Chapter 12: Memories of This Life 4

I have never wanted to go back to China in the 21st century as much as I did at that moment.

Pushing open the door of the courtyard, the family threw away our belongings, and walked away in the high dust.

I stared at the unimaginably dilapidated house, no, it shouldn't be called a house, it was just a thatched house, the kind of house that could tear off the roof just by a little stronger wind

Cui Shi was the same, looking at the house in disbelief, her shoulders trembled slightly, and it seemed that she was trying her best to endure it, and instead, she sighed softly, turned her head and said to me, just wait for your father to come back.

She pinned all her hopes on Bai Danfeng, which reminded me of Zou Qiang, yes, just like me at the beginning.

Almost trembling, she pushed open the door where the window paper was all torn, and I took a deep breath, and was mentally prepared enough, the outside of the house is like this, how much better will it be inside? Sure enough, a table stained with ashes, and in the corner of the wall a so-called □□ thing made of dirt, the most valuable thing is the dressing cabinet next to the bed that can be seen slightly

Cui Shi smiled awkwardly and said a lot of things to me, a lot of words, I have never heard her say so many things, tell me how she was separated from her family, how she endured hardship, and then how she was sold to a brothel, and how she met Bai Danfeng, but the only thing she didn't tell me was her life experience.

I stood still, my mind was unprecedented, watching her move our home to this place called home with great difficulty, which reminded me of the first day of college, the driver drove me to the school gate in a Lincoln, and the luggage was carried by the maid, and the irrepressible grievances and sadness swept me wave after wave

Cui's is in this house as small as a pit, constantly busy, occasionally wiping the sweat from the corners of his forehead, and his mouth is still talking to me, yes, I am no longer the rich girl who stretches out her hands for clothes and opens her mouth for food, I am just a poor concubine girl who has crossed over to Baifu

I gritted my teeth, my heart was crossed, and I squatted down to clean up with Cui's

Cui still likes her bronze mirror that can't see her face clearly, just like a baby in her heart, hugging her lap and wiping it carefully, yes, she spends the most time in front of this mirror.

Tong'er, come. She placed the bronze mirror on the dresser and beckoned to me.

I put down what I was holding and walked over obediently, in the huge oval mirror, I was printed with a blurred appearance of her and me, this was also the first time I saw my appearance after crossing, thin eyebrows, small nose, ruddy and thin lips, I almost suspected that it was not me in the mirror, this was simply a miniature version of Cui's Just under the corner of my right eye, there is a dark and embarrassing birthmark

I pulled my hair back and pulled my face up to see better.

It's a symbol, Tong'er, and you'll understand later. Cui Shi put her hand on the corner of my eye and stroked it carefully, her expression was not like looking at me, as if she was looking at something in the birthmark

In the future? Do I have a future here? I am always thinking about how to get back to the present, how to clean up the dog man and woman. That night, the moon was very round, the moonlight was so bright, I don't remember when I was lying on the hard bed that I thought I was sleeping on the stone

I only remember that it was a noisy sound that woke me up, I rubbed my eyes and opened the door hazy, Cui Shi stood at the door of the courtyard and didn't know who was arguing with the door, the first time I saw her so angry, Chaos's head suddenly sobered up a lot, I walked to Cui Shi's side, pulled her cuffs, looked down, I finally understood

A bowl of rice soaked in water, two cold and hard steamed buns, and a bowl of pickles.