Under Nicholas's lengthy narration, Il finally learns the story that has been hidden for years, and he really doesn't know how to blame his 'father', a tragedy caused by love that no one wants to see, but it does happen to him.

Words alone can no longer describe the despair of Nicholas after giving up on recovering Mycella, no amount of blood can fill the happiness he originally had, leaving him in a short period of time, and the vampire's body can no longer shed even a single tear, he lies alone in the rocking chair quietly waiting for death to come, and he doesn't even care about his body's desire for fresh blood.

When the taxes of that year were sent to Nicholas's castle by the heads of the cities, they were frightened by the empty castle in front of them. The debriefers walked into the empty castle and found Nicholas in a room with curtains closed on his chair and a thick layer of dust with his eyes closed.

Nicholas was already very tired, he was lying motionless on the chaise longue with his eyes closed, like a dead corpse, you must know that vampires do not rely on nerves and muscles to control their bodies like humans, they rely on blood magic to control the blood of the whole body, including actions and speech, which is very consuming of mental power and requires very fine control of magic.

The rich expression on Nicholas's face is enough to show that Nicholas has a strong spiritual power, as long as he doesn't say it, others can't see the difference between him and humans at all.

"Father...... Can I look at the notebook with the experiments in it?"

Nicholas shook his head, he just wanted to fulfill that woman's wish back then, but that woman was no longer there, and he absolutely couldn't let his son repeat the same mistakes now.

"Don't try to study those things anymore, they shouldn't exist in the world, and I'm definitely not going to agree with you touching them. ”

Il had no idea of becoming a vampire, but he was curious about the research, and Nicholas knew that his wound was festering from a microbial infection, and that the notebook must have contained a lot of advanced biotechnology.

"Will humans really change a lot after they become vampires?"

Il asked strangely, listening to Nicholas's tone, he must have known about these sequelae after becoming a vampire, and these sequelae must have turned his life upside down, the truth of the world is like this, you must give something when you get something.

"To put it simply, all the happiness I have as a human being is now gone, and the only thing that can give me a little solace in my empty heart now is when fresh blood fills my body. ”

Nicholas laughed self-deprecatingly, his face was forever stuck at the moment of his success, and his heart was no match for the infection of time, after spending one long night after another, he thought that even if he really gained eternal life, it would only begin eternal torture.

"What happiness can human beings get? What do you mean ......?"

"Because a vampire's body is not much different from a dead body, any human food tastes rancid in my mouth, so I can't eat like a normal person, and I've forgotten what milk and dessert chefs taste like...... Hehe, after becoming a vampire, I couldn't even get the pleasure of sex. ”

"Vampires can't live in the sun, sunlight can cause great damage to my body, and the rumors are true, vampires are beings who are disgusted and spit on by God, and they will not be able to receive the gift of God to get the warmth of the sun. ”

"And I feel tired all the time, I guess my brain is overused and at the limit, and I'm not sure how long I'll live, because I can't see any changes in myself from the outside. ”

Nicholas held his tired head, he felt that all this had been long enough, living alone in a gloomy castle, when he didn't use blood magic, he was like a real corpse, and he had to control the blood to tighten his eyelids when he opened his eyes, and he had lived like this for twenty years.

"Father, I have one last question for you, about Clauber and the villagers...... Did you really do it?"

This last question was left for Il, after all, this was the meaning of what he had been searching for for so long, even if Clauber was not genuinely good to him, but they had allowed Il to live a life with a complete family for a few years.

But at this moment, even if he knew the truth of all this, he couldn't do anything for the Crowburs, and knowing the truth could only fulfill his wish to follow it for so long.

Nicholas looked at Il lightly, although he looked so tired in front of his son, but he would never show a little decline in the face of outsiders, and would only show his most perfect side.

"How dare the Crowberts do that to you, and let them die so simply because they adopted you. ”

Nicholas remembered the disgusting pair of 'nobles', the kind of people of family and blood who dared to take the initiative to sever the father-son relationship with Il, or when the Church was judging Il.

Hehe, I just gave them a beautiful vision, and they volunteered to become vampires.

Of course, Nicholas only taught them how to use blood magic, and helped them complete the corpse so that the body cells would die and not age, but did not teach them how to deal with the body afterwards.

When Crowb's body began to stink, there was a swarm of flies around them all the time, when their skin began to grow purple corpse spots and decay little by little, when they slowly lost their sense of smell and taste, and could not eat like humans...... It was they themselves who knelt on the ground and begged Nicholas to kill themselves.

"Why? They raised me, and even if they wanted to use me, I wouldn't be guilty of death! at least they brought me better living conditions and ......," Il shouted excitedly at Nicholas, only to be interrupted by Nicholas' angry words.

"They just deserve to die! Since they raised you, no matter what you do, they shouldn't abandon you! They are just using you, and they will shamelessly abandon you when they have no use value! And they dare to adopt another son? And dare to say behind your back that you are a low-blooded wild bastard, and their death is already my greatest mercy!"

Nicholas angrily slapped the table, and every corner of the table was shattered, and sawdust fell to the ground.

Like a deflated balloon, Ill could no longer defend the Crowberts loudly, knowing that Nicholas was telling the truth, but he still couldn't accept it in his heart.

"Where did that adopted son go, and why did you suck their blood out of his parents?"

Il didn't understand why the couple had died at the hands of Nicholas, and even if the Clauberts had killed them to vent their anger, the couple had no contact with him.

“...... I didn't kill those two people, it was the kid who sucked his parents' blood out of it, and I originally wanted to take him home, but I didn't expect him to hide so much hatred for his parents' abandonment in his heart. ”

"He committed suicide in the sun after taking revenge on the couple. ”