still a little dizzy, took out a small medicine bottle from the bedside table, and swallowed two pills. This scene was like a dream, and he didn't know if it was a dream of his own, or if it was a story that really happened to him.